~i miss my...~

best friends...esp Serene Tang and CK...
really miss them alot...haven seen them for quite some time...
was supposed to meet serene but it was either not arranged or both of us not free...sigh...wonder when will i see her...hmmm...hopefully soon...juz soo happy that i can always talk to her in spiritual terms...and that we can give spritual advice to each other...love her lots! always my best fren...always...we've been like frens for 12yrs...but i'v been treating her as my best fren for the past 9 to 10yrs...always in my heart...
i miss ck alot too...but...i duno...juz feel that things are totally different now...and i already expected it...onli a matter of time...n yah...now it's diff already...we somehow like totally nv really contact...i really do wana contact him...talk to him...n resume to wat it was like b4...but i guess it might not ba...many times i wana chat w him online (msn) or sms him or wat...but i didnt...there's a reason to why i didnt...even if we do chat...it's juz only a few sentences...n it stops there...i feel super hurt when it all becomes like this...i really treasure this frenship of 9yrs alot...but...it's juz so diff now...remember i called him on the day when i passed my driving...the reaction or shld i say reply was not wat i expected...was totally disappointed...plus he was like not v interested to talk to me at that moment...nearly cried...sigh...i'm really sad...but i really miss him alot...really wana see him soon...but...but i duno if it will be awkward if i were to meet him...n i guess i canot be so close to him anymore...canot hold on to him while walking...canot rest on his shoulders while resting...SIGH...i'm juz v sad...i really wana be the one to listens to his problems...and helps him by giving gd suggestions...i wana be the one he can turn to n trust...but i guess he didnt regard me as that...that's also y now i didnt look for him when i'm sad n troubled...more often i will juz keep them to myself or talk to God...
feel really blessed as i can always turn to God when i am down...He will never fail me and never forsake me... :)
anyway...though i'm so sad...but nevertheless...i will still love him as much...and will never forget him...will always treat him as my best fren...really...alwayszz...miss him lots...

k i gotta sleep...not feeling well...but cos feel kinda troubled..n really miss these 2 frens of mine...so juz post this...
take gd care...
God Bless~