Thursday, September 14, 2006

~am i fat last time???~

*yawnz*...juz reached home abt 30mins ago (11.08pm) i guess...would have been later if i took the train and bus...but thanks to Ben, he sent me home...cos he was nearby SSDC...was learning driving just now till 1030pm lor...hmmm...yah...driving is fun...but tiring...but i'm pissed lah...cos duno the instructors purposely wana earn my money or wat, only let me pass 1 subject each lesson...slow lor...or am i lousy?hahahaha...sigh...nvm...cos i'm still new to driving lah...so boh bian...guess have to spend more lor...sigh...hmmm...
Anyway, b4 i went driving i had a quick revision for exam(soon!) in the library...sian man...guess wat?i forgot wat i've studied liao lah...sianzzz...i got short term memory lor...cannot remember alot of things lor...and i selectively remember...and since i dun really like to study...that goes the same for not remembering wat i've studied... -___-''' haaz...hmmm...
oh yah...going back to the topic on my title, juz wana ask u people who have seen me mayb at least a yr ago and now...am i really fat or more meaty back then? cos these past few months cos of stress n my gastric, i usually vomit watever i eat...which then causes me to lose alot of weight along the way...where now i'm about 47kg...whereby taking Jan 06 my weight was about 52 or 53kg...which means a drop by about 5kg...but the thing is i cant see much difference in my size...i still see tummy!haaa...and the past 2 months or so i've been hearing alot of people (school, workplace and others) say that i look alot 'slimmer' or 'skinnier' now compared to say the beginning of the yr...which i'm really quite puzzled...cos all along since mayb the beginning of the yr i thought i wasnt really fat...plus now i feel i look kinda the same...but after hearing them say i look skinnier now, means i'm really fat previously lah...sad lor...cos all along i thought i wasnt...hahaha...only heavier in weight...haa...i duno lah...i juz cannot get over people keep saying " ni shou le hen duo" in mandarin lah...and the 1st thought that comes to my mind is " means i'm very fat last time lah?"...i suddenly brought this issue up is cos juz now after work on my way to library i saw a colleague of mine whom i seldom see esp after i shifted up to 25th floor...den she suddenly exclaimed "wah u slim down alot ar? wat u eat ar?"...i was like...erm...cos i got gastric problem so mayb dats the cause lor...haaz...hmmm...but the thing was that wat i wore 2dae doesnt make mi look thinner leh...in fact it makes mi look abit more fat...but...hmmm...duno lah...but guess i'm sensitive in such matters about weight ba...will keep thinkin dat ppl think i'm fat as they think i'm skinnier now...haaaz...
k lah will stop here...sigh...still coughing lah...sian leh...but i have myself to blame...i still eat chocolate!!!haaaz...k lah...nitez...byeeeee

take care n God Bless~

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