~back to fill my blog~

hi all...paiseh hadnt been updating my blog for nearly 2 weeks...anyway...not many ppl read cos not many ppl noe of my changed blog add...so it's ok lah...hmmm...been bz over the past 2 weeks though...but recently was the Chinese New Year...not a bad 1 this yr though...cos relatives from Beijing and Hong Kong are back...missed the kids alot~...glad to see them...but sad that they went back liao...hmmm...aiya lazy to blog abt the past 2 weeks...will juz sae wat happened these 2 days ba...
juz came home abt an hr ago...today is a bz day...early in the morning i prepared myself for church class and church service...went down to futsing...den found out i was at the wrong place...supposed to be at clan association...sigh...nearly gave up going church for today cos it's juz so troublesome...but in the end was persuaded to go...den i went over to aljunied to wait for church bus...the bus didnt come too...some miscomm...we took cabby down...i even missed class...arghh...sigh...den the next 2 wks i gona miss class too cos got sch weekend class...duno if i shld skip morning class n attend church class...hmmm...see how ba...hmmm...after service i went lunch w winnie n family...didnt join the 'other' youths...they seem bz amongst themselves(sigh)...so i left with winnie...after lunch i went home...den awhile later went out w my family to meet up my other relatives for dinner...ate quite alot...even saw Priscillia Chen(Zheng Shi Mei) and her bf (duno wat name)...and one of their fsmily...after dinner went over to my dad's fren house...den home...hmmm...tired...oh yah...Happy Birthday Jin Lun and Jiin Rong~~~
yesterday was also a bz day for me too...but kinda sad abt in the evening and even juz now when i found out smthg...anyway...i woke up super early on sat...cos i changed tuition time to 9am instead of 930am cos i gotta go off early...i took cab down to Masonic Club @Coleman Street...my classmate's ROM...didnt get to see the solemnization cos i was late...so only went for the lunch...thereafter went to do some catch up with ex classmates n classmate(from my uni)...den headed down to Edge after i got something for Jinlun...actually been thinking of wat to get for him for v long...but still duno...so in the end bought Timberland's voucher for him...hope he uses it...went to The Edge...sermon was good...somehow of a breakthrough...but sad...sad cos i wasnt ministered to(or prayed for) during alter call...still feel kinda lost though...left quickly after alter call...anway...to talk abt wat i'm sad abt...is dat yah...again...but guess i'll have to accept the fact...that i'm really not remembered or mayb not regarded as their frens at all liao...i duno lah...mayb its juz the sensitive me again...but yah...i wasnt asked to attend Jinlun's birthday celebration...actually i duno if it's a party or wat...but i somehow noe they are gona celebrate for him after service...i noe i did tell serena during service i gona leave early cos i've got smthg on...but that doesnt mean she canot let me noe...plus i juz found out some1 was even invited to join them but he canot attend...means that it canot be that last evening they actually wana ask mi along but cos noe i've got smthg on...so didnt...but is that they have planned it earlier...but juz didnt include me...my heart is totally shattered...totally...wondering if i shld giv up this frenship...sigh...or guess its juz really gona be a 'hi-bye' frenship liao...a frenship which i really hope to treasure and love... now...juz shattered into pieces...i'm really very sad...i mean yah...yday's sermon was very good...abt us carrying many baggage w us...'Offence', Injustice','Bitterness','Revenge' and one more...afew bags really describes me...and i thought i was set free after going for alter call(though wasnt prayed for though i really needed 1...not noticed again...but nvm...)...but...after i found out that the sum1 was even invited...but i was not even told at all...i was juz so sad...n all those feeling i felt b4 abt them came back...injustice...bitterness...and so on...guess i wasnt really set free at all...sigh...i really duno wat to do...really need God...need God to guide me thru this time...hmmm...but in anyway...i'm really sad...sigh...guess dat 1 incident really caused a huge damage to the frenship...always been wanting to blame that sum1 that if he didnt go tell them i'm sad...or watsoever(i duno wat happened)...all these wldnt have happened...but...yah...shldnt blame him...sigh...anyway...yah...after i left Edge...i took cab to Magdeline's house to Bai Nian...Tracy n Daniel went too...not bad...we chatted quite alot...ate alot...see pics...thereafter i went home...tiring day too...heez...

k lah will stop here...anyway...kinda nervous...cos my TP on Friday morning...really pray hard i will pass this one time...haaz...and yah...i got test on wed...arghh...i duno wat is APB abt man...oh no...essay somemore...sian...
nitez all...

God Bless~