DADDY'S EMPTY CHAIR
A man's daughter had asked the local minister to come and pray with her father.
When the minister arrived, he found the man lying in bed with his head propped up on two pillows.
An empty chair sat beside his bed.
The minister assumed that the old fellow had been informed of his visit. "I guess you were expecting me, he said. 'No, who are you?" said the father. The minister told him his name and then remarked, "I saw the empty chair and I figured you knew I was going to show up." "Oh yeah, the chair," said the bedridden man.
"Would you mind closing the door?"
Puzzled, the minister shut the door.
"I have never told anyone this, not even my daughter," said the man.
"But all of my life I have never known how to pray. At church I used to hear the pastor talk about prayer, but it went right over my head."
" I abandoned any attempt at prayer," the old man continued, " until one day four years ago, my best friend said to me,
"Johnny, prayer is just a simple matter of having a conversation with Jesus. Here is what I suggest."
"Sit down in a chair; place an empty chair in front of you, and in faith see Jesus on the chair. It's not spooky because he promised, 'I will be with you always'.
"Then just speak to him in the same way you're doing with me right now." "So, I tried it and I've liked it so much that I do it a couple of hours every day. I'm careful though . If my daughter saw me talking to an empty chair, she'd either have a nervous breakdown or send me off to the funny farm." The minister was deeply moved by the story and encouraged the old man to continue on the journey.
Then he prayed with him, anointed him with oil, and returned to the church.
Two nights later the daughter called to tell the minister that her daddy had died that afternoon.
"Did he die in peace?" he asked.
"Yes, when I left the house about two o'clock , he called me over to his bedside, told me he loved me and kissed me on the cheek. When I got back from the store an hour later, I found him . But there was something strange about his death. Apparently, just before Daddy died, he leaned over and rested his head on the chair beside the bed. What do you make of that?"
The minister wiped a tear from his eye and said, "I wish we could all go like that."
Prayer is one of the best free gifts we receive.
*I asked God for water, He gave me an ocean.
* I asked God for a flower, He gave me a garden.
* I asked God for a friend, He gave me all of YOU... If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God.
Friday, April 27, 2007
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Friday, April 20, 2007
Emergency Numbers
Emergency
Telephone Numbers
These are more effective than 911. Call when . . .
You are sad, phone............................................................................... John 14
You have sinned, phone...................................................................... Psalm 51
You are facing danger, phone............................................................. Psalm 91
People have failed you, phone............................................................ Psalm 27
It feels as though God is far from you, phone................................. Psalm 139
Your faith needs stimulation, phone................................................. Hebrews 11
You are alone and scared, phone........................................................ Psalm 23
You are worried, phone.......................................................... Matthew 8:19–34
You are hurt and critical, phone................................................ 1 Corinthians 13
You wonder about Christianity, phone ....................... 2 Corinthians 5:15-18
You feel like an outcast, phone.............................................. Romans 8:31-39
You are seeking peace, phone............................................. Matthew 11:25-30
It feels as if the world is bigger than God, phone............................ Psalm 90
You need Christ like insurance, phone.................................. Romans 8:1-30
You are leaving home for a trip, phone.......................................... Psalm 121
You are praying for yourself, phone................................................. Psalm 87
You require courage for a task, phone.......................................... Joshua 1
Inflation’s and investments are hogging your thoughts, phone........ Mark 10:17-31
You are depressive, phone......................................................... Psalm 27
Your bank account is empty, phone................................................ Psalm 37
You lose faith in mankind, phone............................................ Corinthians 13
It looks like people are unfriendly, phone.......................................... John 15
You are losing hope, phone............................................................... Psalm 126
You feel the world is small compared to you, phone........................ Psalm 19
You want to carry fruit, phone....................................................... John 15
Paul’s secret for happiness, phone.................................. Colossians 3:12-17
With big opportunity/discovery, phone.......................................... Isaiah 55
To get along with other people, phone.......................................... Romans 12
ALTERNATE NUMBERS
For dealing with fear, call.................................................... Psalm 3:47
For security, call.................................................................... Psalm 121:3
For assurance, call........................................................................ Mark 8:35
For reassurance, call....................................................... Psalm 145:18
All of these numbers may be phoned directly
No Operator assistance is necessary
All lines to Heaven are available 24 hours a day
FEED YOUR FAITH AND DOUBT WILL STARVE TO DEATH
Telephone Numbers
These are more effective than 911. Call when . . .
You are sad, phone............................................................................... John 14
You have sinned, phone...................................................................... Psalm 51
You are facing danger, phone............................................................. Psalm 91
People have failed you, phone............................................................ Psalm 27
It feels as though God is far from you, phone................................. Psalm 139
Your faith needs stimulation, phone................................................. Hebrews 11
You are alone and scared, phone........................................................ Psalm 23
You are worried, phone.......................................................... Matthew 8:19–34
You are hurt and critical, phone................................................ 1 Corinthians 13
You wonder about Christianity, phone ....................... 2 Corinthians 5:15-18
You feel like an outcast, phone.............................................. Romans 8:31-39
You are seeking peace, phone............................................. Matthew 11:25-30
It feels as if the world is bigger than God, phone............................ Psalm 90
You need Christ like insurance, phone.................................. Romans 8:1-30
You are leaving home for a trip, phone.......................................... Psalm 121
You are praying for yourself, phone................................................. Psalm 87
You require courage for a task, phone.......................................... Joshua 1
Inflation’s and investments are hogging your thoughts, phone........ Mark 10:17-31
You are depressive, phone......................................................... Psalm 27
Your bank account is empty, phone................................................ Psalm 37
You lose faith in mankind, phone............................................ Corinthians 13
It looks like people are unfriendly, phone.......................................... John 15
You are losing hope, phone............................................................... Psalm 126
You feel the world is small compared to you, phone........................ Psalm 19
You want to carry fruit, phone....................................................... John 15
Paul’s secret for happiness, phone.................................. Colossians 3:12-17
With big opportunity/discovery, phone.......................................... Isaiah 55
To get along with other people, phone.......................................... Romans 12
ALTERNATE NUMBERS
For dealing with fear, call.................................................... Psalm 3:47
For security, call.................................................................... Psalm 121:3
For assurance, call........................................................................ Mark 8:35
For reassurance, call....................................................... Psalm 145:18
All of these numbers may be phoned directly
No Operator assistance is necessary
All lines to Heaven are available 24 hours a day
FEED YOUR FAITH AND DOUBT WILL STARVE TO DEATH
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Grandma in the Courtroom....
Joke of the day!!!!!
Lawyers should never ask a Mississippi grandma a question if they aren't prepared for the answer.
In a trial, a Southern small-town prosecuting attorney called his first witness, a grandmotherly, elderly woman to the stand. He approached her and asked, "Mrs. Jones, do you know me?"
She responded, "Why, yes, I do know you, Mr. Williams. I've known you since you were a young boy, and frankly, you've been a big disappointment to me. You lie, you cheat on your wife, and you manipulate people and talk about them behind their backs. You think you're a big shot when you haven't the brains to realize you never will amount to anything more than a two-bit paper pusher. Yes, I know you."
The lawyer was stunned! Not knowing what else to do, he pointed across the room and asked, "Mrs. Jones, do you know the defense attorney?" She again replied, "Why, yes, I do. I've known Mr. Bradley since he was a youngster, too. He's lazy, bigoted, and he has a drinking problem. He can't build a normal relationship with anyone and his law practice is one of the worst in the entire state. Not to mention he cheated on his wife with three different women. One of them was your wife. Yes, I know him."
The defense attorney turned white. The judge asked both counselors to approach the bench and, in a very quiet voice, said,
"If either of you idiots asks her if she knows me, I'll send you both to the electric chair.
Lawyers should never ask a Mississippi grandma a question if they aren't prepared for the answer.
In a trial, a Southern small-town prosecuting attorney called his first witness, a grandmotherly, elderly woman to the stand. He approached her and asked, "Mrs. Jones, do you know me?"
She responded, "Why, yes, I do know you, Mr. Williams. I've known you since you were a young boy, and frankly, you've been a big disappointment to me. You lie, you cheat on your wife, and you manipulate people and talk about them behind their backs. You think you're a big shot when you haven't the brains to realize you never will amount to anything more than a two-bit paper pusher. Yes, I know you."
The lawyer was stunned! Not knowing what else to do, he pointed across the room and asked, "Mrs. Jones, do you know the defense attorney?" She again replied, "Why, yes, I do. I've known Mr. Bradley since he was a youngster, too. He's lazy, bigoted, and he has a drinking problem. He can't build a normal relationship with anyone and his law practice is one of the worst in the entire state. Not to mention he cheated on his wife with three different women. One of them was your wife. Yes, I know him."
The defense attorney turned white. The judge asked both counselors to approach the bench and, in a very quiet voice, said,
"If either of you idiots asks her if she knows me, I'll send you both to the electric chair.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
~my results r out~
yup...results out...been very worried abt them...everyday will go online and check if results are out...so today, when i reached office, as usual, i logged in to my sch's website to check if results are out...i was quite shocked to see that the results page is updated!hahaa...i was like "huh?results out?"...hahaha...den i stared at the screen...blankly though....awhile later...den i managed to look closely and analyse that my results are out...hahaha...i've got a Credit for my MPP and Pass for my APB...really Thank God for my APB that i can get a pass...cos i failed my assignment...really thank God...as for MPP...i thought i could do better...but...nvm...credit better than nothing...hahaha...
yup...i've cleared those 2 modules...now got 2 more to go...praying hard that i can clear those 2 in June too...den i will be a graduate liao!!!long awaited cert lor...hahaa...
anyway...been lazy and dun feel like updating my blog recently...so yah...
k bz now...byee...take care all~
God Bless~
yup...i've cleared those 2 modules...now got 2 more to go...praying hard that i can clear those 2 in June too...den i will be a graduate liao!!!long awaited cert lor...hahaa...
anyway...been lazy and dun feel like updating my blog recently...so yah...
k bz now...byee...take care all~
God Bless~
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
An Appraisal Letter - good one!
Something interesting & creative !!!!!!
AN APPRAISAL LETTER
Dear Manager (HR),
Bob Smith, my assistant programmer, can always be found
hard at work in his cubicle. Bob works independently,without
wasting company time talking to colleagues. Bob never
thinks twice about assisting fellow employees, and he always
finishes given assignments on time. Often Bob takes extended
measures to complete his work, sometimes skipping coffee
breaks. Bob is a dedicated individual who has absolutely no
vanity in spite of his high accomplishments and profound
knowledge in his field. I firmly believe that Bob can be
classed as a high-calibre employee, the type which cannot be
dispensed with. Consequently, I duly recommend that Bob be
promoted to executive management, and a proposal will be
sent away as soon as possible.
Signed - Project Leader
A MEMO WAS SOON SENT FOLLOWING THE LETTER:
Dear Manager (HR),
That stupid idiot was reading over my shoulder when I wrote
the report sent to you earlier today. Kindly read only the
odd lines 1,3,5,7,9,11,13 for my true assessment of him.
Signed - Project Leader
AN APPRAISAL LETTER
Dear Manager (HR),
Bob Smith, my assistant programmer, can always be found
hard at work in his cubicle. Bob works independently,without
wasting company time talking to colleagues. Bob never
thinks twice about assisting fellow employees, and he always
finishes given assignments on time. Often Bob takes extended
measures to complete his work, sometimes skipping coffee
breaks. Bob is a dedicated individual who has absolutely no
vanity in spite of his high accomplishments and profound
knowledge in his field. I firmly believe that Bob can be
classed as a high-calibre employee, the type which cannot be
dispensed with. Consequently, I duly recommend that Bob be
promoted to executive management, and a proposal will be
sent away as soon as possible.
Signed - Project Leader
A MEMO WAS SOON SENT FOLLOWING THE LETTER:
Dear Manager (HR),
That stupid idiot was reading over my shoulder when I wrote
the report sent to you earlier today. Kindly read only the
odd lines 1,3,5,7,9,11,13 for my true assessment of him.
Signed - Project Leader
Saturday, March 31, 2007
~AArrrgggghhhh!!!~
i'm juz so sad!!!! again...sigh...all abt this stupid idiot 'ROOM'...sigh...
guess wat? it FLOODS in here!!!...though only small puddles here n there...but it juz sucks lah...n nobody cares...told my dad there's water...he even saw mi walking n n out getting cloths to clean my 'ROOM'...but he didnt even care at all!sigh...nobody cares...it's not that i wana stay in this stupid 'ROOM'...i juz hate it!!!n now some of my stuffs are wet...lot of my stuffs are on the floor in the stupid crammed up 'ROOM'...they are all in either paper bags or plastic bags...some plastic bags got holes...dats y some of my stuff got wet...most of the plastic bags are on top of the puddles of water lor...i'm juz so sad lah...i really duno wat to sae or explain how i feel...i actually tried my best to accept this fact...but when i came home juz now...i cant take it anymore...another round of crying again...this yr i really cried aot...sigh...not only that...wat makes me even demoralised is when i see my old room being soo nice...the parquet was re-coated with i duno wats dat called...n there's a huge bed...with nice new curtains...BUT...they are for my bro...i see liao i really v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v sad...really...but wat can i do? i can only see...feel sad...n cry...keep all within me...if i sae it out how i feel...i will CONFIRM get scolded or smthg like dat by my dad...so i rather keep damn quiet...and be sad myself...another thing dat i'm sad abt is dat now whenever i wana use toilet or bathe...i will have to walk all the way up to use...not only dat...when my new cupboard for clothes come, i will have to walk all the way to near the door entrance study(now maid) room to take my clothes...all these are damn demoralising...but once again...wat can i do?sigh...n now since my stuff are in plastic bags...i have to find v long for my stuff...for example clothes and others...cos i duno where my maid puts them...and i think i lost my IC and my external hard drive...duno where they are...arghhh...i am juz really sad...duno wat to sae...now i can only cry in my room...tmr i will have to out on a smile on my face...sigh...oh yah...one more thing...actually my mum sae will buy new shelves n drawers for me...i can go choose...guess wat?in the end i gotta use my bros old shelves n drawers which used to be in the study room...i mean i mum did called me to ask abt whether i wana use the old shelves...but she did knw dat i wanted new ones...but she called and juz sae 'hey the old shelves u wana use?they r still new and cost v expensive last....'
before she continue...i juz said 'okok'...y?cos she emphasized on them being new n expensive...means i got no other choice but to sae ok...cos if i say i want new ones...she will start to reason out...sigh...my bro gets to get new shelves n drawers for his new ROOM...but i get the old ones...sigh...sad...first is stay in blacony(kicked out of my room)...then i take my bro's old bed,then flood( n nobody cares)...den old stuffs....sigh...wat more can i sae?sigh...
will stop here...sad...
take care n God Bless~
*anyway, 'this person', i noe that all the while u have been reading my blog...n i guess u go search for it...den found the changed blog add...cos i didnt tell lots of ppl this new since i changed it...that small part i put the other time was on purpose...to confirm if u really noe my blog add...n yup, i'm right...so when r u gona admit that u noe my new blog add n secretly reading it w/o telling me u noe...and still askin me soo many qns when u can noe it from the blog?do u noe such actions of yours doesnt help u at all?*
guess wat? it FLOODS in here!!!...though only small puddles here n there...but it juz sucks lah...n nobody cares...told my dad there's water...he even saw mi walking n n out getting cloths to clean my 'ROOM'...but he didnt even care at all!sigh...nobody cares...it's not that i wana stay in this stupid 'ROOM'...i juz hate it!!!n now some of my stuffs are wet...lot of my stuffs are on the floor in the stupid crammed up 'ROOM'...they are all in either paper bags or plastic bags...some plastic bags got holes...dats y some of my stuff got wet...most of the plastic bags are on top of the puddles of water lor...i'm juz so sad lah...i really duno wat to sae or explain how i feel...i actually tried my best to accept this fact...but when i came home juz now...i cant take it anymore...another round of crying again...this yr i really cried aot...sigh...not only that...wat makes me even demoralised is when i see my old room being soo nice...the parquet was re-coated with i duno wats dat called...n there's a huge bed...with nice new curtains...BUT...they are for my bro...i see liao i really v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v sad...really...but wat can i do? i can only see...feel sad...n cry...keep all within me...if i sae it out how i feel...i will CONFIRM get scolded or smthg like dat by my dad...so i rather keep damn quiet...and be sad myself...another thing dat i'm sad abt is dat now whenever i wana use toilet or bathe...i will have to walk all the way up to use...not only dat...when my new cupboard for clothes come, i will have to walk all the way to near the door entrance study(now maid) room to take my clothes...all these are damn demoralising...but once again...wat can i do?sigh...n now since my stuff are in plastic bags...i have to find v long for my stuff...for example clothes and others...cos i duno where my maid puts them...and i think i lost my IC and my external hard drive...duno where they are...arghhh...i am juz really sad...duno wat to sae...now i can only cry in my room...tmr i will have to out on a smile on my face...sigh...oh yah...one more thing...actually my mum sae will buy new shelves n drawers for me...i can go choose...guess wat?in the end i gotta use my bros old shelves n drawers which used to be in the study room...i mean i mum did called me to ask abt whether i wana use the old shelves...but she did knw dat i wanted new ones...but she called and juz sae 'hey the old shelves u wana use?they r still new and cost v expensive last....'
before she continue...i juz said 'okok'...y?cos she emphasized on them being new n expensive...means i got no other choice but to sae ok...cos if i say i want new ones...she will start to reason out...sigh...my bro gets to get new shelves n drawers for his new ROOM...but i get the old ones...sigh...sad...first is stay in blacony(kicked out of my room)...then i take my bro's old bed,then flood( n nobody cares)...den old stuffs....sigh...wat more can i sae?sigh...
will stop here...sad...
take care n God Bless~
*anyway, 'this person', i noe that all the while u have been reading my blog...n i guess u go search for it...den found the changed blog add...cos i didnt tell lots of ppl this new since i changed it...that small part i put the other time was on purpose...to confirm if u really noe my blog add...n yup, i'm right...so when r u gona admit that u noe my new blog add n secretly reading it w/o telling me u noe...and still askin me soo many qns when u can noe it from the blog?do u noe such actions of yours doesnt help u at all?*
Friday, March 30, 2007
~i'm so sad~
sigh...no mood...super no mood...when i see my room...the last time i gona see it as mine...cried in my sleep during my last night there...totally demoralised...but there's nothing i can do...sigh...
i have no sae...n i dowana argue...dowan my parents to be angry...and keep using reasons that i'm always not at home to counter me...now...my new room will be at the balcony...room sized halved...clothes cupboard will be at another end of the house...n i feel there's no privacy at all with me moving there...but...that's the decision...i cant do anything...still have to act as if i'm fine with the stupid arrangement...i have nothing to sae...juz gona sae that i'm totally devastated...sad...demoralised...really thank God that i warned them to move my stuff after my exams end...if not i can really say that i will NOT study for my exams as i'm sooo demoralised...
i wana cry out loud...voice my unhappiness...but...i cant...i can onli sob at one corner...without any1 noticing...guess only God noes...sigh...so sad...
i have no sae...n i dowana argue...dowan my parents to be angry...and keep using reasons that i'm always not at home to counter me...now...my new room will be at the balcony...room sized halved...clothes cupboard will be at another end of the house...n i feel there's no privacy at all with me moving there...but...that's the decision...i cant do anything...still have to act as if i'm fine with the stupid arrangement...i have nothing to sae...juz gona sae that i'm totally devastated...sad...demoralised...really thank God that i warned them to move my stuff after my exams end...if not i can really say that i will NOT study for my exams as i'm sooo demoralised...
i wana cry out loud...voice my unhappiness...but...i cant...i can onli sob at one corner...without any1 noticing...guess only God noes...sigh...so sad...
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
~left another hurdle!~
yay~ exams for this term juz over...happy...this is my 2nd last lap...really hope i can clear this...and also my last lap(which will be in June)...den i will be a graduate!!!!haaa...can't wait sia...hmmm...after soo long lor...my life has been so monotonous...work...study...work...study...but am really glad that at least there's one thing that really brighten up my life...is to go church and have God with me...He really bless me alot! esp during my exams...really lor...i can tell u ppl again...i didnt really study for exams...really...but at least i did some minor research that actually helped me abit lah...i did prepare abit of notes...but that doesnt mean i remember wat i've prepared...till like on the day of exam itself (yday n juz now)...i only start to read thru about 3hrs b4 exam start...duno y...i totally nv feel a sense of urgency at all...weird me...usually i will feel it abt at least 3days b4...but this time i did not...n i waste off alot of my time...talk n do nothing...haaa...duno wat's wrong with me...but i really thank God that i really did my best...n i really wrote alot n attempt all questions...the only thing is its relevance...haaa...
anyway my 'study' times are really v interesting for this term...till i didnt really study...one of them is abt me being harrassed by a mad guy in the library...which caused me my time of studying...he's really mad lah...u've got to hear my story if u were to ask me(provided i remember)...duno if he did waited for me outside the library that night cos have got 2 friends who rushed down after their exams to make sure i'm safe...thanks Youyi n Simon...haa...mayb that mad guy was there waiting...but saw me walking out of the library w 2 guys den didnt come near...haaa...sigh...duno y i'm surrounded by mad or perverted ppl...eekz...
anyway...happy exams over...but sian class starts on wed...urrghhh...but nvm...make it quick...so dat i can grad soon...wahahahaha...
sian...tmr gotta go back work(though i was in office today lah...but not for work...shld b for studying...but i wasted my time chit chatting away)...haaa...
k will stop here den...take care ppl
God Bless~~
*btw...i duno y i keep feeling sooooooo irritated or pissed when i see this person's sms and when this person msn me...although this person's intentions are good...but i can't help it but feel pissed n irritated...and it actually affected my mood to study more when i received the sms b4 my exam start...sigh...duno wat's wrong w me sia...SIGH...gotta get rid of this bad attitude of mine...!!!*
anyway my 'study' times are really v interesting for this term...till i didnt really study...one of them is abt me being harrassed by a mad guy in the library...which caused me my time of studying...he's really mad lah...u've got to hear my story if u were to ask me(provided i remember)...duno if he did waited for me outside the library that night cos have got 2 friends who rushed down after their exams to make sure i'm safe...thanks Youyi n Simon...haa...mayb that mad guy was there waiting...but saw me walking out of the library w 2 guys den didnt come near...haaa...sigh...duno y i'm surrounded by mad or perverted ppl...eekz...
anyway...happy exams over...but sian class starts on wed...urrghhh...but nvm...make it quick...so dat i can grad soon...wahahahaha...
sian...tmr gotta go back work(though i was in office today lah...but not for work...shld b for studying...but i wasted my time chit chatting away)...haaa...
k will stop here den...take care ppl
God Bless~~
*btw...i duno y i keep feeling sooooooo irritated or pissed when i see this person's sms and when this person msn me...although this person's intentions are good...but i can't help it but feel pissed n irritated...and it actually affected my mood to study more when i received the sms b4 my exam start...sigh...duno wat's wrong w me sia...SIGH...gotta get rid of this bad attitude of mine...!!!*
Friday, March 16, 2007
~a quote to share...~
Sight is not faith, and hearing is not faith, neither is feeling faith; but believing when we neither see, hear, nor feel is faith; and everywhere in the Bible tells us our salvation is to be by faith. Therefore we must believe before we feel, and often against our feelings, if we would honor God by our faith.
Hannah Whitall Smith
Hannah Whitall Smith
Thursday, March 15, 2007
~i miss my...~
best friends...esp Serene Tang and CK...
really miss them alot...haven seen them for quite some time...
was supposed to meet serene but it was either not arranged or both of us not free...sigh...wonder when will i see her...hmmm...hopefully soon...juz soo happy that i can always talk to her in spiritual terms...and that we can give spritual advice to each other...love her lots! always my best fren...always...we've been like frens for 12yrs...but i'v been treating her as my best fren for the past 9 to 10yrs...always in my heart...
i miss ck alot too...but...i duno...juz feel that things are totally different now...and i already expected it...onli a matter of time...n yah...now it's diff already...we somehow like totally nv really contact...i really do wana contact him...talk to him...n resume to wat it was like b4...but i guess it might not ba...many times i wana chat w him online (msn) or sms him or wat...but i didnt...there's a reason to why i didnt...even if we do chat...it's juz only a few sentences...n it stops there...i feel super hurt when it all becomes like this...i really treasure this frenship of 9yrs alot...but...it's juz so diff now...remember i called him on the day when i passed my driving...the reaction or shld i say reply was not wat i expected...was totally disappointed...plus he was like not v interested to talk to me at that moment...nearly cried...sigh...i'm really sad...but i really miss him alot...really wana see him soon...but...but i duno if it will be awkward if i were to meet him...n i guess i canot be so close to him anymore...canot hold on to him while walking...canot rest on his shoulders while resting...SIGH...i'm juz v sad...i really wana be the one to listens to his problems...and helps him by giving gd suggestions...i wana be the one he can turn to n trust...but i guess he didnt regard me as that...that's also y now i didnt look for him when i'm sad n troubled...more often i will juz keep them to myself or talk to God...
feel really blessed as i can always turn to God when i am down...He will never fail me and never forsake me... :)
anyway...though i'm so sad...but nevertheless...i will still love him as much...and will never forget him...will always treat him as my best fren...really...alwayszz...miss him lots...
k i gotta sleep...not feeling well...but cos feel kinda troubled..n really miss these 2 frens of mine...so juz post this...
take gd care...
God Bless~
really miss them alot...haven seen them for quite some time...
was supposed to meet serene but it was either not arranged or both of us not free...sigh...wonder when will i see her...hmmm...hopefully soon...juz soo happy that i can always talk to her in spiritual terms...and that we can give spritual advice to each other...love her lots! always my best fren...always...we've been like frens for 12yrs...but i'v been treating her as my best fren for the past 9 to 10yrs...always in my heart...
i miss ck alot too...but...i duno...juz feel that things are totally different now...and i already expected it...onli a matter of time...n yah...now it's diff already...we somehow like totally nv really contact...i really do wana contact him...talk to him...n resume to wat it was like b4...but i guess it might not ba...many times i wana chat w him online (msn) or sms him or wat...but i didnt...there's a reason to why i didnt...even if we do chat...it's juz only a few sentences...n it stops there...i feel super hurt when it all becomes like this...i really treasure this frenship of 9yrs alot...but...it's juz so diff now...remember i called him on the day when i passed my driving...the reaction or shld i say reply was not wat i expected...was totally disappointed...plus he was like not v interested to talk to me at that moment...nearly cried...sigh...i'm really sad...but i really miss him alot...really wana see him soon...but...but i duno if it will be awkward if i were to meet him...n i guess i canot be so close to him anymore...canot hold on to him while walking...canot rest on his shoulders while resting...SIGH...i'm juz v sad...i really wana be the one to listens to his problems...and helps him by giving gd suggestions...i wana be the one he can turn to n trust...but i guess he didnt regard me as that...that's also y now i didnt look for him when i'm sad n troubled...more often i will juz keep them to myself or talk to God...
feel really blessed as i can always turn to God when i am down...He will never fail me and never forsake me... :)
anyway...though i'm so sad...but nevertheless...i will still love him as much...and will never forget him...will always treat him as my best fren...really...alwayszz...miss him lots...
k i gotta sleep...not feeling well...but cos feel kinda troubled..n really miss these 2 frens of mine...so juz post this...
take gd care...
God Bless~
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
~congrats to myself~
yah...results are out...n i'm one of the 14 who got promoted...but...instead of being happy...i'm feeling damn confused and sad...sigh...being kinda bothered...y?sigh...also duno how to say...but i'm kinda unhappy abt how much of increment i got...not that alot...and i'm confused cos i duno if i shld move on (quit n go elsewhere) or stay...getting a promotion is good lah...recognition is given...however, i'm juz feeling this shldnt be wat i shld get(pay n position) when i grad (which is soon...)...actually all these while i think i've been underpaid...actually i shldnt say is the company's fault...but mayb myself...cos i went in as an a'lvl grad...that's y i'm graded at that level and given that amt...worked soo hard...yet still not recognised in the 1st 1yr plus...only finally got the recognition in the next yr...which is now...but i'm still far far away from my goal...or even my minimum goal as a going to be graduate...which is the cause of making me confused...shld i slowly work my way up?meaning to continue with this position n pay...n give up the opp cost of getting a more than $2k job...or shld i let go of here and find greener fields?i duno...i really duno...i noe many would say let go and find greener fields...but...i'm juz afraid...afraid that i will be like any other fresh grad who are unable to get a job...shld i hold on to here?BUT...i'm really tired of the management system here...really...n my health deteriorate cos of this job(partly though)...and i feel that i deserve a good and long break from work...meaning i wldnt wana quit here n go to another job immediately after serving 1mth notice...but if i quit first...take my break and find job...i'm afraid i cant find job...how?wat shld i do?
yah...i noe i shld seek God...i WILL seek God...but juz that i wana share how i feel...juz so confused...SIGH...Lord, i need your guidance and i need perserverance...
take care n God Bless~
Quote of the day:
Faith is a strong power, mastering any difficulty in the strength of the Lord who made heaven and earth.
Corrie Ten Boom
yah...i noe i shld seek God...i WILL seek God...but juz that i wana share how i feel...juz so confused...SIGH...Lord, i need your guidance and i need perserverance...
take care n God Bless~
Quote of the day:
Faith is a strong power, mastering any difficulty in the strength of the Lord who made heaven and earth.
Corrie Ten Boom
~back...~
hey all...i'm back...pasieh have not been blogging for the past 10 over days...juz too lazy to blog i guess...haaaz...
anyway now is lunch time and since i'm browsing the internet, might as well blog abit...
hmmm...within the past 1 week plus, nothing much really happened...other than my bdae a day after i passed my driving...nv intend to celebrate it though...early morning went to giv tuition, thereafter attend class...den went for Edge...got cafe duty too...after Edge and duty, i went out with Serena,Joanne,Jocelyn,Leon and Joel...had dinner...then went Esplanade rooftop...they surprised me with a dark choc cake! so touched though i kinda know they getting me a cake or helping me celebrate when they say they are going esplanade...Thanks darlings...love u all lots...appreciate the trouble u all went to celebrate for me...we went Hong Bao River after that...den home...really enjoyed the time...thanks once again...
hmmm...for the past 2 weekends i got weekend classes...boring lor...esp the classes last week...i keep falling asleep...cos i duno wat is APB abt and i dun understand the lecturer...sigh...how???exams coming soon...worried sia...anyway the past week plus had been quite normal to me...and on both sundays i managed to drive the car and the pick up(under supervision)...but only once for both vehicles...sigh...wonder when can i take the vehicle out to drive out myself...hmmm...yawnzzz...
oh yah afew days ago i started watching Hana Kimi...wah...i didnt know it was so addictive...juz finished them last nite...didnt like the ending though...actually this whole drama is draggy...but...juz as many wld think, they like to watch Wu Chun...he's cute lah...really...hey...seldom will i be 'attracted' to celebrities lor...i even surf net to find out abit more info abt him...the only thing i WOULD NOT do is to be sooo crazy over him and spend my money on his stuff ba...afterall he's juz another human being...haaz...but he's not only cute/handsome, he's tall (wow i love his height)...and his build is wow lor...the thing i miss out is his personality...hmmm...yah dat's abt him...
anyway i will stop here...gotta work...and today Card Centre will be releasing the results for promotion...sigh...duno y i keep having the feeling that i will not get it though there MIGHT be a possibility...sigh...i will juz leave it to God ba...anyway if got promoted is only to SGC...still kinda nothing to me lah...hmmm...
k...byeee...take care..
God Bless~
anyway now is lunch time and since i'm browsing the internet, might as well blog abit...
hmmm...within the past 1 week plus, nothing much really happened...other than my bdae a day after i passed my driving...nv intend to celebrate it though...early morning went to giv tuition, thereafter attend class...den went for Edge...got cafe duty too...after Edge and duty, i went out with Serena,Joanne,Jocelyn,Leon and Joel...had dinner...then went Esplanade rooftop...they surprised me with a dark choc cake! so touched though i kinda know they getting me a cake or helping me celebrate when they say they are going esplanade...Thanks darlings...love u all lots...appreciate the trouble u all went to celebrate for me...we went Hong Bao River after that...den home...really enjoyed the time...thanks once again...
hmmm...for the past 2 weekends i got weekend classes...boring lor...esp the classes last week...i keep falling asleep...cos i duno wat is APB abt and i dun understand the lecturer...sigh...how???exams coming soon...worried sia...anyway the past week plus had been quite normal to me...and on both sundays i managed to drive the car and the pick up(under supervision)...but only once for both vehicles...sigh...wonder when can i take the vehicle out to drive out myself...hmmm...yawnzzz...
oh yah afew days ago i started watching Hana Kimi...wah...i didnt know it was so addictive...juz finished them last nite...didnt like the ending though...actually this whole drama is draggy...but...juz as many wld think, they like to watch Wu Chun...he's cute lah...really...hey...seldom will i be 'attracted' to celebrities lor...i even surf net to find out abit more info abt him...the only thing i WOULD NOT do is to be sooo crazy over him and spend my money on his stuff ba...afterall he's juz another human being...haaz...but he's not only cute/handsome, he's tall (wow i love his height)...and his build is wow lor...the thing i miss out is his personality...hmmm...yah dat's abt him...
anyway i will stop here...gotta work...and today Card Centre will be releasing the results for promotion...sigh...duno y i keep having the feeling that i will not get it though there MIGHT be a possibility...sigh...i will juz leave it to God ba...anyway if got promoted is only to SGC...still kinda nothing to me lah...hmmm...
k...byeee...take care..
God Bless~
Friday, March 02, 2007
~yay~
WooHoo~~~
Finally! I'm a Qualified Driver!!! No More learning from instructors!!! soooo happy...
I really really wana Thank God for a few things:
1) Being there for me evey single second (and protecting me,tester n other road users)
2) answering my prayers
3) giving me a good weather (no rain despite the rain everyday!)
4) taking away most of the nervousness(cos still nervous lah)
5) allowing me to learn to control my temper and always be humble(but wonder is dat only valid during this morning...haaaz) - i've said 'yes sir' and 'sorry sir' the most times in my whole life!
6) though giving me a strict tester...he still passed me despite sooooo many mistakes both in circuit n out on the roads...i tell u...when u hear abt the mistakes, u will think dat i shld fail..wahahhaa...i was nervous mah...he kept on say this n dat...make mi gan cheong...haaa
7) and many other things...
The Lord is juz so wonderful, great and Faithful...never fails to bless me...heez...Thank You Lord...
yup yup...happy dat i passed...no need to waste time n money liao...great gift for myself..hee...
k will stop here...take care n God Bless~
Finally! I'm a Qualified Driver!!! No More learning from instructors!!! soooo happy...
I really really wana Thank God for a few things:
1) Being there for me evey single second (and protecting me,tester n other road users)
2) answering my prayers
3) giving me a good weather (no rain despite the rain everyday!)
4) taking away most of the nervousness(cos still nervous lah)
5) allowing me to learn to control my temper and always be humble(but wonder is dat only valid during this morning...haaaz) - i've said 'yes sir' and 'sorry sir' the most times in my whole life!
6) though giving me a strict tester...he still passed me despite sooooo many mistakes both in circuit n out on the roads...i tell u...when u hear abt the mistakes, u will think dat i shld fail..wahahhaa...i was nervous mah...he kept on say this n dat...make mi gan cheong...haaa
7) and many other things...
The Lord is juz so wonderful, great and Faithful...never fails to bless me...heez...Thank You Lord...
yup yup...happy dat i passed...no need to waste time n money liao...great gift for myself..hee...
k will stop here...take care n God Bless~
Monday, February 26, 2007
~everything i do...~
is always wrong and not appropriate...so sad...sometimes i juz really wana see ppl happy...but yet...before i can do things that made ppl happy, i get 'not so good' comments abt it...it really hurts...cos i'm v sad that watever i wana do or decided,ppl always think it's not good or wat...really sad lor...guess this is why i've always never like making decision...i really never like it...i also never liked organizing things as i'm afraid it might not go well...many stuffs...yah ppl may say cos i didnt think before making the decision, or my decision aren't good...but...each of us have different thinkings...mayb i did think before i decide...but wat i think is right is not wat u think is right...den again...usually, if one say it's no good...some others might 'follow' or agree...some might not...sigh...i duno...all these really made me to hate making decisions...den when i dun make decisions, ppl will say i'm indecisive...SIGH...when will i be right???!!!sometimes i really juz want things to be peaceful where there r no quarrels or watsoever...but it won't...but wat i usually try to do is to keep quiet or 'agree'...juz like when ppl make 'not very nice' comments abt me...sometimes i juz smile it off...or maybe agree...or juz keep quiet...cos i dowana create trouble though i really dun like it at all...i dowana affect frenships...i've encountered failed ones recently...i dowan anymore...i dowana lose frens or ppl ard me...sigh...wat shld i do???sigh...Lord, how should i go abt in handling such things?
anyway gotta work...byee...
God Bless~
anyway gotta work...byee...
God Bless~
Sunday, February 25, 2007
~back to fill my blog~
hi all...paiseh hadnt been updating my blog for nearly 2 weeks...anyway...not many ppl read cos not many ppl noe of my changed blog add...so it's ok lah...hmmm...been bz over the past 2 weeks though...but recently was the Chinese New Year...not a bad 1 this yr though...cos relatives from Beijing and Hong Kong are back...missed the kids alot~...glad to see them...but sad that they went back liao...hmmm...aiya lazy to blog abt the past 2 weeks...will juz sae wat happened these 2 days ba...
juz came home abt an hr ago...today is a bz day...early in the morning i prepared myself for church class and church service...went down to futsing...den found out i was at the wrong place...supposed to be at clan association...sigh...nearly gave up going church for today cos it's juz so troublesome...but in the end was persuaded to go...den i went over to aljunied to wait for church bus...the bus didnt come too...some miscomm...we took cabby down...i even missed class...arghh...sigh...den the next 2 wks i gona miss class too cos got sch weekend class...duno if i shld skip morning class n attend church class...hmmm...see how ba...hmmm...after service i went lunch w winnie n family...didnt join the 'other' youths...they seem bz amongst themselves(sigh)...so i left with winnie...after lunch i went home...den awhile later went out w my family to meet up my other relatives for dinner...ate quite alot...even saw Priscillia Chen(Zheng Shi Mei) and her bf (duno wat name)...and one of their fsmily...after dinner went over to my dad's fren house...den home...hmmm...tired...oh yah...Happy Birthday Jin Lun and Jiin Rong~~~
yesterday was also a bz day for me too...but kinda sad abt in the evening and even juz now when i found out smthg...anyway...i woke up super early on sat...cos i changed tuition time to 9am instead of 930am cos i gotta go off early...i took cab down to Masonic Club @Coleman Street...my classmate's ROM...didnt get to see the solemnization cos i was late...so only went for the lunch...thereafter went to do some catch up with ex classmates n classmate(from my uni)...den headed down to Edge after i got something for Jinlun...actually been thinking of wat to get for him for v long...but still duno...so in the end bought Timberland's voucher for him...hope he uses it...went to The Edge...sermon was good...somehow of a breakthrough...but sad...sad cos i wasnt ministered to(or prayed for) during alter call...still feel kinda lost though...left quickly after alter call...anway...to talk abt wat i'm sad abt...is dat yah...again...but guess i'll have to accept the fact...that i'm really not remembered or mayb not regarded as their frens at all liao...i duno lah...mayb its juz the sensitive me again...but yah...i wasnt asked to attend Jinlun's birthday celebration...actually i duno if it's a party or wat...but i somehow noe they are gona celebrate for him after service...i noe i did tell serena during service i gona leave early cos i've got smthg on...but that doesnt mean she canot let me noe...plus i juz found out some1 was even invited to join them but he canot attend...means that it canot be that last evening they actually wana ask mi along but cos noe i've got smthg on...so didnt...but is that they have planned it earlier...but juz didnt include me...my heart is totally shattered...totally...wondering if i shld giv up this frenship...sigh...or guess its juz really gona be a 'hi-bye' frenship liao...a frenship which i really hope to treasure and love... now...juz shattered into pieces...i'm really very sad...i mean yah...yday's sermon was very good...abt us carrying many baggage w us...'Offence', Injustice','Bitterness','Revenge' and one more...afew bags really describes me...and i thought i was set free after going for alter call(though wasnt prayed for though i really needed 1...not noticed again...but nvm...)...but...after i found out that the sum1 was even invited...but i was not even told at all...i was juz so sad...n all those feeling i felt b4 abt them came back...injustice...bitterness...and so on...guess i wasnt really set free at all...sigh...i really duno wat to do...really need God...need God to guide me thru this time...hmmm...but in anyway...i'm really sad...sigh...guess dat 1 incident really caused a huge damage to the frenship...always been wanting to blame that sum1 that if he didnt go tell them i'm sad...or watsoever(i duno wat happened)...all these wldnt have happened...but...yah...shldnt blame him...sigh...anyway...yah...after i left Edge...i took cab to Magdeline's house to Bai Nian...Tracy n Daniel went too...not bad...we chatted quite alot...ate alot...see pics...thereafter i went home...tiring day too...heez...
k lah will stop here...anyway...kinda nervous...cos my TP on Friday morning...really pray hard i will pass this one time...haaz...and yah...i got test on wed...arghh...i duno wat is APB abt man...oh no...essay somemore...sian...
nitez all...
God Bless~
juz came home abt an hr ago...today is a bz day...early in the morning i prepared myself for church class and church service...went down to futsing...den found out i was at the wrong place...supposed to be at clan association...sigh...nearly gave up going church for today cos it's juz so troublesome...but in the end was persuaded to go...den i went over to aljunied to wait for church bus...the bus didnt come too...some miscomm...we took cabby down...i even missed class...arghh...sigh...den the next 2 wks i gona miss class too cos got sch weekend class...duno if i shld skip morning class n attend church class...hmmm...see how ba...hmmm...after service i went lunch w winnie n family...didnt join the 'other' youths...they seem bz amongst themselves(sigh)...so i left with winnie...after lunch i went home...den awhile later went out w my family to meet up my other relatives for dinner...ate quite alot...even saw Priscillia Chen(Zheng Shi Mei) and her bf (duno wat name)...and one of their fsmily...after dinner went over to my dad's fren house...den home...hmmm...tired...oh yah...Happy Birthday Jin Lun and Jiin Rong~~~
yesterday was also a bz day for me too...but kinda sad abt in the evening and even juz now when i found out smthg...anyway...i woke up super early on sat...cos i changed tuition time to 9am instead of 930am cos i gotta go off early...i took cab down to Masonic Club @Coleman Street...my classmate's ROM...didnt get to see the solemnization cos i was late...so only went for the lunch...thereafter went to do some catch up with ex classmates n classmate(from my uni)...den headed down to Edge after i got something for Jinlun...actually been thinking of wat to get for him for v long...but still duno...so in the end bought Timberland's voucher for him...hope he uses it...went to The Edge...sermon was good...somehow of a breakthrough...but sad...sad cos i wasnt ministered to(or prayed for) during alter call...still feel kinda lost though...left quickly after alter call...anway...to talk abt wat i'm sad abt...is dat yah...again...but guess i'll have to accept the fact...that i'm really not remembered or mayb not regarded as their frens at all liao...i duno lah...mayb its juz the sensitive me again...but yah...i wasnt asked to attend Jinlun's birthday celebration...actually i duno if it's a party or wat...but i somehow noe they are gona celebrate for him after service...i noe i did tell serena during service i gona leave early cos i've got smthg on...but that doesnt mean she canot let me noe...plus i juz found out some1 was even invited to join them but he canot attend...means that it canot be that last evening they actually wana ask mi along but cos noe i've got smthg on...so didnt...but is that they have planned it earlier...but juz didnt include me...my heart is totally shattered...totally...wondering if i shld giv up this frenship...sigh...or guess its juz really gona be a 'hi-bye' frenship liao...a frenship which i really hope to treasure and love... now...juz shattered into pieces...i'm really very sad...i mean yah...yday's sermon was very good...abt us carrying many baggage w us...'Offence', Injustice','Bitterness','Revenge' and one more...afew bags really describes me...and i thought i was set free after going for alter call(though wasnt prayed for though i really needed 1...not noticed again...but nvm...)...but...after i found out that the sum1 was even invited...but i was not even told at all...i was juz so sad...n all those feeling i felt b4 abt them came back...injustice...bitterness...and so on...guess i wasnt really set free at all...sigh...i really duno wat to do...really need God...need God to guide me thru this time...hmmm...but in anyway...i'm really sad...sigh...guess dat 1 incident really caused a huge damage to the frenship...always been wanting to blame that sum1 that if he didnt go tell them i'm sad...or watsoever(i duno wat happened)...all these wldnt have happened...but...yah...shldnt blame him...sigh...anyway...yah...after i left Edge...i took cab to Magdeline's house to Bai Nian...Tracy n Daniel went too...not bad...we chatted quite alot...ate alot...see pics...thereafter i went home...tiring day too...heez...
k lah will stop here...anyway...kinda nervous...cos my TP on Friday morning...really pray hard i will pass this one time...haaz...and yah...i got test on wed...arghh...i duno wat is APB abt man...oh no...essay somemore...sian...
nitez all...
God Bless~
Monday, February 12, 2007
~am i mean?~
hmmm...i feel bad...the issue is bothering me...since juz now...y? cos i feedback to SSDC's management abt an instructor...guess if you have been reading my blog, you shld noe who izzit...it's car 26...sigh...i really have no choice...i really wldnt wana use dat last resort...but...yah...i've used it...u noe it's always dreadful to go for driving lessons, and feeling super unhappy when i see number 26?i will always say short prayers hoping that it will not be car 26...but it always turns out to be him...it happened today too...n it really made me feel the urge to ask whether i can request not to have a certain instructor...cos if it continues to be him...i will sure not be able to learn my driving properly...really...cos i'm always 'quarrelling' with him...n he always think he's rite...n he always confused me of what i've learnt b4...making me even more nervous...afraid i wldnt be able to pass my driving...sigh...actually my intention was only to ask the counter ppl whether is it possible not to have a certain instructor...in the end i was immediately directed to the in-charge of such cases...den really boh bian...i have to tell them...so i gave them the reasons to why i do not want this instructor to teach me...they immediately changed my instructor for me...however, the most kuku thing is that they still gave me the same car (which was supposed to be that instructor's permanent car)...n switched him w another instructor's car...which was just beside...n guess what? he actually experienced many of such feedback cases too...and the car they usually change him with is the other same instructor...sigh...this means that he noes that i complained abt him...very obvious...at first i didnt noe he will noe...but having to remember a look(stare) i saw on this face at me b4 i went into car 26 and he going into the car bside...i realised that he noes...n noe dat it's me...sigh...i really feel bad lor...wonder how will it affect him...i mean at times i can talk to him well...i changed him away so that i can really concentrate n learn well...one thing i cannot stand abt him is his arrogance...always thinking he's rite n stuff...when he's not lah...hmmm...sigh...feel really bad u noe...but yah...no choice...wat's done canot be undone...hmmm...hope this feedback wldnt cause him his job sia...hmm...okok...will stop here...gotta sleep early...tired...nightz to all...
take care n God Bless~
take care n God Bless~
Thursday, February 08, 2007
grrrrr!!!!
ANGRY!!!!!!
stupid boss...juz as i thought that he's kinda changed...seldom scold or blame...BUT...grrr...he scolded me for no reason when it's not my fault!!!kaoz...i mean i really dun really know where's the most updated numbers as i'm not handling that...yet he assumes i should know...(someone in his cubicle wana get some numbers...duno he's scared of him or what...)...den he asked to me ask another colleague which is the most updated (since Florence not around)...but he's on the line and i think it's not good to disturb him...so i waited till he hang up the fone b4 approaching him...but my boss called me b4 he hangs up...and scolded me lor...he scolded me in mandarin " why so long haven give me an answer? you see lah, now ppl go off liao. you should know he doesn't like to wait. why everytime ask you to do something you canot do it properly one?"...den i replied " but he's on the line wat!" den he said " y canot juz ask him? only awhile wat!" den...he goes on scolding and blaming me, den slammed the fone! grrr...angry lor...hey it's not my fault lor...and he's so contradicting! this morning...or any other time, i wanted him to confirm with me whether the report can be distributed (he muz vet thru first)...den he scolded me " can't you see i'm bz? u always choose the wrong time to find me"...i mean...everything he does it correct and muz be answered immediately...but watever we do is wrong...shit lah...angry...so unfair lor...grrr...
hmmm...sian lah...duno wat to sae...so angry liao...
but in any way, i really muz thank God for His faithfulness...how He really see me thru...remember i've blogged about how He answered my prayers and that i have to go on and stay in this current job? i was really unwilling...but i will still follow God's plan though...i really followed, though in my heart really wonder how am i to take all the crap at work...but God, being so faithful...really blessed me all the way since the time i deciced to follow His way...the following Monday, after the saturday's vision, i went to work with a heavy heart...but my boss on mc...i was so happy lah!...den the next day, he's back...but from that day onwards, tho' he's still scolding at times, the number of times i got scolded is really v little...me and some other colleagues were kinda shocked lah...but he really talked to us nicely...but 1 thing is also cos he got high blood pressure...so it's not good for him to get angry...but it's really unexpected that his temper changed quite alot lor...Praise the Lord for being so wonderful and never load us with things beyond our limits!...heez...but den again...my boss is kinda mad juz now...sigh...but really poor me lah...got scolded for things which doesn't concern me...sigh...
anyway gotta go back to work...byeeeee...
God Bless~
stupid boss...juz as i thought that he's kinda changed...seldom scold or blame...BUT...grrr...he scolded me for no reason when it's not my fault!!!kaoz...i mean i really dun really know where's the most updated numbers as i'm not handling that...yet he assumes i should know...(someone in his cubicle wana get some numbers...duno he's scared of him or what...)...den he asked to me ask another colleague which is the most updated (since Florence not around)...but he's on the line and i think it's not good to disturb him...so i waited till he hang up the fone b4 approaching him...but my boss called me b4 he hangs up...and scolded me lor...he scolded me in mandarin " why so long haven give me an answer? you see lah, now ppl go off liao. you should know he doesn't like to wait. why everytime ask you to do something you canot do it properly one?"...den i replied " but he's on the line wat!" den he said " y canot juz ask him? only awhile wat!" den...he goes on scolding and blaming me, den slammed the fone! grrr...angry lor...hey it's not my fault lor...and he's so contradicting! this morning...or any other time, i wanted him to confirm with me whether the report can be distributed (he muz vet thru first)...den he scolded me " can't you see i'm bz? u always choose the wrong time to find me"...i mean...everything he does it correct and muz be answered immediately...but watever we do is wrong...shit lah...angry...so unfair lor...grrr...
hmmm...sian lah...duno wat to sae...so angry liao...
but in any way, i really muz thank God for His faithfulness...how He really see me thru...remember i've blogged about how He answered my prayers and that i have to go on and stay in this current job? i was really unwilling...but i will still follow God's plan though...i really followed, though in my heart really wonder how am i to take all the crap at work...but God, being so faithful...really blessed me all the way since the time i deciced to follow His way...the following Monday, after the saturday's vision, i went to work with a heavy heart...but my boss on mc...i was so happy lah!...den the next day, he's back...but from that day onwards, tho' he's still scolding at times, the number of times i got scolded is really v little...me and some other colleagues were kinda shocked lah...but he really talked to us nicely...but 1 thing is also cos he got high blood pressure...so it's not good for him to get angry...but it's really unexpected that his temper changed quite alot lor...Praise the Lord for being so wonderful and never load us with things beyond our limits!...heez...but den again...my boss is kinda mad juz now...sigh...but really poor me lah...got scolded for things which doesn't concern me...sigh...
anyway gotta go back to work...byeeeee...
God Bless~
Sunday, January 28, 2007
~where's my light feeling?~
sigh...yeah...last night was posting abt me feeling lighter after receiving God's direction...but today, i felt weary n burdened again...i really duno y sia...every now and den i really feel like crying...feeling v troubled...n yet i do not know what i'm troubled about...this feeling sucks...however, when i'm distracted, esp when i'm playing with the kids, i can feel much happier...but when i'm alone or wat...the unhappy feeling keeps on haunting me...sigh...esp after duty (helping out at 3-6yrs group), i went up...only spoke to some...but den again...every1 are engrossed amongst themselves...felt i wasnt in the right place at that time, so i left first...headed down to Sembawang...Shawn (my classmate) has organized a house warming session for some of us classmates...we had steamboat for lunch...not bad...filling too...den we played card games...the person with the lowest card will drink the whole glass of green tea or water...den to wine (luckily onli drank abit of wine)...i drank alot for water and green tea...but the whole session was fun...me,grace, n bee wei left first...that is why i'm home now...the rest are still playing...sigh...kinda sad...cos my dad...duno what's wrong with him...he n his 'i'm always right' thinking...i mean i early in the morning already told my mum i will be attending house warming at sembawang...so gotta let me know where they will be having dinner at...den i called home ard 5pm...my dad answered...i told him i'm at sembawang...den wat's the plan...den he got angry...saying that if i wana join them for dinner, i should have already gone home first...hey come on, i've already informed my mum...yet he's so unreasonable...den he got angry with me for always being out...cos on fri n sat i was out till 12am...but at least i always tell ppl that i'm always not free on sundays evening cos i wana spend time w my family...but he doesnt understand...he doesnt care...meaning that we muz follow according to what he wants...i think it's stupid lah...really...times have changed lah...i mean i did take time out to spend time at home...yet he's always complaining...n for this past few weeks i didn't go home early is cos i've gotta OT n have classes...but...he NEVER understands...i'm always wrong...grrr...fed up...but i gave up arguing anyway...usually just let him scold...n get done w it...he gets angry easily...always...n it's really irritating...reminds mi of my boss...kaoz...
anyway, i left Shawn's place early...but i decided not to join them for dinner...first i'm full...second, i dowana see his black face...so rather stay home...rest...n try to get some work done...got lots to do..not only work...but also sch work...sigh...stress...but i still have to bear with it...hmmm...anyway...i know very well my dad cares...that's y he's like dat...but...i feel that he shldnt be so rigid...pls lah...dun keep having those traditional thinking lah...if u wan us to learn from life, let us go through what we shouldnt go through and learn from it...sigh...really duno what he wants...n i guess i cant fulfil wat he wants...sigh...
anyway will stop here...
take care...God Bless~
anyway, i left Shawn's place early...but i decided not to join them for dinner...first i'm full...second, i dowana see his black face...so rather stay home...rest...n try to get some work done...got lots to do..not only work...but also sch work...sigh...stress...but i still have to bear with it...hmmm...anyway...i know very well my dad cares...that's y he's like dat...but...i feel that he shldnt be so rigid...pls lah...dun keep having those traditional thinking lah...if u wan us to learn from life, let us go through what we shouldnt go through and learn from it...sigh...really duno what he wants...n i guess i cant fulfil wat he wants...sigh...
anyway will stop here...
take care...God Bless~
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