oh yah...forgot to add on...dis afternoon after service i've been approached by Grace (our Youth Minister) to become a discipler for a couple of younger gals...i was like 'OH NO!!! are u sure???!!!'...obviously such reaction means i'm TOTALLY not prepared for it lor...but...since she has approached me...it means that most likely it's wat God wants her to ask me to do...which also means wat God wants me to do...sigh...i really hope i wun be a bad discipler...really not prepared at all lor...but 1 thing for sure...i feel that such arrangements will surely make me more closer to God and read more of His Word...y? cos during such period, i will need God and the wisdom to disciple them...i will also need to read up more to know what to teach and know how to answer questions...guess this is one way of how God is answering my prayers during those alter calls i went up to...hmmm...really pray hard that all will go fine...at this moment i will be waiting for Grace to assign me to 2 of the gals...wonder who...hmmm...guess i really need to strength for all these...
anyway, such signs of God's answers made me feel that His calling is becoming clearer...plus i really need to come back to God once again to serve Him wholeheartedly...
anyway, for people who do not know God or have yet to accept Him...let me tell you that u will really feel the peace if u were to believe in Him...and you will tend to experience unexpected miracles...He is just so great and wonderful...and the most important thing of all...He Loves us all! yes! He loves us!!! we are all created in His image...really...to all people...you will really experience a life changing phase if you truly believe in Him...trust me...i do admit many a times i'm tired of being a Christian...tired of this and that...do's and don'ts...many...but...i still hold on to my believe and still love God no matter wat...(although the devil still attacked me with many temptations)...guess i'm just not strong enough...but will build up myself on this...hmmm...yup..God is really great...I Love You Lord! heez...
kk will stop here...byeeeeeeeee...and God Loves ALL of u!!!
Sunday, October 15, 2006
fotos...
poor me...left one of my hand to show...
look at what they did to me!!!
they are jumping on me!!!
me and Joash didi
ger ger crying...for the fone i'm holding...
~tiring weekend~
YAWNZZZ~~~ i'm just soooo tired...but...i just refuse to go sleep early for the day...cos...it's just too early!.haaz...plus i've got some work to do...my own appraisal, assignment, and some stuff from work...only 1 down at the moment...heez...juz feel that i cant finish all...doing all these just makes m wana sleep...haaz...anyway, i've had a tiring weekend is cos i really had very little sleep...actually all these while i dun sleep much...haaz...
anywayz, i went to watch movie on Friday...i like watching movies...but usually it's just the time that prevents me from watching...but anyway i managd to watch The Departed on friday after class...midnight movie (cos passed the 10plus timing liao)...luckily informed my dad if not will have another cold war...ended ard 3plus i think (forgot)...i wont rate high for this movie cos it's juz too copy cat lah...totally the same as Infernal Affairs...except in english version...i like Infernal Affairs...but mayb not for this...fell asleep afew times...partly also due to tiredness...anyway...when i reached home and prepare to sleep...it's abt 4am liao...only slept about 3plus hrs den wake up and prepare to go give tuition...(fell asleep when i'm teaching though...keke...)...after giving tuition, i went Amore for my Hip Hop and Kickboxing...2hrs non stop...really dead tired after that lor...den i went The Edge for service, and after that headed to Winnie (godsis) and Sy Biau's house with Serena, Joanne and Jinlun. played with their 3 lil kids...fun lor...they even buried me under their pillows and blankets...and cos it's too comfy, i fell asleep for awhile...i think Sy Biau even took foto of me sleeping lor...grrr...haaz...after i woke up, we all talked till 11plus, den Sy Biau sent us home...even the journey home was so fun...cos Sy Biau keep making turns dat made me,serena and joanne to keep squashing each other...haaz...after i reached home, think i slept around 1plus or something like dat...
then the next morning, which is today, i woke up at 7plus again, washed up and headed to Futsing...before i go there, i went to the supermarket to buy tidbits for the kids (got duty mah)...den i took cab down...had Communications LIW Class...learnt quite a fair bit on the process of Communications and the use of tongue...how dangerous it can be at times...that's the reason y God created us with 2 eyes, 2 ears and only 1 mouth...to see and listen clearly and carefully(concentrate more on these 2), but to talk less or talk appropriately...haaz...after class i did not go for service cos got duty with the 3-6yrs old...so fun lor...see them and play with them makes me happy...although they are naughty...i 'fought' with the boys lor...haaz...but they still cant win me...keke...after duty, i was being asked to help look after one of the sister's daughter, Faith, cos she had class to attend...so i took her along with me for lunch. Had lunch with Winnie and Sy Biau and the kids, with Faith. After lunch i brought Faith back to her mum den i took a cab home, take my rollerblades and stuff, and headed to Clementi to meet Weiling...we headed to West Coast Park together...lessons were alright today, but was quite sad...cos i didnt manage to learn those nice turns...duno y i scared lor...scared to fall...and also dowana scratch my new blades and gears...wahahahaha....sigh...quite disappointed with myself...hmmm...sad...anyway after lessons i foned my dad, and luckily he was heading home from Jurong East, so he made a turn to come and fetch me home...heez...if not i have to take train man...will take ages...wahahaha...had dinner with my family, full force for dinner today...so dad is very happy...heez...yup...this is how i've spent my weekend...really tiring with all those activities and less sleep...heez...k will stop here...gotta do my assignment and work...tata~
take care and God Bless~
anywayz, i went to watch movie on Friday...i like watching movies...but usually it's just the time that prevents me from watching...but anyway i managd to watch The Departed on friday after class...midnight movie (cos passed the 10plus timing liao)...luckily informed my dad if not will have another cold war...ended ard 3plus i think (forgot)...i wont rate high for this movie cos it's juz too copy cat lah...totally the same as Infernal Affairs...except in english version...i like Infernal Affairs...but mayb not for this...fell asleep afew times...partly also due to tiredness...anyway...when i reached home and prepare to sleep...it's abt 4am liao...only slept about 3plus hrs den wake up and prepare to go give tuition...(fell asleep when i'm teaching though...keke...)...after giving tuition, i went Amore for my Hip Hop and Kickboxing...2hrs non stop...really dead tired after that lor...den i went The Edge for service, and after that headed to Winnie (godsis) and Sy Biau's house with Serena, Joanne and Jinlun. played with their 3 lil kids...fun lor...they even buried me under their pillows and blankets...and cos it's too comfy, i fell asleep for awhile...i think Sy Biau even took foto of me sleeping lor...grrr...haaz...after i woke up, we all talked till 11plus, den Sy Biau sent us home...even the journey home was so fun...cos Sy Biau keep making turns dat made me,serena and joanne to keep squashing each other...haaz...after i reached home, think i slept around 1plus or something like dat...
then the next morning, which is today, i woke up at 7plus again, washed up and headed to Futsing...before i go there, i went to the supermarket to buy tidbits for the kids (got duty mah)...den i took cab down...had Communications LIW Class...learnt quite a fair bit on the process of Communications and the use of tongue...how dangerous it can be at times...that's the reason y God created us with 2 eyes, 2 ears and only 1 mouth...to see and listen clearly and carefully(concentrate more on these 2), but to talk less or talk appropriately...haaz...after class i did not go for service cos got duty with the 3-6yrs old...so fun lor...see them and play with them makes me happy...although they are naughty...i 'fought' with the boys lor...haaz...but they still cant win me...keke...after duty, i was being asked to help look after one of the sister's daughter, Faith, cos she had class to attend...so i took her along with me for lunch. Had lunch with Winnie and Sy Biau and the kids, with Faith. After lunch i brought Faith back to her mum den i took a cab home, take my rollerblades and stuff, and headed to Clementi to meet Weiling...we headed to West Coast Park together...lessons were alright today, but was quite sad...cos i didnt manage to learn those nice turns...duno y i scared lor...scared to fall...and also dowana scratch my new blades and gears...wahahahaha....sigh...quite disappointed with myself...hmmm...sad...anyway after lessons i foned my dad, and luckily he was heading home from Jurong East, so he made a turn to come and fetch me home...heez...if not i have to take train man...will take ages...wahahaha...had dinner with my family, full force for dinner today...so dad is very happy...heez...yup...this is how i've spent my weekend...really tiring with all those activities and less sleep...heez...k will stop here...gotta do my assignment and work...tata~
take care and God Bless~
Friday, October 13, 2006
Stresss Management!!!
>> A lecturer, when explaining stress management to an audience, raised a
> glass of water and asked, "how heavy is this glass of water? "
>
> Answers called out ranged from 20g to 500g.
>
> The lecturer replied, "the absolute weight doesn't matter." It depends on
> how long you try to hold it.
>
> If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem.
> If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm.
> If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance.
> In each case, it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier
> it becomes.
> And that's the way it is with stress management.
> If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden
> becomes increasingly heavy, we won't be able to carry on.
>
> As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest
> before holding it again. When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the
> burden.
> So, before you return home tonight, put the burden of work down.
> Don't carry it home. You can pick it up tomorrow.
> Whatever burdens you're carrying now, let them down for a moment if you
> can.
> Relax; pick them up later after you've rested.
>
> Life is short. Enjoy it!
>
> And then he shared some ways of dealing with the burdens of life:
> * Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue.
>
> * Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them
>
> * Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle
> of it.
>
> * Drive carefully. It's not only cars that can be recalled by their maker.
>
> * If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.
>
> * If you lend someone $20 and never see them again, it was probably worth
> it.
>
> * It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning
> to others.
>
> * Never buy a car you can't push.
>
> * Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time, because then you
> won't have a leg to stand on.
>
> * Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird, sleep late.
>
> * The second mouse gets the cheese.
>
> * When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.
>
> * Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.
>
> * You may be only one person in the world, but you may also be the world to
> one person.
>
> * Some mistakes are too much fun to only make once.
>
> * We could learn a lot from crayons. Some are sharp, some are pretty and
> some are dull. Some have weird names, and all are different colors, but
> they all have to live in the same box.
>
> A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.
>
> Have an awesome day and know that someone has thought about you today. . .
> . ..... I did.
> glass of water and asked, "how heavy is this glass of water? "
>
> Answers called out ranged from 20g to 500g.
>
> The lecturer replied, "the absolute weight doesn't matter." It depends on
> how long you try to hold it.
>
> If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem.
> If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm.
> If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance.
> In each case, it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier
> it becomes.
> And that's the way it is with stress management.
> If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden
> becomes increasingly heavy, we won't be able to carry on.
>
> As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest
> before holding it again. When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the
> burden.
> So, before you return home tonight, put the burden of work down.
> Don't carry it home. You can pick it up tomorrow.
> Whatever burdens you're carrying now, let them down for a moment if you
> can.
> Relax; pick them up later after you've rested.
>
> Life is short. Enjoy it!
>
> And then he shared some ways of dealing with the burdens of life:
> * Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue.
>
> * Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them
>
> * Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle
> of it.
>
> * Drive carefully. It's not only cars that can be recalled by their maker.
>
> * If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.
>
> * If you lend someone $20 and never see them again, it was probably worth
> it.
>
> * It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning
> to others.
>
> * Never buy a car you can't push.
>
> * Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time, because then you
> won't have a leg to stand on.
>
> * Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird, sleep late.
>
> * The second mouse gets the cheese.
>
> * When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.
>
> * Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.
>
> * You may be only one person in the world, but you may also be the world to
> one person.
>
> * Some mistakes are too much fun to only make once.
>
> * We could learn a lot from crayons. Some are sharp, some are pretty and
> some are dull. Some have weird names, and all are different colors, but
> they all have to live in the same box.
>
> A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.
>
> Have an awesome day and know that someone has thought about you today. . .
> . ..... I did.
~i dowan car26!!!~
eeekzzzzz!!!!! 2nd or 3rd time during this course of learning driving man! arghhhhh....this instructor of car 26, i really duno wat's got into him or his stomach...he farts ALOT...damn sian man...i always give him face by pretending not to know lor...but...it really stinks lah!!! the first lesson when he started his farting, he did it 3times...i tell u...the feeling is so horrible man...i'm practically suffocating...nearly to death...wahahahaa...damn stink lah...den whenever i drive, i will place my nose right in front of the aircon lor...really terrible man...actually whenever i see car 26 beside my name, i will always nearly faint...cos means another round of such...juz like 2dae...kena again lor...and he not only farted, but farted MANY times...nearly dieded man...haaaz...hmmm...
aiya i cant continue anymore...tired...hmmm...oh yah! my student (this yr sec 1) passed quite well for her math...really proud of her...from someone who used to fail and fail, now she's really improve alot...haaa...gd gd...hmmm...
k gdnite and God Bless~
aiya i cant continue anymore...tired...hmmm...oh yah! my student (this yr sec 1) passed quite well for her math...really proud of her...from someone who used to fail and fail, now she's really improve alot...haaa...gd gd...hmmm...
k gdnite and God Bless~
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
~sigh...help me~
arghhh....i'm sooooooooo stressssssed!!!!! sigh...stressed till sad...really duno wat to do...anyway...is stressed about work...sigh...feel that these few days i'm FLOODED with ALOT of work lor...sian man...really stressed lor...i know i gotta learn new things...but not all at one time rite? today since morning i have been hearing "Ann, can you please come here awhile?"(from my supervisor)...and then...after ahwile i will be given something to do(where at hand i already have quite alot to do)...sigh...and now i'm loaded with alot of work in which i duno where to start...sigh...anyway...workload not only comes from supervisor but also from elsewhere...sian lor...whenever i hear my name being called...i feel so stressed...den feel like resigning...but...haiz...duno lah...juz cannot take it at times...plus now...cos too stress liao...made my mood unhappy...plus made me eat alot of junk food...sigh...help~~~!!!! k i gotta do work liao...byeee...
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Thursday, October 05, 2006
~2yrs liao~
oh yah...actually wana blog about this...but keep forgetting...now juz remembered. Today, 5th Oct 2006 is my 2nd yr in UOB as a perm staff doing management reporting...actually i'm in UOB for more than 2yrs...before being a perm i was a temp staff...hmmm...wow...times really past very fast...can't believe that i'm there for 2yrs liao...though pay still as little...and rank still the same...lowest...i really cant wait to graduate from uni lor...sigh...den still pondering whether to change job so as to achieve the position i should be getting (along with my experience) plus the pay i should be getting...cos i'm currently learning new things along the way...though is not a fast process of learning, at least ALOT faster and more things to learn than more than a yr ago before i came to this new dept...sigh...really in a dilemma...
anyway...though i did not learn much since i started this perm till afew months ago, i still wana give credit as to that i have actually grown alot and experienced alot...learning(though not alot) is a sure thing...i'm from someone who doesn't know what is and how to use Excel till now i feel i'm fairly good at it...cos i've been facing excel every working day lor...without fail! it's a benefit afterall i guess...love this job alot...dealing with the numbers and stuff (not accounting ar)...as for the environment...some are good...but some are really bad...however, ever since i've moved up and changed dept, i get to experience more of the ppl whom i think (heard from ppl) are ruthless or watsoever...but now i've got to know them, they are actually quite ok afterall...however, there are still exceptions...people here are super competitive...will try to push as much blame as possible so things will not look bad on them...but that's life i guess...cannot be avoided...cos it's due to each individual...i cant possibly change them...sigh...many will say this is the real world...but in the Christian context, this world we are living in now is just a temporary world...our REAL WORLD is in heaven!!! yay!!!heez...however, we are here so as to spread the Gospel and allow people to know of God's existence!and thereafter is their choice whether to accept Him or not...heez...yup...
k will stop here...back to work again...
Happy 2nd Yr Anniversary in UOB to mi!
take care n God Bless~
anyway...though i did not learn much since i started this perm till afew months ago, i still wana give credit as to that i have actually grown alot and experienced alot...learning(though not alot) is a sure thing...i'm from someone who doesn't know what is and how to use Excel till now i feel i'm fairly good at it...cos i've been facing excel every working day lor...without fail! it's a benefit afterall i guess...love this job alot...dealing with the numbers and stuff (not accounting ar)...as for the environment...some are good...but some are really bad...however, ever since i've moved up and changed dept, i get to experience more of the ppl whom i think (heard from ppl) are ruthless or watsoever...but now i've got to know them, they are actually quite ok afterall...however, there are still exceptions...people here are super competitive...will try to push as much blame as possible so things will not look bad on them...but that's life i guess...cannot be avoided...cos it's due to each individual...i cant possibly change them...sigh...many will say this is the real world...but in the Christian context, this world we are living in now is just a temporary world...our REAL WORLD is in heaven!!! yay!!!heez...however, we are here so as to spread the Gospel and allow people to know of God's existence!and thereafter is their choice whether to accept Him or not...heez...yup...
k will stop here...back to work again...
Happy 2nd Yr Anniversary in UOB to mi!
take care n God Bless~
~@ office now~
hi allz...heez...abit early at work so blog abit...but also duno wat to blog lah...heez...
anyway...past few days quite ok for me lah...oh yah sunday i went for rollerblading session(if i have yet to blog about)...cos most of the ppl who joined do not know how to blade, so they were assigned to beginners class...i was assigned to the advanced class...with mayb like another 10 more? i forgot the numbers...haaz...but they weren't really fantastic too...if not why learn rollerblaading rite?haaz...mi too...not very good...as i canot stop in the correct technique...learnt that during that session...this coming sunday will have lessons again...oh did i say my lessons are at West Coast Park? wah its far lah...haa...but nvm...i like to blade...so will go...hee...i now got the urge to buy blades liao...sigh...actually i wana buy since many yrs ago...no money lah...plus i want good blades...sigh...how?hmmm...oh yah the gaurds lent to us were like stinking smelly lah...haa...hmmm...
as for monday was an ok day...cannot really remember wat i did...haaz...on tues after class at nite, i was brought to somewhere marina something...very nice place...super windy lor...really nice place if u wana find a place to juz really relax...can see small boats or watever they are called where they will 'park' at the 'harbour'(izzit called that?) hahahaa...i'm lousy with words...wahahaha...anyway i enjoyed my time there though i was really cold cos of the wind...heez...
hmmm...then for wednesday, which was yesterday...super busy lah! early in the morning gotta reach Tampines (meet colleagues for breakfast)...den we went for some training at UOB's training centre...it was till 1pm...saw Leon there abt 12plus i guess when i was goin to the ladies...after that had lunch and rushed back to office...very rush lor cos i gotta do my weekly report...when i reached office i juz start working non stop till i completed my report...thank God i can finish on time...heez...den i went to meet my insurance agent...he keeps wanting to recruit me...haaa...thereafter(after dinner and some talk), he sent me to SSDC for my driving lesson...driving was fun last nite...when i saw my assigned car number, i roughly noe which instructor already...den when i saw him i demanded he pass mi 2 sunjects...and he really did...haaz...did slope and outside driving...i completed my slope in juz i think 10mins...haaz...fun...den out in the road he juz sat there(lie back) and relax cos he knows how well i can drive already...so he juz gave instructions on where to turn...he even taught me right turns out in the road though it wasnt the subject i'm taking...really fun lah...heez...2nite gona have driving again...wonder which instructor...haaz...
oh yah...i'm quite happy...i msged my student askin her how's her Math paper...she said it was not as hard as she thought...hee...happy...my 1st sec sch student...hope she does well as he result are'nt always good since primary sch when i teach her...
kk will stop here...working time...haaz...
take care n God Bless!
anyway...past few days quite ok for me lah...oh yah sunday i went for rollerblading session(if i have yet to blog about)...cos most of the ppl who joined do not know how to blade, so they were assigned to beginners class...i was assigned to the advanced class...with mayb like another 10 more? i forgot the numbers...haaz...but they weren't really fantastic too...if not why learn rollerblaading rite?haaz...mi too...not very good...as i canot stop in the correct technique...learnt that during that session...this coming sunday will have lessons again...oh did i say my lessons are at West Coast Park? wah its far lah...haa...but nvm...i like to blade...so will go...hee...i now got the urge to buy blades liao...sigh...actually i wana buy since many yrs ago...no money lah...plus i want good blades...sigh...how?hmmm...oh yah the gaurds lent to us were like stinking smelly lah...haa...hmmm...
as for monday was an ok day...cannot really remember wat i did...haaz...on tues after class at nite, i was brought to somewhere marina something...very nice place...super windy lor...really nice place if u wana find a place to juz really relax...can see small boats or watever they are called where they will 'park' at the 'harbour'(izzit called that?) hahahaa...i'm lousy with words...wahahaha...anyway i enjoyed my time there though i was really cold cos of the wind...heez...
hmmm...then for wednesday, which was yesterday...super busy lah! early in the morning gotta reach Tampines (meet colleagues for breakfast)...den we went for some training at UOB's training centre...it was till 1pm...saw Leon there abt 12plus i guess when i was goin to the ladies...after that had lunch and rushed back to office...very rush lor cos i gotta do my weekly report...when i reached office i juz start working non stop till i completed my report...thank God i can finish on time...heez...den i went to meet my insurance agent...he keeps wanting to recruit me...haaa...thereafter(after dinner and some talk), he sent me to SSDC for my driving lesson...driving was fun last nite...when i saw my assigned car number, i roughly noe which instructor already...den when i saw him i demanded he pass mi 2 sunjects...and he really did...haaz...did slope and outside driving...i completed my slope in juz i think 10mins...haaz...fun...den out in the road he juz sat there(lie back) and relax cos he knows how well i can drive already...so he juz gave instructions on where to turn...he even taught me right turns out in the road though it wasnt the subject i'm taking...really fun lah...heez...2nite gona have driving again...wonder which instructor...haaz...
oh yah...i'm quite happy...i msged my student askin her how's her Math paper...she said it was not as hard as she thought...hee...happy...my 1st sec sch student...hope she does well as he result are'nt always good since primary sch when i teach her...
kk will stop here...working time...haaz...
take care n God Bless!
Saturday, September 30, 2006
~duno wat title to put...~
hey peeps...guess wat? it's a Saturday and i'm home early!!! wat a rare occasion...heez...aiya cos tired and nv go ask frens out mah...been going home quite late the past few days...but i'm happy with myself cos i informed my dad about me going to be home late...so unlike me rite?haaz...no choice...cos i dowan him to get angry...so i have to guai guai let him noe lorz...heez...
hmmm...today is kinda bz but i spent my time in 2 main places...my students' place...and Yishun Building...woke up early in the morning despite v little sleep the night before...went to give tuition...worried sia...cos my student gona have exams next week...sec 1...1st time i teach sec sch...hope she does well...heez...den will portray a good image on me...heez...anyway...talk about teaching...i'm quite shock that i've already been a tuition teacher since about 5-6yrs ago lor...amazing...time past really fast...i mean the 1st ever student i have was in k1 that time....n guess what? she's now in p3(not teaching her now though)...i was shocked lah...suddenly feel so old lor...cos was chatting with my students about how long i've been teaching them and stuff...and i was really shocked lah...hmmm...
anyway after teaching i went to yishun building liao(b4 that go by food for the cafe duty)...actually was supposed to go for my Hip Hop class...but...was too lazy lah...body aching...so didnt...quite sad cos i missed the last part of dance the teacher choreographed(duno how to spell)...sigh...anyway...only 2dae that i got to know i have to reach by 2pm instead of the 3plus for duty...was like nothing to say lah...i reached on time anyway...boring lor...cos it's too early liao...den nobody came to buy food...hmmm...anyway...everytime during cafe duty, i will feel super stinky...haaa...cos we need to fry those food...dats y...haaz...duty till about 530pm den we went in for service...came out around 7plus after alter call and continued with my duty...till about i forgot the time...haaa...den had dinner at toa payoh with Kevin and Leon...den went home...when i reached home...i took some time watching tv with my dad and talking to him b4 bathing and staring at my com screen...haaz...guess my dad is happy...heez...trying my very best to make my dad happy...dowana see him angry...hmmm...
yah dats all for wat i did today...tiring...guess not enough sleep...yesterday after work i met up with Ms Serene Tang...always regarded as my bestest fren...heez...knew each other since pri sch...till now...'celebrated' her bdae for her...no cakes lah...went vila'ge with her...thereafter to KBox at Cineleisure...her fren joined us(interesting gal...even said my laughter is contagious...wahahahhhaaha)...sang till quite late...they even extended while i opted to go home(1plus am)...got heavy head...cos my 2 drinks were Vodka n Tequila...nv really drink for quite some time liao...slowly cannot hold alcohol liao...haaa...anyway thanks YouYi for sending me home...sorry for the trouble...heez...
oh...for tue,wed, and thur i had my driving lessons...fun lor...adventurous...haaaz...dun how to explain thru here lah...hee...and instructors all sae i very talkative and laugh alot...haaz...think they canot tahan me lah...cos i always scare them...haaz...hmmm...guess this is it for the week till 2dae...oh...not abt monday lah...1st dae of class...sian lah...dowana sae much...haa...kk will stop here den...
take care...
God Bless n love u guys~~~
hmmm...today is kinda bz but i spent my time in 2 main places...my students' place...and Yishun Building...woke up early in the morning despite v little sleep the night before...went to give tuition...worried sia...cos my student gona have exams next week...sec 1...1st time i teach sec sch...hope she does well...heez...den will portray a good image on me...heez...anyway...talk about teaching...i'm quite shock that i've already been a tuition teacher since about 5-6yrs ago lor...amazing...time past really fast...i mean the 1st ever student i have was in k1 that time....n guess what? she's now in p3(not teaching her now though)...i was shocked lah...suddenly feel so old lor...cos was chatting with my students about how long i've been teaching them and stuff...and i was really shocked lah...hmmm...
anyway after teaching i went to yishun building liao(b4 that go by food for the cafe duty)...actually was supposed to go for my Hip Hop class...but...was too lazy lah...body aching...so didnt...quite sad cos i missed the last part of dance the teacher choreographed(duno how to spell)...sigh...anyway...only 2dae that i got to know i have to reach by 2pm instead of the 3plus for duty...was like nothing to say lah...i reached on time anyway...boring lor...cos it's too early liao...den nobody came to buy food...hmmm...anyway...everytime during cafe duty, i will feel super stinky...haaa...cos we need to fry those food...dats y...haaz...duty till about 530pm den we went in for service...came out around 7plus after alter call and continued with my duty...till about i forgot the time...haaa...den had dinner at toa payoh with Kevin and Leon...den went home...when i reached home...i took some time watching tv with my dad and talking to him b4 bathing and staring at my com screen...haaz...guess my dad is happy...heez...trying my very best to make my dad happy...dowana see him angry...hmmm...
yah dats all for wat i did today...tiring...guess not enough sleep...yesterday after work i met up with Ms Serene Tang...always regarded as my bestest fren...heez...knew each other since pri sch...till now...'celebrated' her bdae for her...no cakes lah...went vila'ge with her...thereafter to KBox at Cineleisure...her fren joined us(interesting gal...even said my laughter is contagious...wahahahhhaaha)...sang till quite late...they even extended while i opted to go home(1plus am)...got heavy head...cos my 2 drinks were Vodka n Tequila...nv really drink for quite some time liao...slowly cannot hold alcohol liao...haaa...anyway thanks YouYi for sending me home...sorry for the trouble...heez...
oh...for tue,wed, and thur i had my driving lessons...fun lor...adventurous...haaaz...dun how to explain thru here lah...hee...and instructors all sae i very talkative and laugh alot...haaz...think they canot tahan me lah...cos i always scare them...haaz...hmmm...guess this is it for the week till 2dae...oh...not abt monday lah...1st dae of class...sian lah...dowana sae much...haa...kk will stop here den...
take care...
God Bless n love u guys~~~
Friday, September 29, 2006
Hope Banta Singh's spirit will live on
Just for a laugh...
Three dead bodies turn up at the mortuary, all with very big smiles on their faces. The coroner calls in the police to tell them what has happened.
First body: "Frenchman, 60, died of heart failure while making love to his mistress. Hence the enormous smile, inspector", says the Coroner.
Second body: "Scotsman, 25, won a thousand pounds on the lottery, spent it all on whisky. Died of alcohol poisoning, hence the smile."
The Inspector asked, "What of the third body?" "Ah," says the coroner, "This is the most unusual one: Banta Singh from Punjab 30, struck by lightning."
"Why is he smiling then?" inquires the Inspector.
He thought he was having his photo taken."
Three dead bodies turn up at the mortuary, all with very big smiles on their faces. The coroner calls in the police to tell them what has happened.
First body: "Frenchman, 60, died of heart failure while making love to his mistress. Hence the enormous smile, inspector", says the Coroner.
Second body: "Scotsman, 25, won a thousand pounds on the lottery, spent it all on whisky. Died of alcohol poisoning, hence the smile."
The Inspector asked, "What of the third body?" "Ah," says the coroner, "This is the most unusual one: Banta Singh from Punjab 30, struck by lightning."
"Why is he smiling then?" inquires the Inspector.
He thought he was having his photo taken."
Sunday, September 24, 2006
~just another day...~
hi allz...yupz...it's sunday...sigh...means that gotta work tmr...and guess wat? 2 of my colleagues will be on leave for afew days..and i'm gona be their back up...actually its not alot lah...juz helping a little bit of each...hopefully wun do it wrong though...heez...
hmm...2dae was not a bad day...early morning got up for LIW class(church class)...Missions and Evangelism...last lesson for the term...yay!haaz...but new term gona commence soon though...have yet to know what lesson i will be taking next term...therafter i didnt attend service cos got duty in the Children Ministry...in the 3 - 6yrs old group...juz love the kids...so cute lor...heez...and everytime during my duty...i will juz spoil the kids lah...cos will buy crackers, tidbits or sweets for them...heez...very happy to see them happy...love it when they give mi hugs and kisses...and when they allow me to carry them...heez...kids are juz so adorable...never regretted joining the Children Ministry...hmmm...after the kids got their goodies, there are some left so i took afew...hee...
after church the normal group of us went for lunch...and thereafter i headed to SSDC for practical lesson...on my way there by train,there were 2 kids sitting bside me...den i duno why the sudden i juz took out the tidbits i have and juz gave all to them...and that action of mine really made them happy...and made my day when i see them so happy...den i went for driving...finally completed stage1...took ages man...haaz...but driving is fun lah...though troublesome to change gear...nice driving out on the road...but really scary when u never know when people will suddenly dash out of the road(think i'm one of such person...heez...)...or a car or motorcycle suddenly appear behind or bside u...heez...
after practical lesson...i decided to go home...cos tired...but since i stopped at toa payoh...i went to walk around to see clothes...den bought 2 bottoms from giodano...den went home...it's great that i go home early today...cos it's seldom that the whole family are all home...and we went out to eat...all of us thought for very long for a place to eat...many names were mentioned...in the end decided to go Senbawang there to eat...its called Bottle Tree Village...nice place i should say...thumbs up...plus the food is not bad...the restaurant is facing the sea...u can either sit indoor or outdoor...and the carpark is like only afew metres away from the sea lor...if drive v fast or lose control sure drive into the sea..haaa...and right across the sea can see Pasir Gudang(duno spell correctly anot) seafood restaurant...however, 1 bad thing is that there are no lightings for tables outdoor...cannot see clearly lor...dun even noe what food we are taking...wahahahaa...but its nice lah...it's at Sembawang Park there...and drive all the way in...hmmm...had a filling dinner...after dinner we went home...watched abit of tv...den now online...sleeping soon..tired...
anyway...will say abit of wat i did and happened yesterday...great day too...
usual morning where i go give tuition...after that i went to Amore for Hip Hop and KickBoxing...super tiring lor...den cos my classmates jio me out at nite, i went home to change and left my stuff at home...den went for service...great service with Paster Miguel again...very interesting pastor...heez...after service most of the youths headed to Geraldine's surprise Birthday Party...really a great surprise for her...the presence of many ppl really surprised her...plus Pat and Charis and family were back from KL...missed them sooo much man...the kids esp(all thanks to her great bf and sis and family and some other frens)...oh yah...was supposed to meet my frens at 9.30pm but i dragged till 10.30pm den leave...and took a cab down...oh yah...back to the party...not only is a bdae surprise...its something she cannot forget for the rest of her life!Her bf proposed to her...but before the proposal, she was asked to look down the window of a 2-storey high place...and there he was...with a script...giving a speech to her...and singing a song...something grow old song...so romantic man...plus in front of sooo many ppl lor...thereafter...2 frens pulled out a long stretch of note that writes " Will You Grow Old With Me?"...wah lao...so sweet man...she said yes and every1 was so happy for her...really glad for her...really wish her happiness...and may God Bless them in their walk with God together...oh yah...after the proposal and a small video clip, i left to meet my frens...they decided to go relax at Devils Bar...so juz go lor...cos is to relax cos after exams...happening bunch of frens i should sae...hmmm...anyway the crowd at Devil's isnt really happening...saw afew gays...and a weird couple dancing...even lao ah pek went lah...cool man...havent been to such places in ages...didnt noe lao ah pek also go...hahahaha...anyway i left at 1plus with the rest still around...cos i dowan my dad to worry...went home...bathe and sleep...yups...dats my dae yesterday...not bad huh...but really tiring...duno how i survived today...haa...
anyway gotta stop here...take gd care...
God Bless...*smiles*
hmm...2dae was not a bad day...early morning got up for LIW class(church class)...Missions and Evangelism...last lesson for the term...yay!haaz...but new term gona commence soon though...have yet to know what lesson i will be taking next term...therafter i didnt attend service cos got duty in the Children Ministry...in the 3 - 6yrs old group...juz love the kids...so cute lor...heez...and everytime during my duty...i will juz spoil the kids lah...cos will buy crackers, tidbits or sweets for them...heez...very happy to see them happy...love it when they give mi hugs and kisses...and when they allow me to carry them...heez...kids are juz so adorable...never regretted joining the Children Ministry...hmmm...after the kids got their goodies, there are some left so i took afew...hee...
after church the normal group of us went for lunch...and thereafter i headed to SSDC for practical lesson...on my way there by train,there were 2 kids sitting bside me...den i duno why the sudden i juz took out the tidbits i have and juz gave all to them...and that action of mine really made them happy...and made my day when i see them so happy...den i went for driving...finally completed stage1...took ages man...haaz...but driving is fun lah...though troublesome to change gear...nice driving out on the road...but really scary when u never know when people will suddenly dash out of the road(think i'm one of such person...heez...)...or a car or motorcycle suddenly appear behind or bside u...heez...
after practical lesson...i decided to go home...cos tired...but since i stopped at toa payoh...i went to walk around to see clothes...den bought 2 bottoms from giodano...den went home...it's great that i go home early today...cos it's seldom that the whole family are all home...and we went out to eat...all of us thought for very long for a place to eat...many names were mentioned...in the end decided to go Senbawang there to eat...its called Bottle Tree Village...nice place i should say...thumbs up...plus the food is not bad...the restaurant is facing the sea...u can either sit indoor or outdoor...and the carpark is like only afew metres away from the sea lor...if drive v fast or lose control sure drive into the sea..haaa...and right across the sea can see Pasir Gudang(duno spell correctly anot) seafood restaurant...however, 1 bad thing is that there are no lightings for tables outdoor...cannot see clearly lor...dun even noe what food we are taking...wahahahaa...but its nice lah...it's at Sembawang Park there...and drive all the way in...hmmm...had a filling dinner...after dinner we went home...watched abit of tv...den now online...sleeping soon..tired...
anyway...will say abit of wat i did and happened yesterday...great day too...
usual morning where i go give tuition...after that i went to Amore for Hip Hop and KickBoxing...super tiring lor...den cos my classmates jio me out at nite, i went home to change and left my stuff at home...den went for service...great service with Paster Miguel again...very interesting pastor...heez...after service most of the youths headed to Geraldine's surprise Birthday Party...really a great surprise for her...the presence of many ppl really surprised her...plus Pat and Charis and family were back from KL...missed them sooo much man...the kids esp(all thanks to her great bf and sis and family and some other frens)...oh yah...was supposed to meet my frens at 9.30pm but i dragged till 10.30pm den leave...and took a cab down...oh yah...back to the party...not only is a bdae surprise...its something she cannot forget for the rest of her life!Her bf proposed to her...but before the proposal, she was asked to look down the window of a 2-storey high place...and there he was...with a script...giving a speech to her...and singing a song...something grow old song...so romantic man...plus in front of sooo many ppl lor...thereafter...2 frens pulled out a long stretch of note that writes " Will You Grow Old With Me?"...wah lao...so sweet man...she said yes and every1 was so happy for her...really glad for her...really wish her happiness...and may God Bless them in their walk with God together...oh yah...after the proposal and a small video clip, i left to meet my frens...they decided to go relax at Devils Bar...so juz go lor...cos is to relax cos after exams...happening bunch of frens i should sae...hmmm...anyway the crowd at Devil's isnt really happening...saw afew gays...and a weird couple dancing...even lao ah pek went lah...cool man...havent been to such places in ages...didnt noe lao ah pek also go...hahahaha...anyway i left at 1plus with the rest still around...cos i dowan my dad to worry...went home...bathe and sleep...yups...dats my dae yesterday...not bad huh...but really tiring...duno how i survived today...haa...
anyway gotta stop here...take gd care...
God Bless...*smiles*
Saturday, September 23, 2006
~exams over for this sem~
~WooHoo~ exams juz ended afew hrs ago...tired sia...a whole day of studying...trying to study i should say...have had my exams this week on Tuesday anf Friday...took leave on these 2 days to study for my exams...actually i should say these 2 days of revision before exams are the most fruitful (though most of the time fighting off sleepy monster)...i managed to study as much as i can...and guess what? i actually have not felt any nervous-ness during these 2 papers...just went in to the exam hall and write...trying my best to recal what i've studied...anyway for both these papers, i managed to attempt all needed questions, however, unsure about validity. tried to smoke through lor...no choice...but at least i tried to attempt all needed questions...guess that is why i i'm not that worried about how i will fare as compared to all other papers i've taken in the past. have always remembered i will keep on worrying and saying that i have high chances of failing...but not this time...actually when it's like that...i guess i should be more worried...y? cos in the past i'm always so worried, but i managed to pass all...but now i'm not worried...wat if...?haaz...duno lah...anyway i felt that i have did my best...studied hard though is last minute...all i can do is leave it to God...He will do the rest...heez...
oh yah...vomitted when i reached school today...sigh...vomitted the whole of my dinner...stomach was empty when i go into the exam hall...and kinda pain cos of the gastric juices (no food to digest since all vomitted out)...sigh...i had my dinner at about 445pm and thereafter i went to school...wasnt feeling really well when i'm in the bus...and was trying to hold my puke till i reach school's toilet...haaz...while walking to school, i happened to bump into Jason, baby Caleb, and Leon...kinda surprised to see them...however i juz said hi to them, and played with baby Caleb awhile and i rushed off...cos cannot tahan liao...haaz...
sigh...really wonder when all these puking and pains will stop...been taking med still no help...however, much inproved on the psycho side...anyway i guess 2dae's puking is cos i ate too much(no choice...only my portion was cooked n cos dowana waste food, i finished them)...wasnt supposed to eat alot at a time...now my portion of food got to be lessened and number of meals increased...if not my stomach cannot take it...sian...sum1 who used to be able to eat alot at a time gotta eat little liao...sigh...
anyway will stop here...sian man...sch starting on Monday...grrr...no rest at all...haaz...
take care...God Bless~~~
oh yah...vomitted when i reached school today...sigh...vomitted the whole of my dinner...stomach was empty when i go into the exam hall...and kinda pain cos of the gastric juices (no food to digest since all vomitted out)...sigh...i had my dinner at about 445pm and thereafter i went to school...wasnt feeling really well when i'm in the bus...and was trying to hold my puke till i reach school's toilet...haaz...while walking to school, i happened to bump into Jason, baby Caleb, and Leon...kinda surprised to see them...however i juz said hi to them, and played with baby Caleb awhile and i rushed off...cos cannot tahan liao...haaz...
sigh...really wonder when all these puking and pains will stop...been taking med still no help...however, much inproved on the psycho side...anyway i guess 2dae's puking is cos i ate too much(no choice...only my portion was cooked n cos dowana waste food, i finished them)...wasnt supposed to eat alot at a time...now my portion of food got to be lessened and number of meals increased...if not my stomach cannot take it...sian...sum1 who used to be able to eat alot at a time gotta eat little liao...sigh...
anyway will stop here...sian man...sch starting on Monday...grrr...no rest at all...haaz...
take care...God Bless~~~
Saturday, September 16, 2006
~sigh...vomiting symptoms r back~
sad sia...these few days keep vomiting after meals...lucky not every meal...if not i really dont know what to do...cos i'm really sick of vomiting...everytime after i vomited, i will juz squat down and cry...cos i'm really tired of all these...sigh...however, 1 thing that is puzzling me is that i thought my condition is getting better...i mean i prevented and avoided getting stressed already...but still...such symptoms r back...sigh...my colleague told me maybe i'm stressed about my coming exams...which i didnt feel it...anyway past few days i've been trying to study...i did...but...i totally forget what i've read/studied...didnt remember a single bit at all...very sad lor...this is the reason why i always cannot do revision...cos i noe i cant remember anything even if i did study earlier...and that is y i always have to study last minute (on the day of exam itself)...and really thank God that these past 2 yrs my results are ok...and thank God i have yet to fail any modules...and praying real hard i will not fail any for the whole course...but...i guess i have to accept it if i really were to fail cos i'm always last minute...sigh...if fail means extra 3mths per module and afew hundred dollars...something i've always been avoiding...i am really hoping that this whole deg course ends asap...anyway i will still do my best during my last min studying...even if i fail...i think God has a reason for it to happen...haa...guess gotta learn to take it easy...and accept what God has planned for mi! heez...
anyway these past few days have been noticing many people getting sick or something like that...juz hope these people get well soon...drink more water...get more rest...God will Bless u! heez...
take care...God Bless!
anyway these past few days have been noticing many people getting sick or something like that...juz hope these people get well soon...drink more water...get more rest...God will Bless u! heez...
take care...God Bless!
Thursday, September 14, 2006
~am i fat last time???~
*yawnz*...juz reached home abt 30mins ago (11.08pm) i guess...would have been later if i took the train and bus...but thanks to Ben, he sent me home...cos he was nearby SSDC...was learning driving just now till 1030pm lor...hmmm...yah...driving is fun...but tiring...but i'm pissed lah...cos duno the instructors purposely wana earn my money or wat, only let me pass 1 subject each lesson...slow lor...or am i lousy?hahahaha...sigh...nvm...cos i'm still new to driving lah...so boh bian...guess have to spend more lor...sigh...hmmm...
Anyway, b4 i went driving i had a quick revision for exam(soon!) in the library...sian man...guess wat?i forgot wat i've studied liao lah...sianzzz...i got short term memory lor...cannot remember alot of things lor...and i selectively remember...and since i dun really like to study...that goes the same for not remembering wat i've studied... -___-''' haaz...hmmm...
oh yah...going back to the topic on my title, juz wana ask u people who have seen me mayb at least a yr ago and now...am i really fat or more meaty back then? cos these past few months cos of stress n my gastric, i usually vomit watever i eat...which then causes me to lose alot of weight along the way...where now i'm about 47kg...whereby taking Jan 06 my weight was about 52 or 53kg...which means a drop by about 5kg...but the thing is i cant see much difference in my size...i still see tummy!haaa...and the past 2 months or so i've been hearing alot of people (school, workplace and others) say that i look alot 'slimmer' or 'skinnier' now compared to say the beginning of the yr...which i'm really quite puzzled...cos all along since mayb the beginning of the yr i thought i wasnt really fat...plus now i feel i look kinda the same...but after hearing them say i look skinnier now, means i'm really fat previously lah...sad lor...cos all along i thought i wasnt...hahaha...only heavier in weight...haa...i duno lah...i juz cannot get over people keep saying " ni shou le hen duo" in mandarin lah...and the 1st thought that comes to my mind is " means i'm very fat last time lah?"...i suddenly brought this issue up is cos juz now after work on my way to library i saw a colleague of mine whom i seldom see esp after i shifted up to 25th floor...den she suddenly exclaimed "wah u slim down alot ar? wat u eat ar?"...i was like...erm...cos i got gastric problem so mayb dats the cause lor...haaz...hmmm...but the thing was that wat i wore 2dae doesnt make mi look thinner leh...in fact it makes mi look abit more fat...but...hmmm...duno lah...but guess i'm sensitive in such matters about weight ba...will keep thinkin dat ppl think i'm fat as they think i'm skinnier now...haaaz...
k lah will stop here...sigh...still coughing lah...sian leh...but i have myself to blame...i still eat chocolate!!!haaaz...k lah...nitez...byeeeee
take care n God Bless~
Anyway, b4 i went driving i had a quick revision for exam(soon!) in the library...sian man...guess wat?i forgot wat i've studied liao lah...sianzzz...i got short term memory lor...cannot remember alot of things lor...and i selectively remember...and since i dun really like to study...that goes the same for not remembering wat i've studied... -___-''' haaz...hmmm...
oh yah...going back to the topic on my title, juz wana ask u people who have seen me mayb at least a yr ago and now...am i really fat or more meaty back then? cos these past few months cos of stress n my gastric, i usually vomit watever i eat...which then causes me to lose alot of weight along the way...where now i'm about 47kg...whereby taking Jan 06 my weight was about 52 or 53kg...which means a drop by about 5kg...but the thing is i cant see much difference in my size...i still see tummy!haaa...and the past 2 months or so i've been hearing alot of people (school, workplace and others) say that i look alot 'slimmer' or 'skinnier' now compared to say the beginning of the yr...which i'm really quite puzzled...cos all along since mayb the beginning of the yr i thought i wasnt really fat...plus now i feel i look kinda the same...but after hearing them say i look skinnier now, means i'm really fat previously lah...sad lor...cos all along i thought i wasnt...hahaha...only heavier in weight...haa...i duno lah...i juz cannot get over people keep saying " ni shou le hen duo" in mandarin lah...and the 1st thought that comes to my mind is " means i'm very fat last time lah?"...i suddenly brought this issue up is cos juz now after work on my way to library i saw a colleague of mine whom i seldom see esp after i shifted up to 25th floor...den she suddenly exclaimed "wah u slim down alot ar? wat u eat ar?"...i was like...erm...cos i got gastric problem so mayb dats the cause lor...haaz...hmmm...but the thing was that wat i wore 2dae doesnt make mi look thinner leh...in fact it makes mi look abit more fat...but...hmmm...duno lah...but guess i'm sensitive in such matters about weight ba...will keep thinkin dat ppl think i'm fat as they think i'm skinnier now...haaaz...
k lah will stop here...sigh...still coughing lah...sian leh...but i have myself to blame...i still eat chocolate!!!haaaz...k lah...nitez...byeeeee
take care n God Bless~
Thursday, September 07, 2006
~not feeling well~
sigh...sick...bad throat infection...went to see doc 2dae cos last night cannot even sleep well...keep coughing...and throat very pain...guess i ate too much chips n chocs...(but no regrets...wahhaha)...actually my throat already pain the night b4 liao...thought of going to see doc on Wed morning...but cos wed i'm bz with reports...so i went to work instead...and knowing that my throat is already pain...i still ate cheezels and chocs...and twisties...hahahahaa...guess that's y i had a horrible night...hahahaha...now still coughing though...but alot better...luckily this time round of throat pain is not followed by fever...haaz...even got MC for the day...but still went for work...heez...love to work liao lah...haha...
anyway...work is getting better i guess...supervisor still as nice...heez...colleague too...always will feel blessed that God has sent someone who has the same belief as mi to work with me...so that as and when i need spiritual guidance or advise i can turn to her...Praise the Lord!she's a very nice sis in Christ...glad that she's around to talk to me...
oh yah...there's a new colleague in my team...a management associate...he's been rotating around different depts...but eventually will stay put in the dept i'm in by Jan 07...however, he'll be staying in my dept from now till mid Oct this yr...den rotate to another dept...den come back on Jan 07...nice and hardworking person...but somehow wayy too serious in work and v quiet...but wat's good abt him is that he is constantly asking and learning...guess i should learn from him this habit of his...ask questions when in doubt...it's something i dont really do...and my supervisor wants me to practice that...so that i can learn...yup yup...it's time...haaa...
anyway...as for now, my supervisor presented him with a project to do with me, which is creating a Management Information System(MIS) into a database format to ease my doing of reporting...and also to automate it instead of being so manual in retrieving data...he's very enthusiastic about it and systematic...he's been learning what i usually do everyday in pulling out the data and asking me alot of questions...and he's working on the new project already!glad that he's around to help me...cos i wouldnt know when i will have the extra hand to do this project...plus he target to complete it in about 2wks time...he's great man...haaa...but somehow me n my colleague feel abit weird with him around...mayb he's too quiet i guess...and we feel kinda bad cos whenever is lunch time, we will meet up with our own group of makan khakis...den nv ask him along...guess muz have lunch w him or ask him along liao...muz bring in the bond for our team...heee...
kk will stop here...need sleep...keep coughing now...sigh...i miss my chips n chocs...wahahahahaa...will eat them once i'm ok...wahahahaa...and sigh...exams are coming...really need to prepare this time...the modules are kinda difficult...but not yet started and i'm left with less than 2wks!!!haa...better buck up...heee...
k nightz...take care n God Bless~~
anyway...work is getting better i guess...supervisor still as nice...heez...colleague too...always will feel blessed that God has sent someone who has the same belief as mi to work with me...so that as and when i need spiritual guidance or advise i can turn to her...Praise the Lord!she's a very nice sis in Christ...glad that she's around to talk to me...
oh yah...there's a new colleague in my team...a management associate...he's been rotating around different depts...but eventually will stay put in the dept i'm in by Jan 07...however, he'll be staying in my dept from now till mid Oct this yr...den rotate to another dept...den come back on Jan 07...nice and hardworking person...but somehow wayy too serious in work and v quiet...but wat's good abt him is that he is constantly asking and learning...guess i should learn from him this habit of his...ask questions when in doubt...it's something i dont really do...and my supervisor wants me to practice that...so that i can learn...yup yup...it's time...haaa...
anyway...as for now, my supervisor presented him with a project to do with me, which is creating a Management Information System(MIS) into a database format to ease my doing of reporting...and also to automate it instead of being so manual in retrieving data...he's very enthusiastic about it and systematic...he's been learning what i usually do everyday in pulling out the data and asking me alot of questions...and he's working on the new project already!glad that he's around to help me...cos i wouldnt know when i will have the extra hand to do this project...plus he target to complete it in about 2wks time...he's great man...haaa...but somehow me n my colleague feel abit weird with him around...mayb he's too quiet i guess...and we feel kinda bad cos whenever is lunch time, we will meet up with our own group of makan khakis...den nv ask him along...guess muz have lunch w him or ask him along liao...muz bring in the bond for our team...heee...
kk will stop here...need sleep...keep coughing now...sigh...i miss my chips n chocs...wahahahahaa...will eat them once i'm ok...wahahahaa...and sigh...exams are coming...really need to prepare this time...the modules are kinda difficult...but not yet started and i'm left with less than 2wks!!!haa...better buck up...heee...
k nightz...take care n God Bless~~
Thursday, August 31, 2006
~sigh~
sigh...my health has really been very unpredictable these days...at one period of time, i can be totally fine, but at the next moment, i will go back into vomitting and feeling uneasy...sigh...juz really hate such things happening to me...at times i really cannot take it anymore and really hope all will end off...sigh...anyway my doc is back from reservist...so i went to visit him (at the clinic) on Monday morning...i told him what had happened during the 3plus weeks he's not around...really suffering man( at one period of time)...sigh...anyway, as usual, medicine increase...more to take...plus 1 more treatment - treating my mental health...sigh...guess i'm going mad...he asked me to list down all the things i think that affects me or stress me (more of unresolved matters)...have already get the list more or less done...will email it to him soon...which means 1st session's gona start soon...
guess what? actually my list did not include my work, cos i think i'm happy with what i am doing now and my new environment...but yesterday i added work in...really sad...been really bothered by itactually since i came into the new environment...but i thought it might get better...but did not...sigh...i'm happy at work now cos i learn alot and get to do afew new projects, one of which is doing up charts and getting it linked to powerpoint, thereafter put into a webpage for the different product managers(of credit card) to view...though webpage not done by me(cos i dont know how to), but i did most of the charts and linking of powerpoint. I really put in my best effort(even brought it home over the weekends to do) and really wana see it successful. This webpage will be launching soon and i'm really happy. But what i'm bothered about is that i feel i did soo much, maybe my hardwork is seen...but i feel i'm not appreciated...really sad abt it...keep wanting to cry when i think about it...my supervisor is really a nice person who taught me alot of things and the 1 who asked me to handle this project...but i feel whenever there's other things more impt about this project, he will consult or discuss with my other colleague and i really feel left out...totally...i mean i'm part of this project, but y leave me out of the discussion? i just feel i'm only being made to do those troublesome parts...i feel i can get any credit out of it...nobody recognised it...feel that i'm just visible when needed help to do the base work...but invisible when the light is shining...but not on me...sigh...i really dont know what to do...i really love what i'm doing...really wana do my best and excel to as high as possible...i think i'm doing well...but unseen...i'm really very sad...i really do not know what to do...these nearly 2yrs doing this management reporting, i've worked my best, there are worse times too...but...i do not get any credit...arghhhhh...really frustrated...and it's getting on my emotions...where it will hit my health...sigh...really sad...
cant continue liao...will stop here...think will cry if i go on...take care
God Bless...
guess what? actually my list did not include my work, cos i think i'm happy with what i am doing now and my new environment...but yesterday i added work in...really sad...been really bothered by itactually since i came into the new environment...but i thought it might get better...but did not...sigh...i'm happy at work now cos i learn alot and get to do afew new projects, one of which is doing up charts and getting it linked to powerpoint, thereafter put into a webpage for the different product managers(of credit card) to view...though webpage not done by me(cos i dont know how to), but i did most of the charts and linking of powerpoint. I really put in my best effort(even brought it home over the weekends to do) and really wana see it successful. This webpage will be launching soon and i'm really happy. But what i'm bothered about is that i feel i did soo much, maybe my hardwork is seen...but i feel i'm not appreciated...really sad abt it...keep wanting to cry when i think about it...my supervisor is really a nice person who taught me alot of things and the 1 who asked me to handle this project...but i feel whenever there's other things more impt about this project, he will consult or discuss with my other colleague and i really feel left out...totally...i mean i'm part of this project, but y leave me out of the discussion? i just feel i'm only being made to do those troublesome parts...i feel i can get any credit out of it...nobody recognised it...feel that i'm just visible when needed help to do the base work...but invisible when the light is shining...but not on me...sigh...i really dont know what to do...i really love what i'm doing...really wana do my best and excel to as high as possible...i think i'm doing well...but unseen...i'm really very sad...i really do not know what to do...these nearly 2yrs doing this management reporting, i've worked my best, there are worse times too...but...i do not get any credit...arghhhhh...really frustrated...and it's getting on my emotions...where it will hit my health...sigh...really sad...
cant continue liao...will stop here...think will cry if i go on...take care
God Bless...
Monday, August 21, 2006
~felt better~
the past few days i've been feeling alot better in terms of health...except at time abit of gastric pains...vomit once or twice...quite happy cos guess health is improving bit by bit...not only that...my emotional health is getting better...less of crying already...realy thank ppl around me...and most of all...thank God...He's the best...i've actually have been quite distant away from God for a period of time...really wana spend time talking to God...but just like now, am 'addicted' to distractive stuff like the computer...and by the time i stop using...i'm too tired for devotion time...really have been neglecting God alot...i only have super short talks with Him b4 i sleep or when i'm walking alone...and in church in too...but i've not done the most important thing which is to read His Word...however, now i'm reading some books given by some friends...these are all Christian books...though is still not a Bible, at least they are somethings that will in a way or other bring me closer to God...but still, nothing beats reading the bible...i really really need to have the discipline on this...
anyway, 2dae i OT till abt 8pm...was thinking of going out...but i think it's something God planned, i eventually went home...duno whether is something good or bad, i went home and had a 3hr quarrel cum talk with my parents...actually my dad has always been angry with me cos he doesnt like my current lifestyle...out early in the morning and home abt 10plus or so...he keeps wondering y i do not need any rest at all...and he's unhappy i'm not always at home n feels i dun love home and family at all...actually i really really do love my family alot...appreciated them alot for bringing me up...guess still...i do not noe how to express...the quarrel was kinda bad till he said he do not want to care abt me anymore...was really sad...the quarrel was filled with tears...for me...my dad, is sum1 who cares and loves me most in the family...without him and his strictness, i wouldnt be who i am now...actually i will really be devastated if he really were to not care about me anymore...love my dad whole lots...but...i guess i'm brought up in an environment where we do not express love for each other even if we really do...each of us family members are like that...how i envy friends whom i hear that they hugged and kissed their parents...say 'i love you' to them...would always wonder why not mine?but still, it is lived this way...guess it cant be changed much...been that man years already...but that doesnt stop me from loving them...only that the way i express is not what they want...that is why my dad is disappointed in me...how i really wish he understands my situation...ppl would say that i should tell him...but to me it's difficult...tried telling him...but his traditional thinking wouldnt budge...so it's kinda no use...and actually i all the while really wana work hard at work...show my worth...(which i felt that not many noticed)...study hard...and eventually earn much more so that i can provide more for them...but still...wat they want is me to be at home...really trying hard now though...
anyway the quarrel digressed...means its actually not really solved...i mean the problem...however, the other topic we talked about actually made mi understand them more...something good...it's on something about the whole big family...misunderstandings of the older generations and stuff...anyway these batch of people are old and mature enough to handle these problems...i wouldnt care much...but what i really hope is that all of their misunderstandings do not affect the younger generation...i really treasure my relationships with my cousins...they are the people who will grow old together with me...that's y i feel that our relationship should be close...i really hope things of the older generation will not happen...
sometimes i really wonder how God does the unexpected...u will really be amazed...although the problem with my dad is not solved, God planned it that i go home earlier juz to at least bring back the bonds with my parents(though it still includes the quarrel)...i noe my dad now feels alot better...cos we really sat down and spend time to talk(the digression part)...
anyway...i really gotta do some reflection on myself too...my attitude...been really too stubborn...whole family has been like that...really gotta spend time and talk to God to give me the strength and wisdom to handle matters esp at home...as for work and studies, He has always been constantly blessing me...good supervisor and colleague, good group members for assignments...i can reall admit till now i really duno much about what i've studied in these 2yrs...but i managed to pass...some even with fairly good results...all these are really God's blessings...i mean i will also have to thank frens around me who helped too...but still, wihout God, i guessed i might not have come till this point...but, i still have to try and do my part by doing revision and stuff...yup...hmmz...
aniway will stop here...take gd care...
God Bless~
anyway, 2dae i OT till abt 8pm...was thinking of going out...but i think it's something God planned, i eventually went home...duno whether is something good or bad, i went home and had a 3hr quarrel cum talk with my parents...actually my dad has always been angry with me cos he doesnt like my current lifestyle...out early in the morning and home abt 10plus or so...he keeps wondering y i do not need any rest at all...and he's unhappy i'm not always at home n feels i dun love home and family at all...actually i really really do love my family alot...appreciated them alot for bringing me up...guess still...i do not noe how to express...the quarrel was kinda bad till he said he do not want to care abt me anymore...was really sad...the quarrel was filled with tears...for me...my dad, is sum1 who cares and loves me most in the family...without him and his strictness, i wouldnt be who i am now...actually i will really be devastated if he really were to not care about me anymore...love my dad whole lots...but...i guess i'm brought up in an environment where we do not express love for each other even if we really do...each of us family members are like that...how i envy friends whom i hear that they hugged and kissed their parents...say 'i love you' to them...would always wonder why not mine?but still, it is lived this way...guess it cant be changed much...been that man years already...but that doesnt stop me from loving them...only that the way i express is not what they want...that is why my dad is disappointed in me...how i really wish he understands my situation...ppl would say that i should tell him...but to me it's difficult...tried telling him...but his traditional thinking wouldnt budge...so it's kinda no use...and actually i all the while really wana work hard at work...show my worth...(which i felt that not many noticed)...study hard...and eventually earn much more so that i can provide more for them...but still...wat they want is me to be at home...really trying hard now though...
anyway the quarrel digressed...means its actually not really solved...i mean the problem...however, the other topic we talked about actually made mi understand them more...something good...it's on something about the whole big family...misunderstandings of the older generations and stuff...anyway these batch of people are old and mature enough to handle these problems...i wouldnt care much...but what i really hope is that all of their misunderstandings do not affect the younger generation...i really treasure my relationships with my cousins...they are the people who will grow old together with me...that's y i feel that our relationship should be close...i really hope things of the older generation will not happen...
sometimes i really wonder how God does the unexpected...u will really be amazed...although the problem with my dad is not solved, God planned it that i go home earlier juz to at least bring back the bonds with my parents(though it still includes the quarrel)...i noe my dad now feels alot better...cos we really sat down and spend time to talk(the digression part)...
anyway...i really gotta do some reflection on myself too...my attitude...been really too stubborn...whole family has been like that...really gotta spend time and talk to God to give me the strength and wisdom to handle matters esp at home...as for work and studies, He has always been constantly blessing me...good supervisor and colleague, good group members for assignments...i can reall admit till now i really duno much about what i've studied in these 2yrs...but i managed to pass...some even with fairly good results...all these are really God's blessings...i mean i will also have to thank frens around me who helped too...but still, wihout God, i guessed i might not have come till this point...but, i still have to try and do my part by doing revision and stuff...yup...hmmz...
aniway will stop here...take gd care...
God Bless~
Saturday, August 19, 2006
~health getting worse???~
Sigh~...duno what's happening to my health...getting worse each day...even with medication...and taking more of bland food...sigh...
past few days been vomiting and vomiting whenever possible...sometimes i'm really getting tired of it...very xin ku u noe...but i cant do anything...but still thank many people for showering me with loads of concern...sigh...i really miss my doc...he went for reservist and will onli be back at the end of month...means i gotta 'suffer' for the next few weeks...cos only he knows my condition and tell me what to do...say for today(friday)...was having kinda a bad time at work...not abt work but my health...i rushed to the toilet twice to vomit...and my whole body just feel uncomfortable...so i told my supervisor and went back...i noe my doc isnt ard...but i still went to the clinic at my place(for MC too)...pathethic...no patients(though is a good thing lah)...but most patients when they noe that the doc isnt the doc i usually see...they wun go...dat is wy at that time nobody at all...i went in...he juz sat at the chair in a slack position...and asked me what happended...i told him is my usual symptoms...den he was like duno what to do...asked me what do i want...he sae he cant do anything except giving more medicine which i already have...so i juz told him to give mi my MC instead...n left...see what i mean?he doesnt know anything!i mean he may know alot abt being a doctor...but he doesnt know how to deal with my condition...see him also no use...really miss my doc man...
after i got my MC...i went home n sleep...for abt 5 hrs i think...den wash up and went to my place nearby coffeeshop to have some porridge and went for class...on my way...i duno y...keep thinking alots of things again...and i really cant remember what i was thinking abt...den keep crying...in the day i cried too cos i juz cant take it that i kept vomiting...then when i was in class...at certain points of time...i teared abit again...but nobody saw...covered my face...and have got gastric pain...when when i'm on my way home...i teared too...juz duno why...is this really symptoms of depression?how is depression like?sigh...n i went home n vomitted again...i really find it very xin ku...and i feel that when i get home...i gotta put on another front that i'm simply fine and healthy...1st is not to worry my parents...2nd is to prevent myself from getting nagged or scolded at...n being blamed that i caused this upon myself...sigh...wonder how long is this going to be like...a colleague of mine kept advising me to think of happy thoughts...but it's really difficult to void off those unhappy ones...or troubled ones...at times i really do not noe what to do...do pray at times...guess i'm not desperate enough...have i given up on myself?i really duno...sigh...
many advise me to go on a break...but i really do not have enough leave...and i cant bear to leave my work juz like that...my work is very impt to me and i take my work v seriously...i can rather not go relax and sink myself into work...and there's also no way for me to leave work juz like that...cos there's some daily report that have to be sent out everyday...and i've got to do it...and there are other work which no one noes how to do it...so how am i to go for a break?i have to be at my work always...and at this period of time, the colleagues whom i think might have to learn to do my stuff(to be my back up) is very bz with other areas of work...i also wldnt want to burden her with more of my work...so dat's y...hmmm...
anyway gotta stop here...being nagged to sleep...nitez all...take care
God Bless n Love all of ya...
siyin-ann
past few days been vomiting and vomiting whenever possible...sometimes i'm really getting tired of it...very xin ku u noe...but i cant do anything...but still thank many people for showering me with loads of concern...sigh...i really miss my doc...he went for reservist and will onli be back at the end of month...means i gotta 'suffer' for the next few weeks...cos only he knows my condition and tell me what to do...say for today(friday)...was having kinda a bad time at work...not abt work but my health...i rushed to the toilet twice to vomit...and my whole body just feel uncomfortable...so i told my supervisor and went back...i noe my doc isnt ard...but i still went to the clinic at my place(for MC too)...pathethic...no patients(though is a good thing lah)...but most patients when they noe that the doc isnt the doc i usually see...they wun go...dat is wy at that time nobody at all...i went in...he juz sat at the chair in a slack position...and asked me what happended...i told him is my usual symptoms...den he was like duno what to do...asked me what do i want...he sae he cant do anything except giving more medicine which i already have...so i juz told him to give mi my MC instead...n left...see what i mean?he doesnt know anything!i mean he may know alot abt being a doctor...but he doesnt know how to deal with my condition...see him also no use...really miss my doc man...
after i got my MC...i went home n sleep...for abt 5 hrs i think...den wash up and went to my place nearby coffeeshop to have some porridge and went for class...on my way...i duno y...keep thinking alots of things again...and i really cant remember what i was thinking abt...den keep crying...in the day i cried too cos i juz cant take it that i kept vomiting...then when i was in class...at certain points of time...i teared abit again...but nobody saw...covered my face...and have got gastric pain...when when i'm on my way home...i teared too...juz duno why...is this really symptoms of depression?how is depression like?sigh...n i went home n vomitted again...i really find it very xin ku...and i feel that when i get home...i gotta put on another front that i'm simply fine and healthy...1st is not to worry my parents...2nd is to prevent myself from getting nagged or scolded at...n being blamed that i caused this upon myself...sigh...wonder how long is this going to be like...a colleague of mine kept advising me to think of happy thoughts...but it's really difficult to void off those unhappy ones...or troubled ones...at times i really do not noe what to do...do pray at times...guess i'm not desperate enough...have i given up on myself?i really duno...sigh...
many advise me to go on a break...but i really do not have enough leave...and i cant bear to leave my work juz like that...my work is very impt to me and i take my work v seriously...i can rather not go relax and sink myself into work...and there's also no way for me to leave work juz like that...cos there's some daily report that have to be sent out everyday...and i've got to do it...and there are other work which no one noes how to do it...so how am i to go for a break?i have to be at my work always...and at this period of time, the colleagues whom i think might have to learn to do my stuff(to be my back up) is very bz with other areas of work...i also wldnt want to burden her with more of my work...so dat's y...hmmm...
anyway gotta stop here...being nagged to sleep...nitez all...take care
God Bless n Love all of ya...
siyin-ann
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
~unstable mood~
hey peeps...my mood hasnt been any good these past few days...mind's in a mess...duno wat to do...juz hope things will slowly get better and my life get back on track...
take care...
God Bless~
take care...
God Bless~
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