sigh...feeling down...really down...sad...sad till now i'm drowning myself with work...though i getting to hate it more and more...i really duno wat to do...asked God for answers...but i can't hear...guess i din try hard enough...
when i heard the news...i juz kept quiet...while in my mind, many things are bombarding wat i'm thinking...thinking abt wat's the point of staying when there are so much changes in the structure of work...thinking y i'm always being pushed here n there at work(meaning i keep changing team n changing supervisors but job scope somehow the same)...i'm...i'm juz sick of it...ARGHHHHH!!!...i'm sooo angry...but wat can i do?i can't say anything...dun have any say though...the best i can do is just quit...but...wat about my (maybe) promotion? wat abt my variable bonus? should i wait? or should i juz go? i do not have my degree yet...how to get a better job? it's difficult...really...but...i really duno wat to do...i broke down...literally broke down in the toilet...and keep asking God WHY...didnt get an answer...i'm tired...really tired...i love my job...but...i'm tired...i really duno wat to do...all i can do now is wait for God's direction...but i'm afraid...afraid i canot take it anymore...but...i should really put my faith in Him...i shouldnt have doubts...sigh...guess it's so...but juz sad...every now and then. when i think abt this thing...i really juz wana break down n cry again...sigh...
*Lord, i Need you*
*felt bad not attending the wake today (also for net too there)...but i dowan my bad mood to affect the rest...*
take care n God Bless~
Friday, January 26, 2007
Thursday, January 25, 2007
~life is just so...~
Unexpected...Fragile...
yah...those are true...but i would like to add in something about life...though it's unexpected and/or fragile, i would like to share with you people that life is eternal, IF we know the Lord, If we receive salvation, If we believe and trust in Him...
life now in this world, is only temporary...it's just a short period for us to go thru many tests and experience different kinds of circumstances, to suffer or to sacrifice (for God), and also to do the Will of God by spreading His Good News...bringing awareness to the people around the world so that all of us can be saved, and move on to eternity...eternity with the Lord...But...one thing for sure is that we have to accept Him as our Lord and saviour, say the sinner's prayer...however, more must be done, such as doing His will...follow what He has planned for us, as He is our creator...
accepting and believing in the Lord leads us to receiving His unconditional love...a kind of love that no one else other than He can give us...and we got to know that Nothing is impossible for Him...He is the Alpha and the Omega...
for your info, I love the Lord more than any others...He is the top priority in my life...n not only that i love Him soo much...i fear Him as much too...this is the kind of feeling(duno what word to use) we should have...i fear Him so much so that i am willing to follow His will...i can proudly say that without the Lord, i wouldn't be here...really...i really thank God with all my heart how He created me, though with some things complicated, but...He loves me so much that He does not want me to suffer and wants me to grow up in a normal family...many many years ago...even long before i was born...He had already planned for my life and had in His mind to create me...His plans for my life till now are just so wonderful that i really thank Him that if my life was gone through in another way, things wouldn't be the same...i might not even be here thanking the Lord...the Lord is always blessing me in my life...i've received countless blessings from Him and i am really grateful to Him...and He never forsake us...He is always there and always there to answer our prayers...ALL of us are His creation...and we are NOT a mistake to be created...each and every one of our lives has a purpose in it...it is only whether we want to accept it or not...
i do admit i always complain about my life...this and that...and even to the extent of questioning God y am i created...y am i in this world...cos i'm angry with some areas of my life...i repent...i took back my words saying all those stuffs...as we should only and only believe in God that everything that happened in our lives have a purpose and reasons to why all these happen...i dare say that even with God in our lives, life will still not be easy...as it is not written in the Bible that life will be easy after we accept Christ...if life is just so easy, all of us will be taking the Lord for granted instead...in life, there are bound to be ups and downs...experiences gone through...and even sacrifices made...many are tests given to us by God...to test our Faith...sometimes we fall...but sometimes after a great fall, we learn from it, and stand up ourselves and continue to serve God...but sad to say, for some, they fall and never came back...i really thank God that i have frens who fall and came back with even more fire in them...but...i'm sad for some who fell but refused to acknowledge the grace of God once again...this group of people will always be in my prayer list...
i,myself fell many times(not many or even none knowing)...sometimes refusing to stand up...but will eventually stand up slowly especially when i experience breakthroughs...dun even noe if they are breakthroughs...cos it's always short term...den i will fall again...but my love for God is always so strong...juz that something is pulling me away from Him...and i did not take much effort in walking towards God even though i really want to...really...i really want to have a close close close relationship with God...but i just don't know why...the fire usually lit is only for awhile...and it will die down...but lit up again....and die down...i really hope n pray that it will be lit up...and continue burning and burning...i really want that...but i will and am trying my best...
*Lord, pls forgive me for neglecting you at times and not spending more time with you...forgive me for only looking for you when i'm in need...and sometimes not even turning to you first when i need to talk to someone...Lord, i now pray for forgiveness...and Lord, i pray that you will always be around to guide me thru, and allow me to have the determination to keep on seeking in you and getting closer to you more each day. Lord i thank you and i praise you.
Amen!*
anyway...i digressed too much...actually wat i wana sae abt life being so fragile n unexpected is when i heard a v sad yet happy news abt a youth from my church...the sad thing is that something happened and he passed away...but...the happy thing is that he is now with the Lord...living an eternal life...where all of us will be one day...i'm happy that he accepted the Lord...and now is able to be up in heaven...happily with the Lord...Amen!
but when i know abt the news, i was in total shock...tears juz rolled down my eyes...i do admit i do not know much abt him...juz talked to him at times hoping that he feels part of us...but there are always regrets in life...regrets of y we didnt do our best to know a person more, love them more, and only to realise it when something happen...sigh......oh yah...God did a great miracle in him in his life too...the Lord is juz so amazing...
anyway will stop here...really thank God for being in my life...I Love you Lord...
thank you Lord for each and every thing or person you've put in my life...and Lord, some things in terms of my family's salvation, my work (need directions), my studies, and last but not least, my frens, i hand it all to you Lord...for i trust in you...i know u know what's best for me,,,you will never give me the second best...you will never shortchange me...you will give me the best...Thank you Lord...
take care all of you...sorry for the long long post...hope it enlightens you...the Lord is good...
God Bless~
yah...those are true...but i would like to add in something about life...though it's unexpected and/or fragile, i would like to share with you people that life is eternal, IF we know the Lord, If we receive salvation, If we believe and trust in Him...
life now in this world, is only temporary...it's just a short period for us to go thru many tests and experience different kinds of circumstances, to suffer or to sacrifice (for God), and also to do the Will of God by spreading His Good News...bringing awareness to the people around the world so that all of us can be saved, and move on to eternity...eternity with the Lord...But...one thing for sure is that we have to accept Him as our Lord and saviour, say the sinner's prayer...however, more must be done, such as doing His will...follow what He has planned for us, as He is our creator...
accepting and believing in the Lord leads us to receiving His unconditional love...a kind of love that no one else other than He can give us...and we got to know that Nothing is impossible for Him...He is the Alpha and the Omega...
for your info, I love the Lord more than any others...He is the top priority in my life...n not only that i love Him soo much...i fear Him as much too...this is the kind of feeling(duno what word to use) we should have...i fear Him so much so that i am willing to follow His will...i can proudly say that without the Lord, i wouldn't be here...really...i really thank God with all my heart how He created me, though with some things complicated, but...He loves me so much that He does not want me to suffer and wants me to grow up in a normal family...many many years ago...even long before i was born...He had already planned for my life and had in His mind to create me...His plans for my life till now are just so wonderful that i really thank Him that if my life was gone through in another way, things wouldn't be the same...i might not even be here thanking the Lord...the Lord is always blessing me in my life...i've received countless blessings from Him and i am really grateful to Him...and He never forsake us...He is always there and always there to answer our prayers...ALL of us are His creation...and we are NOT a mistake to be created...each and every one of our lives has a purpose in it...it is only whether we want to accept it or not...
i do admit i always complain about my life...this and that...and even to the extent of questioning God y am i created...y am i in this world...cos i'm angry with some areas of my life...i repent...i took back my words saying all those stuffs...as we should only and only believe in God that everything that happened in our lives have a purpose and reasons to why all these happen...i dare say that even with God in our lives, life will still not be easy...as it is not written in the Bible that life will be easy after we accept Christ...if life is just so easy, all of us will be taking the Lord for granted instead...in life, there are bound to be ups and downs...experiences gone through...and even sacrifices made...many are tests given to us by God...to test our Faith...sometimes we fall...but sometimes after a great fall, we learn from it, and stand up ourselves and continue to serve God...but sad to say, for some, they fall and never came back...i really thank God that i have frens who fall and came back with even more fire in them...but...i'm sad for some who fell but refused to acknowledge the grace of God once again...this group of people will always be in my prayer list...
i,myself fell many times(not many or even none knowing)...sometimes refusing to stand up...but will eventually stand up slowly especially when i experience breakthroughs...dun even noe if they are breakthroughs...cos it's always short term...den i will fall again...but my love for God is always so strong...juz that something is pulling me away from Him...and i did not take much effort in walking towards God even though i really want to...really...i really want to have a close close close relationship with God...but i just don't know why...the fire usually lit is only for awhile...and it will die down...but lit up again....and die down...i really hope n pray that it will be lit up...and continue burning and burning...i really want that...but i will and am trying my best...
*Lord, pls forgive me for neglecting you at times and not spending more time with you...forgive me for only looking for you when i'm in need...and sometimes not even turning to you first when i need to talk to someone...Lord, i now pray for forgiveness...and Lord, i pray that you will always be around to guide me thru, and allow me to have the determination to keep on seeking in you and getting closer to you more each day. Lord i thank you and i praise you.
Amen!*
anyway...i digressed too much...actually wat i wana sae abt life being so fragile n unexpected is when i heard a v sad yet happy news abt a youth from my church...the sad thing is that something happened and he passed away...but...the happy thing is that he is now with the Lord...living an eternal life...where all of us will be one day...i'm happy that he accepted the Lord...and now is able to be up in heaven...happily with the Lord...Amen!
but when i know abt the news, i was in total shock...tears juz rolled down my eyes...i do admit i do not know much abt him...juz talked to him at times hoping that he feels part of us...but there are always regrets in life...regrets of y we didnt do our best to know a person more, love them more, and only to realise it when something happen...sigh......oh yah...God did a great miracle in him in his life too...the Lord is juz so amazing...
anyway will stop here...really thank God for being in my life...I Love you Lord...
thank you Lord for each and every thing or person you've put in my life...and Lord, some things in terms of my family's salvation, my work (need directions), my studies, and last but not least, my frens, i hand it all to you Lord...for i trust in you...i know u know what's best for me,,,you will never give me the second best...you will never shortchange me...you will give me the best...Thank you Lord...
take care all of you...sorry for the long long post...hope it enlightens you...the Lord is good...
God Bless~
Sunday, January 21, 2007
~sad sia...~
sigh....aiyo...duno y i always SIGH in many of my entries...sigh...hahahhaa...
sad lor...cos i've juz forgone an opportunity to go Hong Kong FOC and everything sponsored by my dad...but is to go about immediately..within these few days i think...cos gotta be a representative as my Aunty's father-in-law pass away...but...i couldnt even bear to stop my work(take leave) and go for the trip...my dad challenged me to go...but...but...i UNWILLINGLY declined...sigh...so sad right?i mean i am entitled to take leaves...but...i juz cant leave my work like dat...juz cant let my colleagues bear the burden n responsibilities of my work...and i know i still have lots to do...sigh...actually there are many stuff i could have finished quite some time ago...but i really hate it...the thought of me not being able to finish them makes me sad...and the reason i'm not able to finish them is cos of my boss!!!he keeps on making me waste ALOT of my time doing al his shit...i mean they are stuffs i shld be doing...but...if he could be more patient in allocating work...dun keep scolding and doing last min changes...make up his mind well...much time will not be wasted! really...i cant stand it lor...sometimes really wonder how he climbs up to what his position is now...it's really...i duno how to sae lah...and now i'm totally stuck with sooo many of my work...how can i ever go on leave? unless i really leave...sigh...wat shld i do? actually do have some job offers intro-ed by frens...really wonder shld i go or not...should i just forgo the variable bonus?should i just really find a job which do not require me to spend so much time in office, so that at least i can really concentrate on my last few modules of my course? i really do not wish to fail...i really longed for this graduation for very long...i canot take the risk to fail any...nowadays i've been OT-ing and really missed out alot on lessons...what should i do?i canot go on like this...SIGH...
*Lord, i now pray to you. I pray for directions in my life, what I should do, what decisions should i make. Lord, i hand it all to you, for i know you know what is BEST for me.
Lord, I thank you and i praise you.
In Jesus mighty Name,
Amen!*
guess will stop here
take gd care al of ya!
God Bless~
sad lor...cos i've juz forgone an opportunity to go Hong Kong FOC and everything sponsored by my dad...but is to go about immediately..within these few days i think...cos gotta be a representative as my Aunty's father-in-law pass away...but...i couldnt even bear to stop my work(take leave) and go for the trip...my dad challenged me to go...but...but...i UNWILLINGLY declined...sigh...so sad right?i mean i am entitled to take leaves...but...i juz cant leave my work like dat...juz cant let my colleagues bear the burden n responsibilities of my work...and i know i still have lots to do...sigh...actually there are many stuff i could have finished quite some time ago...but i really hate it...the thought of me not being able to finish them makes me sad...and the reason i'm not able to finish them is cos of my boss!!!he keeps on making me waste ALOT of my time doing al his shit...i mean they are stuffs i shld be doing...but...if he could be more patient in allocating work...dun keep scolding and doing last min changes...make up his mind well...much time will not be wasted! really...i cant stand it lor...sometimes really wonder how he climbs up to what his position is now...it's really...i duno how to sae lah...and now i'm totally stuck with sooo many of my work...how can i ever go on leave? unless i really leave...sigh...wat shld i do? actually do have some job offers intro-ed by frens...really wonder shld i go or not...should i just forgo the variable bonus?should i just really find a job which do not require me to spend so much time in office, so that at least i can really concentrate on my last few modules of my course? i really do not wish to fail...i really longed for this graduation for very long...i canot take the risk to fail any...nowadays i've been OT-ing and really missed out alot on lessons...what should i do?i canot go on like this...SIGH...
*Lord, i now pray to you. I pray for directions in my life, what I should do, what decisions should i make. Lord, i hand it all to you, for i know you know what is BEST for me.
Lord, I thank you and i praise you.
In Jesus mighty Name,
Amen!*
guess will stop here
take gd care al of ya!
God Bless~
Friday, January 19, 2007
~arghhhh~
I AM STILL IN OFFICE!!!!!!!
my boss lah...dun let me go!!! want to change this and that...sigh...so sad...missed church service just now which started at 7.30pm...sigh...he's FULL of CHANGES lor...change this and that...at first thought 7plus can be done and i can rush down for my church service...BUT...he dun allow me to leave!!!!! oh i'm juz soooo angry!!! sigh...life's tough...i mean just now earlier in the day, the way he treated me....i tell you...i really wana QUIT!!!but...aiya...i also duno how to say lah...i duno wat to do now...SIGH....
k he's shouting for me already...ciaozzz...
*btw...yesterday on half day MC...my right eye was 'bandaged' after seeing doc in the morning (and i still went office after that to work till 2plus - my boss lah...so many things to do)...my eye was infected again...so decided to do a small surgery on my eye...my doc used a needle to prick the infected part and extracted out the pus...though the 'pimple look-a-like' thingy looks small...we never expect that it was even worse inside...luckily i did the surgery...should be on MC today too...but i chose to come and work instead...got too many things to do...see now...still got to OT till so late...sigh...
take care n God Bless~
my boss lah...dun let me go!!! want to change this and that...sigh...so sad...missed church service just now which started at 7.30pm...sigh...he's FULL of CHANGES lor...change this and that...at first thought 7plus can be done and i can rush down for my church service...BUT...he dun allow me to leave!!!!! oh i'm juz soooo angry!!! sigh...life's tough...i mean just now earlier in the day, the way he treated me....i tell you...i really wana QUIT!!!but...aiya...i also duno how to say lah...i duno wat to do now...SIGH....
k he's shouting for me already...ciaozzz...
*btw...yesterday on half day MC...my right eye was 'bandaged' after seeing doc in the morning (and i still went office after that to work till 2plus - my boss lah...so many things to do)...my eye was infected again...so decided to do a small surgery on my eye...my doc used a needle to prick the infected part and extracted out the pus...though the 'pimple look-a-like' thingy looks small...we never expect that it was even worse inside...luckily i did the surgery...should be on MC today too...but i chose to come and work instead...got too many things to do...see now...still got to OT till so late...sigh...
take care n God Bless~
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
~sigh...i'm right...~
YAWNZZZ!!!
yah...back not long ago...sigh...really tired...n yup...i'm right...i OT-ed today den went to class...it's making me really tired...i mean i actually was preparing to go off...but! my boss lah...keep asking do this n dat...doing those cashplus p&l with budget...sick of it man...really tired...Wednesday i'm usually bz with my weekly stuff...but he took up more than half my day juz to do his stuff...where in between he will chit chat here n there w others...n expect me to wait for him...den when i got the time to continue with my own reports...he will haunt me for his stuff...i mean...hey...if everything is impt, den which shld i do first?my weekly report is impt...if i nv finish, he will scold and say y i'm slow...but he's pestering me for his other stuff where i've already done out nicely for him...really duno wat he wants...grrrr...and just now was already 7.30pm already and he's demanding me to find out the cause of y the numbers do not tie with the system...explained to him already...still dun listen! angry lor...sigh...i missed impt parts of my lecture again...yesterday already missed...today again...sigh...i really duno how sia...really worried will fail...this term's modules are really difficult...sigh...*worried*
anyway...i brought work home to do...i noe i wldnt be able to do them at all with my boss around wasting my time...and now my eye is more pain than this morning...sigh...hopefully tmr will be fine...sigh...really tired...duno how much more can i take it...
*Lord, i need You!~*
k i'll stop here...
take care n God Bless~~~
yah...back not long ago...sigh...really tired...n yup...i'm right...i OT-ed today den went to class...it's making me really tired...i mean i actually was preparing to go off...but! my boss lah...keep asking do this n dat...doing those cashplus p&l with budget...sick of it man...really tired...Wednesday i'm usually bz with my weekly stuff...but he took up more than half my day juz to do his stuff...where in between he will chit chat here n there w others...n expect me to wait for him...den when i got the time to continue with my own reports...he will haunt me for his stuff...i mean...hey...if everything is impt, den which shld i do first?my weekly report is impt...if i nv finish, he will scold and say y i'm slow...but he's pestering me for his other stuff where i've already done out nicely for him...really duno wat he wants...grrrr...and just now was already 7.30pm already and he's demanding me to find out the cause of y the numbers do not tie with the system...explained to him already...still dun listen! angry lor...sigh...i missed impt parts of my lecture again...yesterday already missed...today again...sigh...i really duno how sia...really worried will fail...this term's modules are really difficult...sigh...*worried*
anyway...i brought work home to do...i noe i wldnt be able to do them at all with my boss around wasting my time...and now my eye is more pain than this morning...sigh...hopefully tmr will be fine...sigh...really tired...duno how much more can i take it...
*Lord, i need You!~*
k i'll stop here...
take care n God Bless~~~
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
~so bz sia~
arghh~ it's so tough man...juggling with work n studies...i mean i should complain this like more than 2yrs ago...but guess i complain now is cos it's juz so tough...mayb this period of time is very bz time...my boss...once again took up nearly more than half of my working day...leaving me with soo little time to complete my stuff...didnt get to complete them anyway...cos i gotta spend time helping out with the quarterly presentation stuff...'book binding' again...more than 20 booklets with abt 100pages for each booklet...sigh...my mind now is continuously worrying abt work...i.e. wat i shld do tmr...which should i do first...i mean most imptly i've got to do my weekly report...which takes up quite alot of time already...den i guess my boss is gona haunt me again...sigh...duno if i'm able to finish my work again...OT-ed today...till 8plus...late for class which was supposed to start at 7pm...practically missed the whole lesson...sigh...*worried*...stress sia...this term both modules are kinda difficult...and esp for assignments...oh no...duno how sia...hmmm...
oh no! i'm still thinking abt work!!! abt wat format shld i change some reports to...this n dat...oh no!!! guess tmr i gona OT again and miss lesson liao...hmmm...
*praying to keep myself calm*
ok will stop here...might be going to lalaland soon...
take care
God Bless~
oh no! i'm still thinking abt work!!! abt wat format shld i change some reports to...this n dat...oh no!!! guess tmr i gona OT again and miss lesson liao...hmmm...
*praying to keep myself calm*
ok will stop here...might be going to lalaland soon...
take care
God Bless~
Monday, January 15, 2007
~words of wisdom?~
yawnz...tired...juz back from work not long ago...OT mah...hoping to complete the work my division head has requested...sigh...but unable to finish...plus there were still errors...sigh...plus i still got lots more other work waiting for me to do...the reporting team is gona send out the quarterly reports soon...and they are yet to be binded! and i have yet to prepare the dividers for each booklet...sigh...
anyway...after i was preparing to leave office just nice, i've decided to walk around to see if there are still anyone left in the office...and true enough, there are 2 more still working...then one (Melvin) came and talk to me...we had a short chat...usually if i were to work late and were to see him still around, we will have some serious chats...and yup...find that my conversations w him are very real and good...i mean actually many others could have also thought of what advises he gave me lor...but yah...good timing to tell me lor...before i become too ambitious and impatient to quickly rise up the corporate ladder...we chatted some minor stuff...den abt my boss...abt promotions...then abit about those newcomers...seriously...many new comers are really of high rankings...i mean the lowest rank that came in are at least an AM...if not will be AVPs or VPs...i mean i thought they are so stingy in promoting ppl...yet they are so generous in employing high ranking ppl...hmmm...but i guess i gotta change my thinking...i mean i always think i wun have the chance to get promoted for this yr (my chance was forgone last yr)...and i'm kinda disappointed w it...but wat Melvin said was right...i'm still young...those new comers who came in with high rankings are mostly late twenties or early thirties (even late thirties)...if not they have many many yrs working experience already...that is why they can get up to that level...plus with their qualifications too...as for me now...i still do not have my degree...and i'm still young...there's actually no hurry to fight my way up...cos eventually if i were to work hard...gain my necessary experience...have good certs with me...the chances of me getting to my goal is high...so now what i shld do is to concentrate well w my studies...apply considerable amt of effort into my work (but guess i always overwork)...and take things at an acceptable pace...i will get to where i want if i really want to...hmmm...but true that none of us are always satisfied...say for example i was promoted to AM (for e.g. my aim)...after getting it...i will not be satisfied and i aim for AVP...and so on...this cycle will keep on going...hmmm...but if i were to really slow down my pace...i guess i will not achieve the goal i have set for myself 2yrs ago...guess maybe will have to just slowly work towards it...and i noe i can do it...
however, i know i canot do all these alone...i need God...i need Him to see me thru in all that i do and am going thru...i definitely know He has a plan for me...a wonderful plan...and it is a plan that i will follow and work towards it...even if it means that i will not be able to fulfil my goals...there is a high chance i will still follow it...yah...u see the word 'high chance'...meaning there might be a possibility that i might not follow...no choice...i noe i'm still a human after all...sometimes are are really some things in which we really canot bear to let go...but for all i know...great sacrifices made for the Lord will come in with great blessings by the Lord...i dun deny that...and the blessings from God are always that unexpected and miraculous...i've experienced(received) many many blessings from God and i really appreciate what God has blessed me with...He noes what's best for me...and i noe He loves me very much too...Agape Love...an unconditional love from God is the Best blessing and gift from God...Thank you, Lord...
k will stop here...will be sleeping...too tired...hopefully can wake up early to go work and complete as much work as possible...
*btw saw Marcus n Sis. Lucy in a coffeeshop in toa payoh during lunch time...good to see them...it's their 1st day of training for the missions team...
take care all of you...God Bless ALL of you!
anyway...after i was preparing to leave office just nice, i've decided to walk around to see if there are still anyone left in the office...and true enough, there are 2 more still working...then one (Melvin) came and talk to me...we had a short chat...usually if i were to work late and were to see him still around, we will have some serious chats...and yup...find that my conversations w him are very real and good...i mean actually many others could have also thought of what advises he gave me lor...but yah...good timing to tell me lor...before i become too ambitious and impatient to quickly rise up the corporate ladder...we chatted some minor stuff...den abt my boss...abt promotions...then abit about those newcomers...seriously...many new comers are really of high rankings...i mean the lowest rank that came in are at least an AM...if not will be AVPs or VPs...i mean i thought they are so stingy in promoting ppl...yet they are so generous in employing high ranking ppl...hmmm...but i guess i gotta change my thinking...i mean i always think i wun have the chance to get promoted for this yr (my chance was forgone last yr)...and i'm kinda disappointed w it...but wat Melvin said was right...i'm still young...those new comers who came in with high rankings are mostly late twenties or early thirties (even late thirties)...if not they have many many yrs working experience already...that is why they can get up to that level...plus with their qualifications too...as for me now...i still do not have my degree...and i'm still young...there's actually no hurry to fight my way up...cos eventually if i were to work hard...gain my necessary experience...have good certs with me...the chances of me getting to my goal is high...so now what i shld do is to concentrate well w my studies...apply considerable amt of effort into my work (but guess i always overwork)...and take things at an acceptable pace...i will get to where i want if i really want to...hmmm...but true that none of us are always satisfied...say for example i was promoted to AM (for e.g. my aim)...after getting it...i will not be satisfied and i aim for AVP...and so on...this cycle will keep on going...hmmm...but if i were to really slow down my pace...i guess i will not achieve the goal i have set for myself 2yrs ago...guess maybe will have to just slowly work towards it...and i noe i can do it...
however, i know i canot do all these alone...i need God...i need Him to see me thru in all that i do and am going thru...i definitely know He has a plan for me...a wonderful plan...and it is a plan that i will follow and work towards it...even if it means that i will not be able to fulfil my goals...there is a high chance i will still follow it...yah...u see the word 'high chance'...meaning there might be a possibility that i might not follow...no choice...i noe i'm still a human after all...sometimes are are really some things in which we really canot bear to let go...but for all i know...great sacrifices made for the Lord will come in with great blessings by the Lord...i dun deny that...and the blessings from God are always that unexpected and miraculous...i've experienced(received) many many blessings from God and i really appreciate what God has blessed me with...He noes what's best for me...and i noe He loves me very much too...Agape Love...an unconditional love from God is the Best blessing and gift from God...Thank you, Lord...
k will stop here...will be sleeping...too tired...hopefully can wake up early to go work and complete as much work as possible...
*btw saw Marcus n Sis. Lucy in a coffeeshop in toa payoh during lunch time...good to see them...it's their 1st day of training for the missions team...
take care all of you...God Bless ALL of you!
Sunday, January 14, 2007
~He answers prayers!~
God is juz so amazing...great and wonderful...He juz answers prayers...always...never fails to enlighten us~ be it attending church classes or people talking to me..or even during sermons...i can juz feel God answering my prayers through them...it's really amazing...Love God...heez...
anyway...i love my friends...love them all~ =)
take care all~ God Bless~
anyway...i love my friends...love them all~ =)
take care all~ God Bless~
Saturday, January 13, 2007
~nice gathering~
hey hey~ i'm back home not long ago from my sec sch frens gathering...it was fun! really nice seeing them...a bunch of fun and nice ppl...(some are super lame too!)...heez...haven realy seen them or talk to them for quite some time liao...i mean i do meet them...but is during each other's birthdays...but those times we usually nv talk much...cos all too bz...they have afew gatherings every now and den...but i usually did not join is cos i'm either bz at work...or meet other frens...feel bad sia...actually meeting them up is really fun...i can feel the warmth from them...and i feel v comfortable with them...we can talk anything under the sun...laugh at anything (esp lame stuff)...and always bully Mr Lai Zhi Hao...heez...i mean i haven really meet them up for so long...yet i can still feel so close with them...wldnt feel left out...*happy*...
here, i really wana thank Kelly for msging me like a week ago to ask if i can join in the gethering...at first i didnt really cfm cos was thinking i might have other stuff on...but cos i really feel that i shld meet up w them and catch up more...so decided to meet them (even when actually i gotta do OT today)...worth it...i mean though we (actually is usually me who didnt spend much time w them) dun spend so much time together...we r still like very close frens...and by seeing them is very heartwarming...love them loads! also wana thank those few who organised this gathering...heard was Andy Ang who org this...oh yah...this gathering is also to celebrate Zhi Hao's birthday...yup...he's gona be 22yrs old in a couple of days...the 1st person in this grp to be 22yrs old...heez...and thanks Zhi Hao for the dinner treat...nice!...heez...another person whom i really have not seen...i guess even for more than a yr...is Chuan Liang...really missed him...i was like so excited to see him lor...he's studying at Australia mah...he came back for holidays...and we still talk cock as usual...after dinner we went bowling...i really suck at it lah...nothing to sae...haaaz...it's super fun playing with them lor...we split ourselves into 2 teams n compete each other...haaaz...in the midst of the game, me, Ber, Chuan Liang, and Andy Khoo were like recalling the times in sec sch where we played stupid games at my place...those memories...sweet...and yup...it's been like 7 to 8yrs ago liao...time flies...we all r adults now...haaz...but when we are together...it's a different thing and feeling...hmmm...after bowling, we went to a corner outside marina sq and sit down and play games while waiting for Andy Ang to go home and get his lorry to fetch us...while waiting, the games we played were really 'fun'...y?cos we always purposely sabo Zhi Hao and made him forfeit to sing and do poses...funny lor...after some time, Andy came back...(anyway...we have a total of 13 ppl...10 were supposed to go Terry's hse to stay over...onli me,Ber and Xiu Hao are going home...)...abt 10 ppl were sitting behind...whereby me and Keng Kok with Andy Ang is in front......Andy sent me home first...thereafter, the whole grp went for supper, which i decided not to join cos it's too late...and i dun really take supper...hmmm...n yup...now i'm back home...v tired le...gona sleep...
really thank God for this day...He blessed me with such good frens...oh yah...we are gona meet again in early feb cos Chuan Liang will be goin back Aust liao...hee...cant wait for that day...hope i wun have any other stuff that clashes with that time...
k will stop here...take care...God Bless~
here, i really wana thank Kelly for msging me like a week ago to ask if i can join in the gethering...at first i didnt really cfm cos was thinking i might have other stuff on...but cos i really feel that i shld meet up w them and catch up more...so decided to meet them (even when actually i gotta do OT today)...worth it...i mean though we (actually is usually me who didnt spend much time w them) dun spend so much time together...we r still like very close frens...and by seeing them is very heartwarming...love them loads! also wana thank those few who organised this gathering...heard was Andy Ang who org this...oh yah...this gathering is also to celebrate Zhi Hao's birthday...yup...he's gona be 22yrs old in a couple of days...the 1st person in this grp to be 22yrs old...heez...and thanks Zhi Hao for the dinner treat...nice!...heez...another person whom i really have not seen...i guess even for more than a yr...is Chuan Liang...really missed him...i was like so excited to see him lor...he's studying at Australia mah...he came back for holidays...and we still talk cock as usual...after dinner we went bowling...i really suck at it lah...nothing to sae...haaaz...it's super fun playing with them lor...we split ourselves into 2 teams n compete each other...haaaz...in the midst of the game, me, Ber, Chuan Liang, and Andy Khoo were like recalling the times in sec sch where we played stupid games at my place...those memories...sweet...and yup...it's been like 7 to 8yrs ago liao...time flies...we all r adults now...haaz...but when we are together...it's a different thing and feeling...hmmm...after bowling, we went to a corner outside marina sq and sit down and play games while waiting for Andy Ang to go home and get his lorry to fetch us...while waiting, the games we played were really 'fun'...y?cos we always purposely sabo Zhi Hao and made him forfeit to sing and do poses...funny lor...after some time, Andy came back...(anyway...we have a total of 13 ppl...10 were supposed to go Terry's hse to stay over...onli me,Ber and Xiu Hao are going home...)...abt 10 ppl were sitting behind...whereby me and Keng Kok with Andy Ang is in front......Andy sent me home first...thereafter, the whole grp went for supper, which i decided not to join cos it's too late...and i dun really take supper...hmmm...n yup...now i'm back home...v tired le...gona sleep...
really thank God for this day...He blessed me with such good frens...oh yah...we are gona meet again in early feb cos Chuan Liang will be goin back Aust liao...hee...cant wait for that day...hope i wun have any other stuff that clashes with that time...
k will stop here...take care...God Bless~
Thursday, January 11, 2007
~yay!~
WooHoo~~~!!!
I'm shocked...yet super happy...y? cos i've got back my results!!! heez...see me soo happy would also mean i've got good results...Unexpected good results...heez...
yup...took 2 papers in Dec 2006...International Biz and Consumer Behaviour...and guess wat? my International Biz got Credit and my Consumer Behaviour got Distinction!!! unexpected huh? especially for consumer behaviour...i was only thinking of a pass...or at most credit...but...today when my classmate sms me to tell me the results for CB is out (International Biz results out for quite some time already), i feel butterflies in my stomach...worried while i logged on to my sch's result webby...in my heart i keep on praying to God that pls dun let me see a PX or NX (fail)...when the page loads and i scroll down, i nearly screamed with joy! haaz...i mean i really nearly screamed in joy...i jumped to my surprise lor...i saw DI in the results column...and double check it's for the correct module (cos i got distinction for 2 other modules so thought i might have seen wrongly...heez...)...it's really Consumer Behaviour...oh gosh...i really cant believe it...i mean i even told my colleague wat if they input the wrong results by mistake...haaz...all i can say and thank now is God...He went through with me the times i was bz at work...yet tried my best to study...during that period of studying time i'm really bz at work lor...sometimes i rather OT than study...only wld study when i'm satisfied with the amt of work i've done...resulting myself to reach home at nearly 12am nearly everyday...it's really unexpected lah...really God's grace...really...Thank you Lord...would also like to thank my ITIB group mates...and also my Consumer Behaviour group mates...thank Ben for studying with me on exam day itself...heez...yup yup...
*btw...another thing i'm happy abt (actually shld blog abt it some time ago...but always forget)...i'm happy that one of my best fren, Serene Tang, has came back to God's embrace...i'm really happy for her...and actually in dec last yr...she nearly wana backslide again...but...her fire for God came back...and she's really burning for God...and i can see how much she's seeking God...how much she loves Him and yearns for His love...Amen!
really happy...really...cos i've always been praying for her to come back...and...ta da! she's back! heez...now also praying for another of my best fren, CK...he noes the Lord...but...i duno if he believes in Him...i usually will not force him...as he has the decision of his own...but really praying hard that one day he will come to know more abt the Lord, believe in Him and accept Him as Lord n Saviour...guess this will be another New Yr Resolution for me...to get people saved! heez...
k will stop here...(should be working!!!) ...heez...
take care all...God Bless~
I'm shocked...yet super happy...y? cos i've got back my results!!! heez...see me soo happy would also mean i've got good results...Unexpected good results...heez...
yup...took 2 papers in Dec 2006...International Biz and Consumer Behaviour...and guess wat? my International Biz got Credit and my Consumer Behaviour got Distinction!!! unexpected huh? especially for consumer behaviour...i was only thinking of a pass...or at most credit...but...today when my classmate sms me to tell me the results for CB is out (International Biz results out for quite some time already), i feel butterflies in my stomach...worried while i logged on to my sch's result webby...in my heart i keep on praying to God that pls dun let me see a PX or NX (fail)...when the page loads and i scroll down, i nearly screamed with joy! haaz...i mean i really nearly screamed in joy...i jumped to my surprise lor...i saw DI in the results column...and double check it's for the correct module (cos i got distinction for 2 other modules so thought i might have seen wrongly...heez...)...it's really Consumer Behaviour...oh gosh...i really cant believe it...i mean i even told my colleague wat if they input the wrong results by mistake...haaz...all i can say and thank now is God...He went through with me the times i was bz at work...yet tried my best to study...during that period of studying time i'm really bz at work lor...sometimes i rather OT than study...only wld study when i'm satisfied with the amt of work i've done...resulting myself to reach home at nearly 12am nearly everyday...it's really unexpected lah...really God's grace...really...Thank you Lord...would also like to thank my ITIB group mates...and also my Consumer Behaviour group mates...thank Ben for studying with me on exam day itself...heez...yup yup...
*btw...another thing i'm happy abt (actually shld blog abt it some time ago...but always forget)...i'm happy that one of my best fren, Serene Tang, has came back to God's embrace...i'm really happy for her...and actually in dec last yr...she nearly wana backslide again...but...her fire for God came back...and she's really burning for God...and i can see how much she's seeking God...how much she loves Him and yearns for His love...Amen!
really happy...really...cos i've always been praying for her to come back...and...ta da! she's back! heez...now also praying for another of my best fren, CK...he noes the Lord...but...i duno if he believes in Him...i usually will not force him...as he has the decision of his own...but really praying hard that one day he will come to know more abt the Lord, believe in Him and accept Him as Lord n Saviour...guess this will be another New Yr Resolution for me...to get people saved! heez...
k will stop here...(should be working!!!) ...heez...
take care all...God Bless~
am told that i might be having the following symptoms and suffering from this by a fren who did some research...
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2005/12/17/AR2005121700892.html
a rough idea: Cyclothymic disorder, as it is sometimes known, is a milder cousin of bipolar disorder. Like bipolar disorder, cyclothymia has high and low phases, though the highs are not as high and the lows not as low. It can be crippling nonetheless. And it is a risk factor for bipolar disease itself, with up to 50 percent of those with cyclothymia eventually developing bipolar disorder. Major depression is also a higher risk.
The hypomanic, or upbeat, phase features symptoms such as elevated mood, increased self-esteem, decreased need for sleep, racing thoughts, an increase in goal-directed activity and excessive involvement in pleasurable activities.
These symptoms might last for four or more days, then alternate with periods of mildly depressive symptoms such as sadness, pessimism, fatigue, feeling guilty, trouble concentrating and changes in sleep or appetite. For a person to be diagnosed with the disorder, this alternation persists for at least two years.
seem like i'm experiencing some of the symptoms...
oh no...God...help me pull thru this...
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2005/12/17/AR2005121700892.html
a rough idea: Cyclothymic disorder, as it is sometimes known, is a milder cousin of bipolar disorder. Like bipolar disorder, cyclothymia has high and low phases, though the highs are not as high and the lows not as low. It can be crippling nonetheless. And it is a risk factor for bipolar disease itself, with up to 50 percent of those with cyclothymia eventually developing bipolar disorder. Major depression is also a higher risk.
The hypomanic, or upbeat, phase features symptoms such as elevated mood, increased self-esteem, decreased need for sleep, racing thoughts, an increase in goal-directed activity and excessive involvement in pleasurable activities.
These symptoms might last for four or more days, then alternate with periods of mildly depressive symptoms such as sadness, pessimism, fatigue, feeling guilty, trouble concentrating and changes in sleep or appetite. For a person to be diagnosed with the disorder, this alternation persists for at least two years.
seem like i'm experiencing some of the symptoms...
oh no...God...help me pull thru this...
sigh...too many things in my mind...
that i cant comprehend...feel lost...dejected...unfocused...sad...useless...and still lost...
sigh...i duno...suddenly feel myself in depression mode...i really duno wat i shld do...wat are some decisions i have to make...my mind keeps on worrying...worrying things will not go right...worrying things are still unsolved...worrying worrying...sigh...dun ask mi anything abt this...i also wldnt know how to ans u...i blogged cos i feel like blogging it down...letting it out...but not totally...i love them...really love them...but...but...i duno...i'm lost...
Lord, here i am, saying a prayer to you...telling you that i'm really needing you badly...really badly...Lord, i know that NOTHING is too great for you...for you can do all wonders...and solve ALL things...i surely have no doubts in your abilities...and Lord, i am here to cast ALL my troubles and worries to you...and i know...i know you definitely will solve them and be there for me...take away the depression in me and let not the devil attack me...Lord, here i give all these to you...knowing that you know what is BEST for me...Thanks you Lord...Thank you Jesus...I Love you Lord.
In Jesus Mighty Name, AMEN!
ppl out there...this is a prayer i've said sincerely to the Lord...and i believe that if any of you (esp unbelievers) are facing any troubles in ur lives...or any unhappiness...let me tell you...God is always there for u...believe and pray...He will ans ur prayers...u'll experience His great love for u! Amen!
nightz to all
take care n God Bless~
sigh...i duno...suddenly feel myself in depression mode...i really duno wat i shld do...wat are some decisions i have to make...my mind keeps on worrying...worrying things will not go right...worrying things are still unsolved...worrying worrying...sigh...dun ask mi anything abt this...i also wldnt know how to ans u...i blogged cos i feel like blogging it down...letting it out...but not totally...i love them...really love them...but...but...i duno...i'm lost...
Lord, here i am, saying a prayer to you...telling you that i'm really needing you badly...really badly...Lord, i know that NOTHING is too great for you...for you can do all wonders...and solve ALL things...i surely have no doubts in your abilities...and Lord, i am here to cast ALL my troubles and worries to you...and i know...i know you definitely will solve them and be there for me...take away the depression in me and let not the devil attack me...Lord, here i give all these to you...knowing that you know what is BEST for me...Thanks you Lord...Thank you Jesus...I Love you Lord.
In Jesus Mighty Name, AMEN!
ppl out there...this is a prayer i've said sincerely to the Lord...and i believe that if any of you (esp unbelievers) are facing any troubles in ur lives...or any unhappiness...let me tell you...God is always there for u...believe and pray...He will ans ur prayers...u'll experience His great love for u! Amen!
nightz to all
take care n God Bless~
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Citibank - Customer service!
Citibank --customer service!
This is hilarious!!! .
Be sure to cancel your credit cards before you die.
This is so priceless, and so easy to see happening, customer service being what it is today. Anyone who has dealt with an estate will agree with this.
A lady died this past January, and Citibank billed her for February and March for their annual service charges on her credit card, and added late fees and interest on the monthly charge. The balance had been $0.00, now somewhere around $60.00. A family member placed a call to Citibank.
Here is the exchange:
Family Member: "I am calling to tell you she died in January."
Citibank: "The account was never closed and the late fees and charges still apply."
Family Member: "Maybe, you should turn it over to collections."
Citibank: "Since it is two months past due, it already has been."
Family Member : So, what will they do when they find out she is dead?"
Citibank: "Either report her account to frauds division or report her to the credit bureau, maybe both!"
Family Member: "Do you think God will be mad at her?" (I really liked this
part!!!!)
Citibank: "Excuse me?"
Family Member: "Did you just get what I was telling you - the part about her being dead?"
Citibank: "Sir, you'll have to speak to my supervisor." (Duh!)
Supervisor gets on the phone:
Family Member: "I'm calling to tell you, she died in January."
Citibank: "The account was never closed and late fees and charges still apply." (This must be a phrase taught by the bank!)
Family Member: "You mean you want to collect from her estate?"
Citibank: (Stammer) "Are you her lawyer?"
Family Member: "No, I'm her great nephew."
(Lawyer info given)
Citibank: "Could you fax us a certificate of death?"
Family Member: "Sure." (Fax number is given)
After they get the fax:
Citibank: "Our system just isn't setup for death. I don't know what more I can do to help."
Family Member: "Well, if you figure it out, great! If not, you could just keep billing her. I don't think she will care."
Citibank: "Well, the late fees and charges do still apply." (What is wrong with these people?!?)
Family Member: "Would you like her new billing address?"
Citibank: "That might help."
Family Member: " Odessa Memorial Cemetery , Highway 129, Plot Number 69."
Citibank: "Sir, that's a cemetery!"
Family Member: "What do you do with dead people on your planet?
This is hilarious!!! .
Be sure to cancel your credit cards before you die.
This is so priceless, and so easy to see happening, customer service being what it is today. Anyone who has dealt with an estate will agree with this.
A lady died this past January, and Citibank billed her for February and March for their annual service charges on her credit card, and added late fees and interest on the monthly charge. The balance had been $0.00, now somewhere around $60.00. A family member placed a call to Citibank.
Here is the exchange:
Family Member: "I am calling to tell you she died in January."
Citibank: "The account was never closed and the late fees and charges still apply."
Family Member: "Maybe, you should turn it over to collections."
Citibank: "Since it is two months past due, it already has been."
Family Member : So, what will they do when they find out she is dead?"
Citibank: "Either report her account to frauds division or report her to the credit bureau, maybe both!"
Family Member: "Do you think God will be mad at her?" (I really liked this
part!!!!)
Citibank: "Excuse me?"
Family Member: "Did you just get what I was telling you - the part about her being dead?"
Citibank: "Sir, you'll have to speak to my supervisor." (Duh!)
Supervisor gets on the phone:
Family Member: "I'm calling to tell you, she died in January."
Citibank: "The account was never closed and late fees and charges still apply." (This must be a phrase taught by the bank!)
Family Member: "You mean you want to collect from her estate?"
Citibank: (Stammer) "Are you her lawyer?"
Family Member: "No, I'm her great nephew."
(Lawyer info given)
Citibank: "Could you fax us a certificate of death?"
Family Member: "Sure." (Fax number is given)
After they get the fax:
Citibank: "Our system just isn't setup for death. I don't know what more I can do to help."
Family Member: "Well, if you figure it out, great! If not, you could just keep billing her. I don't think she will care."
Citibank: "Well, the late fees and charges do still apply." (What is wrong with these people?!?)
Family Member: "Would you like her new billing address?"
Citibank: "That might help."
Family Member: " Odessa Memorial Cemetery , Highway 129, Plot Number 69."
Citibank: "Sir, that's a cemetery!"
Family Member: "What do you do with dead people on your planet?
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
~sigh...wat am i to do w my work?~
heyyz...yawnzz...kinda tired...not long ago juz back from class...as usual...didnt listen in class...sigh...when will i ever be a good gal n listen in class???haaz...
anyway...will like to be happy for myself that 2day has been a fairly good n peaceful day at work...didnt even get to talk to my boss at all!!!yay!!!haaz...cos' early in the morning he's out for meeting...(presenting those numbers i gave him lah...sigh...am responsible for all those numbers...hopefully in time to come the CashPlus dept meet those targets...)...and early in the morning i'm out at the doc...haaz...cos my stomach area super pain...canot tahan and nauseas feeling v bad...my doc press all over my stomach...den the most painful part is my small intestine there lor...hmmm...was told that i should go for other tests n scope...(oh gosh! the scope is from bottom up! ouch man...still considering lor...)...hmmm...was given MC (but still went to work anyway)...and alot of med again!!!sigh...my medication regime is back...arghhhh...den i went back to work...everything seem fine at work...my supervisor at last back liao...den me, him and my colleague did some updating to let him know what has been going on while he's not around...i complained big time lah...even told him actually wana throw him letter liao (resignation letter)...haaaz...anyway...he doesnt wish me to throw the letter lah...but...duno lah...guess it's juz a matter of time lah...duno lor...cos really tired le...fed up with all the nonsense by my boss liao...yesterday was actually my last straw lor...i was totally so pissed that i actually really decided to resign...(when i really decided to resign...i can really feel happiness lor...but...)...but after afew of them talk to me this n that...their words made me thought of holding on for abt 4mths more...even my dad ask me to at least find a job 1st...sigh...guess i will still have to suffer lor...sad leh...but if any of you got lobangs in financial industry or MIS, do let me know..heez...think i really need a new environment...more reasonable challenges...haaz...hmm...anyway...sometimes really wonder what the real reason for bosses or supervisors to ask us not to leave...many a times they complain n scold we r not competent enough or duno anything...y cant they juz let us go n find a better 1?y muz keep holding on to us?really wonder wat is up to their mind..sigh...anyway...i already lose hope in my boss liao...juz really pray that he know's what is happening and that he's making many ppl's life difficult...not only got to know...but also know what he has to do to help in the prob!...sigh...duno lah...juz praying hard that he wake up his senses and have a heart...gd heart...haaz...
k lah...will stop here...need some rest...tired...tmr got work n class again...boring...
take care...God Bless~
anyway...will like to be happy for myself that 2day has been a fairly good n peaceful day at work...didnt even get to talk to my boss at all!!!yay!!!haaz...cos' early in the morning he's out for meeting...(presenting those numbers i gave him lah...sigh...am responsible for all those numbers...hopefully in time to come the CashPlus dept meet those targets...)...and early in the morning i'm out at the doc...haaz...cos my stomach area super pain...canot tahan and nauseas feeling v bad...my doc press all over my stomach...den the most painful part is my small intestine there lor...hmmm...was told that i should go for other tests n scope...(oh gosh! the scope is from bottom up! ouch man...still considering lor...)...hmmm...was given MC (but still went to work anyway)...and alot of med again!!!sigh...my medication regime is back...arghhhh...den i went back to work...everything seem fine at work...my supervisor at last back liao...den me, him and my colleague did some updating to let him know what has been going on while he's not around...i complained big time lah...even told him actually wana throw him letter liao (resignation letter)...haaaz...anyway...he doesnt wish me to throw the letter lah...but...duno lah...guess it's juz a matter of time lah...duno lor...cos really tired le...fed up with all the nonsense by my boss liao...yesterday was actually my last straw lor...i was totally so pissed that i actually really decided to resign...(when i really decided to resign...i can really feel happiness lor...but...)...but after afew of them talk to me this n that...their words made me thought of holding on for abt 4mths more...even my dad ask me to at least find a job 1st...sigh...guess i will still have to suffer lor...sad leh...but if any of you got lobangs in financial industry or MIS, do let me know..heez...think i really need a new environment...more reasonable challenges...haaz...hmm...anyway...sometimes really wonder what the real reason for bosses or supervisors to ask us not to leave...many a times they complain n scold we r not competent enough or duno anything...y cant they juz let us go n find a better 1?y muz keep holding on to us?really wonder wat is up to their mind..sigh...anyway...i already lose hope in my boss liao...juz really pray that he know's what is happening and that he's making many ppl's life difficult...not only got to know...but also know what he has to do to help in the prob!...sigh...duno lah...juz praying hard that he wake up his senses and have a heart...gd heart...haaz...
k lah...will stop here...need some rest...tired...tmr got work n class again...boring...
take care...God Bless~
Monday, January 08, 2007
~a scary but powerful dream~
hi people~ Good Morning~
hmmm...as the title has said so...i've had a scary but powerful dream last night...it's a dream that i really felt God soo strongly...furthermore, i even remembered my dream(some parts only...)! which was quite a surprise as i've never remembered any of my dream as long as i've opened my eyes during my sleep...yup...
ok...this is how it goes...think i started dreaming(fell into sleep) right after lying on my bed...the dream lasted abt half an hr i guess...but i only remembered the part where i woke up...
what i've remembered was that i'm in a friend's car where our friend is sending me and 2 other friend's to my place...and she'll be sending another friend home...after we've alighted, my 2 other friends left...den at the void deck i saw a v good friend of mine...we talked for quite awhile where my other 2 friends went up to my place first, then i noticed my bag was left in the car! so i borrowed my friend's(the 1 i saw at the void deck) and called one of the 2 friends in the car to ask if my handbag is in the car...they said it was in the car...but they were at somewhere else...so i decided to take a cab down with my friend(she accompanied me)...k...the scary(maybe to me i guess) part is starting...we got a cab very soon...then in the cab we continued to talk...happily...but i'm perpetually disturb by alot of sounds...at times i even saw 2 female sitting in the middle of the cab...facing us and talking in their world...i mean i saw them but my friend doesnt seem to...plus i feel like there's 'someone' seated bside the driver...not only that...at some glances out of the window (i'm sitting on the left n my friend on the right) at the side of my friend, i saw an evil looking guy crouching at the side of the cab and staring at me...i mean he looks like a demon (i still can remember abit how he looks like)...eeww...the worse thing is that my friend seem like nothing is happening!!!i tried my best to catch her attention but could not...she didnt seem to notice any eerie feeling in her surroundings...there and then, in the dream...the gigglings by the 2 females and even kids laughter haunts me in the cab that i really cannot take it...from then, i realised that they seem to be ghosts or demons that really freaks me...and the only thing i did and think i can do is to shout at them and chase them away...i shouted out loud in my dream " GO AWAY!!! GET LOST, IN JESUS NAME!!!GET LOST, IN JESUS NAME!!!GET LOST, IN JESUS NAME!!!"...Wow! they disappeared immediately the first time i mentioned 'in Jesus Name'...when i was shouting 'get lost, in Jesus Name' the 2nd time, i found myself back into the real world (no more in my dreams...)...awaken...and my whole body feels the shiver that i cannot explain...i also find myself 'shouting' but without the loud voice as my voice is blocked(as if i'm shouting in a whispering manner)...the shivering feeling stayed with me for the next few mins...at that time i was really in shock...really...then the dream was left in my mind till now...amazing that i can remember my dream...really...plus it was quite clear though some parts are missing...hmmm...anyway...i really do not know what does this dream mean to me...was told by my colleague not to think too much unless the dream is consistent...hmmm...duno lah...but it's really scary lah...lucky i did not wake up crying...haaz...but i did look around my room to see if there's any demon in my room...wahahahaha...
weird dream...haaaz...okok...will stop here...anyway now is abt 12.30pm...was cropped up w work in the morning while typing halfway...even gotta da bao back to eat to do my work...haaz...
take care n God Bless!
hmmm...as the title has said so...i've had a scary but powerful dream last night...it's a dream that i really felt God soo strongly...furthermore, i even remembered my dream(some parts only...)! which was quite a surprise as i've never remembered any of my dream as long as i've opened my eyes during my sleep...yup...
ok...this is how it goes...think i started dreaming(fell into sleep) right after lying on my bed...the dream lasted abt half an hr i guess...but i only remembered the part where i woke up...
what i've remembered was that i'm in a friend's car where our friend is sending me and 2 other friend's to my place...and she'll be sending another friend home...after we've alighted, my 2 other friends left...den at the void deck i saw a v good friend of mine...we talked for quite awhile where my other 2 friends went up to my place first, then i noticed my bag was left in the car! so i borrowed my friend's(the 1 i saw at the void deck) and called one of the 2 friends in the car to ask if my handbag is in the car...they said it was in the car...but they were at somewhere else...so i decided to take a cab down with my friend(she accompanied me)...k...the scary(maybe to me i guess) part is starting...we got a cab very soon...then in the cab we continued to talk...happily...but i'm perpetually disturb by alot of sounds...at times i even saw 2 female sitting in the middle of the cab...facing us and talking in their world...i mean i saw them but my friend doesnt seem to...plus i feel like there's 'someone' seated bside the driver...not only that...at some glances out of the window (i'm sitting on the left n my friend on the right) at the side of my friend, i saw an evil looking guy crouching at the side of the cab and staring at me...i mean he looks like a demon (i still can remember abit how he looks like)...eeww...the worse thing is that my friend seem like nothing is happening!!!i tried my best to catch her attention but could not...she didnt seem to notice any eerie feeling in her surroundings...there and then, in the dream...the gigglings by the 2 females and even kids laughter haunts me in the cab that i really cannot take it...from then, i realised that they seem to be ghosts or demons that really freaks me...and the only thing i did and think i can do is to shout at them and chase them away...i shouted out loud in my dream " GO AWAY!!! GET LOST, IN JESUS NAME!!!GET LOST, IN JESUS NAME!!!GET LOST, IN JESUS NAME!!!"...Wow! they disappeared immediately the first time i mentioned 'in Jesus Name'...when i was shouting 'get lost, in Jesus Name' the 2nd time, i found myself back into the real world (no more in my dreams...)...awaken...and my whole body feels the shiver that i cannot explain...i also find myself 'shouting' but without the loud voice as my voice is blocked(as if i'm shouting in a whispering manner)...the shivering feeling stayed with me for the next few mins...at that time i was really in shock...really...then the dream was left in my mind till now...amazing that i can remember my dream...really...plus it was quite clear though some parts are missing...hmmm...anyway...i really do not know what does this dream mean to me...was told by my colleague not to think too much unless the dream is consistent...hmmm...duno lah...but it's really scary lah...lucky i did not wake up crying...haaz...but i did look around my room to see if there's any demon in my room...wahahahaha...
weird dream...haaaz...okok...will stop here...anyway now is abt 12.30pm...was cropped up w work in the morning while typing halfway...even gotta da bao back to eat to do my work...haaz...
take care n God Bless!
Friday, January 05, 2007
~a verse given to me~
"Every branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away: and every branch that beareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit". (John 15:2)
Hi people...yup...i'm given this verse by my colleague this morning...very thoughtful of her...cos we are all juz so stressed up with work...(and the boss)...but nevertheless, she told me that the Lord spoke to her using this verse (she came acrossed this verse...)...she said that "in this passage, the Lord reminds His disciples that our trials are like fire refining us so that we can come out of the trials as gold and silver.",hoping that that like her, i can take encouragement from this verse that all the problems and tests we face at work are actually God purging our branches so that we can bring forth more fruit for Him.
yup...i'm glad that i have her at work...encouraging me spiritually...thanks!(to her)...heez...
anyway had a tiring day at work...these few days nv really had good lunches...da bao...macs...a burger each lunch...haaa...no choice...got reports to rush...sigh...think gotta go home soon...tmr still gotta come back office in the afternoon (after giving tuition)...got some budget work to do...and mayb gotta do something the division head requested me to do...sigh...stressed...getting stressed up these days...at times my vomiting regime comes back...sian lor...if not my stomach will juz feel super uncomfy...feeling of puking n yet cant puke...sigh...
kk...will stop here...take care all of ya~
God Bless~
Hi people...yup...i'm given this verse by my colleague this morning...very thoughtful of her...cos we are all juz so stressed up with work...(and the boss)...but nevertheless, she told me that the Lord spoke to her using this verse (she came acrossed this verse...)...she said that "in this passage, the Lord reminds His disciples that our trials are like fire refining us so that we can come out of the trials as gold and silver.",hoping that that like her, i can take encouragement from this verse that all the problems and tests we face at work are actually God purging our branches so that we can bring forth more fruit for Him.
yup...i'm glad that i have her at work...encouraging me spiritually...thanks!(to her)...heez...
anyway had a tiring day at work...these few days nv really had good lunches...da bao...macs...a burger each lunch...haaa...no choice...got reports to rush...sigh...think gotta go home soon...tmr still gotta come back office in the afternoon (after giving tuition)...got some budget work to do...and mayb gotta do something the division head requested me to do...sigh...stressed...getting stressed up these days...at times my vomiting regime comes back...sian lor...if not my stomach will juz feel super uncomfy...feeling of puking n yet cant puke...sigh...
kk...will stop here...take care all of ya~
God Bless~
Thursday, January 04, 2007
~wah...wat's with me for this yr man?~
wahz...2dae is really not a very good day for me...in the morning especially...sigh...yup...i know my boss is back...means will kena alot...and true enough...i really kena-ed ALOT from him...sigh...in the morning...before i can start doing my work (which is alot as it's the beginning of the month...), my boss summoned me into his cubicle...sigh...and there he goes...Yak n Yak n Yak!...i think it's really God that helped me to control my temper...last time, i'm someone who used to talk back and shout back at my boss...but now...i juz kept quiet...juz let him finish scolding...then i go back and do my work...anyway for today...i really juz kept quiet...controlling my temper...plus it's also that i really totally have no idea how to do the changes to the numbers...and totally do not know which are the most updated numbers! all along my supervisor had been doing the necessary changes and we (or i) are really not informed of which should be the correct figures. those are budget 2007 numbers and they are always changing it...how would i noe which is the correct? and my supervisor is not around...therefore i really do not noe anything about the numbers...and there i am...tried my best in finding the most updated and 'correct' numbers i could ever find in the shared driver...and did out a template for him...never did i know he had a hard copy of some presentation on duno when and the numbers do not tie! i really duno how to explain what happened at that time...but i know i was scolded from head to toe...(really innocently scolded! i mean i totally do not know what's going on and i'm taking all the shitty blame!)...i was totally lost at that time...totally kept myself quiet...den he kept on bombarding me 'So How? the numbers dun tie! i'm going to submit the numbers in and you r going to be responsible for it! it's 1mil difference you noe?!'...i really have nothing to say lor...really...juz kept quiet n continue to let him scold...thereafter he said 'Aiyah, i duno you all lah! Tomorrow all just resign lah!'...i was totally shocked by wat he said lor...really...the word 'resign' really just hit me hard! i juz left the cubicle...and tears just start rolling down my eyes...again...and this is only the 4th day of 2007...been crying for these few days...realy dun understand wat's wrong with me...y have i become someone who cried alot? where's my strong front? sigh...when i went back to my seat..i really juz stared blankly at my screen...and keep thinking about resigning...i really duno what to do...sigh...guess u all juz wun understand how i feel...sigh...(why are so many shitty things happening in this yr? it's only afew days and i've faced so much shit!)...anyway...awhile later my boss came back to nag again...but i think he saw me crying (my tears lah)...thereafter, for the morning, i wasn't really nagged at...but still, i have to produce the template and figures for him...but i did other work first...sigh...but it's still not the reports i'm supposed to be doing...have to clear some request by other people...didnt even have time to go have lunch...actually really no appetite to eat...(but was being nagged at to eat)...so i asked my colleague to da bao a fillet burger for me...ate it and continue w my work...after done with the requests by other ppl, i'm back to doing out the new template for my boss...den my whole afternoon was juz doing that...being called in and out...together with Florence...glad that at least she helped me abit...den about the evening, i've finally cleared my boss...as in the work...but...the numbers still do not tie...means i really gotta be responsible for the numbers...cos it's a huge cut...sigh...if this yr the cashplus team not enough money den i'm responsible lor...sian rite?i'm not in cashplus team...but i'm doing and facing so much shit for them...sigh...
after all has been cleared, i finally got time to do my own reports liao...but...i'm long long overdue in submitting the report...so now i'm really rushing it out!heez...now still in office lor...11pm liao...really tired...wana go home asap!hmmm...
hopefully tmr no need to OT...cos got dinner w family n relatives...yay...heez...
k gotta stop...continue w work liao...byeee...
take care n God Bless~
after all has been cleared, i finally got time to do my own reports liao...but...i'm long long overdue in submitting the report...so now i'm really rushing it out!heez...now still in office lor...11pm liao...really tired...wana go home asap!hmmm...
hopefully tmr no need to OT...cos got dinner w family n relatives...yay...heez...
k gotta stop...continue w work liao...byeee...
take care n God Bless~
~wat a day...!~
wah sian...not long ago reached home only lor...grrr...work lah...n juz now i worked till i didnt noticed it's 9pm...a time which i'm supposed to go home as i've told my mum i'll go home ard that time...in the end i stayed in office till 11.30pm...den took cab home...sigh...n still got lots to do...guess gotta go office early tmr(today)...sigh...another thing which made me even more sian is cos my access cannot be used! my userid is striked off lah...oh yeah...no more uob staff liao...wahahahaa...aiya cos me n my ex team have yet to submit the form to change our access to another division...den our old division (CCOC) so ngiao n selfish lah...juz took away our access even after we told them to extend n give us abit more time due to some reasons (they took away our access without us even knowing when! so idiotic!!!)...stupid lah...once no access...got ALOT of things canot do lor...but u all might think if canot do good wat rite?den no need to do any work...but no lor...i will have to borrow userid from my colleague to continue with my work...plus got alot more to do lor...sigh...so tiring...my month end report still got alot more...den my weekly report not completed yet...sigh...this is juz so shitty...1st day of work(for the yr) n i'm facing so much liao...sian...tiring...really tired of all these nonsense liao...i love my job...but i really juz hate some nonsense...nonsense from my boss (not supervisor lah)...he's someone who's totally v kiasi...and always points fingers at others when being questioned...not only that...he DID NOT even take effort to know what we are doing...expects us to know everything...when he himself knows nothing! arghhhh!!!...he can be someone v nice...but most of the time...i tell u...u can really dislike him...ALL his nonsense...sigh...all he wants is his face...always so scared of throw face...if really that scared, y didnt he even take the effort to know more of what we r doing?worse of all...he likes to push work or things that we totally do not noe how to do...LAST MIN...and muz complete asap!arghhh...if we canot produce...will complain n scold us for being slow...and remark that we did not meet our KPIs...sigh...duno wat to say man...we are all juz innocently being blamed...he can really 'force' many to quit lor...really...he's also at times so unreasonable till he didnt even give chance to ppl in the toilet...still press on for current status(did not occur to me lah...but another colleague)...ppl on leave he also 'force' them back...wat the...arghh...den when he's on leave he'll still be on leave (but will still handle some urgent work matters when needed lah...but is reluctantly and keep on scolding, nagging and complaining...so gu niang lor!)...moreover...he loves to go on leave at the wrong time of the month...even if he already know it's the wrong time...he will still take the leave...n he's also juz soo fake at times...duno how to explain...but juz v fake...sigh...v disappointed y he's like dat...wonder he ever knows he's juz so unreasonable n many canot stand him anot...he really portrays a bad image of a Christian!sigh...k...better not judge...not for me to judge but is for God to judge him...
k enough of complaining...tired le...still gotta wake up early for work...he'll be back 2dae(thursday) from his leave...sigh...need to prepare ear plugs man...sian...guess i'll sure kena alot...sigh...
k nightz to all...take care n God Bless~
k enough of complaining...tired le...still gotta wake up early for work...he'll be back 2dae(thursday) from his leave...sigh...need to prepare ear plugs man...sian...guess i'll sure kena alot...sigh...
k nightz to all...take care n God Bless~
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
~sigh...~
hi people...sigh...it's the 3rd day of the yr!...but! it's the 1st day of work for the yr!!! arghhh...got lots to do for these few days...month end report...sigh...alot sia...plus my weekly report...grrr...came in early juz now to clear my work...sigh...
anyway...my day yesterday was quite...i duno...gave tuition till abt 2plus...den i head off to East Coast park alone...juz want some alone time...actually my schedule was to watch Death Note 2...but i dropped the idea...n decided to go EC alone...on my way there, i slept...but was awaken my someone who called my name...woke up n saw Timothy n Marcus in the same bus as i am...they were on their way to Parkway...they walked me to the entrance to the underpass n left...then from there...i walked...walked to somewhere near Coasta Sands Chalet there (walked too much till my left leg super pain sia...)...camped at one of the break water there...sat there from 3plus till 7plus...during that time...i made myself uncontactable...juz want some alone time...cried once again...but my best fren was kinda worried abt me...actually didnt wana tell him my whereabts...but i let him noe anyway...he came to look for me at 6plus...den we sat there till 7plus n left...really glad he came...his presence made me feel more at ease...really...thanks alot!anyway...actually i dun intend to eat the whole day...but while i was giving tuition, my cousin cooked my share without me knowing...so i gotta eat no matter wat...and as for dinner...since my best fren was there...he WOULD NOT let me DUN EAT...so no choice...gotta eat...we walked to Ampang Yong Tau Fu eat...den went bowling...totally suck at it...den went for pool...also totally suck at it...den took a cab home...and wash up n sleep...tired...
hmmm...anyway...was really wondering whether the time alone was fruitful...i didnt think much at that time...juz kept myself quiet...looking at the sea...and juz let the wind blow...but at least i let myself have some alone time...ppl call me i either dun ans or juz off my phone...sorry mum that u couldnt find me...(she scolded me this morning complaining that i cannot be found!)...hmmm...no choice...was not in the mood...sigh...y muz it turn out this way?...juz so sad...have made some decisions...(only do not know if i can make myself do it...will see as time goes...)...hmmm...k will stop here...got lotsa work to rush!...take care allz~
God Bless!~
anyway...my day yesterday was quite...i duno...gave tuition till abt 2plus...den i head off to East Coast park alone...juz want some alone time...actually my schedule was to watch Death Note 2...but i dropped the idea...n decided to go EC alone...on my way there, i slept...but was awaken my someone who called my name...woke up n saw Timothy n Marcus in the same bus as i am...they were on their way to Parkway...they walked me to the entrance to the underpass n left...then from there...i walked...walked to somewhere near Coasta Sands Chalet there (walked too much till my left leg super pain sia...)...camped at one of the break water there...sat there from 3plus till 7plus...during that time...i made myself uncontactable...juz want some alone time...cried once again...but my best fren was kinda worried abt me...actually didnt wana tell him my whereabts...but i let him noe anyway...he came to look for me at 6plus...den we sat there till 7plus n left...really glad he came...his presence made me feel more at ease...really...thanks alot!anyway...actually i dun intend to eat the whole day...but while i was giving tuition, my cousin cooked my share without me knowing...so i gotta eat no matter wat...and as for dinner...since my best fren was there...he WOULD NOT let me DUN EAT...so no choice...gotta eat...we walked to Ampang Yong Tau Fu eat...den went bowling...totally suck at it...den went for pool...also totally suck at it...den took a cab home...and wash up n sleep...tired...
hmmm...anyway...was really wondering whether the time alone was fruitful...i didnt think much at that time...juz kept myself quiet...looking at the sea...and juz let the wind blow...but at least i let myself have some alone time...ppl call me i either dun ans or juz off my phone...sorry mum that u couldnt find me...(she scolded me this morning complaining that i cannot be found!)...hmmm...no choice...was not in the mood...sigh...y muz it turn out this way?...juz so sad...have made some decisions...(only do not know if i can make myself do it...will see as time goes...)...hmmm...k will stop here...got lotsa work to rush!...take care allz~
God Bless!~
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
~i guess the yr 2007...~
will be a year which i cry alot...y?cos i cried not onli on the 1st day of the new yr...i even cried on the 2nd day...sigh...very disappointed...really duno wat i shld do...
Monday, January 01, 2007
~prank~
anyway...my bro juz told me it should be my dad who played the prank...not him...my dad...aiyo...too bad he's not around...if not i will nag at him...waahahhaaz...
~Welcome 2007~
YEAH! it's 2007 liao...wow...1 yr really past v fast...not long ago i was still in 2006...but now...i'm already in 2007! time really flies...n now, not only do i have to let go of wat i dowana bring from 2006 to 2007, i also have to think of what am i going to do for this whole yr of 2007...
last night was really a thinking night for me...think over the yr....haaz...been standing by the window from 11plus(in 2006) till 12plus(in 2007)...wah!think for 1 yr sia...haaz...hmmm...in dat abt 1hr...i really went into deep thoughts...the wind that blows towards me really soothens down my mind...at first i was in deep thoughts alone...den awhile b4 the countdown, my (bestest)fren came beside me and think...and also talked to me...at that time i was so troubled with a couple of thoughts...1st was relationship...think i've decided to put it aside...2nd was friendships...sigh...this is smthg which is v impt to me...i treasure frenships alot...i treasure those frens around me...but...but...i nv feel those whom i really treasure to really treasure me as fren...mayb i'm sensitive...i duno...anyway, only the fren who talked to me last night really noe how i am feeling at that time...n what r those sad things i've faced...he said many took me for granted...i guess so...but am i still gona let it happen? i duno...cos i've been trying very hard over these 3plus yrs le...i still cant be as close with them as they are with each other...sigh...n guess what...this matter brought the 1st few tears of 2007 down my cheeks...i really pray hard for things to get better...and i guess i really have to hand everything to God...He knows what is best for me...
hmmm...anyway...i've got quite afew things to achieve in this yr 2007...
1. To have a better n closer relationship w God
2. To also have good relationship w my family...
3. To pass my driving in March 07 (really praying hard...i gotta practice hard too!)
4. To graduate by June 07 (really dowana fail anything at all!)
5. After graduation, have to achieve my aim of getting the position i shld get and the pay too!
6. After graduation to save up enought to go for a trip...a relaxing trip...
7. and the list might go on anytime...
haa! yah...so here it goes...heez...
oh yah...wah...when i came home abt 2am in the morning...i nearly screamed my head off in the toilet...haaa...nearly woke up my parents...n i called my bro to scold him...haaz...y? cos they played a prank on me!grrrr...wat a yr to start! haaz...when i reached home, i changed and go brush teeth...i decided not to on the light at first...so juz brush my teeth...thereafter, i duno y i juz go on the lights...den i nearly screamed! and was soooo angry!!!haaz...cos i saw a pile of 'shit' on the floor under the basin!!! i was like...OMG...lucky i didnt step on it! i kept staring at it for quite some time...it looked super real lah...i nearly wana wake my parents up to scold ppl...but i didnt cos they were sleeping soundly...so i quickly rang up one of my bro...the first thing i said was 'who the hell shit on the toilet floor?!'...after a while, he burst out laughing...i was like '??!!!'...haaz...den he told me it's fake...my other bro bought n put it there! i was like 'wat the hell!'...haaz...it looked damned real lor...really...but i still didnt dare go touch it...juz go sleep 1st...still in doubt if its real...haaz...den in the morning i woke up to go toilet...the 'shit' was gone lah...den i juz imagine maybe they cleared it...still in dreamland mode...haaaz...den went back to sleep...i slept till 12pm...when i woke up...i was like nagging at my bro y they put the shit there...haaaz...then not long later my other bro who put the shit there woke up...i was complaining to him lor...den asked where he put it now...he put it on my bed top...grrr...wah it looks real lor...really...no joke...haaz...
hmmm...k will end here...
Happy New Year to all of u! Goodby 2006 and Hello 2007! May all of you have a great yr ahead...and your yr filled with love, peace, joy...n lots more! stay happy always...n God Loves all of u! God Bless~
take care~
last night was really a thinking night for me...think over the yr....haaz...been standing by the window from 11plus(in 2006) till 12plus(in 2007)...wah!think for 1 yr sia...haaz...hmmm...in dat abt 1hr...i really went into deep thoughts...the wind that blows towards me really soothens down my mind...at first i was in deep thoughts alone...den awhile b4 the countdown, my (bestest)fren came beside me and think...and also talked to me...at that time i was so troubled with a couple of thoughts...1st was relationship...think i've decided to put it aside...2nd was friendships...sigh...this is smthg which is v impt to me...i treasure frenships alot...i treasure those frens around me...but...but...i nv feel those whom i really treasure to really treasure me as fren...mayb i'm sensitive...i duno...anyway, only the fren who talked to me last night really noe how i am feeling at that time...n what r those sad things i've faced...he said many took me for granted...i guess so...but am i still gona let it happen? i duno...cos i've been trying very hard over these 3plus yrs le...i still cant be as close with them as they are with each other...sigh...n guess what...this matter brought the 1st few tears of 2007 down my cheeks...i really pray hard for things to get better...and i guess i really have to hand everything to God...He knows what is best for me...
hmmm...anyway...i've got quite afew things to achieve in this yr 2007...
1. To have a better n closer relationship w God
2. To also have good relationship w my family...
3. To pass my driving in March 07 (really praying hard...i gotta practice hard too!)
4. To graduate by June 07 (really dowana fail anything at all!)
5. After graduation, have to achieve my aim of getting the position i shld get and the pay too!
6. After graduation to save up enought to go for a trip...a relaxing trip...
7. and the list might go on anytime...
haa! yah...so here it goes...heez...
oh yah...wah...when i came home abt 2am in the morning...i nearly screamed my head off in the toilet...haaa...nearly woke up my parents...n i called my bro to scold him...haaz...y? cos they played a prank on me!grrrr...wat a yr to start! haaz...when i reached home, i changed and go brush teeth...i decided not to on the light at first...so juz brush my teeth...thereafter, i duno y i juz go on the lights...den i nearly screamed! and was soooo angry!!!haaz...cos i saw a pile of 'shit' on the floor under the basin!!! i was like...OMG...lucky i didnt step on it! i kept staring at it for quite some time...it looked super real lah...i nearly wana wake my parents up to scold ppl...but i didnt cos they were sleeping soundly...so i quickly rang up one of my bro...the first thing i said was 'who the hell shit on the toilet floor?!'...after a while, he burst out laughing...i was like '??!!!'...haaz...den he told me it's fake...my other bro bought n put it there! i was like 'wat the hell!'...haaz...it looked damned real lor...really...but i still didnt dare go touch it...juz go sleep 1st...still in doubt if its real...haaz...den in the morning i woke up to go toilet...the 'shit' was gone lah...den i juz imagine maybe they cleared it...still in dreamland mode...haaaz...den went back to sleep...i slept till 12pm...when i woke up...i was like nagging at my bro y they put the shit there...haaaz...then not long later my other bro who put the shit there woke up...i was complaining to him lor...den asked where he put it now...he put it on my bed top...grrr...wah it looks real lor...really...no joke...haaz...
hmmm...k will end here...
Happy New Year to all of u! Goodby 2006 and Hello 2007! May all of you have a great yr ahead...and your yr filled with love, peace, joy...n lots more! stay happy always...n God Loves all of u! God Bless~
take care~
Saturday, December 30, 2006
~oh yah...~
the link for my pics...i lazt to post here lah...go to the link to enjoy the fotos!
*ps...some albums are not up yet...no time!!!
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*ps...some albums are not up yet...no time!!!
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~post b4 the yr 2006 ends~
hi people~ i'm back!! haaz...been abt 2 weeks since i last post...the past 2 wks have been a bz week for me...heez...cos after my last post, i went to Bangkok for a short trip with 2 of my secondary school frens...my very good frens...they are Choon Kiat n Jiin Rong...it's been a fun trip...mostly shopping...and travelling (by taxi or my cousin's cars)...we stayed at my cousin's house which was away from town abt 40km...this means abt an hr ride...most of the time we slept during the journey...heez...hmmm...now i will talk abit abt my trip over there...
our flight is on 17th Dec 2006...6plus...at the Budget Terminal...wah...very 'lok kok' lor...really budget...wahahahaz...we even have to walk up the steps into the plane...heez...small plane also...Tiger Airways...haaz...our flight was slightly delayed...duno y...took us abt 2 hrs to reach i guess...actually i duno...nv keep track of the time...then we reached Bangkok airport...abit cock up at the custom...forgot to ask my cousin her address...sigh...shld have put we stayed in hotel...den wun have so much trouble...met my cousin at the airport with her 2 kids...therafter we head for dinner abt somewhere near her place...den went to her place...she prepared 2 rooms for us...so nice of her...i stayed in the same room as her daughter...and CK n JR in another room...couldnt really remember wat we did that nite b4 we sleep...i think i helped Claire(my cousin's daughter) with her puzzle...(500pcs! OMG!)...haaz...the guys were pestered by Nick (my cousin's son) to help him with his Lego...(guess wat, the guys didnt play lego in their whole life b4!...in the end i was the one who helped nick complete his Lego...but CK n JR helped Claire with her puzzle)...hmmm...on the 1st day, i woke up at ard 8plus bkk time...the guys were still sleeping...actually for the next few mornings i wake up at 8plus and they wake up at 11plus...PIGS!!!haaz...guys are juz guys...heez...every morning i will juz walk ard...den have breakfast...den bathe...and lastly...spend time waking them up...really a difficult task sia...i will have to sit on them, beat them, bite them...still dowana wake up only after quite some time(even asked nick n claire to disturb them to wake up!)...hahahhaaz....they came back to s'pore with many injuries...haaz...on the few days, we went to places like MBK, Pratunam, Siam Paragon, Pratunam Market, Siam Square, Platinum (i 'kop' a cup from the Swensens there...oops!)...The Mall and Lotus (off town)...and lastly on the last night, we went Suan Lum Night Market...nice place...got Ferris Wheel too...we took it...fun...actually i enjoyed the last night most...most shopping too...oh yah...did i sae dat i spent the most amongst us 3?haaz...spent 10,000 Baht...haaz...but most of the things i bought are for ppl...onli a couple of things for myself...spent alot on transport n food too...the food there are ok lah...but i kinda dislike the foodcourt cos muz always buy coupons b4 buying food!but the food cheap lah...but small serving though...enough for mi but not for the guys...heez...also on the last night, we had a fun journey back to my cousin's house...cos on the last night, we have to go back to my cousin's place ourselves...Claire(who knows how to speak Thai) is not with us or my cousin didnt come n fetch us...so we took a cab ourselves...luckily i got my cousin's add with me...plus afew thai words in there...i read the words out to the taxi driver...Thank God he knows and is willing to take us...(this is bcos the place is v far off town...n not many taxi drivers are willing to take such passengers)...during the journey, we were all v tired...we will usually sleep in the taxi...but this time all of us...even the most pig JR is awake!(he will sleep whenever he can!)...y? cos the driver is super 'zai' lor...the way he drives...can really join F1...wahahahaz...with CK being the commentator to entertain JR...haaz...the way CK commentates really makes us laugh...haaz...luckily (n i guess) the driver dun understand us...haaz...this driver will juz overtake or squeeze thru any opening he sees...and he tails behind every vehicle closely...and he drives fast!soo exciting lor...plus he even answered his handphone with one hand, and the other steering the steering wheel...and overtaking!...haaz...cool driver...heez...we reached 'home' safely...we did our packing...i've got 3 boxes to check in...actually on the 1st day after buying so much things, i already thought it will cross a total of 45kg...dat is why the next few days i always think twice b4 buying things...in the end, the total weight did not even past 25kg! grrr...i should have bought more!bought alot of sweets n goodies...for xmas goodie bags mah...the last morning, i woke up as usual...and woke the guys up after i'm done packing...den we head off for breakfast den to the airport...my cousin in law sent us there...we were there v early cos he gotta pick his boss up from the airport...we walked ard the airport...ate a lil...den waited...haaz...while waiting to go into the plane, there's a big commotion...quarrels with a grandma and the airport staff...scary sia...haaz...thereafter, we're flown back to s'pore...n yup...back!heez...
while back in s'pore, when i reached home, i was soo bz preparing the prezziez for my colleagues...cos the next day is our X'mas party!...stayed up till abt 3am...den sleep...the next day head off to work...when i came back to work, my mind was abit blank...den became panicky...cos was quite blur on where to start working...i even lost touch of typing...haaz...serious!...heez...did my usual work, also giving out prezzies too...den our party starts...fun...really fun...there's lucky draw, n i won the 3rd prize!heez...every yr i bound to win smthg...heez...not bad rite? God Blessed me with many things!...heez...den i stayed back at work for awhile...many went back liao...den took a cab home...rested ahwile den went dinner w my family...is 'dong jie' lor..n my parents' 27th yr wedding anniversary...heez...the nex day(saturday) i head down to vivo's candy empire to get more goodies...this time is for my church youths!...this yr's xmas i really spent alot...abt 4oo$ i guess...den i rushed down to Yishun(took cab - $16!)...cos i got cafe duty...after dat had dinner w the youths at Bishan S11...slacked the the nearby playground...den went home...and pack the goodies into the goody bags...slept late again...den on sunday(xmas eve)...was up quite early...preparing to go for my cousin's ROM at Marriott Hotel...by the Poolside lor...so sweet...nice...here to congratulate Bilson and Joanne to be always happy together till old...heez...went home after the ROM...den rested...den went to meet up ck and the rest...got chalet mah...we bought the food for our steamboat first...we had a great time...they had gift exchange...i didnt participate cos i last min told them i'm coming...so didnt include my name...heez...den on the next day (Christmas!), i went for service...they had a production...really great...thumbs up for all those performing...u guys are great!i njoyed the production...heez...den had lunch with Winnie and family and Leon...den went home for a nap...met up Ck in the evening...we went to Marina Sq for dinner and a movie...Night at the Museum...funny show...but i feel the story line is not good...show ended i think abt 12?canot remember...den ck sent me home...went home n sleep...to prepare for work the next day...haaz...sian lor...
was still sick when i woke up(been sick for the past 4 wks)...haaz...wat's worse is that my right eye got infection...anyway now i'm alot better...after much medication...but at times still feel weak n vomit...but i'm fine...heez...
yesterday(friday) i got mc...really need rest...lucky got rest...if not my eye still v red...now alot better...den in the evening i went for our region's Thanksgiving Party...it's at Lucien's place...wow...last night was...Noisy!!!haaz...i wonder how his parents feel...haaz...but it was fun...the youths are great!heez...many dressed up...i didnt...heez...we had fun n took fotos...anyway...kinda sad abt smthg...smthg dat i feel i'm v left out...sometimes juz wondered am i still not considered a close fren to them...nah...not gona elaborate further...but juz disappointed...k...anyway...will stop here...gotta resume to work...went to Gleneagles for follow up w my gastritis specialist...den came to work...worried sia cos of the few days of holidays...affected my time to do my mth end report...hopefully can clear as much as possible...
take care people...as the yr 2006 is ending in another 1.5days...may u all njoy the last of this yr...and embrace the new yr with hope and happiness!
God Bless n Loves all of u~
our flight is on 17th Dec 2006...6plus...at the Budget Terminal...wah...very 'lok kok' lor...really budget...wahahahaz...we even have to walk up the steps into the plane...heez...small plane also...Tiger Airways...haaz...our flight was slightly delayed...duno y...took us abt 2 hrs to reach i guess...actually i duno...nv keep track of the time...then we reached Bangkok airport...abit cock up at the custom...forgot to ask my cousin her address...sigh...shld have put we stayed in hotel...den wun have so much trouble...met my cousin at the airport with her 2 kids...therafter we head for dinner abt somewhere near her place...den went to her place...she prepared 2 rooms for us...so nice of her...i stayed in the same room as her daughter...and CK n JR in another room...couldnt really remember wat we did that nite b4 we sleep...i think i helped Claire(my cousin's daughter) with her puzzle...(500pcs! OMG!)...haaz...the guys were pestered by Nick (my cousin's son) to help him with his Lego...(guess wat, the guys didnt play lego in their whole life b4!...in the end i was the one who helped nick complete his Lego...but CK n JR helped Claire with her puzzle)...hmmm...on the 1st day, i woke up at ard 8plus bkk time...the guys were still sleeping...actually for the next few mornings i wake up at 8plus and they wake up at 11plus...PIGS!!!haaz...guys are juz guys...heez...every morning i will juz walk ard...den have breakfast...den bathe...and lastly...spend time waking them up...really a difficult task sia...i will have to sit on them, beat them, bite them...still dowana wake up only after quite some time(even asked nick n claire to disturb them to wake up!)...hahahhaaz....they came back to s'pore with many injuries...haaz...on the few days, we went to places like MBK, Pratunam, Siam Paragon, Pratunam Market, Siam Square, Platinum (i 'kop' a cup from the Swensens there...oops!)...The Mall and Lotus (off town)...and lastly on the last night, we went Suan Lum Night Market...nice place...got Ferris Wheel too...we took it...fun...actually i enjoyed the last night most...most shopping too...oh yah...did i sae dat i spent the most amongst us 3?haaz...spent 10,000 Baht...haaz...but most of the things i bought are for ppl...onli a couple of things for myself...spent alot on transport n food too...the food there are ok lah...but i kinda dislike the foodcourt cos muz always buy coupons b4 buying food!but the food cheap lah...but small serving though...enough for mi but not for the guys...heez...also on the last night, we had a fun journey back to my cousin's house...cos on the last night, we have to go back to my cousin's place ourselves...Claire(who knows how to speak Thai) is not with us or my cousin didnt come n fetch us...so we took a cab ourselves...luckily i got my cousin's add with me...plus afew thai words in there...i read the words out to the taxi driver...Thank God he knows and is willing to take us...(this is bcos the place is v far off town...n not many taxi drivers are willing to take such passengers)...during the journey, we were all v tired...we will usually sleep in the taxi...but this time all of us...even the most pig JR is awake!(he will sleep whenever he can!)...y? cos the driver is super 'zai' lor...the way he drives...can really join F1...wahahahaz...with CK being the commentator to entertain JR...haaz...the way CK commentates really makes us laugh...haaz...luckily (n i guess) the driver dun understand us...haaz...this driver will juz overtake or squeeze thru any opening he sees...and he tails behind every vehicle closely...and he drives fast!soo exciting lor...plus he even answered his handphone with one hand, and the other steering the steering wheel...and overtaking!...haaz...cool driver...heez...we reached 'home' safely...we did our packing...i've got 3 boxes to check in...actually on the 1st day after buying so much things, i already thought it will cross a total of 45kg...dat is why the next few days i always think twice b4 buying things...in the end, the total weight did not even past 25kg! grrr...i should have bought more!bought alot of sweets n goodies...for xmas goodie bags mah...the last morning, i woke up as usual...and woke the guys up after i'm done packing...den we head off for breakfast den to the airport...my cousin in law sent us there...we were there v early cos he gotta pick his boss up from the airport...we walked ard the airport...ate a lil...den waited...haaz...while waiting to go into the plane, there's a big commotion...quarrels with a grandma and the airport staff...scary sia...haaz...thereafter, we're flown back to s'pore...n yup...back!heez...
while back in s'pore, when i reached home, i was soo bz preparing the prezziez for my colleagues...cos the next day is our X'mas party!...stayed up till abt 3am...den sleep...the next day head off to work...when i came back to work, my mind was abit blank...den became panicky...cos was quite blur on where to start working...i even lost touch of typing...haaz...serious!...heez...did my usual work, also giving out prezzies too...den our party starts...fun...really fun...there's lucky draw, n i won the 3rd prize!heez...every yr i bound to win smthg...heez...not bad rite? God Blessed me with many things!...heez...den i stayed back at work for awhile...many went back liao...den took a cab home...rested ahwile den went dinner w my family...is 'dong jie' lor..n my parents' 27th yr wedding anniversary...heez...the nex day(saturday) i head down to vivo's candy empire to get more goodies...this time is for my church youths!...this yr's xmas i really spent alot...abt 4oo$ i guess...den i rushed down to Yishun(took cab - $16!)...cos i got cafe duty...after dat had dinner w the youths at Bishan S11...slacked the the nearby playground...den went home...and pack the goodies into the goody bags...slept late again...den on sunday(xmas eve)...was up quite early...preparing to go for my cousin's ROM at Marriott Hotel...by the Poolside lor...so sweet...nice...here to congratulate Bilson and Joanne to be always happy together till old...heez...went home after the ROM...den rested...den went to meet up ck and the rest...got chalet mah...we bought the food for our steamboat first...we had a great time...they had gift exchange...i didnt participate cos i last min told them i'm coming...so didnt include my name...heez...den on the next day (Christmas!), i went for service...they had a production...really great...thumbs up for all those performing...u guys are great!i njoyed the production...heez...den had lunch with Winnie and family and Leon...den went home for a nap...met up Ck in the evening...we went to Marina Sq for dinner and a movie...Night at the Museum...funny show...but i feel the story line is not good...show ended i think abt 12?canot remember...den ck sent me home...went home n sleep...to prepare for work the next day...haaz...sian lor...
was still sick when i woke up(been sick for the past 4 wks)...haaz...wat's worse is that my right eye got infection...anyway now i'm alot better...after much medication...but at times still feel weak n vomit...but i'm fine...heez...
yesterday(friday) i got mc...really need rest...lucky got rest...if not my eye still v red...now alot better...den in the evening i went for our region's Thanksgiving Party...it's at Lucien's place...wow...last night was...Noisy!!!haaz...i wonder how his parents feel...haaz...but it was fun...the youths are great!heez...many dressed up...i didnt...heez...we had fun n took fotos...anyway...kinda sad abt smthg...smthg dat i feel i'm v left out...sometimes juz wondered am i still not considered a close fren to them...nah...not gona elaborate further...but juz disappointed...k...anyway...will stop here...gotta resume to work...went to Gleneagles for follow up w my gastritis specialist...den came to work...worried sia cos of the few days of holidays...affected my time to do my mth end report...hopefully can clear as much as possible...
take care people...as the yr 2006 is ending in another 1.5days...may u all njoy the last of this yr...and embrace the new yr with hope and happiness!
God Bless n Loves all of u~
Saturday, December 16, 2006
~yay! Exams over for the yr!!!~
YAY!!! exams over liaozzzzz.....
but sian...think Jan will start sch liao...sigh...my life revolves around studies, work...so tiring...i really can't wait till i graduate...hopefully in another half a yr's time...been soo long liao...really praying hard i need not retake any module(God has ALWAYS been so faithful...)...this means i gotta work hard n study hard...which i dont really do...sian man...heez...anyway for this time, at least i managed to find abit more time to study...but most of the time is after work...in which i will OT till mayb 7plus...den go to the library to study till 9pm...thereafter, go back to office to study...but usually when i go back to office..more than 50% of the time i will be doing my work...haaz...but not gona claim OT for that lah...haaz...
anyway...for both of my papers on Mon and Fri...kinda difficult lah...esp for Consumer Behaviour...duno how to do(but i left super early for both papers...did not make use of the amt of time given...haaz...but really did tried my best...and i studied as much as i could...hmmm...now, all i can do is to leave it ALL to God...hmmm...yup...and i'm not to worry abt my exams which was just over anymore...hmmm...
yesterday after exams i went to meet up ZD n Teck for movie...Eragon...at first i find it quite boring...but it gets more interesting in the later part...not bad show lah...hmmm...as for today, i will be meeting CK n JR up to discuss wat to bring tmr...we r goin Bangkok mah...n i gona get some prezzies for my cousin...he gona ROM next week...heez...then for tmr, will be as usual, my church schedule...thereafter i guess will go home after lunch to rest n prepare to go to the airport...guess got alot of stuff to bring...mostly not mine...gotta help my mum send over some stuff to my cousin...hmmm...hope will be a fun trip...though all not planned...hahhaaz...sian man...cos Chatuchak Market not gona be opened...its a weekend market...means gotta go elsewhere...hmmmz...
k will stop here...got lots of things to do...
take care
God Bless~
but sian...think Jan will start sch liao...sigh...my life revolves around studies, work...so tiring...i really can't wait till i graduate...hopefully in another half a yr's time...been soo long liao...really praying hard i need not retake any module(God has ALWAYS been so faithful...)...this means i gotta work hard n study hard...which i dont really do...sian man...heez...anyway for this time, at least i managed to find abit more time to study...but most of the time is after work...in which i will OT till mayb 7plus...den go to the library to study till 9pm...thereafter, go back to office to study...but usually when i go back to office..more than 50% of the time i will be doing my work...haaz...but not gona claim OT for that lah...haaz...
anyway...for both of my papers on Mon and Fri...kinda difficult lah...esp for Consumer Behaviour...duno how to do(but i left super early for both papers...did not make use of the amt of time given...haaz...but really did tried my best...and i studied as much as i could...hmmm...now, all i can do is to leave it ALL to God...hmmm...yup...and i'm not to worry abt my exams which was just over anymore...hmmm...
yesterday after exams i went to meet up ZD n Teck for movie...Eragon...at first i find it quite boring...but it gets more interesting in the later part...not bad show lah...hmmm...as for today, i will be meeting CK n JR up to discuss wat to bring tmr...we r goin Bangkok mah...n i gona get some prezzies for my cousin...he gona ROM next week...heez...then for tmr, will be as usual, my church schedule...thereafter i guess will go home after lunch to rest n prepare to go to the airport...guess got alot of stuff to bring...mostly not mine...gotta help my mum send over some stuff to my cousin...hmmm...hope will be a fun trip...though all not planned...hahhaaz...sian man...cos Chatuchak Market not gona be opened...its a weekend market...means gotta go elsewhere...hmmmz...
k will stop here...got lots of things to do...
take care
God Bless~
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Saturday, December 09, 2006
~feeling stress~
sigh...last night had a bad sleep...not really bad lah...juz dat i kept tossing n turning on my bed, my mind kept thinking, which caused a v bad headache for me...sigh...
what have i been thinking? work lor...really stressed...the main thing bothering me is my coming block leave (this means a long leave of at least 5 working days to be taken - a must! every year)...it's a leave, y is it bothering me? cos, if i go on leave, it will mean someone will have to back me up to do my usual work (which is somehow tedious when it comes to Wednesday - weekly report day!)...sigh...what's tedious abt my weekly reporting is that i will have to accumulate everyday's figures into some small reports, therafter, on Wednesday, will be accumulating the small reports of the previous Wednesday to the day before (tuesday)...not only that, on Wednesday itself, i will have to get some other small reports from other department to complete my main Weekly Report...the problem is i'm the only one who really knows how to do this report, where no others know...it takes quite some time to learn it...and now, some one got to learn it n do it while i'm away, which is happening in a few days' time...n i'm really worried...my colleague in my team will be my back up...she should have learn it from me afew months back...but she's too bz to learn...it was only till afew days ago where she get to learn onli a small part of it...sigh...i really duno how to go on a holiday without getting myself soo worried about the report getting done...sigh...now everyday i'm really cracking my brain on how to make the whole process alot easier for her...i'm halfway through though...and when i'm troubled with work, i canot put my concentration on other things - EXAM...sigh...everytime while i'm trying to study, i will keep thinking on how to make the work easier...which leads me to NO INTEREST to study...sigh...just like now...i should be studying...but my mind just could not put aside my work...i really feel bad to let her back me up...keep thinking that she keep saying that she doesnt understand the whole procedure and why the number is there...oh no...sigh...since last night, i even have the thought of going back to office later to think of easier ways and to take down the steps of doing for her...guess i might head down to office later...sian...Monday is International Business paper...till now i dont really know what i'm studying...sigh...then on Friday will be my Consumer Behaviour paper...which i have yet to touch on till now...sigh...really stress...God, i really need you badly at this point of time in my life...i need guidance to deal with my work and my studies...sigh...
k lah...will stop here...*trying to study*...hopefully...
take gd care~
God Bless~
what have i been thinking? work lor...really stressed...the main thing bothering me is my coming block leave (this means a long leave of at least 5 working days to be taken - a must! every year)...it's a leave, y is it bothering me? cos, if i go on leave, it will mean someone will have to back me up to do my usual work (which is somehow tedious when it comes to Wednesday - weekly report day!)...sigh...what's tedious abt my weekly reporting is that i will have to accumulate everyday's figures into some small reports, therafter, on Wednesday, will be accumulating the small reports of the previous Wednesday to the day before (tuesday)...not only that, on Wednesday itself, i will have to get some other small reports from other department to complete my main Weekly Report...the problem is i'm the only one who really knows how to do this report, where no others know...it takes quite some time to learn it...and now, some one got to learn it n do it while i'm away, which is happening in a few days' time...n i'm really worried...my colleague in my team will be my back up...she should have learn it from me afew months back...but she's too bz to learn...it was only till afew days ago where she get to learn onli a small part of it...sigh...i really duno how to go on a holiday without getting myself soo worried about the report getting done...sigh...now everyday i'm really cracking my brain on how to make the whole process alot easier for her...i'm halfway through though...and when i'm troubled with work, i canot put my concentration on other things - EXAM...sigh...everytime while i'm trying to study, i will keep thinking on how to make the work easier...which leads me to NO INTEREST to study...sigh...just like now...i should be studying...but my mind just could not put aside my work...i really feel bad to let her back me up...keep thinking that she keep saying that she doesnt understand the whole procedure and why the number is there...oh no...sigh...since last night, i even have the thought of going back to office later to think of easier ways and to take down the steps of doing for her...guess i might head down to office later...sian...Monday is International Business paper...till now i dont really know what i'm studying...sigh...then on Friday will be my Consumer Behaviour paper...which i have yet to touch on till now...sigh...really stress...God, i really need you badly at this point of time in my life...i need guidance to deal with my work and my studies...sigh...
k lah...will stop here...*trying to study*...hopefully...
take gd care~
God Bless~
Monday, December 04, 2006
~still in office~
sigh...am still in office...juz finished some work...tmr still got lots more though...sigh...actually wana study...but time got eaten up by work...so no choice...hmmmm...am i really fated not to study till the day of exam itself? sigh...
now i'm having a super bad headache...v pain plus giddy...it's making me nauseas...duno the nauseasness is cos of the headache or my gastric...juz now even vomited again...stomach uncomfy...sigh...now trying to study abit...guess i'm stress lah...when i'm stress, i vomit...worried abt work...cos i'm going on long leave soon after exams...but my colleague still have yet to learn how to do my reports...how?the steps of my reports are somehow tedious and complicated...really afraid she hasnt had the time to learn lor...really worried...she's bz w other stuff too...i cannot rush her too...God, please help me and her find time so that she can learn how to do those reports on time b4 i go for my leave...
hmmm...exams starting in less than 7 days time...and guess wat? i have yet to start...really trying to study nowwwww...but my headache is obstructing my concentration...sigh...oh no...nauseas...feel like vomiting again...sigh...
k will stop here...gona rest awhile...if headache still v bad den i go home instead of study liao...
take care...God Bless~
now i'm having a super bad headache...v pain plus giddy...it's making me nauseas...duno the nauseasness is cos of the headache or my gastric...juz now even vomited again...stomach uncomfy...sigh...now trying to study abit...guess i'm stress lah...when i'm stress, i vomit...worried abt work...cos i'm going on long leave soon after exams...but my colleague still have yet to learn how to do my reports...how?the steps of my reports are somehow tedious and complicated...really afraid she hasnt had the time to learn lor...really worried...she's bz w other stuff too...i cannot rush her too...God, please help me and her find time so that she can learn how to do those reports on time b4 i go for my leave...
hmmm...exams starting in less than 7 days time...and guess wat? i have yet to start...really trying to study nowwwww...but my headache is obstructing my concentration...sigh...oh no...nauseas...feel like vomiting again...sigh...
k will stop here...gona rest awhile...if headache still v bad den i go home instead of study liao...
take care...God Bless~
Thursday, November 30, 2006
~another harassment!!!~
arrrggghhh.....sian man...juz now i received a call from sum1 called Bendy...duno hu sia...pte number somemore...i answered cos i thought it might be sum1 else i know...but is not...
anyway...my mood is already quite bad liao...plus with dat call...i really duno how to explain...wana cry sia...(my mood bad cos alot of stuff crop up at work...many changes....sigh...plus it's month end...sian)...
k...it goes like dis...i answered the call in quite a nice but abit irritated tone...cos no mood mah...den dis person juz kept on talking...duno wat he toking sia...all super broken english...i asked him how he got my number, he told me is from Jack...i said i duno this person...even if i noe...i noe my frens wldnt anyhow giv away my number...he asked me not to care who gave the number...he juz wana make frens with me...i told him i wont entertain him at all...he asked y...den i said if i duno whose the one who gave him my number, i have no obligations to entertain him...den cos i sumhow dun really understand wat he's talking abt...i didnt really listen...but i heard a part where he said the 'f' word...i was so angry and hung up immediately...
sooo angry lor...n i suspect(my colleague suspected too) that is either that idiot guy from the previous post or he gave my number to this person to harass me...wah...my mood totally gone even worse lor...so pissed off...sigh...think my life is really in danger...
really stressed...2dae is a super bad dae for me lor...early morning stomach unwell till now...den whole dae rush some stupid work n no time to do my daily work...den got those stupid missed calls and smses...den alot of changes in some reports by my boss...den the stupid call(if onli i noe it wldnt be my fren)...den mth end report doing tmr and some reports are messed up...i really duno how sia...really being pushed to the dead end...shld be in class now...but really no time to go...n cos i'm angry n really no mood, so i blogged this down...sigh...bad day...sigh...HELP!!!
brothers n sisters in Christ...pls pray for me...i really need the strength...sigh...
k gotta shift my attention to work liao...byee
anyway...my mood is already quite bad liao...plus with dat call...i really duno how to explain...wana cry sia...(my mood bad cos alot of stuff crop up at work...many changes....sigh...plus it's month end...sian)...
k...it goes like dis...i answered the call in quite a nice but abit irritated tone...cos no mood mah...den dis person juz kept on talking...duno wat he toking sia...all super broken english...i asked him how he got my number, he told me is from Jack...i said i duno this person...even if i noe...i noe my frens wldnt anyhow giv away my number...he asked me not to care who gave the number...he juz wana make frens with me...i told him i wont entertain him at all...he asked y...den i said if i duno whose the one who gave him my number, i have no obligations to entertain him...den cos i sumhow dun really understand wat he's talking abt...i didnt really listen...but i heard a part where he said the 'f' word...i was so angry and hung up immediately...
sooo angry lor...n i suspect(my colleague suspected too) that is either that idiot guy from the previous post or he gave my number to this person to harass me...wah...my mood totally gone even worse lor...so pissed off...sigh...think my life is really in danger...
really stressed...2dae is a super bad dae for me lor...early morning stomach unwell till now...den whole dae rush some stupid work n no time to do my daily work...den got those stupid missed calls and smses...den alot of changes in some reports by my boss...den the stupid call(if onli i noe it wldnt be my fren)...den mth end report doing tmr and some reports are messed up...i really duno how sia...really being pushed to the dead end...shld be in class now...but really no time to go...n cos i'm angry n really no mood, so i blogged this down...sigh...bad day...sigh...HELP!!!
brothers n sisters in Christ...pls pray for me...i really need the strength...sigh...
k gotta shift my attention to work liao...byee
~oh no...life in danger...being harassed by unknown!!!~
eeekzzz....scary man...there's even danger by being nice!!! sigh...how???
ok...it goes like this...on Saturday, 25th Nov 2006, i received a call while i was doing my Cafe duty at The Edge...he's an Indian lah...den i told him wrong number and hung up...then on Sunday morning, while preparing to go church for class, i received an sms saying he's sorry as he's trying to call the number XXXXX204 instead of mine which is XXXXX205...so as i'm sum1 who's kinda easy going, i replied 'It's ok. No worries :)'...thereafter, he replied and said i'm so kind and understanding lah...*rolls eyes*...i didnt reply him...den he smsed again and ask if he could have my name to know me as a good fren...to me i thought no harm telling my name so i told him...den he goes on introducing himself and asking alot about me...i didnt care lah...den cos i'm bz with my class and duty(teach the kids in church),i didnt noe i've got lotsa missed calls and smses...all from that guy lor...*shivers*..den i got kinda scared...he kept msging y i didnt ans my fone, he wana tok to me...this n dat lah...i was quite pissed off so i replied to him saying i have no obligations to do so...but...i duno if he understands my english or not(i dun understand his super broken english lah...all sentences dun link at all!)...he still kept on msging...i juz ignored after telling him i'm bz...and guess wat? till now he's always msging and called me...juz like dis morning...he msged 'good morning.how are you?'...the thing is not only 1 msg...is 3...as i'm bz...i juz ignored...den juz now while having meeting with my boss,and when i came back to my desk, i saw 8 msges!!! plus a missed call which i ignored as it's from him previously...kaoz...8 msges leh...and is the same msg!!!...i deleted all...canot remember wat is the content as i totally dun understand his sms!!!lousy english lah...but its sumthing like y i didnt ans his call or wat...duno lah...kinda pissed off...harassment man...scary...i juz totally ignored lor...sigh...wonder will my life be in danger sia...haaaa...*thinks too far*...keke...sigh...sian man...thru fone also can kena harassed...grrr...wonder when will it stop...think he's a psycho...*shivers*...hahahahz...
k will stop here...juz now was super bz n stressed...my boss lah...anyhow blame me and insisted it's my responsibility...grrr...den my stomach still unwell...sigh...dying soon...hahaha...joking....bleahz...haaaz....
take care n God Bless~
ok...it goes like this...on Saturday, 25th Nov 2006, i received a call while i was doing my Cafe duty at The Edge...he's an Indian lah...den i told him wrong number and hung up...then on Sunday morning, while preparing to go church for class, i received an sms saying he's sorry as he's trying to call the number XXXXX204 instead of mine which is XXXXX205...so as i'm sum1 who's kinda easy going, i replied 'It's ok. No worries :)'...thereafter, he replied and said i'm so kind and understanding lah...*rolls eyes*...i didnt reply him...den he smsed again and ask if he could have my name to know me as a good fren...to me i thought no harm telling my name so i told him...den he goes on introducing himself and asking alot about me...i didnt care lah...den cos i'm bz with my class and duty(teach the kids in church),i didnt noe i've got lotsa missed calls and smses...all from that guy lor...*shivers*..den i got kinda scared...he kept msging y i didnt ans my fone, he wana tok to me...this n dat lah...i was quite pissed off so i replied to him saying i have no obligations to do so...but...i duno if he understands my english or not(i dun understand his super broken english lah...all sentences dun link at all!)...he still kept on msging...i juz ignored after telling him i'm bz...and guess wat? till now he's always msging and called me...juz like dis morning...he msged 'good morning.how are you?'...the thing is not only 1 msg...is 3...as i'm bz...i juz ignored...den juz now while having meeting with my boss,and when i came back to my desk, i saw 8 msges!!! plus a missed call which i ignored as it's from him previously...kaoz...8 msges leh...and is the same msg!!!...i deleted all...canot remember wat is the content as i totally dun understand his sms!!!lousy english lah...but its sumthing like y i didnt ans his call or wat...duno lah...kinda pissed off...harassment man...scary...i juz totally ignored lor...sigh...wonder will my life be in danger sia...haaaa...*thinks too far*...keke...sigh...sian man...thru fone also can kena harassed...grrr...wonder when will it stop...think he's a psycho...*shivers*...hahahahz...
k will stop here...juz now was super bz n stressed...my boss lah...anyhow blame me and insisted it's my responsibility...grrr...den my stomach still unwell...sigh...dying soon...hahaha...joking....bleahz...haaaz....
take care n God Bless~
~still unwell~
sigh...my stomach still feeling v uncomfy...pain...sigh...and really feel like vomiting...trying not to though...if not i will sure cry again...sian...came to work quite early...got some stuff to rush though...n still doing...but too uncomfy liao...so juz slack abit n blog...
k will stop here...
will blog again...
Take Care n God Bless~
k will stop here...
will blog again...
Take Care n God Bless~
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
~arghh!!~
aaaaarrrrrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
still very pain lor...all i can do is TAHAN!!!...and also distracting myself by doing my assignment...chatting...but...still...feel the pain...sigh...thought of going to see doc later in the morning...but...no time!!! doc usually arrives at 9am...and i needa be in office by ard 8.30am cos it's Wednesday...doing report day...sigh...means gotta tahan the pain for another day...hope i can take it...*prays*...
sigh...this is bad man...my condition really keep going up and down...duno when will i ever recover...sigh...BUT...i believe there's a purpose for me to 'suffer' from all these...i know that God will eventually bless n heal me. Amen!
kk...it's late...muz sleep if not canot reach office early...*argh...work*...but nevertheless...i still love to work more than to study...haaaz....
nitez to all!
take care n God Bless n Love all of u!!!!!
still very pain lor...all i can do is TAHAN!!!...and also distracting myself by doing my assignment...chatting...but...still...feel the pain...sigh...thought of going to see doc later in the morning...but...no time!!! doc usually arrives at 9am...and i needa be in office by ard 8.30am cos it's Wednesday...doing report day...sigh...means gotta tahan the pain for another day...hope i can take it...*prays*...
sigh...this is bad man...my condition really keep going up and down...duno when will i ever recover...sigh...BUT...i believe there's a purpose for me to 'suffer' from all these...i know that God will eventually bless n heal me. Amen!
kk...it's late...muz sleep if not canot reach office early...*argh...work*...but nevertheless...i still love to work more than to study...haaaz....
nitez to all!
take care n God Bless n Love all of u!!!!!
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
~better...but not much though~
sigh...pain...my tummy area...i duno how to explain the pain...it's where the walls of my stomach is feeling the pain...sometimes when i eat or drink, i can feel the food moving down to my stomach...cos it's painful...but cos of such pains being very usual, i still can take the pain and not be rolling all over the floor...haaz...but i juz hate the pain lor...and i keep feeling nauseas at any time...esp when i feel a lil stress or some stuff keep bugging me...
i juz really feel super bad lah...then such feelings caused me to be soo stressed that it aggravates my condition...sigh...sometimes juz feel like crying...still as usual, i held back my tears and keep my cheery look...sigh...
k gotta work...will stop here...canot eat snake so i've typed as fast as i could...haaz...
take care n God Bless~~~
i juz really feel super bad lah...then such feelings caused me to be soo stressed that it aggravates my condition...sigh...sometimes juz feel like crying...still as usual, i held back my tears and keep my cheery look...sigh...
k gotta work...will stop here...canot eat snake so i've typed as fast as i could...haaz...
take care n God Bless~~~
Monday, November 27, 2006
~sigh...another round of vomitting~
sigh...sick of it...think i shld go ask my doc whether there are any anti-vomitting pills...haaz...
lalalalala...
anyway...tomach feeling uncomfy le...plus i onli ate like 1/5 or mayb 1/4 of my food...mostly the soup n veg...thereafter i vomit liao...sian man...hmmm...
anyway...'depression' mood is back i guess...actually quite a few weeks ago already...but not that serious...but recently past few days i kept feeling sad...usually if i'm alone...like last week...while waiting for my fren, tears juz dropped...same as b4...duno wat thoughts juz whizzed passed my mind...plus since morning, my colleagues said dat i looked super pale...and juz now while crossing the road they said i didnt see the car coming towards...lucky she(the driver) stopped in time...but i thought i saw the car was goin quite slowly so i juz cross the road...*shrugs*...they said my mind was away...maybe...sigh...and every now and den i feel like crying...juz holding back my tears to put up a strong front...sigh...
and i'm constantly seeking God...really need Him alot...if not i guess i'll juz break down...and totally not be able to work(as in do anything) anymore...hmmm...
juz feel bad in some personal stuff...keep on blaming myself...sigh...
lalalalala...
anyway...tomach feeling uncomfy le...plus i onli ate like 1/5 or mayb 1/4 of my food...mostly the soup n veg...thereafter i vomit liao...sian man...hmmm...
anyway...'depression' mood is back i guess...actually quite a few weeks ago already...but not that serious...but recently past few days i kept feeling sad...usually if i'm alone...like last week...while waiting for my fren, tears juz dropped...same as b4...duno wat thoughts juz whizzed passed my mind...plus since morning, my colleagues said dat i looked super pale...and juz now while crossing the road they said i didnt see the car coming towards...lucky she(the driver) stopped in time...but i thought i saw the car was goin quite slowly so i juz cross the road...*shrugs*...they said my mind was away...maybe...sigh...and every now and den i feel like crying...juz holding back my tears to put up a strong front...sigh...
and i'm constantly seeking God...really need Him alot...if not i guess i'll juz break down...and totally not be able to work(as in do anything) anymore...hmmm...
juz feel bad in some personal stuff...keep on blaming myself...sigh...
~...vomitting spoils my day...~
sigh...guess wat? vomitting starts again...when i thought i'm getting better...it comes back...but i also think it's cos i chose not to take medicine for the past 2 days...now going back to taking medicine...sigh...
actually last nite already dun feel really well...juz dat i didnt tell anybody...juz tahan...den coming to the time b4 i going to sleep, i felt super nauseas...tried to vomit but nothing came out...so quickly went to sleep...didnt sleep well i guess...den comes morning, which was juz now...there's abt a half an hour period where my eyes still cant open but i feel very uncomfortable...i noe when i wake up i will vomit anytime...true enough, when i woke up, when i was brushing my teeth, i vomitted...gastric juices...sigh...bad sign...cos the night b4 already nothing to vomit but yet this morning i vomitted gastric juices...and it's alot...cried as usual...sigh...and cos i'm afraid i might vomit again, i ate only 3 mouths of food for breakfast...feel totally unwell...even now...sigh...
suddenly juz feel like lying on my bed n juz sleep...sleep for very very long...even till my stomach condition gets fine...sigh...even now while i'm typing, i'm tahan-ing the pain...feeling weak...but i guess i wun be taking mc...juz wana work to distract myself...hmmm...guess i have to be good and always take my medicine...if not it will get worse...hmmm...
anyway, exams are around the corner...and i am still unsure what i have learnt so far...blame myself for not listening in class...*worries*...hmmm...
k guess will stop here...gotta work and not remind myself i'm not feeling well...hope the day will be fine...
take gd care peeps...God Bless n Loves u all!
actually last nite already dun feel really well...juz dat i didnt tell anybody...juz tahan...den coming to the time b4 i going to sleep, i felt super nauseas...tried to vomit but nothing came out...so quickly went to sleep...didnt sleep well i guess...den comes morning, which was juz now...there's abt a half an hour period where my eyes still cant open but i feel very uncomfortable...i noe when i wake up i will vomit anytime...true enough, when i woke up, when i was brushing my teeth, i vomitted...gastric juices...sigh...bad sign...cos the night b4 already nothing to vomit but yet this morning i vomitted gastric juices...and it's alot...cried as usual...sigh...and cos i'm afraid i might vomit again, i ate only 3 mouths of food for breakfast...feel totally unwell...even now...sigh...
suddenly juz feel like lying on my bed n juz sleep...sleep for very very long...even till my stomach condition gets fine...sigh...even now while i'm typing, i'm tahan-ing the pain...feeling weak...but i guess i wun be taking mc...juz wana work to distract myself...hmmm...guess i have to be good and always take my medicine...if not it will get worse...hmmm...
anyway, exams are around the corner...and i am still unsure what i have learnt so far...blame myself for not listening in class...*worries*...hmmm...
k guess will stop here...gotta work and not remind myself i'm not feeling well...hope the day will be fine...
take gd care peeps...God Bless n Loves u all!
Thursday, November 23, 2006
~how do u judge maturity?~
sigh...kinda sad...in fact, am really sad...duno wat to sae...not long ago juz had conversations with afew of my colleagues...it's thos kind of after lunch chat...to relax abit...as usual...those small gossips...women lah...den suddenly attention comes to me...which really hit me alot...n i really dislike them saying abt me...but i will juz pretend to be ok and laugh it off...
they are always bugging on the fact that i'm not mature...which i dun think so...but mayb i am...but not to the extent to what they think...as usual for mi, i like to be kinda lame...talk alot of nonsense...but that's me...i juz wana 'entertain' ppl to prevent them from being stress mah...but cos of all my actions and how i talk, they kept insisting that i'm not mature...guess i tried too hard to de-stress them...they can be lame themselves yet when i'm being lame, they juz think i'm a kid...sigh...n yah it's true i like to say and be proud of myself being the youngest amongst them...but they will say that i'm immature when i keep thinking i'm young...but i am young as compared to them what...sigh...thereafter, they will say a joke of out me...though i juz smiled it off...the feeling is really juz like a knife piercing through my heart...feeling damn hurt...but i cant say anything...they didnt feel how i felt...actually during those times, i really feel like crying...but i juz put up a brave front...and do not wana make a big fuss out of it since i think they juz treat it as a joke...
sigh...sometimes i see even older people acting even more immature but i didnt hear them saying that they are immature...really wonder wat's with them...y r they using me as the target to laugh at?they always tease me in alot of other areas too...hmmm...they r nice people...i like spending time talking to them, eating with them, and working with them...but when it comes to this kind of jokes...i really hate it...sigh...cant say much abt ppl lah...cos i myself also got say ppl at times...hmmm...duno lah...but sometimes i realy wonder how ppl judge others whether they are mature or not...i dare say that for work i do handle them maturely...however there are exceptions that i handle them by my mood...in which i noe it's totally immature...but...human nature wat...sigh...when will i ever be regarded as mature by them? sigh...
anyone got any views on maturity?
or any comments on my maturity? (but i first admit i can be immature at times...only dat i'm unhappy they always think i'm immature)...
will stop here...gotta work...take care...
God Bless~
they are always bugging on the fact that i'm not mature...which i dun think so...but mayb i am...but not to the extent to what they think...as usual for mi, i like to be kinda lame...talk alot of nonsense...but that's me...i juz wana 'entertain' ppl to prevent them from being stress mah...but cos of all my actions and how i talk, they kept insisting that i'm not mature...guess i tried too hard to de-stress them...they can be lame themselves yet when i'm being lame, they juz think i'm a kid...sigh...n yah it's true i like to say and be proud of myself being the youngest amongst them...but they will say that i'm immature when i keep thinking i'm young...but i am young as compared to them what...sigh...thereafter, they will say a joke of out me...though i juz smiled it off...the feeling is really juz like a knife piercing through my heart...feeling damn hurt...but i cant say anything...they didnt feel how i felt...actually during those times, i really feel like crying...but i juz put up a brave front...and do not wana make a big fuss out of it since i think they juz treat it as a joke...
sigh...sometimes i see even older people acting even more immature but i didnt hear them saying that they are immature...really wonder wat's with them...y r they using me as the target to laugh at?they always tease me in alot of other areas too...hmmm...they r nice people...i like spending time talking to them, eating with them, and working with them...but when it comes to this kind of jokes...i really hate it...sigh...cant say much abt ppl lah...cos i myself also got say ppl at times...hmmm...duno lah...but sometimes i realy wonder how ppl judge others whether they are mature or not...i dare say that for work i do handle them maturely...however there are exceptions that i handle them by my mood...in which i noe it's totally immature...but...human nature wat...sigh...when will i ever be regarded as mature by them? sigh...
anyone got any views on maturity?
or any comments on my maturity? (but i first admit i can be immature at times...only dat i'm unhappy they always think i'm immature)...
will stop here...gotta work...take care...
God Bless~
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Facts abt eating fruits
We all think eating fruits means
simply buying fruit, cutting it and
just popping it into our mouths.
You will benefit much more
if you know how and when to eat.
Eat Fresh Fruits
Fruits should be taken
in an empty stomach…
not as dessert after the meal
as is often done.
If you eat fruit like that, it will also serve
a major role to detoxify your system, supplying you with a great deal of energy
for weight loss and other life activities.
Correct Way of Eating Fruits
Let's say you eat two slices of bread
and then a slice of fruit.
As fruit digests faster than bread,
the slice of fruit digests quickly
and is ready to go straight through
the stomach into the intestines,
but its passage is blocked by the bread which takes longer to digest…
Fruit is the Most Important Food
…In the meantime the whole meal ferments and turns to acid.
Consequently, when the fruit comes
into contact with the food
in the stomach and digestive juices,
the entire mass of food begins
to spoil.
So it is better to eat your fruits in an empty stomach or
before your meals !
You have heard people complaining –
every time I eat water-melon I burp,
when I eat durian my stomach bloats up,
when I eat banana
I feel like running to the toilet etc –
actually all this will not arise if you eat
the fruit in an empty stomach.
The fruit mixes with the putrefying other food and produces gas and hence you will bloat !
Graying hair, balding, nervous outburst,
dark circles under the eyes
all these will not happen if
you take fruits in an empty stomach.
It is incorrectly presumed that some fruits
like orange and lemon are acidic and will enhance acidity in the stomach.
Research however shows
that all fruits become alkaline
in our body.
When you need to drink fruit juice –
drink only fresh fruit juice,
NOT from the cans.
Don't drink juice that has been heated up.
Don't eat cooked fruits because
you don't get the nutrients at all.
You only get to taste.
So stop making 'durian porridge'
if you want nutrients.
Cooking fruit destroys all the vitamins.
If you should drink the juice,
drink it mouthful by mouthful slowly,
because you must let it mix
with your saliva before swallowing it.
Eating the pulp or whole fruit
is far better than drinking the juice
as the fibre is good for you.
A 3-day “fruit fast” is
a very simple and effective way
to cleanse and de-toxify your body.
Just eat fruits and drink fruit juice throughout the 3 days and
you will be surprised when your friends
tell you how radiant you look !
During the “fruit fast” you can eat different fruits at different times, although occasionally mixed fruit salad would
also be permissible and more interesting.
If you have mastered
the correct way of eating fruits,
you have the secret of beauty,
longevity, health, energy,
happiness and normal weight.
simply buying fruit, cutting it and
just popping it into our mouths.
You will benefit much more
if you know how and when to eat.
Eat Fresh Fruits
Fruits should be taken
in an empty stomach…
not as dessert after the meal
as is often done.
If you eat fruit like that, it will also serve
a major role to detoxify your system, supplying you with a great deal of energy
for weight loss and other life activities.
Correct Way of Eating Fruits
Let's say you eat two slices of bread
and then a slice of fruit.
As fruit digests faster than bread,
the slice of fruit digests quickly
and is ready to go straight through
the stomach into the intestines,
but its passage is blocked by the bread which takes longer to digest…
Fruit is the Most Important Food
…In the meantime the whole meal ferments and turns to acid.
Consequently, when the fruit comes
into contact with the food
in the stomach and digestive juices,
the entire mass of food begins
to spoil.
So it is better to eat your fruits in an empty stomach or
before your meals !
You have heard people complaining –
every time I eat water-melon I burp,
when I eat durian my stomach bloats up,
when I eat banana
I feel like running to the toilet etc –
actually all this will not arise if you eat
the fruit in an empty stomach.
The fruit mixes with the putrefying other food and produces gas and hence you will bloat !
Graying hair, balding, nervous outburst,
dark circles under the eyes
all these will not happen if
you take fruits in an empty stomach.
It is incorrectly presumed that some fruits
like orange and lemon are acidic and will enhance acidity in the stomach.
Research however shows
that all fruits become alkaline
in our body.
When you need to drink fruit juice –
drink only fresh fruit juice,
NOT from the cans.
Don't drink juice that has been heated up.
Don't eat cooked fruits because
you don't get the nutrients at all.
You only get to taste.
So stop making 'durian porridge'
if you want nutrients.
Cooking fruit destroys all the vitamins.
If you should drink the juice,
drink it mouthful by mouthful slowly,
because you must let it mix
with your saliva before swallowing it.
Eating the pulp or whole fruit
is far better than drinking the juice
as the fibre is good for you.
A 3-day “fruit fast” is
a very simple and effective way
to cleanse and de-toxify your body.
Just eat fruits and drink fruit juice throughout the 3 days and
you will be surprised when your friends
tell you how radiant you look !
During the “fruit fast” you can eat different fruits at different times, although occasionally mixed fruit salad would
also be permissible and more interesting.
If you have mastered
the correct way of eating fruits,
you have the secret of beauty,
longevity, health, energy,
happiness and normal weight.
Friday, November 17, 2006
dancing with god
dancing with god
when i meditated on the word guidance,
i kept seeing "dance" at the end of the word.
i remember reading that doing god's will is a lot like dancing.
when two people try to lead, nothing feels right.
the movement doesn't flow with the music,
and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky.
when one person realizes that, and lets the other lead,
both bodies begin to flow with the music.
one gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back
or by pressing lightly in one direction or another.
it's as if two become one body, moving beautifully.
the dance takes surrender, willingness,
and attentiveness from one person
and gentle guidance and skill from the other.
my eyes drew back to the word guidance.
when i saw "g: i thought of god, followed by "u" and "i".
"god, "u" and "i" dance."
god, you, and i dance.
as i lowered my head, i became willing to trust
that i would get guidance about my life.
once again, i became willing to let god lead.
my prayer for you today is that god's blessings
and mercies be upon you on this day and everyday.
may you abide in god as god abides in you.
dance together with god, trusting god to lead
and to guide you through each season of your life.
this prayer is powerful and there is nothing attached.
if god has done anything for you in your life,
please share this message with someone else,
for prayer is one of the best gifts we can receive.
there is no cost but lots of rewards;
so let's continue to pray for one another.
and i hope you dance.
...let us not walk off the path (again) - be always assured and hopeful as the big one up there is watching over us and everything will be alright - great or small.
when i meditated on the word guidance,
i kept seeing "dance" at the end of the word.
i remember reading that doing god's will is a lot like dancing.
when two people try to lead, nothing feels right.
the movement doesn't flow with the music,
and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky.
when one person realizes that, and lets the other lead,
both bodies begin to flow with the music.
one gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back
or by pressing lightly in one direction or another.
it's as if two become one body, moving beautifully.
the dance takes surrender, willingness,
and attentiveness from one person
and gentle guidance and skill from the other.
my eyes drew back to the word guidance.
when i saw "g: i thought of god, followed by "u" and "i".
"god, "u" and "i" dance."
god, you, and i dance.
as i lowered my head, i became willing to trust
that i would get guidance about my life.
once again, i became willing to let god lead.
my prayer for you today is that god's blessings
and mercies be upon you on this day and everyday.
may you abide in god as god abides in you.
dance together with god, trusting god to lead
and to guide you through each season of your life.
this prayer is powerful and there is nothing attached.
if god has done anything for you in your life,
please share this message with someone else,
for prayer is one of the best gifts we can receive.
there is no cost but lots of rewards;
so let's continue to pray for one another.
and i hope you dance.
...let us not walk off the path (again) - be always assured and hopeful as the big one up there is watching over us and everything will be alright - great or small.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
~some sudden thoughts to share~
hey all...duno y...juz suddenly feel like sharing...
juz the sudden urge to really praise God here...in my blog...for all to see...whether you r a believer or not...i really would like to tell you that YOU are God's creation...and He loves you no matter what...
for all Christians here...juz a reminder to you all that u r not alone...cos God is with u...all along...always...thu eternity...there are some of you who are seeking Him with enthusiasm...there are some who are stagnant...there are some who really feel like giving up as you are sick and tired of many things you are going thu...but pls don't(for the 2nd and 3rd grp)...cos pls always remember that God loves you alot...His agape love for you is always there...don't give up on God...as He never give up on you(BUT...Do Not forsake Him)...so please...hang in there...seek in him...
in 1 Chronicles 28:9 "And you, my son Solomon, acknowledge the God of your father, and serve him with wholehearted devotion and with a willing mind, for the LORD searches every heart and understands every motive behind the thoughts. If you seek him, he will be found by you; but if you forsake him, he will reject you forever.also, in Matthew 7:8 "For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."so all fellow Brothers and Sisters in Christ...never give up on God...keep on praying...Pray Until Something Happens (PUSH)...i believe God will always be there to shower you with blessings and miracles...never give up...God Loves You!
as for all non-Christians out there...don't worry...am not here to Force you to believe in Him...but at least i have my part to do...which is to sow the seeds in you to let you know that God loves you too! i wana do my part which God has sent me to share about Him to all of you!...after which from here...it is YOUR choice whether you wana believe in Him or not...but i dare strongly and firmly assure you that if you truly believe in God, truly love Him, and always have faith in Him...your life will be totally different...you will be a changed person...really...to let all of you know, my life is changed totally by God...God has actually planned how is my life going to be like even before i was born..though at the start, right at the beginning, my life doesn't seem as good...however, it ends up to be a blessing in disguise...God blessed me with a family who took good care of me and even spoil me alot...since young till now, my family have a maid to settle those household chores whereby i do not need to do anything...if God hadnt planned it this way, my life would be really different now...never know how it will be like...but i really thank God for all...since young, He placed me in schools where i'm exposed to the Gospel, and from there i believe in Him...however, for certain reasons, i was unable to convert till about 3yrs ago where i can make my own decision, i chose to truly accept Chirst, my life was even changed, for the better...from then on, i'm really into God...having a personal relationship with God is really good...i can talk to Him whenever i need someone to talk to...and He never fails to answer me(but there are many times in which He answers but either i refuse to listen or for other reasons) and bless me...Thank You Lord...but 1 thing to remind you...do not think that your life will ALWAYS be good if you accept Christ...there are many things we have to go thru too...life is not so easy...BUT with God in us...He will see us thru...sometimes i really cant imagine what would my life be like without God...
hey...u people...let me remind you...NOTHING is too difficult for God...He is the 1 hu created EVERYTHING...He knows each and every detail of the world better than any of us...He thus sure can overcome Anything! Agree? i agree to this anyway...so people out there, esp those who feel that they are sure unable to accept Christ due to certain reasons, pls do remember that NOTHING is IMPOSSIBLE for God...believe in Him...believe in the miracles He can do for you...it will sure be a breakthrough for you...i've seen such circumstances b4...so i truly believe...do believe too...juz be more open and allow urself to hear more abt God...allow Him to let you experience His presence...all in all, the ultimate choice is still yours...
anyway...i really juz cant stop thanking God for everything He has done for me...and cos of this...i will continue to always love God, serve Him, Worship/Praise Him, and always seek Him no matter what...muz always have a close personal relationship with God...yup...I Love God...heez...
k...will stop here...these are just my sudden thoughts which i feel that God is using me to share all these to all of you people out there...so yup...i'm happy to do this...hope you people are more open after reading this...
take gd care...n remember, God Loves ALL of YOU!
juz the sudden urge to really praise God here...in my blog...for all to see...whether you r a believer or not...i really would like to tell you that YOU are God's creation...and He loves you no matter what...
for all Christians here...juz a reminder to you all that u r not alone...cos God is with u...all along...always...thu eternity...there are some of you who are seeking Him with enthusiasm...there are some who are stagnant...there are some who really feel like giving up as you are sick and tired of many things you are going thu...but pls don't(for the 2nd and 3rd grp)...cos pls always remember that God loves you alot...His agape love for you is always there...don't give up on God...as He never give up on you(BUT...Do Not forsake Him)...so please...hang in there...seek in him...
in 1 Chronicles 28:9 "And you, my son Solomon, acknowledge the God of your father, and serve him with wholehearted devotion and with a willing mind, for the LORD searches every heart and understands every motive behind the thoughts. If you seek him, he will be found by you; but if you forsake him, he will reject you forever.also, in Matthew 7:8 "For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."so all fellow Brothers and Sisters in Christ...never give up on God...keep on praying...Pray Until Something Happens (PUSH)...i believe God will always be there to shower you with blessings and miracles...never give up...God Loves You!
as for all non-Christians out there...don't worry...am not here to Force you to believe in Him...but at least i have my part to do...which is to sow the seeds in you to let you know that God loves you too! i wana do my part which God has sent me to share about Him to all of you!...after which from here...it is YOUR choice whether you wana believe in Him or not...but i dare strongly and firmly assure you that if you truly believe in God, truly love Him, and always have faith in Him...your life will be totally different...you will be a changed person...really...to let all of you know, my life is changed totally by God...God has actually planned how is my life going to be like even before i was born..though at the start, right at the beginning, my life doesn't seem as good...however, it ends up to be a blessing in disguise...God blessed me with a family who took good care of me and even spoil me alot...since young till now, my family have a maid to settle those household chores whereby i do not need to do anything...if God hadnt planned it this way, my life would be really different now...never know how it will be like...but i really thank God for all...since young, He placed me in schools where i'm exposed to the Gospel, and from there i believe in Him...however, for certain reasons, i was unable to convert till about 3yrs ago where i can make my own decision, i chose to truly accept Chirst, my life was even changed, for the better...from then on, i'm really into God...having a personal relationship with God is really good...i can talk to Him whenever i need someone to talk to...and He never fails to answer me(but there are many times in which He answers but either i refuse to listen or for other reasons) and bless me...Thank You Lord...but 1 thing to remind you...do not think that your life will ALWAYS be good if you accept Christ...there are many things we have to go thru too...life is not so easy...BUT with God in us...He will see us thru...sometimes i really cant imagine what would my life be like without God...
hey...u people...let me remind you...NOTHING is too difficult for God...He is the 1 hu created EVERYTHING...He knows each and every detail of the world better than any of us...He thus sure can overcome Anything! Agree? i agree to this anyway...so people out there, esp those who feel that they are sure unable to accept Christ due to certain reasons, pls do remember that NOTHING is IMPOSSIBLE for God...believe in Him...believe in the miracles He can do for you...it will sure be a breakthrough for you...i've seen such circumstances b4...so i truly believe...do believe too...juz be more open and allow urself to hear more abt God...allow Him to let you experience His presence...all in all, the ultimate choice is still yours...
anyway...i really juz cant stop thanking God for everything He has done for me...and cos of this...i will continue to always love God, serve Him, Worship/Praise Him, and always seek Him no matter what...muz always have a close personal relationship with God...yup...I Love God...heez...
k...will stop here...these are just my sudden thoughts which i feel that God is using me to share all these to all of you people out there...so yup...i'm happy to do this...hope you people are more open after reading this...
take gd care...n remember, God Loves ALL of YOU!
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