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it's cny...

2009-02-01T23:10:00.002+08:00

juz let me 'complain' first b4 i talk abt cny...

sigh...sad...stress...duno wat to do...arghhhh...
my dad...duno y my dad is ALWAYS soooooo petty...i canot take it!!! always get angry with me so easily...i mean i already tried my very best to appease him...but in the meantime, i wana attend church services or do things for God...but...arghhh...i duno wat to sae lah...HELP!!!!!
yah..i know i shld surrender all to God...but...i just wana rant it all out lah...
sigh...duno y he is always angry with me...i've tried so much...tried to always be home (if some ppl noe, i will always tell them i going home first cos my dad will not e happy, etc if i'm out with them)...if not i also nv go out (i seldom go out actually) and will go home...other than my usual stuff like OT, class, Net, NL meeting, i will go home as early as i can!!! but he never appreciates...and keeps saying i am always not home...and get angry...he always expects much more whenever i've done as much as i can...hey...i've got a life of my own too..i cant possibly stay at home 24/7 rite?
sigh...juz afraid me stressing too much my dad getting angry will cause me a breakdown...i really scared i canot take it one day and juz disappear myself...hahahhaa...oopz....i love my family alot...but sometimes i really wonder i Love or izzit just FEAR? i duno...really duno...sigh..

aiya i lazy to type liao...will tok abt cny when i can...nite
bye
God Bless n love all of u!!!

continued....

2009-01-22T00:21:00.002+08:00

Back...need to add on...

yah...was saying that my mum always scold me...especially since i was young...there were many hurtful words too, like ' no wonder nobody wants you', 'you are so ugly', and many other things...such words pierced through my heart each time...and i was very young then...can you believe/imagine how i am able to take such blow to me even at a young age?...been living such a life for over 20 yrs...however, i really thank God that at least now is not as worse as the past...ever since i started working and earning money 5yrs ago...and giving her allowance...her attitude towards me changed abit for the better...less scoldings...less crude remarks...but at times when she siao siao will be quite bad again...basically i just have to bear with her nonsense and give in to her (my dad wants me to give in to her)...

i remember i used to argue back whenever they scold me...cos most of the time she will scold me for no good reason or even when i'm not in the wrong...that is why i always want to defend myself by arguing back...i never win...they will scold me even more...i used to have a very bad temper...but i really thank God for working in me...through these...he gave me patience...for more than 1 year...i have not argued back with them...i will always just keep quiet whenever they scold me...no matter what...just as to prevent more quarrels...i think it's a good idea...cos being quiet, they will have nothing more to say...haaa...but i'm really disappointed in my dad for one thing...he never helps me whenever my mum gets angry with me...he knows her pattern...and i always and no matter what, have to give in to my mum everytime...i will always be considered as WRONG even when i'm not...and my mum...will no matter what always makes things difficult for me...sigh...and my brothers...always purposely get me into trouble...sigh...

however, i can see how my mum show love to me too...i really wana thank her for it...she will buy breakfast for me everyday without fail...except for once or twice in like a week or 2...but she will always either buy or prepare me food...i really appreciate that...really...at times she will be nice to me lah...though it will be once in a blue moon...but i still appreciate those...

hmmm...i duno what to write again...will continue if i got stuff to write...

will stop here...take care...God Bless n love u...

sign off

Siyin - Ann

Juz being....juz...juz...juz feel like blogging...

2009-01-20T23:53:00.002+08:00

Hmm...Don't know where and what to start...just...just...wana blog about my past...my family...some bad stuff...some good stuff...

Guess most of you who knows me, will know about my background...complicated...like i always think...everyone has a different kind of background...a background that either makes them mature and independent...or a background that makes them childish and spoilt...and yup...i'm in the first category i guess...and i Thank God for it!

God has a plan for each and every one of our lives even before we were born! That's why...He planned that i'll be in this current family...He planned that i will know Him during my school days (pri n sec sch)...and He planned that i will accept Him and be devoted 18+ yrs after i was born...and He also planned that i will be serving Him with all my heart thereafter...and always...till the 2nd coming...

When i was young and immature...i always thought i hate my parents for not wanting me...leaving me in a family where i'm scolded everyday for nothing...where boys ('brothers') are always much much favoured than me...i totally hate that feeling...i totally hate being there...i always feel soo unloved...ever since i was born...in my teen years...i've been constantly seeking for love out there...attached at an early age of 13 (or 14 i think)...after each relationship...will be another in no more than 1 month...always hates being at home...cos i know that if i'm home, i will get scolded (by my 'mum')...but if i am always out..i will also get scolded...arghh...life just sucks at that time...i never really remember any happy moments during my childhood...

I love being in school...cos i have my friends...i joined the Christian Fellowship in primary school..and i enjoyed it...we have chapel services every week...it was fun...i wanted to go church...but can't...cos parents don't allow...life still goes on though...many ups and downs...many moments where i wana end my life too (during break ups, quarrellings, friendship problems, canot tahan family stuff like getting scolded for nothing etc)...i am always not afraid of death...but i know...each time...there's a voice stopping me from doing these stupid things...a voice i actually never really notice much...but the pulling sensation of stopping me is great...i didnt go ahead in the end each time...i didnt really notice why...

It was when i was JC1 (end) that i received a call (or sms?) from Jinlun...my secondary school friend...to attend church (VFC)...i don't mind going...cos i was exposed to Christianity when i was young...but...my mother wouldnt allow me to go...i will have to complete my A'Levels first then i can make my own decisions...after A'Levels...i lived my own life...clubbing...meeting people...not relationship kind of relationships...(i still keep a distance and know my limits though)...it's just like a life of darkness...then came another call...guess who? Jinlun again...inviting me to church again...i was reluctant...already living in the world...y would i want it changed?but...God is amazing...you just wouldnt be able to comprehend how He does things...at first...i literally dragged myself to church...and said i would only go if i can wake up, and try to go only once in 2 wks (Sunday service)...but...i amazingly wake up at 730am every sunday! without fail! which made me 'no choice' but to go church since i'm up so early...so...from once in 2 wks...become every week...from only Sunday...to including Saturdays too...and this has been on for the past 4-5yrs...

God changed me totally...for the better...and i've became more matured about things in my life...i learn to think...and accept...and give thanks...
I began to think of my past...i think i am really childish...why do i hate both my families? why should i hate my life? i should love it! i began to realise how actually blessed i was (i did thought abt it earlier but not in depth)...i always thought about the unhappy things and things i was angry about...but did i think of others? no...you know...in my 20 over yrs in life, in this family, we've always have a maid most of the time...this means i need not do housework etc...i have a place to stay despite my background and being unwanted...i'm able to attend school (and through school, i know God bit by bit...)...i've always good food to eat...and most important of all, i've got a 'dad' who loves me and who wants me when nobody wants me when i was born...he accpeted my into the family although my 'mum' strongly disagrees...i thank God for him cos he loves me...and is always so strict on me...cos he's worried for me...and cos he's strict on me, i did not turn out to be any 'loose' woman that i might have been since i've been in many relationships...

[I really love my 'dad' alot...i am really thankful for what he has done nearly 24yrs ago...i know i can never be able to repay that...but...just like him and any other typical chinese family...i am not good at expressing...since young i don't receive hugs from parents or brothers...so i would never do that even for now...i never hear or say any ' i love yous' since young...so it doesn't happen now too...and because i do not know how to express even though i am really thankful and i really love this family...it has caused many misunderstandings and quarrels between me and my 'dad'...i am always thought of as someone who do not love him and the family...am someone who only cares about her friends...SIGH...sad...my dad doesn't understand...he always gets angry with me...sad..]

Life is so different ever since i really accepted Christ...though in the first part, i wasnt as devoted...and i even 'disappeared' from Net (cell groups) etc for abt 1 yr...but since then...i fully devoted myself to God...i served in ministries...i joined the Youth Ministry...i really have great passion for the Youths...always wanted to be a good example to them.and also hopefully able to lead them to getting closer to God...took me another few years before i became a leader...now i'm a leader...really happy...but...the gap (age) between me and the youths are getting bigger...find myself so difficult to click with them...but still my heart for them is to see them grow...now i'm doing what God wants me to do...thereafter, i guess will be time for transition to a new season in my life..

I love God...i really really love God...and i also kow God loves me...and His love for me is Unconditional...i really thank God sooo much for being in my life...for already planning this life/path for me...though i'm not happy with this life when i was young...but i'm happy it turned out this way...cos...it's God's plan...i might not be happy with some areas of my life too now...but still...i thank God for everything...man can see me now serving the Lord..always busy myself with church stuff...even my dad...always angry why i spend so much time in church...many will also see me being so firm on having to find only equally yoked partners (many people chasing me...but rejected all one by one cos all non-Christians)...but they never really know and understand why...like i said...everyone experienced a different kind of background...nobody experienced my background before...that is why they never understand...i also believe very well that God WILL definitely bless me with a man who fears and loves Him...and someone who serves Him wholeheartedly...a man who has Christ-like characters too...a man who is spiritually higher than me...so that he will be able to lead me spiritually and not stumble me...so...yup...it's ok to reject those other guys...though many are good potentials...but too bad...they are not God-fearing...i really gave my all/my whole life to God...cos it is actually His...His creation...

I really hope and pray that one day my family (esp my dad) and friends understands why i devoted so much to God...i really hope and pray that one day, they will also able to be like me, taste the goodness and love of God...they will always receive countless blessings from the Lord...and in turn, devote their whole lives to God...if they open up their hearts, and let God mould them...they will know and understand why many of us Christians obey the Word...if one day my dad is able to open up and let God change him...i believe there will be more love within the family...less misunderstandings, esp on serving the Lord...really praying hard...

[anyway, don't think that i'm very holy or what...i also do live in a dark side of my life too...but...i really really thank God that i have Him in my life...without Him interfering...i believe i will turn to hate myself to the core...God is always there...He's always there to stop and prevent me from doing more wrong...He's always there to wake me up and take me away from the world...Thank You Lord! I believe that if God is not in my life...that will be the end of me...even how strict a dad i have, i think i wouldnt be able to control myself...cos i have no God...and the devil is in me...but cos i have God in me...the devil will not dare to attack me...in fact, i have God to attack the devil for me...so...God really saved my life totally!... =) ]

Ok...i think i really have to stop writing...late...need to sleep cos got work!!!

Btw, God has been faithful all along...been recently very financially tight...and i still give as what God spoke to me for Willing Offering...God blessed me back...despite the economic downturn...Thank You Lord...at least now God not only blessed me with what i gave, He blessed me to be able to pray for part of the school fees... =)

The Lord is GOOD! AMEN!

k will stop here...take gd care..hope this story of mine will leave an impact to you...and also sow the seed in you abt how great God is...

take care...God Bless and Love you!

Siging off...

Siyin - Ann

Goodbye 2008, Welcome 2009~

2009-01-05T00:11:00.002+08:00

time flies...one year has passed...it was like not long ago that was the beginning of 2008...but...no...it's 2009 now...wow...

wonder if i had missed out anyting in 2008...maybe not...since there are so many activities going on the whole year...making the whole year seem so fast!

anyway...now already the 5th day of the year...things still feel the same...i'm as bz as ever at work...sigh...constantly worrying abt work...but...my love n drive to work hard is diminishing..sigh...why?long story...i remember i'm someone who loves to work much more than study...and if i'm on leave or staying at home doing nothing, i will feel uneasy...but now, that feeling is like gone! sigh...

guess it's time for me to change a new job...a new industry...a new environment...but how?this current economic situation is not the time...but...how?the answer is...PRAY and BELIEVE in GREATER THINGS from GOD! hee...

God has a great plan for me! Amen!

Anyway, in my 2nd last post on how my 2008 is like, at first i didnt noe how 2009 will be like, but now i think i noe a glimpse of it...it's from the Youth 09 vision...to raise leaders! I'm gona work all out to raise as many leaders as possible from Whampoa Net! I'm really happy to see the willingness of my net members...love them loads!

another is the Children Ministry...i'm gona put my heart for it!

there'll be more things to come...but i have no idea yet...haaa...but definitely i'm not only gona receive from the Lord, i'm also gona give whatever i have to the Lord!

anyway the past few days was quite fun...there's watchnite service on 31st dec 08...service, game and countdown etc...welcoming the new year with the Lord is great...however, a feeling of loneliness still struck me quite badly during the service...cos i reached late...so unable to find seats with the youths...so sat elsewhere...but cos after the break the mandarin congregation came in and took over the section where i sat (with yanzong)...so we have to find seats...the section where r7/8 youths were was too packed, so we couldnt find any seat...sat on the ground instead...feel like ppl didnt really care...or maybe cos it's me?wasnt always really remembered or cared at times by ppl...anyway am glad Lennie n Johnson sooo nice...offered to swap places with me and Hilary (she came to sit with us too cos more ppl shared the seats...so too squezzy, so she rather sit on the ground)...but we still made them go back to their seats...Thanks to the both boys...nice of them...then countdown came...in my heart, i felt happy that God has given me another new year to spent, and has definitely blessed me in yr08...however, physically, i canot feel much joy...didnt join in the fun the rest had, playing balloons and all...partly cos we were standing at the side and where the fun were was inside...all i did was smile (cos i can see their happy faces and the fun they had) and take some photos...though in my heart i feel sooo lonely n ignored...i'm definitely happy to see them happy! after watchnite was all nite youth activity...Movies n Makan...there are afew shows played concurrently...i was in the main sanctury...everyone had their own cliques etc...they walked around, talked around and have fun...but seem like i'm so detached from them (is it age? or me?), i sat alone at the whole row, staring at the screen which was playing Prince Caspian..tired afew times to walk around and find ppl to play n talk to...but seems like it doesnt work...even the sign ups or makan...nobody asked me along...so yah...decided to head home at 2plus am...thanks yanzong n johnson who wanted to walk me out but unable to cos JL needs to lock the place...so i headed out for a taxi myself...at first i wanted to walk for a distance first alone b4 taking a cab...but cos i'm carrying alot of things, and i'm tired...so i hopped on the cab soon after...following day...slept till 2.30pm...nothing to do..so slacked at home...till i really get bored...so asked ck out for dinner...thanks for the company...

anyway...sorry to be so emotional abt the above...but i juz wana let it out...i mean i shouldnt let this loneliness consume me...i really need to fight it hard...loneliness will still be there...but i must not let it affect my spiritual life...and most importanly...God is with me...so no matter how lonely...i'm actually NOT lonely at all...cos i have God! i canot let that unhappy feeling affect me or even affect others...really thank God for being with me always...cos if without Him and prayers when i'm facing those situations, i guess i might not be strong enough to handle it, and might leave all these and lead another life without God, and blame God and those ppl all my life...i really thank God i did not do that...He really taught me alot...Thank You Lord!

anyway gotta sleep...got class at nite...1st lesson...hope it's interesting...hee...

and thanks Zhi Wei for sending me a msg of prayers for my coming classes and my year ahead...really encouraging...

take care

God Bless n love all of u!

:)

2008-12-18T23:40:00.000+08:00

very bz day today...tmr gona be bz too...sigh...

but i'm happy!

cos i'm being remembered!

my net member sent a forwarded msg to me...they askin ppl out to watch movie (the youths)...but i didnt agree to it cos the timing too early...however the time was changed again...but i still couldnt cos by the time i know it, i left 30mins to pack up n reach amk hub.. :(

i also received another sms from nana also for dinner and movie with ff club i guess...but i canot confirm on time...cos my colleagues (my team) wana go hap hap (meaning happy hour)...but wasnt confirmed too...so in the end i have to reject nana's invite and wait for my colleagues to cfm...

but when evening comes, out of 5 of us, 2 left after work...so in the end was cancelled...

sad sia...in the end all 3 appts i didnt get to go any of them...but nvm...at least i'm happy ppl include me...esp my net member...he said he will sure include me...awww...sweet...touched...

worked till abt 8pm...den went suntec collect smthg...den head home...and slack...

nitez!

God Bless!

As the year comes to an end....

2008-12-16T23:18:00.002+08:00

Hey all!

Guess it's really been some time since i last blog. I am reallylazy about it although i have lots to say about. Hahaz.

Wow...time really flies! The year is coming to an end already! It seemed like just not long ago when i bloged about how my Yr2007 was and what was coming in for Yr2008. And now, I am going to talk about Yr2008 and what's in for Yr2009!

Hmmm...remember last year i mentioned that my 2007 was really a yr where i received lots of things from the Lord? (like graduated, license, promotion, new job, go camps, etc). This year is really a total different year that i have experienced! (we must always remember that we should not only just receive, but also to give, to the Lord...and vice versa). I really give all out and serve the Lord this year, but in the midst of serving, i still receive lots of blessing from the Lord too! I suddenly seemed to be involved in really lots of stuff that i think i'm really maxed out.

The ministries I'm in:

-Youth Ministry - Became a Net Leader this year too

- Childrens Ministry - Both grps (3-6yrs and 7-12yrs). I was also even appointed to be a worship leader (together with Matthew B) for the 7-12yrs age group!

- Nursery (on and off kind)

[noticed that i'm actually in ministries ranging from few mths old right up to abt 25yrs (youths) old?]

- Cafe Ministry - In the youth ministry

Some other stuff i'm involved in (church):

- Youth outreach (FUN!)

- Spanish Outreach (Nice to know new ppl...but my Espanol sux)

- 180 Outreach (Cool! Great success!)

- The One ( hey my The One friend! hope u noe who u r! I'm always praying for u!)

Others:

- Normal work - BZ always

- Leader's Meeting/Caregrp

- Prayer Meetings (once a mth)

- Net (have to be there every week to teach)

- Tuitions

- Exercise (stopped for v long since my toe broken :( )

- Adhoc administrative church stuff

- Others which i cant remember

You know, my schedule every week was like packed up lah...so packed till i didnt have time to go out...plus no one asks me out too...only at times...but sometimes it's good lah...cos i can at least go home and spend time with my parents... :)

Arghh..next year my classes will start...Mon and Thur...really Thank the Lord that there's this set of class...cos the other 2 sets hits Tue, Fri, Sat n Sun...where these days i wldnt wana let other stuff take over...they are Leaders' Mtg/Caregrp, Net, Edge and other duties, Sunday servies...so how to go class? So, the set where class falls on Mon n Thur is just so God-given! hee

Anyway, we've just had our Youth Camp recently. For the youths, there's this new vision which is to raise up everyone to be a Net Leader! That's really a HUGE vision! But i believe so! Have already got in mind who to raise up though. They will definitely be great leaders! This vision came timely for what i have planned for the coming yr and i really thank God for confirming it!

Yup...dont know what to write about liao...but all in all, i really thank the Lord for blessing me with such a good and fulfilling year! I never regret serving the lord!

Will continue to serve The Lord with all my heart in years to come!

Love lots to all!

Siyin

25 Nov Daily Bread

2008-11-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

One of the joys of being with kids is holding their hands. We do it to keep them safe while crossing the street, or to keep them from getting lost in a crowd. And whenever they stumble and lose their footing, we grab their little hands tighter to keep them from falling.

That's what God does for us. Inevitably there are stones and cracks that trip us up on the sidewalks of life. That's why it's easy to identify with the psalmist, who said, "My steps had nearly slipped" (Ps. 73:2).

We all face a variety of issues that threaten to make us stumble. For the psalmist Asaph, seeing the prosperity of the wicked caused him to question the goodness of God. But God squeezed his hand and reassured him that, given the judgment of God, the wicked do not really prosper. True prosperity, the psalmist discovered, was found in the fact that God was always with him: "You hold me by my right hand" (v.23). And just for good measure, God reminded him that He would also guide him t! hrough life and ultimately welcome him home to heaven (v.24). How good is that!

So, next time you stumble, remember that the powerful hand of God is holding your hand and walking you through life-all the way home! -Joe Stowell

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand;
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand. -Stanphill
© Renewal 1978, Singspiration.

Let God do the holding and you do the trusting.

after 4 months of S I L E N C E.......................

2008-09-05T00:47:00.003+08:00

hahahaa...
wah...been long since i blogged...super lazy lah...ahahaa
also duno why i suddenly blog today...haaz...
anyway...time really flies...in less than 1 mth, i'll be in citi for 1yr le...fast sia...and within 4mths...many stuff happen...happy, sad, watever...haaa...activities after activities...if not boring-ness after boring-ness...hahahaz...recent activities were Bangkok Trip with Credit Operations, Citibank Dinner and Dance, KCPSS Youth Outreach! all were great! really enjoyed them, especially D&D...cos i was in the main committee to organize it...soo really happy that it was a GREAT success! heez...i believe many who attended also said that too...
i'm in charge of the prizes..have to get sponsors to sponsor lucky draw prizes and other competition prizes...i managed to get a few of my own contacts...like il-Lido dining vouchers, Namho Travel Vouchers, and even trophies for the top 3 winners! hee...others will be the partners or merchants of Citi...i really learn alot being in the PRIDE Team [it is a team of people who organizes the few main events for Citibank Singapore Ltd...actually this team consist of all MA-Management Associates(super smart and all-rounder people) as it is one of their MBO...but i kpo volnteer to join...cos i wana learn to organize events..really fun lor...but not easy...]...people are fun...but i guess it's difficult to merge into their culture...after all, they are all MAs...i'm juz a normal employee of citi...it's already good enough to know them liao...they will have the opportunity to know and frequently communicate with those big shots in the company...anyway, really happy to know them though...
oh yah...did i say this week is Sabbath Week? this means no church activities/meetings etc...full week of rest days for us! wow...seem so different...i meet up with more frens...tue we youth leaders in my region had a leaders' outing at Botanic Gardens...on mc...so rested whole dae at home first den evening go find them...Wed met up with a colleague (one of the new MA) and our common fren Sey Long! we happen to find out we know the same fren! hahaz...thur after my gym i went to meet my grp of gd sec sch frens! we went to have fun at Mind Cafe! fun! heez...so funny...there's a 'new' member joining our group...actually she's one of our sec sch fren too...funny...she keep teasing me n CK...keep saying i'm his 9yrs ago past...haa...yup that's true...but maybe she didnt noe we became best of frens now...too good frens till we noe we canot be together again...haaz...plus i have my other reasons too...haaa...cos got 7 of us (many more not around)...got 1 couple...1 'might-be' or 'to-be' couple, me n ck, and this new addition...so she keep teasing us...thought can bring about a spark...haaa...anyway ck n the rest also tease her back...cos her 'past' (actually i not sure if now is present) is also in the grp but wasnt with us on thur...we played a game called Imaginiff...quite fun...about guessing what type of person the chosen one in the grp each time is...the cards will have different questions...e.g. Imagine if XXX is a kitechen utensil, what will he/she want to be? (there will then be a list of options to choose from)...majority wins...fun...it helps us get to noe each other better...whenever is guessing abt me, most of them got it...haaa...but not many of guessing me though...most of guessing ck...haaz...
k dat's abt what was done...now for what's coming up next!
Friday (later) will have another round of games in the evening...@ Settlers! some kinda like Jinguo's farewell with his net...n i'm taking over his net...he's gona go NS liao...sad...anyway taking over this net is a big challenge for me...but i have God with me...so i noe i can do it!
yup...den Sat other than my normal stuff, we have no Edge...but we got a Thank You BBQ for those involved in the Youth Outreach...hee...sunday resume service...den afternoon got spanish outreach...there will be Lantern Festival celebration with the spanish speaking people...sure will be fun! heez...
these will be my coming week! gona be real fun!

anyway i needa sleep...nite!
God Bless all of u!

wow...been quite some time...

2008-05-07T22:37:00.002+08:00

hihi all...wow...it's really been long since i last update...can see how busy(or maybe lazy) i am to update lor...haaa...the past few mths has been really hectic for me lor...only recently then my pace slow down abit...
let me tell u how my schedule is like the past few mths...everyday packed! [those coloured will be my schedule now]
Monday - Mornings will be work...after work is giving tuition [now stop for awhile since exams over! - means free time for me]
Tuesday - Mornings will be work...after work is Caregroup [no changes]
Wednesday - Mornings will be work...after work is exercise [no changes]
Thursday - Mornings will be work...after work is Spanish lesson [no more! means free time]
Friday - Mornings will be work...after work is Cell Group (NET!!!) [no changes]
Saturday - Mornings will be giving tuitions (2 kids...from 930 to abt 12...then 1 to 2plus)...then Discipling (now dun really need liao)...or cafe duties at times...then Edge...then dinner/fellowship [tuitions might have some changes...if stop for awhile will be good...can wake up later!]
Sunday - Mornings will be LIW before service...then Service/duty...then lunch...then NLT...then service/home/out [now, mornings will be Discipling, service/now more of CW duties...then lunch...then either home or every alternate week is Spanish outreach...evening service/home/out]
yup yup...those are my schedules...packed right? no free time for myself either to shop or go out with friends...everydae is just so systematic...mundane...haaz...
really Thank God for giving me the strength to pull thru this tiring moment...Thank God for just everything...He is just so amazing...Thank God that now i have time to 'rest' or get to have more free time...esp spending time at home...Amen!
oh yah...i'm just back from Vietnam - Ho Chih Minh City...nice place...not fast paced at all...but the weather super hot...many many many bikes or scooters...traffic are messy...u have to cross the rd closing ur eyes...if not you'll be freaked out...haaa...nah...hmmm...i'm still not able to take roadside food...looks super scary...haahaa...you must be a good bargainer when buying things...

okok gotta sleep...nite to all...will update again if i can...

*ps: sigh...super long nv rollerblade/skate liao...really miss it...no time n troblesome to travel...

God Bless n Love u!

Learning Spanish!

2008-03-06T23:39:00.002+08:00

surprised? haaz...just had my 1st lesson today...wow...i dun think it's easy to learn lor...but...i'm determined to learn it well! haaz...
there are 5 other students learning Spanish with me for this 8 weeks (one did not attend today)...not bad lah...class size not too big n not too small...
wah...i guess my brain got tooo many things to remember liao...work...family matters...personal matters...friends...church stuff...and now...SPANISH!...haaz...hope it wont 'burst'!haha...
k now...let me intro some simple spanish...also for me to practice lah...

Hola (to be read as O-La) ==> Hello or Hi
Me IIamo (to be read as May-Yahh-Mo) ==> my name is...
Mucho gusto (Moo-Cho Goos-to) ==> Nice to meet you
Gracias (Gra-see-yas) ==> Thank You
De Nada (Day-Nah-dah) ==> Don't mention / You're Welcome
Buenos Dias (Boo-way-nos Dee-yahs) ==> Good Morning
Buenas Tardes (Boo-way-nas Tar-dehz) ==> Good Afternoon
Buenas Noches (Boo-way-nas No-cheys) ==> Good Evening
Bien (Bian) ==> Fine
Bien, gracias ==> Fine, thank you
Muy Bien (Moo-yee Bian) ==> Very well!
Lapicerol or Lapiz (Lap-bi-ser-rol; Lap-iz) ==> Pencil
Pluma (Blu-ma) ==> Pen
Estuche (ehs-too-chey) ==> Pencil Case
Mesa (meh-sa) ==> Table
etc....lazy to type liao...haaa...njoy learning! Adios!

bz

2008-02-28T00:50:00.002+08:00

sigh...think whereever i work...i will ALWAYS be sooo bz...n STRESSED...sian lor...think i really 'zhu ding' to live in such manner for work...hahahaha...but nevertheless, i worked hard at work...do my very best each time...actually i realised smthg abt me since i came citi...no more tea break(going downstairs to buy food at any time i like--used to do that when i was in uob)...no sleeping during lunch time (i used to always do that in uob!)...no time-wasting chit chatting during working hours(i always do that in uob--relax wat!)...in fact, the only time where i am full of nonsense is during lunch time (provided i go out lunch and not lunch in lah)...my colleagues can verify that...during luch time, i can laugh till like mad...and maybe for awhile after coming back from lunch...but once i start working (placing my eyes in front of my pc monitor, i become v v serious...they wldnt even 'dare' to disturb me...haaz...i didnt realise it till a couple of weeks ago my colleague whom i always lunch with complained that she's tired and wanted me to entertain her(keep her awake)...but i didnt talk to her at all!haaz...guess that's me...plus so bz wat...always got never ending adhoc work...sian lor...haaz...no choice...gotta work...if not who feed n support me?hahaha...
anyway...i still wana thank God for always giving me the strength to carry on...n also peace when i feel a total loss at work sometimes...God is Faithful! Amen!
k lah...needa sleep...tired...nitez...take care

God loves n Bless all of u~

The oldies~

2008-02-10T00:31:00.000+08:00

My dad's side siblings with their other halves...

Family Photo of Cousins!`

2008-02-10T00:09:00.000+08:00

This photo is taken during one of my cousin's wedding...5th Feb 08...relatives from Beijing, Hong Kong and New Zealand came back...missing 3 other cousins in this pic though...oh yah...these cousins are only my Dad's side hor...

juz updating~

2008-01-27T20:54:00.000+08:00

hiyah! wow...been nearly a mth since i last update...my last update was about my new yr resolution?heheh...anyway i guess no one reads lah...haaa...so update is juz only for the sake of updating...haaz...
hmmm...one month has just past just like that...time really flies...many things happened...but shall not elaborate...haaz...
oh yah...another 1mth plus i will not need to put P Plate liao! woohoo!hahaaz...*watever...juz being random*
hmmm...got some thing wana mention about that happened today...actually many things happened...and really...God is amazing in revealing things to me...that i prayed and want answers for...and i got it! Amen! k...nvm abt that...
what i wana say was that the sermon today was about demonstrating compassion...we even prayed for the people on our left n right for God to intill in them compassion...not those fake ones...but the real compassion from God...n wow...God touched my heart...was taking bus home today...sunday afternoon...not alot of ppl...so got a seat behind but near the back door...was observing ppl in front...then, i saw an aunty (quite old liao ba) came up the bus...saw her limping abit...but what caught my attention was her cheerfulness...she found a seat in front...so sat down...but at the next stop, she saw another woman (more elderly than her) came up the bus...she quickly stood up n let her take the seat! so nice of her...den she limped to the standing area...smiling still...happy that she can give up a seat to that older grandma...then at the next stop, someone from the front got off the bus...so she limped back...sitting down...her smile never leave her face...(wanted to give up my seat for her...but she found it again though)...then about a stop b4 i was going to alight...another odl aunty came up the bus...and once again...this cheerful lady stood up and offered her seat...wow...she's just so full of compassion...she's soo nice! and always put on a smile too...at that moment i really preparing to stand up and let her take my seat...but...seeing her inconvenience in walking (my seat need to go up 2 steps before you reach the seat...)...sigh...i feel helpless...but then, she was also making her way to the back door...(she's alighting i thought)...her left hand at that time was holding on to the pole...and one more thing i noticed in her other than her smile and inconveniencd caused by her leg...her left wrist...it looked super swollen!oh my...at that moment i really feel tears in my eyes...a huge burden in me to pray for her...(i didnt pray with her though)...but immediately i keep praying for healing for her In Jesus Name...i really pray so hard for God to heal her right away...cos i noe the Lord loves her alot too...i was constantly looking at her wrist and prayed...was also trying to find a change to hold on to her while i said my prayers...then cos i gotta alight(same stop as her)...i stood beside her...the door opened...automatically i held her right arm to hep her down the bus...can also see that she was having some difficulty in alighting...can see her pain from her left wrist lor! yet she's trying to get down using her left hand to hold her weight!hmmm...i thank God for giving me a chance to hold on to her to help her down...though only that few seconds, i believe God will heal her! n guess wat? she was super grateful to me helping her down!she said she thought she might have to go up and down twice before really getting down the bus...and she was really happy i helped her...she didnt expect someone would help her...i felt soo happy...i felt happy that the Lord puts such a burden in me to care for her...n oh yah! she even asked me whether i've had my lunch...she wanted to give me a treat! oh...how nice this lady is...so sweet of her...but i was super full...so i didnt went with her...awww...but she's really nice lah...she made my day! i really pray and believe in God to heal her...not only her wrist...but her leg too...and i'm happy that the Lord gave me such a great compassion for even strangers in me...wow...Thank U Lord!
hmmm...yea...this is something i felt worth to blog about...i also pray that many of us will also be able to demonstrate compassion towards others...
k some inputs from service notes today...Demonstrating Compassion! (just a part of the whole service)
Defn of Defination: Deep awareness of suffering of Others coupled with the wish to relieve it; Sympathetic consciousness of other's distress, with a desire to alleviate it; Quality of understanding the suffering of others and wanting to do something about it; the desire to free others from their suffering.
Some pointers to note on Compassion:
1) God is Compassionate
2) Jesus whole Ministry was a Demonstration of Compassion
3) We are to live a life of Compassion
4) It is to be a lifestyle
5) We are to look out for the interests of others
6) Pure and undefiled Christianity is to respond differently from the world - not a self-focus & pride; Not act with partiality
7) God's protection is removed when we ignore the needy, Prov 28:27
8) We will One Day be judged on the basis of our compassion to the needy, Matt 25:31-46, James 2:13
9) Genuine love for God will demonstrate Compassion, 1John 5:2

Afew of the many pointers of Understanding Compassion:
1) Being concerned for others more than ourselves
2) Personal value of selflessness
3) Giving without expectation of return
4) Requires a Godly response : - Non-judgemental; forgiveness; acceptance; mercy; love
5) It is a God idea...NOT a Good idea

Treat demonstrating compassion as a lifestyle!!!

will stop here...God Bless n Love u!

Welcome Year 2008! Goodbye 2007~

2008-01-01T20:30:00.000+08:00

Heya~ juz wana wish my ppl reading my blog a Happy New Year 2008! Yup...08 is finally here...oh my...it's here...so fast sia...May all of ya Have a Blessed year ahead...may every area of ur life be smooth sailing...n for my fellow brothers n sisters in CHrist! may u all keep on burning for the Lord and may great n many blessings come upon u!
anyway...07 just whiz past like dat...doesnt seem like 365days has gone lor...many things happen...in my life...my passing of driving in March...den my promotion at UOB...den exams over...1st church camp...den quit my job...got a new job...now as a graduate...taking Net Leaders Training lessons...Graduation Convocation...1st Youth camp...really many things happen lor...good...bad...but yup...2007 is still a good yr after all...esp when i grad n get a better job...hee...I really Thank God for all that has happened and all that He has given me...He really has given me countless blessings throughout the whole yr!
The Lord is ALWAYS so good...and Faithful! I love Him loads...hee...
Now...the new yr is here...wat r my New Year Resolutions? if im not wrong, most or maybe all my NY resolutions came to past...hee...happy...
here are my new ones...not in order though...
1) Keep Growing closer to God (be consistent in serving God, QT, etc...and also my vision..duno when can fulfill)
2) Be a leader (net leader)- really hope the youths can look up to me...or i got smthg for them to look up to...really love them loads...wonder if they noe...
3) Have a closer r/s with my dearest youths (i really love them and have great passion on them)
4) Have a close bonded family (and also salvation of my family)
5) Miracles seen in my 'The One' (actually got 5 for me)
6) Go on a holiday
7) Smooth sailing at work...gd r/s w colleagues...hoping for increment/promotion(thinkin too much...juz joined not long ago onli leh)
8) Closer r/s with my friends (ALL)
9) Learn cool sports...maybe water sports...(if time allows)
10) Maybe a partner? (no need too soon also can...no hurry for me...in Gods time?haa)...dowana make a wrong choice mah...

still have more...but canot remember..haazzz...
yup...these are my NY resolutions...muz work hard towards it!heehee...
I really do pray for a really great year in 2008...in Church, at Home, and even at Work~
For those with NY resolutions, i also do pray that urs will be fulfilled...all the best! May God Bless each and every one of u...take care...

To all my family members(even extended ones)...thanks for being my family members...there's a reason for each and every one of u being in my life! I love my Family...I love my DAD...I love my MUM...I love my Brothers!
To all the Youths of Region D, I really love ALL of u...u all are the gems in my heart...really happy to know each and ever one of ya...U ALL ROCKS!!!!
To my dear friends...thanks for being there...thanks for being my friend...i apoligise to those i seldom keep in contact due to my busyness...will try to find time k? i really miss alot of my friends...
To all my colleagues n ex colleagues...u all are great! great to work with u all...thanks...u all treat me well...cos im usually the youngest...therefore always being looked after...thanks!
Most importanlty, To God. Thanks for coming into my life...clensing my sins...Loving me unconditionally...countless blessings on me...teaching me...being with me..guiding me...giving me strength, wisdom, peace...walking with me...reminding me...answering my prayers...and many many more...you are always so Faithful...so wonderful...miracles happen in my life...Thank u Lord...I love u Lord...and it's not only abt me...i thank the Lord for blessing other ppl ard me...n Lord...u r Amazing...Thanks...

vertical marathon~

2007-11-29T01:01:00.000+08:00

wah...didnt noe running for verticle marathon could be that bad...oh yah...VM is running up the staircase...the number of storeys in Millenia Towers is i think 42...thank God i took part only for the relay...if not i think i might need to be sent to the hospital even before i finish running...there's even the 2X VM lor...whereby they will conquer the stairs twice!yucks!...mine is a relay...therefore only 10 storeys high...but...arghh...i thought it's chicken feet...but i nearly dieded...hahahaha...when i got the 'baton' (it's a white rubber band actually), i just sprint up lor...sooo much energy within me...BUT...alamak...didnt expect myself nearly unable to move when i was heading up my 6th storey...no matter how much energy i have,didnt really perspire...n really have the urge to pass to the 3rd person, both my legs juz cant really move!!!!oh my...didnt noe this will happen!!!my front thigh muscles just got numb!have to drag my 2 legs up slowly in the end...sian...when i reached, i just sat on the floor...legs couldnt really move sia...scary...many ppl experienced this too...wah sian lor...then i went back to the ground floor to rest...really cant move liao...till duno what time then i went back office to work...thereafter went Amore for New Body lesson...body toning...many movements (intensive)...and using of weights...great workout...perspire alot...haaz...guess tmr my whole body ache liao...hahahahaha
anyway gotta sleep...
oh yah...my maid went mad...sigh...problematic lah...not saying more abt this here...
nite all...
God Bless~~~

My Graduation Ceremony pics...17 Nov 07

2007-11-17T22:44:00.000+08:00

bz bz bz

2007-11-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

sigh...been super bz @ work...always OT till late...esp when work officially ends at 530pm...sigh...OT also no extra pay...everyday juz stare at the screen...cannot make mistakes...cos it will mean losses (in dollar terms)...but nevertheless...i still like to work...no choice...i'm a workaholic...haa...
oh yah...recently keeping OT-ing cos the person i took over has left...so i have to solely take over all the work functions...though there are other colleagues in the same unit...but each pair do different stuff...my supervisor on leave too...so i somehow have no one to turn to...really tough lor...each nite i will juz be thinking abt work...while sleeping will be dreaming abt work...mad rite?hmmm...even on my way home i will be thinking what have i missed out doing etc...thank God i do not need to study now...if not i duno what's gona happen to me...getting stress...my gastric symptoms are back...sigh...plus an add on to my rashes...sian man...however, i still wana thank God for always being with me...guiding me and giving me peace n strength...recently on monday i had a v v v bad scolding by my dad...i duno y too...but yah...it happened...till now i have yet to talk to him...partly cos im always home late...and i left home earlier than him for work...sigh...i really pray that things will go well...
k will stop here...
take care...God Bless~

after soo long...

2007-10-09T20:30:00.000+08:00

hi peeps~
haaz...been lazy n bz to blog...heez...
previously was really caught up with giving tuitions...non stop...cos my students exams...but finally their exams over...left 1 more uni student whose exams will be in November...other than tuitions, i have been caught up w work...v bz lor...oh yah...working at CitiBank now...in Credit Ops as a Fraud Ananlyst in Fraud dept...learning alot at work...but really strggling n trying my best to catch up...cos the person im takin over is leaving soon...n i got really ALOT of things to learn...if i dun get to learn everything soon...guess i'll die sia...haaz...cos there's a big part that onli i will n must noe how to do...no others will noe...sigh...plus my boss is v strict...as for supervisor, he's still quite nice ba...hmmm...but at least i quite like this job scope...numbers n numbers...however some parts really difficult to catch up...emails flooding my mailbox everyday...n duno which to follow up n how to follow up at times...hmmm...
n 1 more thing which im not used to...it is to wake up v early as work starts at 830am...but ends at 530pm...heez...now is honeymoon period though...can leave on time...but guess soon gotta OT liao...hmmm...
anyway...will stop here...take care all~

God Bless~~

drained out...

2007-09-24T00:47:00.000+08:00

wah...really tired...sigh...been giving ALOT of tuitions recently...not that i wanted it...but my students need it...actually i only have 2 students...n guess wat now? i've got another...not only that, he's from NTU and is a yr older than me! 1st time in my life i taught someone older than me!!!stress...moreover, during the 1st tuition on wed...i thought i broke the record to teach for 4hrs straight...i taught from 8.30pm till 12.30am!!!however, today was then the record-breaking timing...7hrs!!!really brain dead...but this student can still go on lor! if i hadnt told him i canot take it anymore, i guess he would have continued till 1am!luckily i did not decide to go home rest after the wedding lunch today...went straight to teach at 4.30pm...ended at 11.30pm...skipped my dinner...no appetite...really tired...can see that he wasnt quite happy when i said i wana leave...cos i have yet to help him finish his tutorials...but boh bian lah...hmmm...
i've been teaching for nearly everyday lor...this week only friday i get to take a break(cos got NET)...other days teaching...plus i'm working part time at a travel agency these 2 weeks...tired tired...hmmm...
yawnz...i need sleep now liao...gotta stop here...update again when i'm free...take cafe all!

God Bless!

wahzzz...

2007-08-29T17:34:00.000+08:00

wow...i was amazed by how God is protecting me...not only physically...but also emotionally! anyway u might find it nothing great...but i find it something great and i really thank the Lord for it...k...i was home not long ago...and right after steeping into my home for less than a minute...i suddenly saw my maid rushing to close the window...n guess what i saw? i super huge downpour which is just so sudden! yah...though now it stopped...but wat i meant was just now...if i were to walk abit slower or went over to my aunty's shop (which actually i wanted to but didnt see her when i walked past), i would have caught the heavy rain...and i tell u...i guess i will really be even more demoralized and depressed...and i guess i might even start to cry...but The Lord protected me...He knows i must have felt lousy and might cry any moment...and also to protect me from getting sick (if i were to be caught in the rain)...yeah...i really felt that way...though i wasnt thinking much for the past couple of hours...but i noe n guess if i was caught in the rain juz now...i would have cried...
anyway...i feel so lousy cos i 'failed' at an interview today...the job there is a v gd opportunity...but i really duno where i went wrong...sigh...i sensed a bad feeling...plus the interview was the shortest one i've had as compared to all my other interviews...sigh...really sad...i actually rejected one of my rejected job offer cos i really hope to get this...but...nvm...i told myself not to regret when i decided to reject that job offer...so i am not to regret! hmm...oh i noe i 'failed' cos i asked the one who referred me to this opening...sigh...oh yah...i was told by the interviewer that i look v different from my pic in the resume...she said the resume pic look more matured...n my current look so much younger...*izzit???*...haaa...i see no diff...
hmmm...anyway...i'm still waiting for another job to reply...wonder if i will be shortlisted for 2nd interview...i also just send my resume to another company...hopefully there's a chance of getting a job soon...
i musn't feel sad...yah...but yah...juz now after the interview i really nearly wanted to cry...n guess wat?to de-stress...i went shopping!!!spent alot...but thank God that i used the vouchers my ex team members gave me...heez...
k will stop here....take care

God Bless~

some piccys to show...

2007-08-27T10:35:00.000+08:00

dats me n Mr Anthony Goh...he juz left UOB...hee...(this pic was taken during the 'ambush')
my cousin n Rexie~
Paw, Rex!
yawnzzz...he's tired...
rex!

dat's Hans...Kev's doggy
Hans again...(btw duno i spell correctly anot)
dats me n Darryl...10yrs nv see him...he has grown...wahahaha
Darryl n Ber
Ber n Me!!!

Le Le~
a game of Cranium
trying to solve...
me n Nana~
wat r they doin?haaz...

juz abit of updates...

2007-08-26T23:55:00.000+08:00

hi there...yawnz...tiring day...with bodyaches...haaz...k will update for fri to sun ba...
on friday...super tiring day...really...really didnt expect that...i woke up quite early cos my parents have to head to the airport as they goin to Bangkok (was supposed to go...but i didnt go)...i was awakened by my mum lor...she keep saying she's on the way home...ask me quickly go prepare...in the end waited for 2hrs i guess...they were rushing like mad when they came home...i also quickly ate the food they bought...ate v little only...den off we go to the airport...another of my aunty followed to accompany me...y accompany me?cos after going to the airport i gotta go do delivery!!!cos my parents no time to bring the goods back to my dad's factory...so gotta ask me to do...grrr...
(nearly 12pm) after alighting them off at the airport, i took over the driver's seat...n headed off to Jurong...a long drive...after we delivered the goods, me n my aunty headed home (she stay near me though)...at her place, i stayed awhile...den send her son home...which is also nearby...den i played with Rex for awhile...oh yah...after i sent my aunty back, we got a call from the factory asking me to go over...got a table there needed to send it over to another aunt's house...so boh bian...after playing w Rex, i headed back to Jurong again...alone...den from Jurong, i delievered it to Tampines...the other aunty followed as she was at the factory...den at Tamp, after moving all the things up her place...i saw another table!!! gotta send it back to Juring!!!!...she followed too...n off i go...back to Jurong...i was really really tired liao...esp when the jam is activating at that time liao...i'm not driving auto car k...i'm driving the pick up...after sending the table back to Jurong, i headed to Toa Payoh as i wana visit my ex colleague...his last day...i also alighted my aunty there (shld be alighting her back at Tamp...but i really no time liao)...on the way to TPY...cos already nearly 6pm...the jam was really bad...really tired...first time where i drove soo much of the pick up in the day...plus is long distances...n during the jam..its really moving v slow...wah...my feet nearly got numb by always clutching in...pain...n i tired till the part i was supposed to exit at TPY...but...i duno where i exit...a small exit b4 tpy...den up to an ulu n dead end place...alot of construction too...so gotta do duno how many point turn cos v v narrow road...im really tired lor...when i reached my ex office, i quickly deman some food from my ex colleagues...by that time is already 7pm...8-9hrs didnt eat...drink abit of water only...after chatting w them awhile...i headed to Futsing...got Missions meeting instead of Net...thereafter i went home to rest abit...den abt 12am i headed to Kevin's house to play games w the other youths...went home around 4am...slept at 430am...
(so the summation for the places travelled are...
Changi Airport to Jurong Quality Road
Quality Road to Upp Aljunied
Upp Aljunied to Macpherson
Macpherson to Quality Road
Quality Road to Tampines
Tampines to Quality Road
Quality Road to Toa Payoh
Toa Payoh to Jln Besar
Jln Besar to Joo Seng Road
hahhaaz...sian rite?now i somehow noe how taxi drivers feel...haaz...)

woke up at 730am to prepare to go tuition...yawnzzz...tired lor...after giving tuition, i went for my aerobics classes...the time slot that used to be for Kickboxing was changed to New Body...wow...have to hold weight in both my hands for the exercise...canot stop lor...if really wana rest, no more than 10secs...my arm nearly break...esp during water break, my and shakes while holding the bottle...haaz...did those exercises for 45mins...den the next 10mins crunches...afew hundred counts of it...den i stayed on for another lesson...Steps Workout...shld be for Advance or Intermediate ppl...but i went lah...wah...blur sia...the ppl were v fast! i see till blur...only able to do abit...but wah...tiring too...haaz...after exercising n washing up, i headed for Edge...right on time...heez...after Edge, we went for dinner at Bishan the usual S11...n usually we will go playground n hang out after dinner...but not that nite...everyone was like 'bye, going home liao'...haaz...so me, Serena, and JL headed to my cousin's place...wana show them Rex...haa...fun lor...we played w Rex for abt 30mins or so...he was like pouncing on me n licking me all over when we reached...he gave JL a shock ashe was quite huge...haa...den i sent them home...
den today, woke up early again...nearly dowana wake up though...went for LIW class...today's lesson not bad...there's one part which the teacher say...duno how it linked up to the lesson though...but i find it quite true...it's about really valuing people around you...friends or spouse or other family members...saying It pays to be generous to them! Learn to be generous!...for example on happy occasions like ur fren (or others) got promoted or did well in exams...show a small gesture to surprise them to show that u r really happy for them other than just congratulating...it really makes a difference...it can be treating a meal or even just a drink...or send cards...it's true lor...like for me...i've just graduated...my frens are happy for me...i've got Teck n ZD treating me steamboat @ Coca...Thanks! i really appreciate it...plus is my fav steamboat...i've also got Florence to treat me to Sizzlers...yummy...thanks Jie...i really feel blessed lor...i've got such great frens around me to bless me...i mean its not cos they treat me den i say they are great...they r always my good frens...got other frens too lah...haaz...but sad to say...cos i graduated, im asked by my youths to treat them...oh no...i now no income...canot treat lah...gotta wait till i get a job and pay first ba...hmmm...but i really find that the phrase about beng generous is true...i mean dun need to be super generous lah...but at least dun stingy can liao...haaa...i actually cant stand it when i see guys like dat...i think if guys are stingy at the start...den next time no need to find other half liao...haa...esp when starting to wana noe someone...haaz...it's not that a guy has to pay for everything...but at least offer to pay first...anyway...depends on situation...but hey...not dat the gals dun pay k...unless the gals the guys noe are canot make it kind...only spend ppl's money...haaa...cos i've met a couple of realy horrible guys in the past b4...wana noe me yet super stingy...only pay for their share onli (pls lah...working ppl liao...not enough money to pay both share FIRST meh?still wana ask ppl out leh!!!)...i mean i dun mind on dutch...but i'm someone where 1st impression is v impt...if 1st outing already like dat..means thereafter also...very pek chek to go out w such ppl...i mean if the guy were to pay first, i will surely pay after dat...he will den decide whether to take it or not...oops...duno y go into this topic...abit no link to being generous...or maybe hav abit lah...cos suddenly think of this really turns me off...i'm fine w my own frens taking out their share only(but most of my frens will pay first den split later...haaz...better)...but if i were to noe guys chasing me like dat...i guess dats it...haaa...will not really meet up the person liao...hmmm...i guess i can say im generous to my frens ba...provided im not broke lah...these few mths im sorry to my frens...cant really treat at times...have to be abit calculative...cos no income...no savings...so yah...bear with me...when my track is back to normal will be ok le...haaa...hmmm...k...after class is service...wah...ended quite late...den i went to meet up w my pri sch frens...actually got 5 of us...in the end is 3...where one is Ber...my all time good fren...another is Darryl...we only communicate online...nv seen him for 10yrs...haaa...a realy good catch up for the day...we talked back into the past...haaz...will arrange to meet up soon ba...heez...den i went to Mei n Hui's house...where i did the Personality test thingy...am a ESTP - The Doer...haaz...got abt 70% like me only...haaz...we talked...den dinner at 8plus at the restaurant in the condo...den back up to play Cranium...den home...wah...tired...tink will fall asleep anytime though...haaz...
that's how i've spent my past 3 days...tiring rite?haaz...k will stop here...take gd care...

God Bless~

*mayb got some pics of Rex later on~

how ar???

2007-08-21T22:17:00.000+08:00

sigh...in a dilemma...abt jobs...sigh...pray pray pray...need God's ans...God's direction...hmmm...
now is abt 12.10am...juz back from a run...forgot how long...for 20mins or so ba...ave pace...maybe near to or abt 3plus km ba...tired...haa...but while jogging...i talked alot to God...thought i didnt hear from Him...but i more or less know wat i gona do...and i canot n wouldnt regret ba...but instead continue to praise God no matter what the outcome will be...heez...
k gotta rest...still got another 2 interviews later in the morning and afternoon...hmmm...

take care
God Bless~

my past few days...

2007-08-20T23:11:00.000+08:00

hiya all...yawnzzz...i've been lazy to update actually...haaz...actually wana update when i got my final results...but too lazy till now...haaa...
yup...i've GRADUATED! haaz...i'm now a graduate liaoz...heez...finally...after all my 'hard work'...haaz...some frens might be thinking 'got hard work meh?'...haaz...cos i'm the type who doesnt study one...haaz...but really..it's really tiring to work n study lor...but wat to do...for my future career advancement...i have to take this route...guess after i've started to work n save, i will save up for further studies ba...gona see which area i am gona focus at work...den study on that area...hmmm...though i really hate studying...but i really need those certs lor...cos in this generation...a degree is really not enough...hmmm...
anyway...i should really say that the Lord is really amazing...during the time i have yet to get my last results, the interview rates are less than 5...but after i got my last results (which already mean i'm a grad liao), i've attended quite alot of interviews liao...though most outcomes duno yet...but it's really not bad liao to be able to go for interviews...i really learnt alot in handling with questions asked by them...
i've already been to some banks for interview...afew recruitment agencies and a couple of others...there's one position to be a headhunter...i find it a cool job...haa...but haven got replies yet..hmmm...there's one of the bank in which im asked to go for 2nd round interview at the HR tmr...hmmm...duno if i really shld take it up if i got thru...cos i will have other interviews coming along mah...furthermore, i wasn't realy keen on the job scope of that bank...but cos it's dat bank...i really wana try get in...meaning if no matter how much i dislike the job scope, i wana get in...unless other banks appeal to me...which i will onli get to be interviewed maybe this week or next...sigh...duno how...but i'm gona give it all to God...hee...anyway, for that bank...wah...the 1st round of interview was really erm...duno how to explain...it's usually that if the interviewee not keen or interviewer tot the interviewee not suitable, after 1st interviewer den dat's it...interview will be over...if interviewee keen and interviewer thinks interviewee good...den will proceed to 2nd interviewer...and usually stop there...but i managed to talk my way through (1st interviewer abit buay song me cos she can sense that i'm hesitant about the job)...got the 2nd interviewer to talk to me...n guess wat? i still got 3rd interviewer lor!!! was classified as 'special case' sia...haaz...n now i'm even selected to go for 2nd round interview w HR...guess i'm good huh...haaz...really confused if i shld get the job if it goes rite...cos the headhunter job i seem to like it too...except that no replies from them yet...plus tmr got another interview after the HR interview...duno if dat is good...be a market analyst...cool job...den i've got calls from other recruitment agencies about other banks' vacancies...den gona have interviews too...hmmm...sigh...duno how sia...muz really pray hard lor...need a direction...but God is really good...not only He blessed me with good results...He also blessed me with many interviews...at the right time cos after i can certify that im a grad liao...hmmm...onli dat now quite confused which shld i get...but i still Thank God o matter wat...
hmmm..oh yah...abt the past few days...it has been good...fri got interview, den lunch w fren, den net...sat is giving tuition, cafe duty at Edge, den met up ex colleagues w their family for dinner...den on sun...service, den lunch w hilda n gang, sleep, met up serena they all cos Pat n Charis n kids are back...den today is interview, den met up ms Tang for chit chat n dinner...
for yesterday, it's been great...lunch after service is not bad...glad dat kev,hilda n jacky asked me along for lunch...if not...i might juz head home without eating...they r really nice...they always welcome me...and told me that if i happen to wana join another grp they r fine w it...so i hang out w hilda they all...they r heartwarming n i definitely feel included...n not left out...thereafter i went home...cos nothing to do...n cos got bad headache...i took a nap...till Joanne called me to inform me Pat n Charis are back w the kids...ask if i wana join them...1st time i was asked to join them when they are already out...glad...the meet up wasnt that bad...happy to see Pat n Charis n the kids...missed them alot...but was quite unhappy abt smthg...which im not mentioning...the thought of if pissed me off...was thinkin i'm actually wasting my time being worried abt it...not worth...aiya heck lah...think abt it also sian...after the meet up, Pat n Charis w the kids left for other place, whereas the grp went for dinner...me n Jocelyn each ferried afew to their eating destination...i didnt go cos my bro need the car mah...but i went kfc to da bao food home to eat...
as for today, i slacked at home for awhile b4 going for interview...den met up w Ms Tang...wah...really haven met her up for v long...always told her i miss her...n yup...we met up...we've got soo much to chat abt...was really happy...though we dun always meet up...we are still as close as ever...enjoying each other's presence...plus she's a sis in Christ too...we say grace together...we talked abt church together...really fun...plus i can really sae i'm really myself when i'm with her...actually i shld sae i'm really myself when im w my 'outside' frens...meaning not from church...i am super nonsense n a real joker...not only w ms tang onli...i feel i am myself with most of my pri,sec n jc sch frens...n also my ex colleagues! i am loud...i do stupid n nonsense stuffs to make ppl laugh...i say lame stuffs...n we r all really happy...really...today i really laughed alot...onli within that few hours...my happiness overwhelms the past 2wks of happiness...thanks Ms Tang for being around...laughing w me...at me...n at my nonsense...u noe me the best!u brought out the Me in Me...thanks!muackz!!! love u lots gal!cant wait for the next meet up!heez...anyway...actually today there's an outing at sentosa w the grp as they intend to bring Sean Sean out to play...but...cos i wasnt informed of anything abt the deatils of wat time n where to meet...but i didnt go...but nvm...at least i had fun w my dear ms tang...
anyway..gotta stop here...either watch drama or sleep...tmr got 2 interviews...plus i might be going for tuition...gona learn some JC mathematics...haaz...

take care ppl
God Bless~

*some pics to show...

Sean Sean

Pat n Zoe

Zoe and me!

our food - outing with Ms Tang

Waruku

Star fishcake in the soup!

yumz...sliced beef n spicy soup base...

my fingers' shape~

real ants inside...i tot was fake at first! i even shaked it upside down!!!

dat's me! together with my darling Ms Tang! nice pic!

boohoo...i fell down!!!

2007-08-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

haa...yup...i fell down...went rollerblading...been very long since i fell down while rollerblading...heez...thank God that i fell while heading back to the car to take off the blades...cos i forgot i had to make a turn to the carpark...so...i made a u-turn quickly...that i lost my balance...arghh...so careless of me...haaz...den before i know...*#!BAM!#* i fell on my right knee and right palm...only slight scratches on my knee...abit pain lah...but its bearable...heez...

here is a pic of the scratch...*look at my fat leg...eeks...*

guess it will be v painful especially when i bathe ba...but...heck care lah...hahahaz...

yeah...anyway...some updates abt last week ba...on Fri...we went FOP - Festival of Praise...it was great! i really enjoyed and loved it! really felt God's presence strongly there...hee...oh yah...really alot of ppl at SIS...wah...haaz...some pics of that nite below...

yup...alot of ppl huh...cool lor...got Delirious and Don Moen...they are good!heez...

eh...den on sat...i've written a post on it liao...haaz...my dinner experience @ The Line restaurant...heez...

on Sunday...after service...i quickly head down to Harbour Front Centre...actually wanted to go Dragon Gate restaurant...oh it's Zheng Da's birthday mah...so me n Teck wana celebrate for him...but Teck said that cos we didnt book table, there isnt any small tables left until 2pm...so we tried looking out for other places...still cant find anything suitable...so in the end...since i cant believe that there will not be enough tables for us...we went up to Dragon Gate again to ask...i asked this time round...and i got a table immediately! haaz...good right?haaz...

wah we really ate alot! i ordered more than 10 dishes of food...haaz...i ate till really cant take it anymore!hahahaz...cos the nite b4 i also ate buffet mah...haaz...really need to exercise!!!!!heeheez...

Our table of food!

Zheng Da's cake...eekz...cheesecake...smthg i dun like!!!ate abt 2 small mouths...finishing those walnuts...and the biscuit below...haaz...

after lunch we went Vivo for awhile...den i head off to Tampines...coincidentally...Ben Sim msged and asked if i was going for evening service...yup...im going...but for Nursery duty...so he offered to go with me...he drove down to Tamp interchange with his new car...Copen...striking red...2-seater convertible...a not that powerful car...but since its a convert...not bad lah...only dat my hair become v messy...haaz...i took a foto...but v v blur cos my fone lousy...plus its taken at nite...

n yup...dat was how last week was spent...last weekend ba...canot remember abt those weekdays...haaa...

anyway...these couple of days im really worried...praying hard that the bank i went interview for will return my call to accept me...the interviewer said will get a reply early this week...but...2 days has passed...no calls...v sad...but...gotta leave it all to God...for i know His plans for me are good...if no reply means gotta work harder in looking for other jobs liao...haaz...hopefully can find soon...really broke...nowadays really trying not to eat out...stay home eat...cos still gotta spend for ppl's presents, and other stuffs...really no money lor...really broke...sigh...

plus wat worries me is dat my stupid last results not out yet!!!! duno wat with the school lah! till now dun release our results...irritating...grrr...we have never waited sooo long for our results...sigh...they still dowana explain to us...v unfair to alot of us who are graduating lor...some frens cos their studies are sponsored by company, their bond to the company will start once they confirmed they passed everything...but cos this stupid last result not out yet...the bond canot start ticking...unfair to them rite?as for most...incuding me...we are looking for new jobs...graduate entry level...but i feel that even if i were to be accepted by any company...it is also difficult for me to agree since i canot confirm im a graduate yet!!!arghhh!!!!angry...grrr...stupid school...grrr...causing us soo much trouble n irritation...sigh...

anyway...will stop here...hope the week will be a good week...happy for working n schooling ppl cos P.H. on thursday...not...its always a holiday for me everyday...hahahahhaa...

take care all~

enjoy ur week~

God Bless~

wah...haven't been...

2007-08-04T22:21:00.000+08:00

eating soooo much since a long time ago...haahaa...y?cos i juz went for a buffet dinner...wow...really ate alot...went alot of rounds...really unlike me...i myself cant believe i ate soo much...i overate...sigh...duno if i will vomit later anot...so i gotta try not to lie down at all...haa...
oh yah...went to Shangri-La The Line for dinner...alot of people there sia...no wonder most of the expensive food are either not on the 'shelf' in afew secs or the queues are super long...have to stand there and wait for food...but i can really see super kiasu singaporeans even though they r in high class restaurants...sigh...they can just stand there and take endless fresh oysters without giving others a chance to take...plus the time taken for the 'chef' to pry open the oysters are quite long since it looks quite difficult...so, say im 4th in the queue...each oyster takes abt 20sec to open and clean in lemon water, each person in front of me takes abt 3 each...i will have to wait for approx 3mins or more!plus got ppl cut queue...grrr...but heck lah...at least i got my share of yummy oysters...next was the lobster...arghh...actually there was 3...and there's 2 others in front of me...the first AUNTY took all 3...the chef actually wanted to pass it to us...but....due to that KIASU and GIAN person...sigh...wat to do...wait lor...haa...
wah while im typing all these...im recalling wat ive eaten...n i think its really alot...oh no...i needa lose weight sia...sigh...but how?tmr afternoon got another buffet!!!grrrr...
anyway...will stop here...gona keep myself bz by watching taiwan idol dramas...haahaa...nice lor...i mean i agree they r stupid...but...duno y lah...i will still watch them...those actors are juz sooo handsome sia...hahahahaha...

kk...take care al of ya~
God Bless~~

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2007-07-18T20:14:00.000+08:00

me n Jasmund - to Beach Rd
me n Hwee Kian - to Beach Rd
Jin Rong n me - to Beach Rd
Ya Chin n the guys - to Beach Rd
me n the guys - to Beach Rd

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2007-07-18T20:08:00.000+08:00

on the way back to sg ( i canot sleep so take fotos) - blurred cos bus moving la!
ck n me
me n Ya Chin
meee!
me and Ya Chin - from checkpoint to Beach Rd

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2007-07-18T20:01:00.000+08:00

Dinner @ PetalingYumz
playing games in the hotel room
1st 3 lobsters???
the guys~

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2007-07-18T19:45:00.001+08:00

Times Square Theme Park all of us!
meeee!
the dizzy ride...
Theme Park

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2007-07-18T19:34:00.001+08:00

guys acting cute at the gift shop
Suria KLCC
me n the twin towers
we 3 gals
me n Ya Chin

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2007-07-18T19:23:00.000+08:00

Looking at where to eat
ended up at Kim Gary
Me n Ya Chin
The right side
the left side

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2007-07-18T19:12:00.001+08:00

Night outing
@ Petaling Street
Supper @ Macs - gals
Supper @ Macs - us (Hwee Kian sleeping in Hotel)
Outside Hotel - before going out for lunch

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2007-07-18T18:59:00.001+08:00

Jalan Alor
Jalan Alor
Jalan Alor - Dinner Place
Jalan Alor - the gals
Jalan Alor - eating

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2007-07-18T18:53:00.000+08:00

Gals room - Corus Hotel
Gals room
Gals room
Gals room

Corus Hotel Lobby

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2007-07-18T18:27:00.000+08:00

Gals room
Living Room
Living Room
Guys room
Before leaving...

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2007-07-18T18:14:00.000+08:00

view from Makhota Hotel
View 2
View 3
We 3 gals in Makhota Shopping Centre - Secret Recipe
The 5 Guys at Makhota Shopping Centre - Secret Recipe

~I'm Back!!!~

2007-07-18T17:22:00.000+08:00

elloz people~~~ heehee...i reach sg last nite ard 8plus...yup...i went on a small trip...1st we head to Malacca for a day...took a coach there on sat morning and reached ard 2plus that afternoon...we checked in at Makhota Hotel...hmmm...we booked a 3 bedroom room with a living room and a kitchen...not bad...but gotta walk a long way from main entrance...we stayed at level14 which gives us quite a nice view...heehee...fun lah...after checking in...we rested for awhile b4 going to makhota shopping centre to eat n shop...thereafter, we went back to rest...where the lazy guys keep begging us gals to give them 5 more mins to sleep...but it still took quite long b4 they were willing to wake up...guys are juz guys...hahahhaa...then i brought them out for supper since i noe where to bring them to (was in malacca a mth ago mah)...ordered quite alot...luckily they were quite satisfied w the food...then i brought them to City Bayview Hotel to buy cakes n use the toilet...hahahaha...den went back to hotel...washed up...n actually was supposed to play games w them...but i was too tired that i fell asleep...hahahaha...n that was how the day was spent...the next day after breakfast we packed up to prepare to head to KL...
so...abt 2plus or 3plus...we reached KL...den checked in at Corus Hotel...i think got 3 or 4 stars...v nice...heehee...we booked 2 Deluxe rooms...we 3gals 1 room...the other room for the 5 guys...heehee...fun lah...we went Jalan Alor for dinner...the stall we patronize not v nice leh...but nvm...we also shopped at one of the shopping centre but i forgot its name...after the shopping centre, we went Petaling Street to continue shopping...really fun...i bought a pair of fake nike shoes (oops!) and a jacket...heehee...oh b4 dat i bought a pair of shoes, jeans and dress/top...hee...we shopped at Petaling till all the shops close...haha...den went to da bao the roadside hokkien mee...wah i see liao also dun dare to eat lor...hahahabut i ate anyway...while discussing the price for taxi, we saw a hit n run accident...kao...dat driver is horrible lor...at first we heard a v loud bang...i saw the uncle riding the bicycle kinda thingy with an attached tau hway box...he nearly flew out...but he didnt ...but all this tau hway spilled on the road...when the driver saw this...he quickly drove off...so irresponsible!!! but luckily alot of ppl came to help the uncle...oh yah...luckily me n my frens already crossed the road...if not we will be the ones to kena knocked...grrr...we went back hotel to eat the hokkien mee...nice lor...but i ate little...cos kinda afraid to eat...dirty mah...hahahaha...but really nice...den we walked to the nearest Macs to eat too...hahhahaa...den we played n talked for awhile...till i hink 4plus...den go back to our rooms to sleep...
at first we set to go spa n sauna in the morning...but we overslept...hahahaa...in the end we didnt go...went to the shopping centre bsaide our hotel to have our lunch after asking afew ppl for directions for food...we went Avenue K and ate at Kim Gary's...hee...v filling...den we bought quite alot of souveniors from a nearby shop...den we head to Suria KLCC...where the Twin Towers are...v near our hotel too...wow...the things are really very 'up' lor...we onli window shopped...no chance of buying things....but i bought some stuff at SaSa though...heehee...den took some fotos...den we head to Times Square...wah...the things there are kinda 'up' too...but cos i was so exiceted abt going to the theme park...we decided to go there...hahaha...had fun...but not scary lah...i mean for the rides...the roller coaster looks scary...but...*shakes head*...not scary at all lor...i took that ride 4 times...hahahaha...but there's one ride that turn round n round non stop...which made me vomit a little in the toilet...hahhaa...we bought some clothes at the shop outside...not bad lah...not v ex...haahaa...after that, we went Petaling Street again to have dinner...not bad lah...den headed back to hotel...8 of us shared to cabs all along...one group of them went to buy liquor n mixer...n my grp went back first...haa...after all of them were back n after washing up, we started our card games...played 'big small'...guess wrong will have to drink...n i kinda suay...me and another 2 guys always guessed wrongly...not long later i had my 4th glass...v fast lor...den my whole body got red n itchy...n i canot tahan too liao...so went toilet to vomit...really vomit everything out that i became v pale...hahaha...was actually still ok...but my headache n tiredness made me wana sleep...so i fell asleep while they continue playing...hahahaha...woke up afew times and along the way many of them vomit too...haa...the liquor too strong liao lah...hahahaha...
den on our last day, i woke up early...washed up first b4 others wake up...haa...den we gals packed up quickly to go Avenue K to buy more gifts...haa...den went back to check out...den to Petaling again to buy biscuits n other food...den lunch...den to bus interchange to prepare to go back to spore...haa...n yup...i'm back!hahahaa...
i really really had fun lah...though during this trip there were some unhappiness...but the happiness covered everything...n we too settled the unhappiness...really fun lah...i really enjoyed...oh yah..did i say that i spent the most among all my 7 other frens?sigh...im always like dat...n guess wat?im broke now...no work...n keep spending...where got money?hahahaha...anyway...i wana thank them to include me in this trip...they also chose the correct timing where i need not work...haa...though i dun join them often for gatherings...really long long 1 time...but i can say that we still can really have fun...plus they dun leave out any of us out at all...we will all make sure dat all of us have fun...n we really click though we dun see each other always...thanks guys for being so fun n great! love u all...these 7 of my frens who participated in this trip are Cai Ying, Ya Chin, Choon Kiat, Jin Rong, Jasmund, Wei Lin, Hwee Kian...thanks...i really had fun...hahaha...if there's more chances i dun mind going out on trips w u all again!...hahahaha...

k will stop here...take gd care ppl!
God Bless~

fun day!!!

2007-07-14T02:42:00.000+08:00

really had fun today...a busy day indeed...
woke up kind late today...amazing...11plus...tot i gona wake up early to go help my dad...but i overslept...so yup...didnt go in the end...
after i woke up...i received sms from Tracy to join her n Wise for lunch...so i prepared...but ate at home first...den went novena to find them...we walked around...but awhile later they left as they needa work...so i met up Ber first...accompany her see doc...den we went Vivo to walk walk...happened to bump into Ah Mei...haa...me n Ber shopped ard...wah...i think whenever im w her...i can spend alot sia...but luckily i refrained myself alot...cos no work liao...canot spend too much...really broke...was deciding super hard whether to get the dress tht i really liked v much...in the end i did not...juz chose a cheaper top...thereafter...we rested den head to Plaza Sing to meet up the rest...
oh yah...y did i meet up the rest? cos it's Liang Wei's birthday...we all celebrating for her...planned this quite some time ago...his bday this yr falls on Fri the 13th too...haaz...but dun be so superstitious lah...the day is still as good!...hahaha...it's so nice of Liang Wei to treat us eat...Thanks!...thereafter we went Plasma to chill out, talk n sing...fun...i really like their company...these grp of ppl are a great bunch of ppl!...esp the gals...today got me, Ber n Kelly...love these 2 gals...gems in my life...haa...though we dun always see each other...dun have common interest....but their presence are really more than enough...the guys too...they r juz a nice bunch...really...v fun...we can talk nonsense or serious stuff together...i see them even less...but...they r juz so fun...as for the bdae boy...wow...amazed at his change...or mayb is cos his bday? he used to be super shy while talking to gals...n last time in the grp...he always stick to the guys n talk...we gals talk to him...he ans abit den shy liao...but today...he's totally different...he sat bside me during dinner...n wow...i think how much he talk today can be more than or equal to the approx 8yrs i've known him...hahahhaa...amazing rite?can joke n talk nonsense to me...plus with kelly n Ber lah...ahahhaa....funny him...he still looks so boy boy...haa...at least now got alot more muscles...hahahhaa...he take fotos look like mashimaro too...hahahhaa...oh yah...he's nearly drunk during the chill out session...hahahah...keep saying wana vomit...n will vomit on me...he sit beside me again mah...hahahhaa...we all bully him lah...keep cheers-ing with him....hahahhaa...poor guy...
anyway...it's really fun today...really happy they called me for this gathering too...actually most of the big gathering they will call me...appreciated dat! many thanks to Kelly n Andy Ang for calling me all these while...thanks for remembering me...*muacks!* heehee...
thanks for those whom i get to see today...they are:
Ber; Kelly; Liang Wei; Andy Ang; Andy Khoo; Zhi Xing; Zhi Hao; Alvin; Tony; Tong Seng; Keng Kok; Chin Teck; Terry; Yong Siang...think these are the few who are in this gathering today...muacks...love u ppl...heehee...however, sad that piyo (Xiu Hao) did not turn up...she's not feeling well...another gem of mine too...heehee...
k lah...will stop here...gotta sleep...super late...gotta wake up early to catch the coach...will be back on Tuesday!!! byeeee....
take care!!!
God Bless u ppl!!!

ahhhhhhhh!!!!!

2007-07-06T00:33:00.000+08:00

sigh!!!! i've been shopping and spending...help!!!! i must stop spending!!!! i'm soooooooooo broke liao...jobless n broke...YET...i STILL shop...arrrggghhhhh....!!!!!

can you believe it?

2007-07-03T20:26:00.000+08:00

i cooked dinner lor! nah...onli 1 dish...but is the main dish! hahahaa...was taking afternoon nap just now till about 5plus when my mum called and said that she will not be home early to cook...thereafter, she asked me to cook (cos i complain there's no food for me to cook yesterday, and have to result in cooking maggie mee)...hahaha...she sae since i say so, i should cook...the sleepy me who picked up the phone immediately became very awake lor...shocked lor! hahaha...askin me to cook is not a good idea...especially when there's no instructions at all! hahaha...i panicked lor...went into the kitchen only to know my maid ANYTHING also DON'T KNOW! nearly faint sia...hahahaha...then i looked at the ingredients...really puzzled by how to start...oh yah...the dish i'm supposed to cook is steam the fish...asam fish head...then i called my bro to ask how am i supposed to start...that gave me an idea of what to do...but still not very sure, i resulted to calling my mum again...hahaha...then she instructed...but not very clear...i also found out my maid took out extra ingredients when not being told by my mum in the morning...grr...luckily i called my mum...hahaa...i used the paste my mum instructed me to use...then mixed with the asam 'juice'...steamed the fish...cooked the asam juice with tomato (cut) and ladys' fingers...then poured it over...hmmmm...yummmm...oh yah...i also added sugar and soy sauce so that it will not be overly sour...hahaha...not bad huh...i cooked...though it's with the help of the paste...but yup...i still did it...my maid ar...duno how to complain abt her...anything also duno especially when she's the one always with my mum and looking at her cook...she nearly wana put the fish together with the gravy and cook it together...luckily i decided to separate it till when someone needs to eat it...if not it will not taste nice...n guess what? my brothers n mum complimented it's good...heez...*satisfied*...hahahaha....first time lor...they complimented its nice...haa..too bad my dad not around to taste my cooking...he's in Bangkok...hmmm...but next time then...haa...at least did something fruitful today...hahaha...
oh yah...went to tpy for lunch today...met up teck hiang and his fren for lunchie...saw tracy and some others...so walked ard w them for awhile before i went home...hee...k will stop here...tv time...byeee...

take care n god bless~

My First Day...

2007-07-02T21:49:00.000+08:00

of Jobless-ness...
Yup! Today is my first day of the feeling of being JOBLESS after 3yrs! haha!
The feeling is so different. Woke up at 10am, now without anyone waking me up for work. Heehee... Thereafter, i was online non stop lor. Quite bored at home. Had instant noodles for lunch (no breakfast cos Prayer n Fasting Week). At abt 11am, my colleague sms-ed me that there's some problem to the excel macro that she generated, so called her and helped her solve the problem. Heehee. Onlined till abt 3plus before i went to my cousin's house to see her baby plus help her look after. He's just soo cute. haahaa...But he's a naughty boy! He kept crying and crying. Went home around 8pm then had dinner at home. Was supposed to go cycling or rollerblading with friends, but was quite late and for some reasons i decided not to go. Now i'm here blogging. Anyway, gotta start looking for job liao. Will stop here.

take care

God Bless~

best health tips ever!

2007-06-28T11:59:00.000+08:00

Q: I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life. Is this true?
A: Your heart is only good for so many beats, and that's it...don't waste them on exercise. Everything wears out eventually. Speeding up your heart will not make you live longer; that's like saying you can extend the life of your car by driving it faster. Want to live longer? Take a nap.

Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits and vegetables?
A: You must grasp logistical efficiencies. What does a cow eat? Hay and corn. And what are these? Vegetables. So a steak is nothing more than an efficient mechanism of delivering vegetables to your system. Need grain? Eat chicken. Beef is also a good source of field grass (green leafy vegetable). And a pork chop can give you 100% of your recommended daily allowance of vegetable products.

Q: Should I reduce my alcohol intake?
A: No, not at all. Wine is made from fruit. Brandy is distilled wine, that means they take the water out of the fruity bit so you get even more of the goodness that way. Beer is also made out of grain. Bottoms up!

Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?
A: Well, if you have a body and you have fat, your ratio is one to one. If you have two bodies, your ratio is two to one, etc.

Q: What are some of the advantages of participating in a regular exercise program?
A: Can't think of a single one, sorry. My philosophy is: No Pain...Good!

Q: Aren't fried foods bad for you?
A: YOU'RE NOT LISTENING!!! ...Foods are fried these days in vegetable oil. In fact, they're permeated in it. How could getting more vegetables be bad for you?

Q: Will sit-ups help prevent me from getting a little soft around the middle?
A: Definitely not! When you exercise a muscle, it gets bigger. You should only be doing sit-ups if you want a bigger stomach.

Q: Is chocolate bad for me?
A: Are you crazy? HELLO Cocoa beans! Another vegetable!!! It's the best feel-good food around!

Q: Is swimming good for your figure?
A: If swimming is good for your figure, explain whales to me.

Q: Is getting in-shape important for my lifestyle?
A: Hey! 'Round' is a shape!

~my mum v noisy!!!~

2007-06-26T11:48:00.000+08:00

help sia...my mum...whole life...so noisy...since yesterday...n last time (every now and then)...will keep pestering me to get MARRIED...Oh my Word...arghhh!!!!...goes around telling other ppl she hopes that i can quickly get married and move out! does she really hope i move out? SIGH...wahhhzzz...v irritating lor...1st...i am not attached...2nd...i wana enjoy being single! i see no rush...plus marriage is for life! sigh...canot anyhow choose 1 lor...till now dun have any guy that attract me...maybe my expectation too high?hahaha...
but was thinking abt the wedding dinner i attended last night...my cousin's wedding...there's a cartoon clip on how their love start...wow...didnt notice they were together for 7yrs before getting married...dat's v long...if i have to paktor w my future bf for 7yrs b4 getting married...think v old liao leh...plus now no bf...hahhaha...guess i will set to at least paktor 3yrs?unless i really too old liao...hahaha...at most dun get married...wahahaha...wah if muz at least paktor 3yrs...n the age that i wana get married is maybe 26 or 27, means i gotta find 1 within these 2yrs! alamak! how can? n i'm not prepared...hahaha...sian lah...hmmm...aiya...dun care lah...no rush no rush...hahahaha...wait for my frens to get married first...wahahaha...

k gotta stop...lunchie soon...byeee

take care n God Bless~~~

~after 2yrs 9mths...~

2007-06-22T00:53:00.000+08:00

i've finished my last paper...in about less than half an hour...what a good way to end my university life...but...i'm happy! really been waiting for this time to come...a real long wait...along with struggles, stress, etc...but all are juz worth it...
during these 2yrs 9mths of struggle...i really wana thank God for His faithfulness...really...He is ALWAYS with me...His hands are constantly upon me...i really experienced it...i really experienced His blessings during this period of my studies...i dare say that i'm a super lazy student without any self discipline...go for classes just to take attendance...dun listen in class...onli talk and sms (or even sleep!)...never do revisions...only wait till exam day itself will find myself feeling kinda stress and start to study...at times dun even feel stress until mayb an hr b4 my exam...not only that, if i were to study or do revisions, i do selective studying...but i can really say that The Lord is so amazing that the questions that are out are those that i have selected to study...maybe not all lah...but He made it possible that i pass my modules...even at times where my answers are just maybe 2 liners for each question (essay)...i still manage to pass...really can see God's hands upoon me lor...
however, i'm not encouraging you guys to not study and hoping that God will let you pass your exams...i must say that those last minute studying i really put in alot of effort lor...furthermore, i'm someone who is unable to study beforehand...i really have to be last minute...so yup...heehee...really thank God for everything...
though i've only finished my last paper...and not gotten my results...i will leave it all to God...i am prepared that i might fail too (if its God's plan)...as i believe there is a purpose for such thing to happen...but if i were to pass...it will be great...then i will have my degree to support me in finding a job...but a job of a right motive...in God's eyes...
k will stop here...happy happy...a burden off me...
Thank You Lord...

k take care all~
God Bless U!

Conversation with God

2007-06-07T14:28:00.000+08:00

We've had a few versions of "Conversations with God" in the past year. This is one of the latest:

Conversation with God

God : Hello. Did you call me?
Me: Called you? No.. who is this?
God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.
God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.
God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God : Well I wanted to resolve your! fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.
Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?
God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.
Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty. .
God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience, their life become better, not bitter.
Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God : Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?
God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading..
God : If you look outside, you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessings, not what you are missing.
Me: What surprises you about people?
God: when they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the answer. God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.
Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.
Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat.
God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live. "Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that took our breath away!

~grrr...~

2007-06-01T17:49:00.000+08:00

can't stand him lor...he's just...aiya...duno how to say...really unreasonable and irritating...grr...my colleague really v sick liao...yet gotta wake her up and make her do work...grrr...got a back up wat...but the back up claim she didnt noe anything...den go on do her own stuff...and ignored...in the end me and another colleague (together w my unwell colleague) settled it...sigh...really heartless...he still even dare say i'm heartless...angry lor...duno wat's w him...never change...thought will change for the better...but...sigh...*shakes head*...
nvm...at least he's goin on leave from 4th June to 15th June...back on 18th June...wun see him for 2wks...shiok...haaa...peaceful lorz...
anyway...gtg...mth end work to do...alot...byeee

God Bless n loves u!

Food for Thought

2007-05-25T10:27:00.000+08:00

There was a young woman who had been diagnosed
with a terminal illness and had been given three months to live.

So as she was getting her things "in order",
she contacted her Pastor and had him come to her house
to discuss certain aspects of her final wishes.

She told him which songs she wanted sung at the service,
what scriptures she would like read, and what outfit she wanted to be buried in.

Everything was in order and the Pastor was preparing to leave
when the young woman suddenly remembered something very important to her.
"There's one more thing," she said excitedly.

"What's that?" came the Pastor's reply.

"This is very important," the young woman continued.
"I want to be buried with a fork in my right hand."

The Pastor stood looking at the young woman, not knowing quite what to say.

“That surprises you, doesn't it?" the young woman asked.

"Well, to be honest, I'm puzzled by the request." said the Pastor.

The young woman explained.
"My grandmother once told me this story,
and from that time on I have always tried to pass along its message to those I love
and those who are in need of encouragement.
In all my years of attending socials and dinners,
I always remember that when the dishes of the main course were being cleared,
someone would inevitably lean over and say, 'Keep your fork.'
It was my favorite part --- because I knew that something better was coming ...
like a velvety chocolate cake or a deep-dish apple pie.
Something wonderful, and with substance !
So, I just want people to see me there in that casket with a fork in my hand
and I want them to wonder "What's with the fork?"
Then I want you to tell them: "Keep your fork, the best is yet to come."
The Pastor's eyes welled up with tears of joy as he hugged the young woman good-bye.

He knew this would be one of the last times he would see her before her death.

But he also knew that the young woman had a better grasp of heaven than he did.
She had a better grasp of what heaven would be like
than many people twice her age, with twice as much experience and knowledge.
She KNEW that something better was coming.

At the funeral people were walking by the young woman's casket
and they saw the cloak she was wearing and the fork placed in her right hand.

Over and over, the Pastor heard the question,
What's with the fork?" And over and over he smiled.

During his message, the Pastor told the people of the conversation
he had with the young woman shortly before she died.
He also told them about the fork and about what it symbolized to her.
He told the people how he could not stop thinking about the fork
and told them that they probably would not be able to stop thinking about it either.

He was right.
So the next time you reach down for your fork,
let it remind you, ever so gently, that the best is yet to come.
Friends are a very rare jewel, indeed.
They make you smile and encourage you to succeed.
They lend an ear, they share a word of praise, and they always want to open their hearts to us.
Show your friends how much you care.

Remember to always be there for them, even when you need them more.

For you never know when it may be their time to "Keep their fork."

~ May 19 ~

2007-05-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

There are three kinds of faith in Christ:
1. Struggling faith, like a man in deep water desperately swimming.
2. Clinging faith, like a man hanging to the side of a boat.
3. Resting faith, like a man safely within the boat (and able to reach out with a hand to help someone else get in).

D. L. Moody

sigh...

2007-05-15T10:18:00.000+08:00

sigh...so pek chek...and it's ALL abt work...grr...
really can't stand my boss nowadays...duno wat's w him again...think PMS again...he really piss me off...big time!...i really duno wat i shld do sia...sigh...
help! it really sucks having such a boss...sigh...isn't it sooo suay to have such a job in ur very first perm job?anyhow blame...anywayhow scold...anyhow push responsibility when we are notin the loop for such things...new work pass to me without me knowing the background...
thereafter...always get scolded...not only by him...but by ppl of other dept...ruining my reputation....grr...

~sick~

2007-05-03T18:31:00.000+08:00

i got Tonsillitis...sian...fever fever fever...grrr...
mc 2 days...but today i worked the whole day...lots to do...wat to do?...

~back again...~

2007-05-02T09:44:00.000+08:00

heya...backie...paiseh only blog abt fwded stuff these days...wayy too lazy to update abt myself...actually shld be super bz now...but juz canot get myself to start work...not feeling dat well too mah...
anyway...i forgot (or cant remember) wat realy happened during the period of time i last update abt myself...hahaha...but lets say abt the past few days...have been great...and i've been driving ALOT!...and guess wat? the cost of petrol is burning a super big hole in my pocket!!!sianzzz...
hmmm...on sat after giving tuition, i went for my Amore lessons...thereafter...i drove home...till abt 6pm, my frens came over and we head off for dinner...den to NTU to help a fren get his stuff from hostel to his place...guess wat? the journey was super long lor...wahz...scary...not scary actually...but juz super long journey lor...den i sent them back...pump petrol too...
the next day (sunday), i drove to church...nearly canot find parking...but got one after making another turn...thank God...hee...after dat, me, serena, joanne, jess, and mark went to raffles city to walk walk...den went for evening...on the way there was damn funny...was driving along the expressway...joanne was the direction giver...however, when we saw the exit to Xilin and Tamp, i thought there are other exits to tamp ahead (cos i remember on sat i was at an expressway w alot of other tamp exits but guess is the wrong one...wahahaha)...so we continued...n guess wat? cos mark was in front...he suddenly say..."eh, how come i see changi airport?"...wahahaha...funny lor...we were like laughing...made a u-turn...actually we shld exit the first exit (TPE,SLE) but duno y we went the next one instead...to bedok...after turning here n there...we reached vfc...haa...we went to get some bubble tea and nack to vfc building...we had nursery duty...ooo...i missed the kids...soooooo cute lor...esp Johann...missed him soo much...but he's soo quiet...always wana cry...the rest are as cute...really love those kids...hee...after service we head off to marine parade for steamboat dinner(mei,hui, and joel were already there)...yum yum...ate the tomyam soup one...alot too...after dat went macs to chill...den homeeee...oh yah...n pump petrol again... :(
the next day was a working day...but guess all of us were in holiday mood (cos tue is labour day)...i left on the dot...went home till abt 8plus...den drove down to Lagoon food centre w Joanne...met up w Serena, Jinlun, Mei, Hui, Joel,Leon, and Mark...after food we went to the beach to 'chui feng' awhile...den i went home...sent Joanne home...and Leon to the bus stop near my place...
then comes Tuesday...PH lor...but actually wana sleep till late...but cos i missed the last epi of a show the nite b4, i woke up early to watch it...but guess wat?i did not have a gd start of the day...woke up at 830am to watch...but afew mins later my mum came back w breakfast...n my dad purposely asked the food to be put at the dining room instead of the living room (where i watch tv)...n wanted my to go over to eat...but i dowan...he got angry...so i switched off the tv...den walked over...while he's still angry and saying some stuff...den i mumbled...he got super angry...slammed the pair of chopsticks in his hands on the table...it broke into 6 pieces! den scolded me super loudly for 15mins...sigh...niwae...wun talk abt wat he scolded...but thank god after dat all was ok...(shldnt have woken up to watch it...if i hadnt known there was a repeat!arghh...)...thereafter i became a chauffeur for my mum...went out with her till abt 2plus i think...den i slacked at home...oh did i say that my dad did a 'stand' for me to put my lappy?though it's abit wobbly n doesnt look appealing...but it's cool...wat i wanted...there are foldable 'legs' and i can put it on my bed while lying on my bed...my legs will be under the stand...hee...can easily fall asleep while using my com...wahahaa...thanks dad! muacks!
anyway...while slacking...i feel totally not well...actually had a v bad throat pain in the morning...den bad bad headache while out w my mum...nv did i noe it will become fever thereafter...i was soo disappointed to get the fever...cos got bbq w the group at nite...but i was waiting for Joanne n Jocelyn at that time...so i sleep...wore jacket n socks...sweat it all out...n i keep praying for God's healing touch...n phoom! i was ok after 2 hrs...really Thank God!cos joanne called me abt 5pm...telling me they will be done at 6plus...so i went to sleep...woke up at 6...still as bad...but cos they have yet to call me...i continued to sleep...n drink lots of water...was thinkin dat if they were to be done earlier, i wld tell them i'm not going...but when they called at 7plus...i was already ok! hee...so i prepared...they came over n i drove them down...hmmm...n yup...we reached Mei n Hui's place...the food were v nice...but i didnt eat alot...cos i'm not totally well...plus i ate too much heaty food liao...mayb dats y i got sick...i went back earlier though...so sad didnt join them for tea session...cos i need rest n dowana go home late...but i've had fun...really hope i can have more time to spend time w them...but i always no time...sigh...n no money...hahaha...hmmm...
anyway...dat's abt wat happened the past few days...n now back at work...still feeling abit weak...but wun die lah...gotta start on my work liao...byezzzz...

take care...

God Bless~

Daddy's Empty Chair

2007-04-27T11:53:00.000+08:00

DADDY'S EMPTY CHAIR

A man's daughter had asked the local minister to come and pray with her father.
When the minister arrived, he found the man lying in bed with his head propped up on two pillows.
An empty chair sat beside his bed.
The minister assumed that the old fellow had been informed of his visit. "I guess you were expecting me, he said. 'No, who are you?" said the father. The minister told him his name and then remarked, "I saw the empty chair and I figured you knew I was going to show up." "Oh yeah, the chair," said the bedridden man.
"Would you mind closing the door?"
Puzzled, the minister shut the door.
"I have never told anyone this, not even my daughter," said the man.
"But all of my life I have never known how to pray. At church I used to hear the pastor talk about prayer, but it went right over my head."
" I abandoned any attempt at prayer," the old man continued, " until one day four years ago, my best friend said to me,
"Johnny, prayer is just a simple matter of having a conversation with Jesus. Here is what I suggest."
"Sit down in a chair; place an empty chair in front of you, and in faith see Jesus on the chair. It's not spooky because he promised, 'I will be with you always'.
"Then just speak to him in the same way you're doing with me right now." "So, I tried it and I've liked it so much that I do it a couple of hours every day. I'm careful though . If my daughter saw me talking to an empty chair, she'd either have a nervous breakdown or send me off to the funny farm." The minister was deeply moved by the story and encouraged the old man to continue on the journey.
Then he prayed with him, anointed him with oil, and returned to the church.
Two nights later the daughter called to tell the minister that her daddy had died that afternoon.
"Did he die in peace?" he asked.
"Yes, when I left the house about two o'clock , he called me over to his bedside, told me he loved me and kissed me on the cheek. When I got back from the store an hour later, I found him . But there was something strange about his death. Apparently, just before Daddy died, he leaned over and rested his head on the chair beside the bed. What do you make of that?"
The minister wiped a tear from his eye and said, "I wish we could all go like that."

Prayer is one of the best free gifts we receive.
*I asked God for water, He gave me an ocean.
* I asked God for a flower, He gave me a garden.
* I asked God for a friend, He gave me all of YOU... If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God.

enjoy~

2007-04-26T09:41:00.000+08:00

Emergency Numbers

2007-04-20T10:45:00.000+08:00

Emergency
Telephone Numbers

These are more effective than 911. Call when . . .

You are sad, phone............................................................................... John 14
You have sinned, phone...................................................................... Psalm 51
You are facing danger, phone............................................................. Psalm 91
People have failed you, phone............................................................ Psalm 27
It feels as though God is far from you, phone................................. Psalm 139
Your faith needs stimulation, phone................................................. Hebrews 11
You are alone and scared, phone........................................................ Psalm 23
You are worried, phone.......................................................... Matthew 8:19–34
You are hurt and critical, phone................................................ 1 Corinthians 13
You wonder about Christianity, phone ....................... 2 Corinthians 5:15-18
You feel like an outcast, phone.............................................. Romans 8:31-39
You are seeking peace, phone............................................. Matthew 11:25-30
It feels as if the world is bigger than God, phone............................ Psalm 90
You need Christ like insurance, phone.................................. Romans 8:1-30
You are leaving home for a trip, phone.......................................... Psalm 121
You are praying for yourself, phone................................................. Psalm 87
You require courage for a task, phone.......................................... Joshua 1
Inflation’s and investments are hogging your thoughts, phone........ Mark 10:17-31
You are depressive, phone......................................................... Psalm 27
Your bank account is empty, phone................................................ Psalm 37
You lose faith in mankind, phone............................................ Corinthians 13
It looks like people are unfriendly, phone.......................................... John 15
You are losing hope, phone............................................................... Psalm 126
You feel the world is small compared to you, phone........................ Psalm 19
You want to carry fruit, phone....................................................... John 15
Paul’s secret for happiness, phone.................................. Colossians 3:12-17
With big opportunity/discovery, phone.......................................... Isaiah 55
To get along with other people, phone.......................................... Romans 12

ALTERNATE NUMBERS

For dealing with fear, call.................................................... Psalm 3:47
For security, call.................................................................... Psalm 121:3
For assurance, call........................................................................ Mark 8:35
For reassurance, call....................................................... Psalm 145:18

All of these numbers may be phoned directly
No Operator assistance is necessary
All lines to Heaven are available 24 hours a day

FEED YOUR FAITH AND DOUBT WILL STARVE TO DEATH

~yum~

2007-04-19T17:46:00.000+08:00

Grandma in the Courtroom....

2007-04-19T11:08:00.000+08:00

Joke of the day!!!!!
Lawyers should never ask a Mississippi grandma a question if they aren't prepared for the answer.

In a trial, a Southern small-town prosecuting attorney called his first witness, a grandmotherly, elderly woman to the stand. He approached her and asked, "Mrs. Jones, do you know me?"
She responded, "Why, yes, I do know you, Mr. Williams. I've known you since you were a young boy, and frankly, you've been a big disappointment to me. You lie, you cheat on your wife, and you manipulate people and talk about them behind their backs. You think you're a big shot when you haven't the brains to realize you never will amount to anything more than a two-bit paper pusher. Yes, I know you."
The lawyer was stunned! Not knowing what else to do, he pointed across the room and asked, "Mrs. Jones, do you know the defense attorney?" She again replied, "Why, yes, I do. I've known Mr. Bradley since he was a youngster, too. He's lazy, bigoted, and he has a drinking problem. He can't build a normal relationship with anyone and his law practice is one of the worst in the entire state. Not to mention he cheated on his wife with three different women. One of them was your wife. Yes, I know him."

The defense attorney turned white. The judge asked both counselors to approach the bench and, in a very quiet voice, said,

"If either of you idiots asks her if she knows me, I'll send you both to the electric chair.

~my results r out~

2007-04-18T11:24:00.000+08:00

yup...results out...been very worried abt them...everyday will go online and check if results are out...so today, when i reached office, as usual, i logged in to my sch's website to check if results are out...i was quite shocked to see that the results page is updated!hahaa...i was like "huh?results out?"...hahaha...den i stared at the screen...blankly though....awhile later...den i managed to look closely and analyse that my results are out...hahaha...i've got a Credit for my MPP and Pass for my APB...really Thank God for my APB that i can get a pass...cos i failed my assignment...really thank God...as for MPP...i thought i could do better...but...nvm...credit better than nothing...hahaha...
yup...i've cleared those 2 modules...now got 2 more to go...praying hard that i can clear those 2 in June too...den i will be a graduate liao!!!long awaited cert lor...hahaa...
anyway...been lazy and dun feel like updating my blog recently...so yah...
k bz now...byee...take care all~

God Bless~

An Appraisal Letter - good one!

2007-04-03T13:34:00.000+08:00

Something interesting & creative !!!!!!

AN APPRAISAL LETTER

Dear Manager (HR),

Bob Smith, my assistant programmer, can always be found
hard at work in his cubicle. Bob works independently,without
wasting company time talking to colleagues. Bob never
thinks twice about assisting fellow employees, and he always
finishes given assignments on time. Often Bob takes extended
measures to complete his work, sometimes skipping coffee
breaks. Bob is a dedicated individual who has absolutely no
vanity in spite of his high accomplishments and profound
knowledge in his field. I firmly believe that Bob can be
classed as a high-calibre employee, the type which cannot be
dispensed with. Consequently, I duly recommend that Bob be
promoted to executive management, and a proposal will be
sent away as soon as possible.
Signed - Project Leader

A MEMO WAS SOON SENT FOLLOWING THE LETTER:
Dear Manager (HR),

That stupid idiot was reading over my shoulder when I wrote
the report sent to you earlier today. Kindly read only the
odd lines 1,3,5,7,9,11,13 for my true assessment of him.
Signed - Project Leader

~AArrrgggghhhh!!!~

2007-03-31T23:37:00.000+08:00

i'm juz so sad!!!! again...sigh...all abt this stupid idiot 'ROOM'...sigh...
guess wat? it FLOODS in here!!!...though only small puddles here n there...but it juz sucks lah...n nobody cares...told my dad there's water...he even saw mi walking n n out getting cloths to clean my 'ROOM'...but he didnt even care at all!sigh...nobody cares...it's not that i wana stay in this stupid 'ROOM'...i juz hate it!!!n now some of my stuffs are wet...lot of my stuffs are on the floor in the stupid crammed up 'ROOM'...they are all in either paper bags or plastic bags...some plastic bags got holes...dats y some of my stuff got wet...most of the plastic bags are on top of the puddles of water lor...i'm juz so sad lah...i really duno wat to sae or explain how i feel...i actually tried my best to accept this fact...but when i came home juz now...i cant take it anymore...another round of crying again...this yr i really cried aot...sigh...not only that...wat makes me even demoralised is when i see my old room being soo nice...the parquet was re-coated with i duno wats dat called...n there's a huge bed...with nice new curtains...BUT...they are for my bro...i see liao i really v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v v sad...really...but wat can i do? i can only see...feel sad...n cry...keep all within me...if i sae it out how i feel...i will CONFIRM get scolded or smthg like dat by my dad...so i rather keep damn quiet...and be sad myself...another thing dat i'm sad abt is dat now whenever i wana use toilet or bathe...i will have to walk all the way up to use...not only dat...when my new cupboard for clothes come, i will have to walk all the way to near the door entrance study(now maid) room to take my clothes...all these are damn demoralising...but once again...wat can i do?sigh...n now since my stuff are in plastic bags...i have to find v long for my stuff...for example clothes and others...cos i duno where my maid puts them...and i think i lost my IC and my external hard drive...duno where they are...arghhh...i am juz really sad...duno wat to sae...now i can only cry in my room...tmr i will have to out on a smile on my face...sigh...oh yah...one more thing...actually my mum sae will buy new shelves n drawers for me...i can go choose...guess wat?in the end i gotta use my bros old shelves n drawers which used to be in the study room...i mean i mum did called me to ask abt whether i wana use the old shelves...but she did knw dat i wanted new ones...but she called and juz sae 'hey the old shelves u wana use?they r still new and cost v expensive last....'
before she continue...i juz said 'okok'...y?cos she emphasized on them being new n expensive...means i got no other choice but to sae ok...cos if i say i want new ones...she will start to reason out...sigh...my bro gets to get new shelves n drawers for his new ROOM...but i get the old ones...sigh...sad...first is stay in blacony(kicked out of my room)...then i take my bro's old bed,then flood( n nobody cares)...den old stuffs....sigh...wat more can i sae?sigh...

will stop here...sad...
take care n God Bless~

*anyway, 'this person', i noe that all the while u have been reading my blog...n i guess u go search for it...den found the changed blog add...cos i didnt tell lots of ppl this new since i changed it...that small part i put the other time was on purpose...to confirm if u really noe my blog add...n yup, i'm right...so when r u gona admit that u noe my new blog add n secretly reading it w/o telling me u noe...and still askin me soo many qns when u can noe it from the blog?do u noe such actions of yours doesnt help u at all?*

~i'm so sad~

2007-03-30T09:19:00.000+08:00

sigh...no mood...super no mood...when i see my room...the last time i gona see it as mine...cried in my sleep during my last night there...totally demoralised...but there's nothing i can do...sigh...
i have no sae...n i dowana argue...dowan my parents to be angry...and keep using reasons that i'm always not at home to counter me...now...my new room will be at the balcony...room sized halved...clothes cupboard will be at another end of the house...n i feel there's no privacy at all with me moving there...but...that's the decision...i cant do anything...still have to act as if i'm fine with the stupid arrangement...i have nothing to sae...juz gona sae that i'm totally devastated...sad...demoralised...really thank God that i warned them to move my stuff after my exams end...if not i can really say that i will NOT study for my exams as i'm sooo demoralised...
i wana cry out loud...voice my unhappiness...but...i cant...i can onli sob at one corner...without any1 noticing...guess only God noes...sigh...so sad...

~left another hurdle!~

2007-03-28T23:35:00.000+08:00

yay~ exams for this term juz over...happy...this is my 2nd last lap...really hope i can clear this...and also my last lap(which will be in June)...den i will be a graduate!!!!haaa...can't wait sia...hmmm...after soo long lor...my life has been so monotonous...work...study...work...study...but am really glad that at least there's one thing that really brighten up my life...is to go church and have God with me...He really bless me alot! esp during my exams...really lor...i can tell u ppl again...i didnt really study for exams...really...but at least i did some minor research that actually helped me abit lah...i did prepare abit of notes...but that doesnt mean i remember wat i've prepared...till like on the day of exam itself (yday n juz now)...i only start to read thru about 3hrs b4 exam start...duno y...i totally nv feel a sense of urgency at all...weird me...usually i will feel it abt at least 3days b4...but this time i did not...n i waste off alot of my time...talk n do nothing...haaa...duno wat's wrong with me...but i really thank God that i really did my best...n i really wrote alot n attempt all questions...the only thing is its relevance...haaa...
anyway my 'study' times are really v interesting for this term...till i didnt really study...one of them is abt me being harrassed by a mad guy in the library...which caused me my time of studying...he's really mad lah...u've got to hear my story if u were to ask me(provided i remember)...duno if he did waited for me outside the library that night cos have got 2 friends who rushed down after their exams to make sure i'm safe...thanks Youyi n Simon...haa...mayb that mad guy was there waiting...but saw me walking out of the library w 2 guys den didnt come near...haaa...sigh...duno y i'm surrounded by mad or perverted ppl...eekz...
anyway...happy exams over...but sian class starts on wed...urrghhh...but nvm...make it quick...so dat i can grad soon...wahahahaha...
sian...tmr gotta go back work(though i was in office today lah...but not for work...shld b for studying...but i wasted my time chit chatting away)...haaa...
k will stop here den...take care ppl
God Bless~~

*btw...i duno y i keep feeling sooooooo irritated or pissed when i see this person's sms and when this person msn me...although this person's intentions are good...but i can't help it but feel pissed n irritated...and it actually affected my mood to study more when i received the sms b4 my exam start...sigh...duno wat's wrong w me sia...SIGH...gotta get rid of this bad attitude of mine...!!!*

~a quote to share...~

2007-03-16T11:48:00.000+08:00

Sight is not faith, and hearing is not faith, neither is feeling faith; but believing when we neither see, hear, nor feel is faith; and everywhere in the Bible tells us our salvation is to be by faith. Therefore we must believe before we feel, and often against our feelings, if we would honor God by our faith.

Hannah Whitall Smith

~i miss my...~

2007-03-15T23:48:00.000+08:00

best friends...esp Serene Tang and CK...
really miss them alot...haven seen them for quite some time...
was supposed to meet serene but it was either not arranged or both of us not free...sigh...wonder when will i see her...hmmm...hopefully soon...juz soo happy that i can always talk to her in spiritual terms...and that we can give spritual advice to each other...love her lots! always my best fren...always...we've been like frens for 12yrs...but i'v been treating her as my best fren for the past 9 to 10yrs...always in my heart...
i miss ck alot too...but...i duno...juz feel that things are totally different now...and i already expected it...onli a matter of time...n yah...now it's diff already...we somehow like totally nv really contact...i really do wana contact him...talk to him...n resume to wat it was like b4...but i guess it might not ba...many times i wana chat w him online (msn) or sms him or wat...but i didnt...there's a reason to why i didnt...even if we do chat...it's juz only a few sentences...n it stops there...i feel super hurt when it all becomes like this...i really treasure this frenship of 9yrs alot...but...it's juz so diff now...remember i called him on the day when i passed my driving...the reaction or shld i say reply was not wat i expected...was totally disappointed...plus he was like not v interested to talk to me at that moment...nearly cried...sigh...i'm really sad...but i really miss him alot...really wana see him soon...but...but i duno if it will be awkward if i were to meet him...n i guess i canot be so close to him anymore...canot hold on to him while walking...canot rest on his shoulders while resting...SIGH...i'm juz v sad...i really wana be the one to listens to his problems...and helps him by giving gd suggestions...i wana be the one he can turn to n trust...but i guess he didnt regard me as that...that's also y now i didnt look for him when i'm sad n troubled...more often i will juz keep them to myself or talk to God...
feel really blessed as i can always turn to God when i am down...He will never fail me and never forsake me... :)
anyway...though i'm so sad...but nevertheless...i will still love him as much...and will never forget him...will always treat him as my best fren...really...alwayszz...miss him lots...

k i gotta sleep...not feeling well...but cos feel kinda troubled..n really miss these 2 frens of mine...so juz post this...
take gd care...
God Bless~

~congrats to myself~

2007-03-14T18:46:00.000+08:00

yah...results are out...n i'm one of the 14 who got promoted...but...instead of being happy...i'm feeling damn confused and sad...sigh...being kinda bothered...y?sigh...also duno how to say...but i'm kinda unhappy abt how much of increment i got...not that alot...and i'm confused cos i duno if i shld move on (quit n go elsewhere) or stay...getting a promotion is good lah...recognition is given...however, i'm juz feeling this shldnt be wat i shld get(pay n position) when i grad (which is soon...)...actually all these while i think i've been underpaid...actually i shldnt say is the company's fault...but mayb myself...cos i went in as an a'lvl grad...that's y i'm graded at that level and given that amt...worked soo hard...yet still not recognised in the 1st 1yr plus...only finally got the recognition in the next yr...which is now...but i'm still far far away from my goal...or even my minimum goal as a going to be graduate...which is the cause of making me confused...shld i slowly work my way up?meaning to continue with this position n pay...n give up the opp cost of getting a more than $2k job...or shld i let go of here and find greener fields?i duno...i really duno...i noe many would say let go and find greener fields...but...i'm juz afraid...afraid that i will be like any other fresh grad who are unable to get a job...shld i hold on to here?BUT...i'm really tired of the management system here...really...n my health deteriorate cos of this job(partly though)...and i feel that i deserve a good and long break from work...meaning i wldnt wana quit here n go to another job immediately after serving 1mth notice...but if i quit first...take my break and find job...i'm afraid i cant find job...how?wat shld i do?
yah...i noe i shld seek God...i WILL seek God...but juz that i wana share how i feel...juz so confused...SIGH...Lord, i need your guidance and i need perserverance...

take care n God Bless~

Quote of the day:
Faith is a strong power, mastering any difficulty in the strength of the Lord who made heaven and earth.
Corrie Ten Boom

~back...~

2007-03-14T13:48:00.000+08:00

hey all...i'm back...pasieh have not been blogging for the past 10 over days...juz too lazy to blog i guess...haaaz...
anyway now is lunch time and since i'm browsing the internet, might as well blog abit...
hmmm...within the past 1 week plus, nothing much really happened...other than my bdae a day after i passed my driving...nv intend to celebrate it though...early morning went to giv tuition, thereafter attend class...den went for Edge...got cafe duty too...after Edge and duty, i went out with Serena,Joanne,Jocelyn,Leon and Joel...had dinner...then went Esplanade rooftop...they surprised me with a dark choc cake! so touched though i kinda know they getting me a cake or helping me celebrate when they say they are going esplanade...Thanks darlings...love u all lots...appreciate the trouble u all went to celebrate for me...we went Hong Bao River after that...den home...really enjoyed the time...thanks once again...
hmmm...for the past 2 weekends i got weekend classes...boring lor...esp the classes last week...i keep falling asleep...cos i duno wat is APB abt and i dun understand the lecturer...sigh...how???exams coming soon...worried sia...anyway the past week plus had been quite normal to me...and on both sundays i managed to drive the car and the pick up(under supervision)...but only once for both vehicles...sigh...wonder when can i take the vehicle out to drive out myself...hmmm...yawnzzz...
oh yah afew days ago i started watching Hana Kimi...wah...i didnt know it was so addictive...juz finished them last nite...didnt like the ending though...actually this whole drama is draggy...but...juz as many wld think, they like to watch Wu Chun...he's cute lah...really...hey...seldom will i be 'attracted' to celebrities lor...i even surf net to find out abit more info abt him...the only thing i WOULD NOT do is to be sooo crazy over him and spend my money on his stuff ba...afterall he's juz another human being...haaz...but he's not only cute/handsome, he's tall (wow i love his height)...and his build is wow lor...the thing i miss out is his personality...hmmm...yah dat's abt him...
anyway i will stop here...gotta work...and today Card Centre will be releasing the results for promotion...sigh...duno y i keep having the feeling that i will not get it though there MIGHT be a possibility...sigh...i will juz leave it to God ba...anyway if got promoted is only to SGC...still kinda nothing to me lah...hmmm...
k...byeee...take care..
God Bless~

~yay~

2007-03-02T23:24:00.000+08:00

WooHoo~~~
Finally! I'm a Qualified Driver!!! No More learning from instructors!!! soooo happy...
I really really wana Thank God for a few things:
1) Being there for me evey single second (and protecting me,tester n other road users)
2) answering my prayers
3) giving me a good weather (no rain despite the rain everyday!)
4) taking away most of the nervousness(cos still nervous lah)
5) allowing me to learn to control my temper and always be humble(but wonder is dat only valid during this morning...haaaz) - i've said 'yes sir' and 'sorry sir' the most times in my whole life!
6) though giving me a strict tester...he still passed me despite sooooo many mistakes both in circuit n out on the roads...i tell u...when u hear abt the mistakes, u will think dat i shld fail..wahahhaa...i was nervous mah...he kept on say this n dat...make mi gan cheong...haaa
7) and many other things...

The Lord is juz so wonderful, great and Faithful...never fails to bless me...heez...Thank You Lord...

yup yup...happy dat i passed...no need to waste time n money liao...great gift for myself..hee...

k will stop here...take care n God Bless~

~everything i do...~

2007-02-26T17:49:00.000+08:00

is always wrong and not appropriate...so sad...sometimes i juz really wana see ppl happy...but yet...before i can do things that made ppl happy, i get 'not so good' comments abt it...it really hurts...cos i'm v sad that watever i wana do or decided,ppl always think it's not good or wat...really sad lor...guess this is why i've always never like making decision...i really never like it...i also never liked organizing things as i'm afraid it might not go well...many stuffs...yah ppl may say cos i didnt think before making the decision, or my decision aren't good...but...each of us have different thinkings...mayb i did think before i decide...but wat i think is right is not wat u think is right...den again...usually, if one say it's no good...some others might 'follow' or agree...some might not...sigh...i duno...all these really made me to hate making decisions...den when i dun make decisions, ppl will say i'm indecisive...SIGH...when will i be right???!!!sometimes i really juz want things to be peaceful where there r no quarrels or watsoever...but it won't...but wat i usually try to do is to keep quiet or 'agree'...juz like when ppl make 'not very nice' comments abt me...sometimes i juz smile it off...or maybe agree...or juz keep quiet...cos i dowana create trouble though i really dun like it at all...i dowana affect frenships...i've encountered failed ones recently...i dowan anymore...i dowana lose frens or ppl ard me...sigh...wat shld i do???sigh...Lord, how should i go abt in handling such things?

anyway gotta work...byee...

God Bless~

~back to fill my blog~

2007-02-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

hi all...paiseh hadnt been updating my blog for nearly 2 weeks...anyway...not many ppl read cos not many ppl noe of my changed blog add...so it's ok lah...hmmm...been bz over the past 2 weeks though...but recently was the Chinese New Year...not a bad 1 this yr though...cos relatives from Beijing and Hong Kong are back...missed the kids alot~...glad to see them...but sad that they went back liao...hmmm...aiya lazy to blog abt the past 2 weeks...will juz sae wat happened these 2 days ba...
juz came home abt an hr ago...today is a bz day...early in the morning i prepared myself for church class and church service...went down to futsing...den found out i was at the wrong place...supposed to be at clan association...sigh...nearly gave up going church for today cos it's juz so troublesome...but in the end was persuaded to go...den i went over to aljunied to wait for church bus...the bus didnt come too...some miscomm...we took cabby down...i even missed class...arghh...sigh...den the next 2 wks i gona miss class too cos got sch weekend class...duno if i shld skip morning class n attend church class...hmmm...see how ba...hmmm...after service i went lunch w winnie n family...didnt join the 'other' youths...they seem bz amongst themselves(sigh)...so i left with winnie...after lunch i went home...den awhile later went out w my family to meet up my other relatives for dinner...ate quite alot...even saw Priscillia Chen(Zheng Shi Mei) and her bf (duno wat name)...and one of their fsmily...after dinner went over to my dad's fren house...den home...hmmm...tired...oh yah...Happy Birthday Jin Lun and Jiin Rong~~~
yesterday was also a bz day for me too...but kinda sad abt in the evening and even juz now when i found out smthg...anyway...i woke up super early on sat...cos i changed tuition time to 9am instead of 930am cos i gotta go off early...i took cab down to Masonic Club @Coleman Street...my classmate's ROM...didnt get to see the solemnization cos i was late...so only went for the lunch...thereafter went to do some catch up with ex classmates n classmate(from my uni)...den headed down to Edge after i got something for Jinlun...actually been thinking of wat to get for him for v long...but still duno...so in the end bought Timberland's voucher for him...hope he uses it...went to The Edge...sermon was good...somehow of a breakthrough...but sad...sad cos i wasnt ministered to(or prayed for) during alter call...still feel kinda lost though...left quickly after alter call...anway...to talk abt wat i'm sad abt...is dat yah...again...but guess i'll have to accept the fact...that i'm really not remembered or mayb not regarded as their frens at all liao...i duno lah...mayb its juz the sensitive me again...but yah...i wasnt asked to attend Jinlun's birthday celebration...actually i duno if it's a party or wat...but i somehow noe they are gona celebrate for him after service...i noe i did tell serena during service i gona leave early cos i've got smthg on...but that doesnt mean she canot let me noe...plus i juz found out some1 was even invited to join them but he canot attend...means that it canot be that last evening they actually wana ask mi along but cos noe i've got smthg on...so didnt...but is that they have planned it earlier...but juz didnt include me...my heart is totally shattered...totally...wondering if i shld giv up this frenship...sigh...or guess its juz really gona be a 'hi-bye' frenship liao...a frenship which i really hope to treasure and love... now...juz shattered into pieces...i'm really very sad...i mean yah...yday's sermon was very good...abt us carrying many baggage w us...'Offence', Injustice','Bitterness','Revenge' and one more...afew bags really describes me...and i thought i was set free after going for alter call(though wasnt prayed for though i really needed 1...not noticed again...but nvm...)...but...after i found out that the sum1 was even invited...but i was not even told at all...i was juz so sad...n all those feeling i felt b4 abt them came back...injustice...bitterness...and so on...guess i wasnt really set free at all...sigh...i really duno wat to do...really need God...need God to guide me thru this time...hmmm...but in anyway...i'm really sad...sigh...guess dat 1 incident really caused a huge damage to the frenship...always been wanting to blame that sum1 that if he didnt go tell them i'm sad...or watsoever(i duno wat happened)...all these wldnt have happened...but...yah...shldnt blame him...sigh...anyway...yah...after i left Edge...i took cab to Magdeline's house to Bai Nian...Tracy n Daniel went too...not bad...we chatted quite alot...ate alot...see pics...thereafter i went home...tiring day too...heez...

k lah will stop here...anyway...kinda nervous...cos my TP on Friday morning...really pray hard i will pass this one time...haaz...and yah...i got test on wed...arghh...i duno wat is APB abt man...oh no...essay somemore...sian...
nitez all...

God Bless~

~am i mean?~

2007-02-12T23:44:00.000+08:00

hmmm...i feel bad...the issue is bothering me...since juz now...y? cos i feedback to SSDC's management abt an instructor...guess if you have been reading my blog, you shld noe who izzit...it's car 26...sigh...i really have no choice...i really wldnt wana use dat last resort...but...yah...i've used it...u noe it's always dreadful to go for driving lessons, and feeling super unhappy when i see number 26?i will always say short prayers hoping that it will not be car 26...but it always turns out to be him...it happened today too...n it really made me feel the urge to ask whether i can request not to have a certain instructor...cos if it continues to be him...i will sure not be able to learn my driving properly...really...cos i'm always 'quarrelling' with him...n he always think he's rite...n he always confused me of what i've learnt b4...making me even more nervous...afraid i wldnt be able to pass my driving...sigh...actually my intention was only to ask the counter ppl whether is it possible not to have a certain instructor...in the end i was immediately directed to the in-charge of such cases...den really boh bian...i have to tell them...so i gave them the reasons to why i do not want this instructor to teach me...they immediately changed my instructor for me...however, the most kuku thing is that they still gave me the same car (which was supposed to be that instructor's permanent car)...n switched him w another instructor's car...which was just beside...n guess what? he actually experienced many of such feedback cases too...and the car they usually change him with is the other same instructor...sigh...this means that he noes that i complained abt him...very obvious...at first i didnt noe he will noe...but having to remember a look(stare) i saw on this face at me b4 i went into car 26 and he going into the car bside...i realised that he noes...n noe dat it's me...sigh...i really feel bad lor...wonder how will it affect him...i mean at times i can talk to him well...i changed him away so that i can really concentrate n learn well...one thing i cannot stand abt him is his arrogance...always thinking he's rite n stuff...when he's not lah...hmmm...sigh...feel really bad u noe...but yah...no choice...wat's done canot be undone...hmmm...hope this feedback wldnt cause him his job sia...hmm...okok...will stop here...gotta sleep early...tired...nightz to all...

take care n God Bless~

grrrrr!!!!

2007-02-08T15:53:00.000+08:00

ANGRY!!!!!!
stupid boss...juz as i thought that he's kinda changed...seldom scold or blame...BUT...grrr...he scolded me for no reason when it's not my fault!!!kaoz...i mean i really dun really know where's the most updated numbers as i'm not handling that...yet he assumes i should know...(someone in his cubicle wana get some numbers...duno he's scared of him or what...)...den he asked to me ask another colleague which is the most updated (since Florence not around)...but he's on the line and i think it's not good to disturb him...so i waited till he hang up the fone b4 approaching him...but my boss called me b4 he hangs up...and scolded me lor...he scolded me in mandarin " why so long haven give me an answer? you see lah, now ppl go off liao. you should know he doesn't like to wait. why everytime ask you to do something you canot do it properly one?"...den i replied " but he's on the line wat!" den he said " y canot juz ask him? only awhile wat!" den...he goes on scolding and blaming me, den slammed the fone! grrr...angry lor...hey it's not my fault lor...and he's so contradicting! this morning...or any other time, i wanted him to confirm with me whether the report can be distributed (he muz vet thru first)...den he scolded me " can't you see i'm bz? u always choose the wrong time to find me"...i mean...everything he does it correct and muz be answered immediately...but watever we do is wrong...shit lah...angry...so unfair lor...grrr...
hmmm...sian lah...duno wat to sae...so angry liao...
but in any way, i really muz thank God for His faithfulness...how He really see me thru...remember i've blogged about how He answered my prayers and that i have to go on and stay in this current job? i was really unwilling...but i will still follow God's plan though...i really followed, though in my heart really wonder how am i to take all the crap at work...but God, being so faithful...really blessed me all the way since the time i deciced to follow His way...the following Monday, after the saturday's vision, i went to work with a heavy heart...but my boss on mc...i was so happy lah!...den the next day, he's back...but from that day onwards, tho' he's still scolding at times, the number of times i got scolded is really v little...me and some other colleagues were kinda shocked lah...but he really talked to us nicely...but 1 thing is also cos he got high blood pressure...so it's not good for him to get angry...but it's really unexpected that his temper changed quite alot lor...Praise the Lord for being so wonderful and never load us with things beyond our limits!...heez...but den again...my boss is kinda mad juz now...sigh...but really poor me lah...got scolded for things which doesn't concern me...sigh...

anyway gotta go back to work...byeeeee...

God Bless~

~where's my light feeling?~

2007-01-28T18:23:00.000+08:00

sigh...yeah...last night was posting abt me feeling lighter after receiving God's direction...but today, i felt weary n burdened again...i really duno y sia...every now and den i really feel like crying...feeling v troubled...n yet i do not know what i'm troubled about...this feeling sucks...however, when i'm distracted, esp when i'm playing with the kids, i can feel much happier...but when i'm alone or wat...the unhappy feeling keeps on haunting me...sigh...esp after duty (helping out at 3-6yrs group), i went up...only spoke to some...but den again...every1 are engrossed amongst themselves...felt i wasnt in the right place at that time, so i left first...headed down to Sembawang...Shawn (my classmate) has organized a house warming session for some of us classmates...we had steamboat for lunch...not bad...filling too...den we played card games...the person with the lowest card will drink the whole glass of green tea or water...den to wine (luckily onli drank abit of wine)...i drank alot for water and green tea...but the whole session was fun...me,grace, n bee wei left first...that is why i'm home now...the rest are still playing...sigh...kinda sad...cos my dad...duno what's wrong with him...he n his 'i'm always right' thinking...i mean i early in the morning already told my mum i will be attending house warming at sembawang...so gotta let me know where they will be having dinner at...den i called home ard 5pm...my dad answered...i told him i'm at sembawang...den wat's the plan...den he got angry...saying that if i wana join them for dinner, i should have already gone home first...hey come on, i've already informed my mum...yet he's so unreasonable...den he got angry with me for always being out...cos on fri n sat i was out till 12am...but at least i always tell ppl that i'm always not free on sundays evening cos i wana spend time w my family...but he doesnt understand...he doesnt care...meaning that we muz follow according to what he wants...i think it's stupid lah...really...times have changed lah...i mean i did take time out to spend time at home...yet he's always complaining...n for this past few weeks i didn't go home early is cos i've gotta OT n have classes...but...he NEVER understands...i'm always wrong...grrr...fed up...but i gave up arguing anyway...usually just let him scold...n get done w it...he gets angry easily...always...n it's really irritating...reminds mi of my boss...kaoz...
anyway, i left Shawn's place early...but i decided not to join them for dinner...first i'm full...second, i dowana see his black face...so rather stay home...rest...n try to get some work done...got lots to do..not only work...but also sch work...sigh...stress...but i still have to bear with it...hmmm...anyway...i know very well my dad cares...that's y he's like dat...but...i feel that he shldnt be so rigid...pls lah...dun keep having those traditional thinking lah...if u wan us to learn from life, let us go through what we shouldnt go through and learn from it...sigh...really duno what he wants...n i guess i cant fulfil wat he wants...sigh...

anyway will stop here...
take care...God Bless~

~Lord, I heard you!~

2007-01-28T00:43:00.000+08:00

I felt the huge burden off my shoulder...really...really felt so light now...hopefully i dun go and think so much again though...but i juz really wana sae that the Lord is just so faithful...He's awesome...really...the message came to me quite unexpectedly...esp after i thought someone had already shared a testimony that God is speaking to us...wanting to paint a pic in our minds and spiritual being abt His love(if i didnt recall wrongly)...
today i've been seeking God the whole day again...asking for directions...cos i'm really sad abt it...i juz did my usual thingy on sat...early morning giv tuition...den head down to office get smthg and did some work...den head off to Edge for duty(cafe) and svc...actually was kinda tired already...so actually during sermon i was half awake...and there's a time where we were supposed to close our eyes n meditate upon the Lord...i really fell asleep!haaz...but i woke up suddenly...n gave thanks to the Lord...and the song that they played...was like(the lyrics) so directed to me...den awhile later, a guy went up to share abt wat God spoke to him...at first i was hoping that mayb God can speak through him to me...but the message was not really directed to my prayers abt directions...den we continued singing...i still gave thanks to the Lord anyway...for He's just so great...den again...Jeremy told us that Simon Tan had another testimony to share of what God spoke to him...he first started off by saying that it was something that he felt that the Lord wanted him to say this message to someone...but do not know who...and goes on by saying that he had a vision where he saw someone driving in a car...and came to a place where he/she do not know where to go next...whether to turn left or right...the driver had a hard decision...but the Lord told this person to Go Straight...continue to Go Straight...do not turn left or right...trust in Him...at that point of time...when i heard this...i just immediately broke down into tears...i really felt that this is the answer God is answering me for my directions in my work...the Lord is just so faithful! He answered my prayers...soon after the crying, i really felt a load off me...really...i really didn't expect i could get an answer since someone had already shared...it's v seldom that there's such vision from God to someone to us...i mean there are...but not frequent...plus it's twice for this time...n i really know that it's God telling me something...really grateful to the Lord...
although the way of going straight is not something i wanted...but...i accept it and will follow what God has planned for me...i know that He knows what's best for me...and i will follow it though it will be hard on me...but i know that if i follow faithfully, the Lord will bless me abundantly...I Trust in Him...i put my whole trust in Him for not only my work, but also my family, friends, and studies...Thank you Lord...
and Lord, i learned that we need not earn for your love for us...cos we already have it...all along...and will not be gone...Thank you Lord...

*it's great to hang out with the youths! Region 7&8 youths! all of u are AWESOME!*
*Thanks Jean for talking to me in the bus...had a great talk with u!*

k will stop here...will either sleep or do some work...brought it home...got alot sia...

take care
God Bless~

~frustrated!~

2007-01-26T20:26:00.000+08:00

sigh...feeling down...really down...sad...sad till now i'm drowning myself with work...though i getting to hate it more and more...i really duno wat to do...asked God for answers...but i can't hear...guess i din try hard enough...
when i heard the news...i juz kept quiet...while in my mind, many things are bombarding wat i'm thinking...thinking abt wat's the point of staying when there are so much changes in the structure of work...thinking y i'm always being pushed here n there at work(meaning i keep changing team n changing supervisors but job scope somehow the same)...i'm...i'm juz sick of it...ARGHHHHH!!!...i'm sooo angry...but wat can i do?i can't say anything...dun have any say though...the best i can do is just quit...but...wat about my (maybe) promotion? wat abt my variable bonus? should i wait? or should i juz go? i do not have my degree yet...how to get a better job? it's difficult...really...but...i really duno wat to do...i broke down...literally broke down in the toilet...and keep asking God WHY...didnt get an answer...i'm tired...really tired...i love my job...but...i'm tired...i really duno wat to do...all i can do now is wait for God's direction...but i'm afraid...afraid i canot take it anymore...but...i should really put my faith in Him...i shouldnt have doubts...sigh...guess it's so...but juz sad...every now and then. when i think abt this thing...i really juz wana break down n cry again...sigh...
*Lord, i Need you*

*felt bad not attending the wake today (also for net too there)...but i dowan my bad mood to affect the rest...*

take care n God Bless~

~life is just so...~

2007-01-25T00:08:00.000+08:00

Unexpected...Fragile...
yah...those are true...but i would like to add in something about life...though it's unexpected and/or fragile, i would like to share with you people that life is eternal, IF we know the Lord, If we receive salvation, If we believe and trust in Him...
life now in this world, is only temporary...it's just a short period for us to go thru many tests and experience different kinds of circumstances, to suffer or to sacrifice (for God), and also to do the Will of God by spreading His Good News...bringing awareness to the people around the world so that all of us can be saved, and move on to eternity...eternity with the Lord...But...one thing for sure is that we have to accept Him as our Lord and saviour, say the sinner's prayer...however, more must be done, such as doing His will...follow what He has planned for us, as He is our creator...
accepting and believing in the Lord leads us to receiving His unconditional love...a kind of love that no one else other than He can give us...and we got to know that Nothing is impossible for Him...He is the Alpha and the Omega...
for your info, I love the Lord more than any others...He is the top priority in my life...n not only that i love Him soo much...i fear Him as much too...this is the kind of feeling(duno what word to use) we should have...i fear Him so much so that i am willing to follow His will...i can proudly say that without the Lord, i wouldn't be here...really...i really thank God with all my heart how He created me, though with some things complicated, but...He loves me so much that He does not want me to suffer and wants me to grow up in a normal family...many many years ago...even long before i was born...He had already planned for my life and had in His mind to create me...His plans for my life till now are just so wonderful that i really thank Him that if my life was gone through in another way, things wouldn't be the same...i might not even be here thanking the Lord...the Lord is always blessing me in my life...i've received countless blessings from Him and i am really grateful to Him...and He never forsake us...He is always there and always there to answer our prayers...ALL of us are His creation...and we are NOT a mistake to be created...each and every one of our lives has a purpose in it...it is only whether we want to accept it or not...
i do admit i always complain about my life...this and that...and even to the extent of questioning God y am i created...y am i in this world...cos i'm angry with some areas of my life...i repent...i took back my words saying all those stuffs...as we should only and only believe in God that everything that happened in our lives have a purpose and reasons to why all these happen...i dare say that even with God in our lives, life will still not be easy...as it is not written in the Bible that life will be easy after we accept Christ...if life is just so easy, all of us will be taking the Lord for granted instead...in life, there are bound to be ups and downs...experiences gone through...and even sacrifices made...many are tests given to us by God...to test our Faith...sometimes we fall...but sometimes after a great fall, we learn from it, and stand up ourselves and continue to serve God...but sad to say, for some, they fall and never came back...i really thank God that i have frens who fall and came back with even more fire in them...but...i'm sad for some who fell but refused to acknowledge the grace of God once again...this group of people will always be in my prayer list...
i,myself fell many times(not many or even none knowing)...sometimes refusing to stand up...but will eventually stand up slowly especially when i experience breakthroughs...dun even noe if they are breakthroughs...cos it's always short term...den i will fall again...but my love for God is always so strong...juz that something is pulling me away from Him...and i did not take much effort in walking towards God even though i really want to...really...i really want to have a close close close relationship with God...but i just don't know why...the fire usually lit is only for awhile...and it will die down...but lit up again....and die down...i really hope n pray that it will be lit up...and continue burning and burning...i really want that...but i will and am trying my best...
*Lord, pls forgive me for neglecting you at times and not spending more time with you...forgive me for only looking for you when i'm in need...and sometimes not even turning to you first when i need to talk to someone...Lord, i now pray for forgiveness...and Lord, i pray that you will always be around to guide me thru, and allow me to have the determination to keep on seeking in you and getting closer to you more each day. Lord i thank you and i praise you.
Amen!*

anyway...i digressed too much...actually wat i wana sae abt life being so fragile n unexpected is when i heard a v sad yet happy news abt a youth from my church...the sad thing is that something happened and he passed away...but...the happy thing is that he is now with the Lord...living an eternal life...where all of us will be one day...i'm happy that he accepted the Lord...and now is able to be up in heaven...happily with the Lord...Amen!
but when i know abt the news, i was in total shock...tears juz rolled down my eyes...i do admit i do not know much abt him...juz talked to him at times hoping that he feels part of us...but there are always regrets in life...regrets of y we didnt do our best to know a person more, love them more, and only to realise it when something happen...sigh......oh yah...God did a great miracle in him in his life too...the Lord is juz so amazing...
anyway will stop here...really thank God for being in my life...I Love you Lord...
thank you Lord for each and every thing or person you've put in my life...and Lord, some things in terms of my family's salvation, my work (need directions), my studies, and last but not least, my frens, i hand it all to you Lord...for i trust in you...i know u know what's best for me,,,you will never give me the second best...you will never shortchange me...you will give me the best...Thank you Lord...

take care all of you...sorry for the long long post...hope it enlightens you...the Lord is good...
God Bless~

~sad sia...~

2007-01-21T20:53:00.000+08:00

sigh....aiyo...duno y i always SIGH in many of my entries...sigh...hahahhaa...
sad lor...cos i've juz forgone an opportunity to go Hong Kong FOC and everything sponsored by my dad...but is to go about immediately..within these few days i think...cos gotta be a representative as my Aunty's father-in-law pass away...but...i couldnt even bear to stop my work(take leave) and go for the trip...my dad challenged me to go...but...but...i UNWILLINGLY declined...sigh...so sad right?i mean i am entitled to take leaves...but...i juz cant leave my work like dat...juz cant let my colleagues bear the burden n responsibilities of my work...and i know i still have lots to do...sigh...actually there are many stuff i could have finished quite some time ago...but i really hate it...the thought of me not being able to finish them makes me sad...and the reason i'm not able to finish them is cos of my boss!!!he keeps on making me waste ALOT of my time doing al his shit...i mean they are stuffs i shld be doing...but...if he could be more patient in allocating work...dun keep scolding and doing last min changes...make up his mind well...much time will not be wasted! really...i cant stand it lor...sometimes really wonder how he climbs up to what his position is now...it's really...i duno how to sae lah...and now i'm totally stuck with sooo many of my work...how can i ever go on leave? unless i really leave...sigh...wat shld i do? actually do have some job offers intro-ed by frens...really wonder shld i go or not...should i just forgo the variable bonus?should i just really find a job which do not require me to spend so much time in office, so that at least i can really concentrate on my last few modules of my course? i really do not wish to fail...i really longed for this graduation for very long...i canot take the risk to fail any...nowadays i've been OT-ing and really missed out alot on lessons...what should i do?i canot go on like this...SIGH...

*Lord, i now pray to you. I pray for directions in my life, what I should do, what decisions should i make. Lord, i hand it all to you, for i know you know what is BEST for me.
Lord, I thank you and i praise you.
In Jesus mighty Name,
Amen!*

guess will stop here

take gd care al of ya!
God Bless~

~arghhhh~

2007-01-19T21:29:00.000+08:00

I AM STILL IN OFFICE!!!!!!!

my boss lah...dun let me go!!! want to change this and that...sigh...so sad...missed church service just now which started at 7.30pm...sigh...he's FULL of CHANGES lor...change this and that...at first thought 7plus can be done and i can rush down for my church service...BUT...he dun allow me to leave!!!!! oh i'm juz soooo angry!!! sigh...life's tough...i mean just now earlier in the day, the way he treated me....i tell you...i really wana QUIT!!!but...aiya...i also duno how to say lah...i duno wat to do now...SIGH....
k he's shouting for me already...ciaozzz...

*btw...yesterday on half day MC...my right eye was 'bandaged' after seeing doc in the morning (and i still went office after that to work till 2plus - my boss lah...so many things to do)...my eye was infected again...so decided to do a small surgery on my eye...my doc used a needle to prick the infected part and extracted out the pus...though the 'pimple look-a-like' thingy looks small...we never expect that it was even worse inside...luckily i did the surgery...should be on MC today too...but i chose to come and work instead...got too many things to do...see now...still got to OT till so late...sigh...

take care n God Bless~

~sigh...i'm right...~

2007-01-17T22:49:00.000+08:00

YAWNZZZ!!!
yah...back not long ago...sigh...really tired...n yup...i'm right...i OT-ed today den went to class...it's making me really tired...i mean i actually was preparing to go off...but! my boss lah...keep asking do this n dat...doing those cashplus p&l with budget...sick of it man...really tired...Wednesday i'm usually bz with my weekly stuff...but he took up more than half my day juz to do his stuff...where in between he will chit chat here n there w others...n expect me to wait for him...den when i got the time to continue with my own reports...he will haunt me for his stuff...i mean...hey...if everything is impt, den which shld i do first?my weekly report is impt...if i nv finish, he will scold and say y i'm slow...but he's pestering me for his other stuff where i've already done out nicely for him...really duno wat he wants...grrrr...and just now was already 7.30pm already and he's demanding me to find out the cause of y the numbers do not tie with the system...explained to him already...still dun listen! angry lor...sigh...i missed impt parts of my lecture again...yesterday already missed...today again...sigh...i really duno how sia...really worried will fail...this term's modules are really difficult...sigh...*worried*
anyway...i brought work home to do...i noe i wldnt be able to do them at all with my boss around wasting my time...and now my eye is more pain than this morning...sigh...hopefully tmr will be fine...sigh...really tired...duno how much more can i take it...
*Lord, i need You!~*

k i'll stop here...
take care n God Bless~~~

~so bz sia~

2007-01-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

arghh~ it's so tough man...juggling with work n studies...i mean i should complain this like more than 2yrs ago...but guess i complain now is cos it's juz so tough...mayb this period of time is very bz time...my boss...once again took up nearly more than half of my working day...leaving me with soo little time to complete my stuff...didnt get to complete them anyway...cos i gotta spend time helping out with the quarterly presentation stuff...'book binding' again...more than 20 booklets with abt 100pages for each booklet...sigh...my mind now is continuously worrying abt work...i.e. wat i shld do tmr...which should i do first...i mean most imptly i've got to do my weekly report...which takes up quite alot of time already...den i guess my boss is gona haunt me again...sigh...duno if i'm able to finish my work again...OT-ed today...till 8plus...late for class which was supposed to start at 7pm...practically missed the whole lesson...sigh...*worried*...stress sia...this term both modules are kinda difficult...and esp for assignments...oh no...duno how sia...hmmm...
oh no! i'm still thinking abt work!!! abt wat format shld i change some reports to...this n dat...oh no!!! guess tmr i gona OT again and miss lesson liao...hmmm...
*praying to keep myself calm*

ok will stop here...might be going to lalaland soon...

take care
God Bless~

~words of wisdom?~

2007-01-15T23:08:00.000+08:00

yawnz...tired...juz back from work not long ago...OT mah...hoping to complete the work my division head has requested...sigh...but unable to finish...plus there were still errors...sigh...plus i still got lots more other work waiting for me to do...the reporting team is gona send out the quarterly reports soon...and they are yet to be binded! and i have yet to prepare the dividers for each booklet...sigh...
anyway...after i was preparing to leave office just nice, i've decided to walk around to see if there are still anyone left in the office...and true enough, there are 2 more still working...then one (Melvin) came and talk to me...we had a short chat...usually if i were to work late and were to see him still around, we will have some serious chats...and yup...find that my conversations w him are very real and good...i mean actually many others could have also thought of what advises he gave me lor...but yah...good timing to tell me lor...before i become too ambitious and impatient to quickly rise up the corporate ladder...we chatted some minor stuff...den abt my boss...abt promotions...then abit about those newcomers...seriously...many new comers are really of high rankings...i mean the lowest rank that came in are at least an AM...if not will be AVPs or VPs...i mean i thought they are so stingy in promoting ppl...yet they are so generous in employing high ranking ppl...hmmm...but i guess i gotta change my thinking...i mean i always think i wun have the chance to get promoted for this yr (my chance was forgone last yr)...and i'm kinda disappointed w it...but wat Melvin said was right...i'm still young...those new comers who came in with high rankings are mostly late twenties or early thirties (even late thirties)...if not they have many many yrs working experience already...that is why they can get up to that level...plus with their qualifications too...as for me now...i still do not have my degree...and i'm still young...there's actually no hurry to fight my way up...cos eventually if i were to work hard...gain my necessary experience...have good certs with me...the chances of me getting to my goal is high...so now what i shld do is to concentrate well w my studies...apply considerable amt of effort into my work (but guess i always overwork)...and take things at an acceptable pace...i will get to where i want if i really want to...hmmm...but true that none of us are always satisfied...say for example i was promoted to AM (for e.g. my aim)...after getting it...i will not be satisfied and i aim for AVP...and so on...this cycle will keep on going...hmmm...but if i were to really slow down my pace...i guess i will not achieve the goal i have set for myself 2yrs ago...guess maybe will have to just slowly work towards it...and i noe i can do it...
however, i know i canot do all these alone...i need God...i need Him to see me thru in all that i do and am going thru...i definitely know He has a plan for me...a wonderful plan...and it is a plan that i will follow and work towards it...even if it means that i will not be able to fulfil my goals...there is a high chance i will still follow it...yah...u see the word 'high chance'...meaning there might be a possibility that i might not follow...no choice...i noe i'm still a human after all...sometimes are are really some things in which we really canot bear to let go...but for all i know...great sacrifices made for the Lord will come in with great blessings by the Lord...i dun deny that...and the blessings from God are always that unexpected and miraculous...i've experienced(received) many many blessings from God and i really appreciate what God has blessed me with...He noes what's best for me...and i noe He loves me very much too...Agape Love...an unconditional love from God is the Best blessing and gift from God...Thank you, Lord...

k will stop here...will be sleeping...too tired...hopefully can wake up early to go work and complete as much work as possible...

*btw saw Marcus n Sis. Lucy in a coffeeshop in toa payoh during lunch time...good to see them...it's their 1st day of training for the missions team...

take care all of you...God Bless ALL of you!

~January 15~

2007-01-15T15:53:00.000+08:00

Regret looks back.
Worry looks around.
Faith looks up.

John Mason

~He answers prayers!~

2007-01-14T20:11:00.000+08:00

God is juz so amazing...great and wonderful...He juz answers prayers...always...never fails to enlighten us~ be it attending church classes or people talking to me..or even during sermons...i can juz feel God answering my prayers through them...it's really amazing...Love God...heez...

anyway...i love my friends...love them all~ =)

take care all~ God Bless~

~nice gathering~

2007-01-13T01:45:00.000+08:00

hey hey~ i'm back home not long ago from my sec sch frens gathering...it was fun! really nice seeing them...a bunch of fun and nice ppl...(some are super lame too!)...heez...haven realy seen them or talk to them for quite some time liao...i mean i do meet them...but is during each other's birthdays...but those times we usually nv talk much...cos all too bz...they have afew gatherings every now and den...but i usually did not join is cos i'm either bz at work...or meet other frens...feel bad sia...actually meeting them up is really fun...i can feel the warmth from them...and i feel v comfortable with them...we can talk anything under the sun...laugh at anything (esp lame stuff)...and always bully Mr Lai Zhi Hao...heez...i mean i haven really meet them up for so long...yet i can still feel so close with them...wldnt feel left out...*happy*...
here, i really wana thank Kelly for msging me like a week ago to ask if i can join in the gethering...at first i didnt really cfm cos was thinking i might have other stuff on...but cos i really feel that i shld meet up w them and catch up more...so decided to meet them (even when actually i gotta do OT today)...worth it...i mean though we (actually is usually me who didnt spend much time w them) dun spend so much time together...we r still like very close frens...and by seeing them is very heartwarming...love them loads! also wana thank those few who organised this gathering...heard was Andy Ang who org this...oh yah...this gathering is also to celebrate Zhi Hao's birthday...yup...he's gona be 22yrs old in a couple of days...the 1st person in this grp to be 22yrs old...heez...and thanks Zhi Hao for the dinner treat...nice!...heez...another person whom i really have not seen...i guess even for more than a yr...is Chuan Liang...really missed him...i was like so excited to see him lor...he's studying at Australia mah...he came back for holidays...and we still talk cock as usual...after dinner we went bowling...i really suck at it lah...nothing to sae...haaaz...it's super fun playing with them lor...we split ourselves into 2 teams n compete each other...haaaz...in the midst of the game, me, Ber, Chuan Liang, and Andy Khoo were like recalling the times in sec sch where we played stupid games at my place...those memories...sweet...and yup...it's been like 7 to 8yrs ago liao...time flies...we all r adults now...haaz...but when we are together...it's a different thing and feeling...hmmm...after bowling, we went to a corner outside marina sq and sit down and play games while waiting for Andy Ang to go home and get his lorry to fetch us...while waiting, the games we played were really 'fun'...y?cos we always purposely sabo Zhi Hao and made him forfeit to sing and do poses...funny lor...after some time, Andy came back...(anyway...we have a total of 13 ppl...10 were supposed to go Terry's hse to stay over...onli me,Ber and Xiu Hao are going home...)...abt 10 ppl were sitting behind...whereby me and Keng Kok with Andy Ang is in front......Andy sent me home first...thereafter, the whole grp went for supper, which i decided not to join cos it's too late...and i dun really take supper...hmmm...n yup...now i'm back home...v tired le...gona sleep...
really thank God for this day...He blessed me with such good frens...oh yah...we are gona meet again in early feb cos Chuan Liang will be goin back Aust liao...hee...cant wait for that day...hope i wun have any other stuff that clashes with that time...

k will stop here...take care...God Bless~

~yay!~

2007-01-11T15:34:00.000+08:00

WooHoo~~~!!!
I'm shocked...yet super happy...y? cos i've got back my results!!! heez...see me soo happy would also mean i've got good results...Unexpected good results...heez...
yup...took 2 papers in Dec 2006...International Biz and Consumer Behaviour...and guess wat? my International Biz got Credit and my Consumer Behaviour got Distinction!!! unexpected huh? especially for consumer behaviour...i was only thinking of a pass...or at most credit...but...today when my classmate sms me to tell me the results for CB is out (International Biz results out for quite some time already), i feel butterflies in my stomach...worried while i logged on to my sch's result webby...in my heart i keep on praying to God that pls dun let me see a PX or NX (fail)...when the page loads and i scroll down, i nearly screamed with joy! haaz...i mean i really nearly screamed in joy...i jumped to my surprise lor...i saw DI in the results column...and double check it's for the correct module (cos i got distinction for 2 other modules so thought i might have seen wrongly...heez...)...it's really Consumer Behaviour...oh gosh...i really cant believe it...i mean i even told my colleague wat if they input the wrong results by mistake...haaz...all i can say and thank now is God...He went through with me the times i was bz at work...yet tried my best to study...during that period of studying time i'm really bz at work lor...sometimes i rather OT than study...only wld study when i'm satisfied with the amt of work i've done...resulting myself to reach home at nearly 12am nearly everyday...it's really unexpected lah...really God's grace...really...Thank you Lord...would also like to thank my ITIB group mates...and also my Consumer Behaviour group mates...thank Ben for studying with me on exam day itself...heez...yup yup...

*btw...another thing i'm happy abt (actually shld blog abt it some time ago...but always forget)...i'm happy that one of my best fren, Serene Tang, has came back to God's embrace...i'm really happy for her...and actually in dec last yr...she nearly wana backslide again...but...her fire for God came back...and she's really burning for God...and i can see how much she's seeking God...how much she loves Him and yearns for His love...Amen!
really happy...really...cos i've always been praying for her to come back...and...ta da! she's back! heez...now also praying for another of my best fren, CK...he noes the Lord...but...i duno if he believes in Him...i usually will not force him...as he has the decision of his own...but really praying hard that one day he will come to know more abt the Lord, believe in Him and accept Him as Lord n Saviour...guess this will be another New Yr Resolution for me...to get people saved! heez...

k will stop here...(should be working!!!) ...heez...

take care all...God Bless~

2007-01-11T01:10:00.000+08:00

am told that i might be having the following symptoms and suffering from this by a fren who did some research...
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2005/12/17/AR2005121700892.html

a rough idea: Cyclothymic disorder, as it is sometimes known, is a milder cousin of bipolar disorder. Like bipolar disorder, cyclothymia has high and low phases, though the highs are not as high and the lows not as low. It can be crippling nonetheless. And it is a risk factor for bipolar disease itself, with up to 50 percent of those with cyclothymia eventually developing bipolar disorder. Major depression is also a higher risk.
The hypomanic, or upbeat, phase features symptoms such as elevated mood, increased self-esteem, decreased need for sleep, racing thoughts, an increase in goal-directed activity and excessive involvement in pleasurable activities.
These symptoms might last for four or more days, then alternate with periods of mildly depressive symptoms such as sadness, pessimism, fatigue, feeling guilty, trouble concentrating and changes in sleep or appetite. For a person to be diagnosed with the disorder, this alternation persists for at least two years.

seem like i'm experiencing some of the symptoms...

oh no...God...help me pull thru this...

sigh...too many things in my mind...

2007-01-11T00:39:00.000+08:00

that i cant comprehend...feel lost...dejected...unfocused...sad...useless...and still lost...
sigh...i duno...suddenly feel myself in depression mode...i really duno wat i shld do...wat are some decisions i have to make...my mind keeps on worrying...worrying things will not go right...worrying things are still unsolved...worrying worrying...sigh...dun ask mi anything abt this...i also wldnt know how to ans u...i blogged cos i feel like blogging it down...letting it out...but not totally...i love them...really love them...but...but...i duno...i'm lost...

Lord, here i am, saying a prayer to you...telling you that i'm really needing you badly...really badly...Lord, i know that NOTHING is too great for you...for you can do all wonders...and solve ALL things...i surely have no doubts in your abilities...and Lord, i am here to cast ALL my troubles and worries to you...and i know...i know you definitely will solve them and be there for me...take away the depression in me and let not the devil attack me...Lord, here i give all these to you...knowing that you know what is BEST for me...Thanks you Lord...Thank you Jesus...I Love you Lord.
In Jesus Mighty Name, AMEN!

ppl out there...this is a prayer i've said sincerely to the Lord...and i believe that if any of you (esp unbelievers) are facing any troubles in ur lives...or any unhappiness...let me tell you...God is always there for u...believe and pray...He will ans ur prayers...u'll experience His great love for u! Amen!

nightz to all

take care n God Bless~

Citibank - Customer service!

2007-01-10T17:23:00.000+08:00

Citibank --customer service!

This is hilarious!!! .

Be sure to cancel your credit cards before you die.

This is so priceless, and so easy to see happening, customer service being what it is today. Anyone who has dealt with an estate will agree with this.

A lady died this past January, and Citibank billed her for February and March for their annual service charges on her credit card, and added late fees and interest on the monthly charge. The balance had been $0.00, now somewhere around $60.00. A family member placed a call to Citibank.

Here is the exchange:

Family Member: "I am calling to tell you she died in January."

Citibank: "The account was never closed and the late fees and charges still apply."

Family Member: "Maybe, you should turn it over to collections."

Citibank: "Since it is two months past due, it already has been."

Family Member : So, what will they do when they find out she is dead?"

Citibank: "Either report her account to frauds division or report her to the credit bureau, maybe both!"

Family Member: "Do you think God will be mad at her?" (I really liked this
part!!!!)

Citibank: "Excuse me?"

Family Member: "Did you just get what I was telling you - the part about her being dead?"

Citibank: "Sir, you'll have to speak to my supervisor." (Duh!)

Supervisor gets on the phone:

Family Member: "I'm calling to tell you, she died in January."

Citibank: "The account was never closed and late fees and charges still apply." (This must be a phrase taught by the bank!)

Family Member: "You mean you want to collect from her estate?"

Citibank: (Stammer) "Are you her lawyer?"

Family Member: "No, I'm her great nephew."

(Lawyer info given)

Citibank: "Could you fax us a certificate of death?"

Family Member: "Sure." (Fax number is given)

After they get the fax:

Citibank: "Our system just isn't setup for death. I don't know what more I can do to help."

Family Member: "Well, if you figure it out, great! If not, you could just keep billing her. I don't think she will care."

Citibank: "Well, the late fees and charges do still apply." (What is wrong with these people?!?)

Family Member: "Would you like her new billing address?"

Citibank: "That might help."

Family Member: " Odessa Memorial Cemetery , Highway 129, Plot Number 69."

Citibank: "Sir, that's a cemetery!"

Family Member: "What do you do with dead people on your planet?

~sigh...wat am i to do w my work?~

2007-01-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

heyyz...yawnzz...kinda tired...not long ago juz back from class...as usual...didnt listen in class...sigh...when will i ever be a good gal n listen in class???haaz...
anyway...will like to be happy for myself that 2day has been a fairly good n peaceful day at work...didnt even get to talk to my boss at all!!!yay!!!haaz...cos' early in the morning he's out for meeting...(presenting those numbers i gave him lah...sigh...am responsible for all those numbers...hopefully in time to come the CashPlus dept meet those targets...)...and early in the morning i'm out at the doc...haaz...cos my stomach area super pain...canot tahan and nauseas feeling v bad...my doc press all over my stomach...den the most painful part is my small intestine there lor...hmmm...was told that i should go for other tests n scope...(oh gosh! the scope is from bottom up! ouch man...still considering lor...)...hmmm...was given MC (but still went to work anyway)...and alot of med again!!!sigh...my medication regime is back...arghhhh...den i went back to work...everything seem fine at work...my supervisor at last back liao...den me, him and my colleague did some updating to let him know what has been going on while he's not around...i complained big time lah...even told him actually wana throw him letter liao (resignation letter)...haaaz...anyway...he doesnt wish me to throw the letter lah...but...duno lah...guess it's juz a matter of time lah...duno lor...cos really tired le...fed up with all the nonsense by my boss liao...yesterday was actually my last straw lor...i was totally so pissed that i actually really decided to resign...(when i really decided to resign...i can really feel happiness lor...but...)...but after afew of them talk to me this n that...their words made me thought of holding on for abt 4mths more...even my dad ask me to at least find a job 1st...sigh...guess i will still have to suffer lor...sad leh...but if any of you got lobangs in financial industry or MIS, do let me know..heez...think i really need a new environment...more reasonable challenges...haaz...hmm...anyway...sometimes really wonder what the real reason for bosses or supervisors to ask us not to leave...many a times they complain n scold we r not competent enough or duno anything...y cant they juz let us go n find a better 1?y muz keep holding on to us?really wonder wat is up to their mind..sigh...anyway...i already lose hope in my boss liao...juz really pray that he know's what is happening and that he's making many ppl's life difficult...not only got to know...but also know what he has to do to help in the prob!...sigh...duno lah...juz praying hard that he wake up his senses and have a heart...gd heart...haaz...

k lah...will stop here...need some rest...tired...tmr got work n class again...boring...

take care...God Bless~

~a scary but powerful dream~

2007-01-08T08:59:00.000+08:00

hi people~ Good Morning~
hmmm...as the title has said so...i've had a scary but powerful dream last night...it's a dream that i really felt God soo strongly...furthermore, i even remembered my dream(some parts only...)! which was quite a surprise as i've never remembered any of my dream as long as i've opened my eyes during my sleep...yup...
ok...this is how it goes...think i started dreaming(fell into sleep) right after lying on my bed...the dream lasted abt half an hr i guess...but i only remembered the part where i woke up...
what i've remembered was that i'm in a friend's car where our friend is sending me and 2 other friend's to my place...and she'll be sending another friend home...after we've alighted, my 2 other friends left...den at the void deck i saw a v good friend of mine...we talked for quite awhile where my other 2 friends went up to my place first, then i noticed my bag was left in the car! so i borrowed my friend's(the 1 i saw at the void deck) and called one of the 2 friends in the car to ask if my handbag is in the car...they said it was in the car...but they were at somewhere else...so i decided to take a cab down with my friend(she accompanied me)...k...the scary(maybe to me i guess) part is starting...we got a cab very soon...then in the cab we continued to talk...happily...but i'm perpetually disturb by alot of sounds...at times i even saw 2 female sitting in the middle of the cab...facing us and talking in their world...i mean i saw them but my friend doesnt seem to...plus i feel like there's 'someone' seated bside the driver...not only that...at some glances out of the window (i'm sitting on the left n my friend on the right) at the side of my friend, i saw an evil looking guy crouching at the side of the cab and staring at me...i mean he looks like a demon (i still can remember abit how he looks like)...eeww...the worse thing is that my friend seem like nothing is happening!!!i tried my best to catch her attention but could not...she didnt seem to notice any eerie feeling in her surroundings...there and then, in the dream...the gigglings by the 2 females and even kids laughter haunts me in the cab that i really cannot take it...from then, i realised that they seem to be ghosts or demons that really freaks me...and the only thing i did and think i can do is to shout at them and chase them away...i shouted out loud in my dream " GO AWAY!!! GET LOST, IN JESUS NAME!!!GET LOST, IN JESUS NAME!!!GET LOST, IN JESUS NAME!!!"...Wow! they disappeared immediately the first time i mentioned 'in Jesus Name'...when i was shouting 'get lost, in Jesus Name' the 2nd time, i found myself back into the real world (no more in my dreams...)...awaken...and my whole body feels the shiver that i cannot explain...i also find myself 'shouting' but without the loud voice as my voice is blocked(as if i'm shouting in a whispering manner)...the shivering feeling stayed with me for the next few mins...at that time i was really in shock...really...then the dream was left in my mind till now...amazing that i can remember my dream...really...plus it was quite clear though some parts are missing...hmmm...anyway...i really do not know what does this dream mean to me...was told by my colleague not to think too much unless the dream is consistent...hmmm...duno lah...but it's really scary lah...lucky i did not wake up crying...haaz...but i did look around my room to see if there's any demon in my room...wahahahaha...
weird dream...haaaz...okok...will stop here...anyway now is abt 12.30pm...was cropped up w work in the morning while typing halfway...even gotta da bao back to eat to do my work...haaz...

take care n God Bless!

~a verse given to me~

2007-01-05T19:18:00.000+08:00

"Every branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away: and every branch that beareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit". (John 15:2)

Hi people...yup...i'm given this verse by my colleague this morning...very thoughtful of her...cos we are all juz so stressed up with work...(and the boss)...but nevertheless, she told me that the Lord spoke to her using this verse (she came acrossed this verse...)...she said that "in this passage, the Lord reminds His disciples that our trials are like fire refining us so that we can come out of the trials as gold and silver.",hoping that that like her, i can take encouragement from this verse that all the problems and tests we face at work are actually God purging our branches so that we can bring forth more fruit for Him.
yup...i'm glad that i have her at work...encouraging me spiritually...thanks!(to her)...heez...
anyway had a tiring day at work...these few days nv really had good lunches...da bao...macs...a burger each lunch...haaa...no choice...got reports to rush...sigh...think gotta go home soon...tmr still gotta come back office in the afternoon (after giving tuition)...got some budget work to do...and mayb gotta do something the division head requested me to do...sigh...stressed...getting stressed up these days...at times my vomiting regime comes back...sian lor...if not my stomach will juz feel super uncomfy...feeling of puking n yet cant puke...sigh...
kk...will stop here...take care all of ya~
God Bless~

~wah...wat's with me for this yr man?~

2007-01-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

wahz...2dae is really not a very good day for me...in the morning especially...sigh...yup...i know my boss is back...means will kena alot...and true enough...i really kena-ed ALOT from him...sigh...in the morning...before i can start doing my work (which is alot as it's the beginning of the month...), my boss summoned me into his cubicle...sigh...and there he goes...Yak n Yak n Yak!...i think it's really God that helped me to control my temper...last time, i'm someone who used to talk back and shout back at my boss...but now...i juz kept quiet...juz let him finish scolding...then i go back and do my work...anyway for today...i really juz kept quiet...controlling my temper...plus it's also that i really totally have no idea how to do the changes to the numbers...and totally do not know which are the most updated numbers! all along my supervisor had been doing the necessary changes and we (or i) are really not informed of which should be the correct figures. those are budget 2007 numbers and they are always changing it...how would i noe which is the correct? and my supervisor is not around...therefore i really do not noe anything about the numbers...and there i am...tried my best in finding the most updated and 'correct' numbers i could ever find in the shared driver...and did out a template for him...never did i know he had a hard copy of some presentation on duno when and the numbers do not tie! i really duno how to explain what happened at that time...but i know i was scolded from head to toe...(really innocently scolded! i mean i totally do not know what's going on and i'm taking all the shitty blame!)...i was totally lost at that time...totally kept myself quiet...den he kept on bombarding me 'So How? the numbers dun tie! i'm going to submit the numbers in and you r going to be responsible for it! it's 1mil difference you noe?!'...i really have nothing to say lor...really...juz kept quiet n continue to let him scold...thereafter he said 'Aiyah, i duno you all lah! Tomorrow all just resign lah!'...i was totally shocked by wat he said lor...really...the word 'resign' really just hit me hard! i juz left the cubicle...and tears just start rolling down my eyes...again...and this is only the 4th day of 2007...been crying for these few days...realy dun understand wat's wrong with me...y have i become someone who cried alot? where's my strong front? sigh...when i went back to my seat..i really juz stared blankly at my screen...and keep thinking about resigning...i really duno what to do...sigh...guess u all juz wun understand how i feel...sigh...(why are so many shitty things happening in this yr? it's only afew days and i've faced so much shit!)...anyway...awhile later my boss came back to nag again...but i think he saw me crying (my tears lah)...thereafter, for the morning, i wasn't really nagged at...but still, i have to produce the template and figures for him...but i did other work first...sigh...but it's still not the reports i'm supposed to be doing...have to clear some request by other people...didnt even have time to go have lunch...actually really no appetite to eat...(but was being nagged at to eat)...so i asked my colleague to da bao a fillet burger for me...ate it and continue w my work...after done with the requests by other ppl, i'm back to doing out the new template for my boss...den my whole afternoon was juz doing that...being called in and out...together with Florence...glad that at least she helped me abit...den about the evening, i've finally cleared my boss...as in the work...but...the numbers still do not tie...means i really gotta be responsible for the numbers...cos it's a huge cut...sigh...if this yr the cashplus team not enough money den i'm responsible lor...sian rite?i'm not in cashplus team...but i'm doing and facing so much shit for them...sigh...
after all has been cleared, i finally got time to do my own reports liao...but...i'm long long overdue in submitting the report...so now i'm really rushing it out!heez...now still in office lor...11pm liao...really tired...wana go home asap!hmmm...
hopefully tmr no need to OT...cos got dinner w family n relatives...yay...heez...
k gotta stop...continue w work liao...byeee...
take care n God Bless~

~wat a day...!~

2007-01-04T00:18:00.000+08:00

wah sian...not long ago reached home only lor...grrr...work lah...n juz now i worked till i didnt noticed it's 9pm...a time which i'm supposed to go home as i've told my mum i'll go home ard that time...in the end i stayed in office till 11.30pm...den took cab home...sigh...n still got lots to do...guess gotta go office early tmr(today)...sigh...another thing which made me even more sian is cos my access cannot be used! my userid is striked off lah...oh yeah...no more uob staff liao...wahahahaa...aiya cos me n my ex team have yet to submit the form to change our access to another division...den our old division (CCOC) so ngiao n selfish lah...juz took away our access even after we told them to extend n give us abit more time due to some reasons (they took away our access without us even knowing when! so idiotic!!!)...stupid lah...once no access...got ALOT of things canot do lor...but u all might think if canot do good wat rite?den no need to do any work...but no lor...i will have to borrow userid from my colleague to continue with my work...plus got alot more to do lor...sigh...so tiring...my month end report still got alot more...den my weekly report not completed yet...sigh...this is juz so shitty...1st day of work(for the yr) n i'm facing so much liao...sian...tiring...really tired of all these nonsense liao...i love my job...but i really juz hate some nonsense...nonsense from my boss (not supervisor lah)...he's someone who's totally v kiasi...and always points fingers at others when being questioned...not only that...he DID NOT even take effort to know what we are doing...expects us to know everything...when he himself knows nothing! arghhhh!!!...he can be someone v nice...but most of the time...i tell u...u can really dislike him...ALL his nonsense...sigh...all he wants is his face...always so scared of throw face...if really that scared, y didnt he even take the effort to know more of what we r doing?worse of all...he likes to push work or things that we totally do not noe how to do...LAST MIN...and muz complete asap!arghhh...if we canot produce...will complain n scold us for being slow...and remark that we did not meet our KPIs...sigh...duno wat to say man...we are all juz innocently being blamed...he can really 'force' many to quit lor...really...he's also at times so unreasonable till he didnt even give chance to ppl in the toilet...still press on for current status(did not occur to me lah...but another colleague)...ppl on leave he also 'force' them back...wat the...arghh...den when he's on leave he'll still be on leave (but will still handle some urgent work matters when needed lah...but is reluctantly and keep on scolding, nagging and complaining...so gu niang lor!)...moreover...he loves to go on leave at the wrong time of the month...even if he already know it's the wrong time...he will still take the leave...n he's also juz soo fake at times...duno how to explain...but juz v fake...sigh...v disappointed y he's like dat...wonder he ever knows he's juz so unreasonable n many canot stand him anot...he really portrays a bad image of a Christian!sigh...k...better not judge...not for me to judge but is for God to judge him...
k enough of complaining...tired le...still gotta wake up early for work...he'll be back 2dae(thursday) from his leave...sigh...need to prepare ear plugs man...sian...guess i'll sure kena alot...sigh...

k nightz to all...take care n God Bless~

~sigh...~

2007-01-03T09:50:00.000+08:00

hi people...sigh...it's the 3rd day of the yr!...but! it's the 1st day of work for the yr!!! arghhh...got lots to do for these few days...month end report...sigh...alot sia...plus my weekly report...grrr...came in early juz now to clear my work...sigh...
anyway...my day yesterday was quite...i duno...gave tuition till abt 2plus...den i head off to East Coast park alone...juz want some alone time...actually my schedule was to watch Death Note 2...but i dropped the idea...n decided to go EC alone...on my way there, i slept...but was awaken my someone who called my name...woke up n saw Timothy n Marcus in the same bus as i am...they were on their way to Parkway...they walked me to the entrance to the underpass n left...then from there...i walked...walked to somewhere near Coasta Sands Chalet there (walked too much till my left leg super pain sia...)...camped at one of the break water there...sat there from 3plus till 7plus...during that time...i made myself uncontactable...juz want some alone time...cried once again...but my best fren was kinda worried abt me...actually didnt wana tell him my whereabts...but i let him noe anyway...he came to look for me at 6plus...den we sat there till 7plus n left...really glad he came...his presence made me feel more at ease...really...thanks alot!anyway...actually i dun intend to eat the whole day...but while i was giving tuition, my cousin cooked my share without me knowing...so i gotta eat no matter wat...and as for dinner...since my best fren was there...he WOULD NOT let me DUN EAT...so no choice...gotta eat...we walked to Ampang Yong Tau Fu eat...den went bowling...totally suck at it...den went for pool...also totally suck at it...den took a cab home...and wash up n sleep...tired...
hmmm...anyway...was really wondering whether the time alone was fruitful...i didnt think much at that time...juz kept myself quiet...looking at the sea...and juz let the wind blow...but at least i let myself have some alone time...ppl call me i either dun ans or juz off my phone...sorry mum that u couldnt find me...(she scolded me this morning complaining that i cannot be found!)...hmmm...no choice...was not in the mood...sigh...y muz it turn out this way?...juz so sad...have made some decisions...(only do not know if i can make myself do it...will see as time goes...)...hmmm...k will stop here...got lotsa work to rush!...take care allz~

God Bless!~

~i guess the yr 2007...~

2007-01-02T01:44:00.000+08:00

will be a year which i cry alot...y?cos i cried not onli on the 1st day of the new yr...i even cried on the 2nd day...sigh...very disappointed...really duno wat i shld do...

~prank~

2007-01-01T13:45:00.000+08:00

anyway...my bro juz told me it should be my dad who played the prank...not him...my dad...aiyo...too bad he's not around...if not i will nag at him...waahahhaaz...

~Welcome 2007~

2007-01-01T12:28:00.000+08:00

YEAH! it's 2007 liao...wow...1 yr really past v fast...not long ago i was still in 2006...but now...i'm already in 2007! time really flies...n now, not only do i have to let go of wat i dowana bring from 2006 to 2007, i also have to think of what am i going to do for this whole yr of 2007...
last night was really a thinking night for me...think over the yr....haaz...been standing by the window from 11plus(in 2006) till 12plus(in 2007)...wah!think for 1 yr sia...haaz...hmmm...in dat abt 1hr...i really went into deep thoughts...the wind that blows towards me really soothens down my mind...at first i was in deep thoughts alone...den awhile b4 the countdown, my (bestest)fren came beside me and think...and also talked to me...at that time i was so troubled with a couple of thoughts...1st was relationship...think i've decided to put it aside...2nd was friendships...sigh...this is smthg which is v impt to me...i treasure frenships alot...i treasure those frens around me...but...but...i nv feel those whom i really treasure to really treasure me as fren...mayb i'm sensitive...i duno...anyway, only the fren who talked to me last night really noe how i am feeling at that time...n what r those sad things i've faced...he said many took me for granted...i guess so...but am i still gona let it happen? i duno...cos i've been trying very hard over these 3plus yrs le...i still cant be as close with them as they are with each other...sigh...n guess what...this matter brought the 1st few tears of 2007 down my cheeks...i really pray hard for things to get better...and i guess i really have to hand everything to God...He knows what is best for me...
hmmm...anyway...i've got quite afew things to achieve in this yr 2007...
1. To have a better n closer relationship w God
2. To also have good relationship w my family...
3. To pass my driving in March 07 (really praying hard...i gotta practice hard too!)
4. To graduate by June 07 (really dowana fail anything at all!)
5. After graduation, have to achieve my aim of getting the position i shld get and the pay too!
6. After graduation to save up enought to go for a trip...a relaxing trip...
7. and the list might go on anytime...

haa! yah...so here it goes...heez...
oh yah...wah...when i came home abt 2am in the morning...i nearly screamed my head off in the toilet...haaa...nearly woke up my parents...n i called my bro to scold him...haaz...y? cos they played a prank on me!grrrr...wat a yr to start! haaz...when i reached home, i changed and go brush teeth...i decided not to on the light at first...so juz brush my teeth...thereafter, i duno y i juz go on the lights...den i nearly screamed! and was soooo angry!!!haaz...cos i saw a pile of 'shit' on the floor under the basin!!! i was like...OMG...lucky i didnt step on it! i kept staring at it for quite some time...it looked super real lah...i nearly wana wake my parents up to scold ppl...but i didnt cos they were sleeping soundly...so i quickly rang up one of my bro...the first thing i said was 'who the hell shit on the toilet floor?!'...after a while, he burst out laughing...i was like '??!!!'...haaz...den he told me it's fake...my other bro bought n put it there! i was like 'wat the hell!'...haaz...it looked damned real lor...really...but i still didnt dare go touch it...juz go sleep 1st...still in doubt if its real...haaz...den in the morning i woke up to go toilet...the 'shit' was gone lah...den i juz imagine maybe they cleared it...still in dreamland mode...haaaz...den went back to sleep...i slept till 12pm...when i woke up...i was like nagging at my bro y they put the shit there...haaaz...then not long later my other bro who put the shit there woke up...i was complaining to him lor...den asked where he put it now...he put it on my bed top...grrr...wah it looks real lor...really...no joke...haaz...
hmmm...k will end here...
Happy New Year to all of u! Goodby 2006 and Hello 2007! May all of you have a great yr ahead...and your yr filled with love, peace, joy...n lots more! stay happy always...n God Loves all of u! God Bless~

take care~

~oh yah...~

2006-12-30T12:10:00.000+08:00

the link for my pics...i lazt to post here lah...go to the link to enjoy the fotos!

*ps...some albums are not up yet...no time!!!

http://s93.photobucket.com/albums/l42/frengal/

~post b4 the yr 2006 ends~

2006-12-30T11:12:00.000+08:00

hi people~ i'm back!! haaz...been abt 2 weeks since i last post...the past 2 wks have been a bz week for me...heez...cos after my last post, i went to Bangkok for a short trip with 2 of my secondary school frens...my very good frens...they are Choon Kiat n Jiin Rong...it's been a fun trip...mostly shopping...and travelling (by taxi or my cousin's cars)...we stayed at my cousin's house which was away from town abt 40km...this means abt an hr ride...most of the time we slept during the journey...heez...hmmm...now i will talk abit abt my trip over there...

our flight is on 17th Dec 2006...6plus...at the Budget Terminal...wah...very 'lok kok' lor...really budget...wahahahaz...we even have to walk up the steps into the plane...heez...small plane also...Tiger Airways...haaz...our flight was slightly delayed...duno y...took us abt 2 hrs to reach i guess...actually i duno...nv keep track of the time...then we reached Bangkok airport...abit cock up at the custom...forgot to ask my cousin her address...sigh...shld have put we stayed in hotel...den wun have so much trouble...met my cousin at the airport with her 2 kids...therafter we head for dinner abt somewhere near her place...den went to her place...she prepared 2 rooms for us...so nice of her...i stayed in the same room as her daughter...and CK n JR in another room...couldnt really remember wat we did that nite b4 we sleep...i think i helped Claire(my cousin's daughter) with her puzzle...(500pcs! OMG!)...haaz...the guys were pestered by Nick (my cousin's son) to help him with his Lego...(guess wat, the guys didnt play lego in their whole life b4!...in the end i was the one who helped nick complete his Lego...but CK n JR helped Claire with her puzzle)...hmmm...on the 1st day, i woke up at ard 8plus bkk time...the guys were still sleeping...actually for the next few mornings i wake up at 8plus and they wake up at 11plus...PIGS!!!haaz...guys are juz guys...heez...every morning i will juz walk ard...den have breakfast...den bathe...and lastly...spend time waking them up...really a difficult task sia...i will have to sit on them, beat them, bite them...still dowana wake up only after quite some time(even asked nick n claire to disturb them to wake up!)...hahahhaaz....they came back to s'pore with many injuries...haaz...on the few days, we went to places like MBK, Pratunam, Siam Paragon, Pratunam Market, Siam Square, Platinum (i 'kop' a cup from the Swensens there...oops!)...The Mall and Lotus (off town)...and lastly on the last night, we went Suan Lum Night Market...nice place...got Ferris Wheel too...we took it...fun...actually i enjoyed the last night most...most shopping too...oh yah...did i sae dat i spent the most amongst us 3?haaz...spent 10,000 Baht...haaz...but most of the things i bought are for ppl...onli a couple of things for myself...spent alot on transport n food too...the food there are ok lah...but i kinda dislike the foodcourt cos muz always buy coupons b4 buying food!but the food cheap lah...but small serving though...enough for mi but not for the guys...heez...also on the last night, we had a fun journey back to my cousin's house...cos on the last night, we have to go back to my cousin's place ourselves...Claire(who knows how to speak Thai) is not with us or my cousin didnt come n fetch us...so we took a cab ourselves...luckily i got my cousin's add with me...plus afew thai words in there...i read the words out to the taxi driver...Thank God he knows and is willing to take us...(this is bcos the place is v far off town...n not many taxi drivers are willing to take such passengers)...during the journey, we were all v tired...we will usually sleep in the taxi...but this time all of us...even the most pig JR is awake!(he will sleep whenever he can!)...y? cos the driver is super 'zai' lor...the way he drives...can really join F1...wahahahaz...with CK being the commentator to entertain JR...haaz...the way CK commentates really makes us laugh...haaz...luckily (n i guess) the driver dun understand us...haaz...this driver will juz overtake or squeeze thru any opening he sees...and he tails behind every vehicle closely...and he drives fast!soo exciting lor...plus he even answered his handphone with one hand, and the other steering the steering wheel...and overtaking!...haaz...cool driver...heez...we reached 'home' safely...we did our packing...i've got 3 boxes to check in...actually on the 1st day after buying so much things, i already thought it will cross a total of 45kg...dat is why the next few days i always think twice b4 buying things...in the end, the total weight did not even past 25kg! grrr...i should have bought more!bought alot of sweets n goodies...for xmas goodie bags mah...the last morning, i woke up as usual...and woke the guys up after i'm done packing...den we head off for breakfast den to the airport...my cousin in law sent us there...we were there v early cos he gotta pick his boss up from the airport...we walked ard the airport...ate a lil...den waited...haaz...while waiting to go into the plane, there's a big commotion...quarrels with a grandma and the airport staff...scary sia...haaz...thereafter, we're flown back to s'pore...n yup...back!heez...
while back in s'pore, when i reached home, i was soo bz preparing the prezziez for my colleagues...cos the next day is our X'mas party!...stayed up till abt 3am...den sleep...the next day head off to work...when i came back to work, my mind was abit blank...den became panicky...cos was quite blur on where to start working...i even lost touch of typing...haaz...serious!...heez...did my usual work, also giving out prezzies too...den our party starts...fun...really fun...there's lucky draw, n i won the 3rd prize!heez...every yr i bound to win smthg...heez...not bad rite? God Blessed me with many things!...heez...den i stayed back at work for awhile...many went back liao...den took a cab home...rested ahwile den went dinner w my family...is 'dong jie' lor..n my parents' 27th yr wedding anniversary...heez...the nex day(saturday) i head down to vivo's candy empire to get more goodies...this time is for my church youths!...this yr's xmas i really spent alot...abt 4oo$ i guess...den i rushed down to Yishun(took cab - $16!)...cos i got cafe duty...after dat had dinner w the youths at Bishan S11...slacked the the nearby playground...den went home...and pack the goodies into the goody bags...slept late again...den on sunday(xmas eve)...was up quite early...preparing to go for my cousin's ROM at Marriott Hotel...by the Poolside lor...so sweet...nice...here to congratulate Bilson and Joanne to be always happy together till old...heez...went home after the ROM...den rested...den went to meet up ck and the rest...got chalet mah...we bought the food for our steamboat first...we had a great time...they had gift exchange...i didnt participate cos i last min told them i'm coming...so didnt include my name...heez...den on the next day (Christmas!), i went for service...they had a production...really great...thumbs up for all those performing...u guys are great!i njoyed the production...heez...den had lunch with Winnie and family and Leon...den went home for a nap...met up Ck in the evening...we went to Marina Sq for dinner and a movie...Night at the Museum...funny show...but i feel the story line is not good...show ended i think abt 12?canot remember...den ck sent me home...went home n sleep...to prepare for work the next day...haaz...sian lor...
was still sick when i woke up(been sick for the past 4 wks)...haaz...wat's worse is that my right eye got infection...anyway now i'm alot better...after much medication...but at times still feel weak n vomit...but i'm fine...heez...
yesterday(friday) i got mc...really need rest...lucky got rest...if not my eye still v red...now alot better...den in the evening i went for our region's Thanksgiving Party...it's at Lucien's place...wow...last night was...Noisy!!!haaz...i wonder how his parents feel...haaz...but it was fun...the youths are great!heez...many dressed up...i didnt...heez...we had fun n took fotos...anyway...kinda sad abt smthg...smthg dat i feel i'm v left out...sometimes juz wondered am i still not considered a close fren to them...nah...not gona elaborate further...but juz disappointed...k...anyway...will stop here...gotta resume to work...went to Gleneagles for follow up w my gastritis specialist...den came to work...worried sia cos of the few days of holidays...affected my time to do my mth end report...hopefully can clear as much as possible...

take care people...as the yr 2006 is ending in another 1.5days...may u all njoy the last of this yr...and embrace the new yr with hope and happiness!

God Bless n Loves all of u~

~yay! Exams over for the yr!!!~

2006-12-16T11:34:00.000+08:00

YAY!!! exams over liaozzzzz.....
but sian...think Jan will start sch liao...sigh...my life revolves around studies, work...so tiring...i really can't wait till i graduate...hopefully in another half a yr's time...been soo long liao...really praying hard i need not retake any module(God has ALWAYS been so faithful...)...this means i gotta work hard n study hard...which i dont really do...sian man...heez...anyway for this time, at least i managed to find abit more time to study...but most of the time is after work...in which i will OT till mayb 7plus...den go to the library to study till 9pm...thereafter, go back to office to study...but usually when i go back to office..more than 50% of the time i will be doing my work...haaz...but not gona claim OT for that lah...haaz...
anyway...for both of my papers on Mon and Fri...kinda difficult lah...esp for Consumer Behaviour...duno how to do(but i left super early for both papers...did not make use of the amt of time given...haaz...but really did tried my best...and i studied as much as i could...hmmm...now, all i can do is to leave it ALL to God...hmmm...yup...and i'm not to worry abt my exams which was just over anymore...hmmm...
yesterday after exams i went to meet up ZD n Teck for movie...Eragon...at first i find it quite boring...but it gets more interesting in the later part...not bad show lah...hmmm...as for today, i will be meeting CK n JR up to discuss wat to bring tmr...we r goin Bangkok mah...n i gona get some prezzies for my cousin...he gona ROM next week...heez...then for tmr, will be as usual, my church schedule...thereafter i guess will go home after lunch to rest n prepare to go to the airport...guess got alot of stuff to bring...mostly not mine...gotta help my mum send over some stuff to my cousin...hmmm...hope will be a fun trip...though all not planned...hahhaaz...sian man...cos Chatuchak Market not gona be opened...its a weekend market...means gotta go elsewhere...hmmmz...
k will stop here...got lots of things to do...

take care
God Bless~